today feeling worse about myself.... my self asteam is 0 my confidence is 0.... pff i think i look horrible... no one agrees thou... they all are strange.... pffffff that is all i can say... pfffffffff
pfff god today... reel bad day....
i wish i culd just run and run and run untill my heart burst.
if only.......
hehe going 2 a a kinda weird party thing..... hmmmm.... i will miss you lots chris!!! i love you!! hmmmm...... it was weird wen me and chris started 2 feel eachothers pain... weird... O.o mayb it s sign... but for wat eactl... hmmmm
helloooooo! just thought i would write in my diary!!!! muhahhahaahahh
ok people im going on holiday on Friday, and im staying over my friends house on thursday! coz u kno im going on holiday with my friend! =P i will miss u all! and i love you all! especialy my hun *huggles and kisses* u kno who u r.... dunnp wat i will do, coz i will miss you soooo much! but i will b back with prezzies for all my friends that live near me! =D and lots of photos!!!! yeh!! more pics of me and Jenni!!!!! =P hmm well today is practically the only day i can talk if i think about it.... and later im packing!!! so u kno : busy busy busy!!!! =P lol well i hope u dont miss me too much! and dont forget me!!!! byeeeeee! xxxxx
well i have a new picture and only [Cookieholic] and [Suzu] have commented on it.... probs means that i should take it down... pity i quite liked it.. well kinda!
Tinkerbell loves you all!!!!! including the person i love - kno who u r...
Who knows wat love holds for me..... it always seems 2ruin my life.... but now i am alone i reilise that i should never of ended it.... I love him.... i just hope i havent chrushed the last bit of love that he has left.... *cries and looks at the name carved into my arm....*
maybe there is hope....