okay all of those who actually pay attention wont be on much today family needs computer for some things today and anyway i dont feel like getting on HAH! :P

heh well yeah for Andrew and Rachel i got caught on the phone last night hehehe see im not a perfect little angel um yeah if you people on here want to talk to me just call my house and Rachel i got my CELL PHONE CHARGED! XD long story for people who dont know and to bad im not telling it XD so sucks to be you anyway um yeah i will have to sneak on every once in a while

okay many of you who read this wont understand it and i dont expect you to....

okay my life is an odd one i have friends who i dont even like but dont feel like telling them to fuck off. i have known them for a long time and i actually pity them.my friends dont really act like my friends...we dont have anything in common except we hate school.my music life i love my music i dont know what i would do without it...my chemical romance is my favorite band because thier songs remind me of my life.then there is my family i have nothing in common with them.then my guitar is the only way i can escape to my world or if i read something interesting...the guys in my life yea there is one that comes to mind first i have known him for a very long time well since 6th grade. his name is kyle williums he had always been there for me and i love him to death i can just never tell him...i wish i could

that is all i have to say thanks for listening to my not so great life

okay here is the reality...

how about we hang people on chains on a wall in a pitch black room with the only visable thing is a clock counting down to thier death starting at 24 hours counting down by seconds then when it is at zero turn on all the lights and shout SUPRISE and if they dont die from a heart attack throw a pie in thier face then say you have won 10 million dollars then take a knife and make a cut on them 2 inches long every 30 minutes then higer some homeless and dirty person to slowly rip the cuts open with his dirty and nasty fingernails while putting salt on the cuts i could go on but that might be alittle to much of reality for you so i am going to stop there and some of you might be like omg you are so mean but hey it isnt my fault if you would put something intersting on tv then maybe i wouldnt be like this but it is your fault

WELCOME TO REALITY BITCHES!

mreowf!!

i was walking by someone on the streets today and she looked at me and said you are going to hell and i said why is that and she said you are connected to him and i was like i dont know wtf you have been drinking but stay away from me then something wierd happened i felt a mood change and got all bitchy to everyone...something is wrong with me...i know it and i am scared of it something inside me tells me to kill them all but yet i dont...why...it tells me to slaughter them in thier sleep the ones i am closest to...why cant i just give in....why...why...

for the people who voted in my poll you have only seen one side of me i will have better pics of me up soon as soon as i get off my lazy ass and develop them aahaaha

i tried to commit suicide yesterday cause i just cant get over all of the things in my life i am mad at god for taking the ones close to me....i am depressed alot though on the outside and on here i am very good at hiding it...i am anorexic...i started smoking...and drinking....my life is going to hell....AHAHA!! christians is this the work of your so called high mighty loving god!!!!???? well fuck that shit! i couldnt do it because my friend stopped me and made my drop the knife i was so close....why cant people just let me leave my misory they have to make me suffer...well this is what you get...

AHAHA!! and let's not forget that the youth group counselor is coming to pick me up tomorrow and talk to me we will go out and eat yea right like i am going to eat -.- then she wants to know about me and ahahaha ill tell her about me "if you turn around and take your eyes off me for a second you better hope you have a napkin to clean up the blood!!! AHAHAAH!!"
crazy am i?some people might say that i like to call it.....mentaly challanged

yea they got me a counselor hah!like that will help me and for those who arent aware of my smoking proplems yea i smoke! and i drink sorry for not telling you nick i couldnt and no nick isnt my boyfriend!he is my awsome cousin! so if i am really bitchy to fucking bad!!

"Happy?"

In this hole
That is me
The dead are rolling over
In this hole
Thickening
Dirt shoveled over shoulders

I feel it in me
So overwhelmed
All this pressure centerizing
My life over turned
But there than despare
All these scars keep ripping open

Peel me from the skin
Tear me from the rhine
Does it make you happy now?

Tear me from the bone
Tear me from myself
Are you feeling happy now?

In this hole
That is me
A life that is growing feeble
In this hole
So limiting
The sun has set all darkness

Buried underneath
Hands slip off the wheel
Internal path until contention

Peel me from the skin
Tear me from the rhine
Does it make you happy now?

Tear me from the bone
Tear me from myself
Are you feeling happy now?

Are you
HAPPY

Are you
HAPPY

Are you feeling happy?

In this hole
That is me
Left with a heart exhausted
Was that real hate?
What tense be free?
Do you pull me up just to push me out again?

Peel me from the skin
Tear me from the rhine
Does it make you happy now?

Tear me form the bone
Tear me from myself
Are you feeling happy?

Peel me from the skiiiiiiiiiin
Peel me from the skiiiiiiiiiin
Tear me from the rhine
Does it make you happy now?

Tear me from the boooooooooone
Tear me from the boooooooooone
Tear me from myself
Are you feeling happy?

Does it make you happy?
Are you feeling happy?
Are you fucking happy?
Now that I'm lost here with nothing

Does it make you happy?
Are you feeling happy?
Are you fucking happy?
Now that I'm lost here with nothing?

okay yea i am sick i have the 24 hour flu it sucks but i got to stay home today *shrugs* watched daredevil a million times cause i was to lazy to get up and change it heh i got sick like 7 times last night i got only 2 hourse of sleep so at school tomorrow people are going to love my bitchy mood

*yawns*okay so what if i just woke up....yea okay time to wake up and tell you about my oh so funny day yesterday*blasts music up*okay yep im good now

okay so anyway at lunch at school yesterday my friends and i were obssesed with spoons dont ask...so i took a spoon and EMU put a french fry on it and i flung it and it landed on someones head lmfao and he looked around like the sky was falling lmfao...yea then we kept doing it and one hit Katie0 in the head and it stuck lmfao

((by the way all the katies at my school have #'s i am caty1))

i sang tonight and i had fun...first time in a long time i had fun...*smiles slightly*

it may not be anything to you but i love to sing and it was important to me

okay i went to a dance today so i will have pics up soon or i get my camera developed for all i know i could forget about it and forget i did

dont know

on thursday my friend [Loving like Winter] called me i had no school and she had to go to school this is the converstion between us that day

*phone rings i pick it up*"hello?"
Katie:"you and your dumbass snowday!!!"
Me:"hi Katie...-.-"
Katie:"dont you high me you didnt have school today and i had to sit and be tortured!!"
Me:"ahahaha"

people say they hide behind masks...why do you hide behind a mask?what happens when someone takes the mask off and who will be behind it...the person behind the mask is....

full moon........that means i am going to get little or no sleep tonight dont worry if i come back in the morning and i am psycho blame it on the moon ><!! but i love the moon it is so pretty ^_^

okay this is what happened in school yesterday.....yesterday our school declared january 20 national hug day -.- oh yea.......in social studies class 7th bell spencer one of they guys who is way to hyper went around and gave everyone hugs ......oh i dont like people touching me so i ran into the girls restoom he followed me!!!! then he carried me back into class and my teacher was like "aww caty you made a new friend" and i was like "oh joy........now put me down!!" then in the halway matt who is desperate for a girl saw me and was like "hey caty"he said it in a ehhh okay im gonna bang her kind of way and i said"mat dont even think about it" he said "well maybe i should jerk your chain alittle harder" i said "you want me to kick your ass dont you!" yea my school is odd 0.0

okay hmm alot of people want to know about me not my rpg character so here goes......okay um let's see okay i have 3 dogs 2 cats and 1 horse....i wont bother with the names.....okay me me me uh i dont know what to say usually i cant stop thinking about what to say now my mind is blank......okay i know i love the color black yup yup and that doesnt mean im goth!!i hate theat stereotyping crap i dont like stereotyping it is stupid......and yes i am bisexual i dont care what you think i dont have problems with other people being gay or straight or bi it isnt about race or whever the fuck it's about love yup yup.......eh i have alot of friends at school who are nutz like me eh a few of them...Angela,EMU short for emily or MLE,Katie,teresa,Sammy,Tabby we all call her mom cause she mothers us..-.- yea hmm i like to draw and play video games talk to people on the internet eh i like mangas i like to read books about superstitions......i am obssesed with excorsism and demonology and stuff like that my friend's house i haunted it is odd she said i was once possesed i tihnk she was right cause i couldnt remember what i did weird yea umm......school okay you want to hear about my school they are all stereotypers!!fuck my school i hate it......daily things.....get up take shower go to buss stop freze my ass off in the winter sit on the buss with immature little asshole 5 graders and then go to school pass notes through all classes eh yea ill tell you more soon