i hate my mood changes.....li
ehhhh one more day!then i dont have to sneek on ^^' yeah well on april 27 i will be leaving and going to washington DC not the state
i now have a shit load of pics but no scanner!
um yeah well i wont be on for a while cause you see well never mind but i wont be on much for the next few weeks or so...i will try to get on at school and that shit yeah
heh well today [Rove]and i were suposed to wash mom's car...but that didnt go to well cause i think we ended up getting more wet than the frikkin car did!!! >< i am soaked!
okay it is like 11:06pm and [Rove]and i just came in from outside we are like drunk off of vitamin B12((nick remember!?!))lol anyway yeah um yeah and we had a fire!!
yeah anyway went to the movies with Matt (aka:gir)and yeah went to see Sin City it was good except it confused me so much...^^' wasnt really paying attention to the movie more to Matt who had his hand on my arm i leaned on him and basically fell asleep in the movie kinda i mean it was hard with all of the gun shots in the movie but after the movie mom picked me up while she turned the car around Matt kissed me and it was all good yeah that was the only good part of my weekend
yay might be going out tonight with matt!
for all of you who dont know...that is a good thing o.0
my cousin talked to the girl he wanted so i am really happy for him ^_^ i wish i could talk to matt he is really nice and understands me alot i just want to talk to him*sigh*anywa
Yeah why do people trust other people i mean love wise you know your just going to get your heart broken so why give them that chance and let alone again?what the fuck do you think love means?yeah let's go to the movies uh huh sure then you find out the person you thought loved you was cheating on you some love that is this is why i dont really like to have a boyfriend
okay all of those who actually pay attention wont be on much today family needs computer for some things today and anyway i dont feel like getting on HAH! :P
heh well yeah for Andrew and Rachel i got caught on the phone last night hehehe see im not a perfect little angel um yeah if you people on here want to talk to me just call my house and Rachel i got my CELL PHONE CHARGED! XD long story for people who dont know and to bad im not telling it XD so sucks to be you anyway um yeah i will have to sneak on every once in a while
okay many of you who read this wont understand it and i dont expect you to....
okay my life is an odd one i have friends who i dont even like but dont feel like telling them to fuck off. i have known them for a long time and i actually pity them.my friends dont really act like my friends...we dont have anything in common except we hate school.my music life i love my music i dont know what i would do without it...my chemical romance is my favorite band because thier songs remind me of my life.then there is my family i have nothing in common with them.then my guitar is the only way i can escape to my world or if i read something interesting...
that is all i have to say thanks for listening to my not so great life
okay here is the reality...
how about we hang people on chains on a wall in a pitch black room with the only visable thing is a clock counting down to thier death starting at 24 hours counting down by seconds then when it is at zero turn on all the lights and shout SUPRISE and if they dont die from a heart attack throw a pie in thier face then say you have won 10 million dollars then take a knife and make a cut on them 2 inches long every 30 minutes then higer some homeless and dirty person to slowly rip the cuts open with his dirty and nasty fingernails while putting salt on the cuts i could go on but that might be alittle to much of reality for you so i am going to stop there and some of you might be like omg you are so mean but hey it isnt my fault if you would put something intersting on tv then maybe i wouldnt be like this but it is your fault
WELCOME TO REALITY BITCHES!
i was walking by someone on the streets today and she looked at me and said you are going to hell and i said why is that and she said you are connected to him and i was like i dont know wtf you have been drinking but stay away from me then something wierd happened i felt a mood change and got all bitchy to everyone...som
for the people who voted in my poll you have only seen one side of me i will have better pics of me up soon as soon as i get off my lazy ass and develop them aahaaha
i tried to commit suicide yesterday cause i just cant get over all of the things in my life i am mad at god for taking the ones close to me....i am depressed alot though on the outside and on here i am very good at hiding it...i am anorexic...i started smoking...and drinking....my life is going to hell....AHAHA!
AHAHA!! and let's not forget that the youth group counselor is coming to pick me up tomorrow and talk to me we will go out and eat yea right like i am going to eat -.- then she wants to know about me and ahahaha ill tell her about me "if you turn around and take your eyes off me for a second you better hope you have a napkin to clean up the blood!!! AHAHAAH!!"
crazy am i?some people might say that i like to call it.....mentaly challanged
yea they got me a counselor hah!like that will help me and for those who arent aware of my smoking proplems yea i smoke! and i drink sorry for not telling you nick i couldnt and no nick isnt my boyfriend!he is my awsome cousin! so if i am really bitchy to fucking bad!!
"Happy?"
In this hole
That is me
The dead are rolling over
In this hole
Thickening
Dirt shoveled over shoulders
I feel it in me
So overwhelmed
All this pressure centerizing
My life over turned
But there than despare
All these scars keep ripping open
Peel me from the skin
Tear me from the rhine
Does it make you happy now?
Tear me from the bone
Tear me from myself
Are you feeling happy now?
In this hole
That is me
A life that is growing feeble
In this hole
So limiting
The sun has set all darkness
Buried underneath
Hands slip off the wheel
Internal path until contention
Peel me from the skin
Tear me from the rhine
Does it make you happy now?
Tear me from the bone
Tear me from myself
Are you feeling happy now?
Are you
HAPPY
Are you
HAPPY
Are you feeling happy?
In this hole
That is me
Left with a heart exhausted
Was that real hate?
What tense be free?
Do you pull me up just to push me out again?
Peel me from the skin
Tear me from the rhine
Does it make you happy now?
Tear me form the bone
Tear me from myself
Are you feeling happy?
Peel me from the skiiiiiiiiiin
Peel me from the skiiiiiiiiiin
Tear me from the rhine
Does it make you happy now?
Tear me from the boooooooooone
Tear me from the boooooooooone
Tear me from myself
Are you feeling happy?
Does it make you happy?
Are you feeling happy?
Are you fucking happy?
Now that I'm lost here with nothing
Does it make you happy?
Are you feeling happy?
Are you fucking happy?
Now that I'm lost here with nothing?