Stolen dreams

This is not how I want my life to be I don't want depression and demons attacking me I'm weakening from the onslaught I'm holding on to all I've got but I'm losing it all waiting for my downfall for it is near with death at my door I'm dying inside its clear I lost all that was sensation, weakening from this isolation reflecting I realize that I am what I despise and I'm weakening from the pain I'm left in a world with nothing to gain and now I feel the anger changing me life isn't the same I let the hate free, but it isn't going to get any better will I be like this forever im tired of being alone fighting the demons on my own
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I've been covered in darkness drifting away into nothingness my life is a living hell im heading no where cant you tell everything I love is gone losing my will to go on stolen dreams inside me now the nightmare screams depression kicks in suicide is were im going im fucking tired of the pain overflowing stolen dreams life isn't what it seems

The violent screams are still in my head another day like this and I'll be dead im living with no intent living for the moment and this life isn't mine my life goes on with out me while I watch dying, I've meant to kill myself to end this living hell but every time I fail im surrounded by shadow darkness covers me never letting go and im falling apart from all this shit im taking it wont get better im forever breaking were is the love that I need to feel inside im living even though I've died and no one cares im living a nightmare I see my nightmare come true I look and the nightmare is you I feel the anger rising how I stay alive is surprising this is my fate to live this life full of hate
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I cant stop from falling apart and all that's left is a blackened heart do you see the damage that's that has been done the demons have finally won this is the way I've seen my life unfold im tired of living in a world so cold im tired of living in a world so cold im tired of feeling so neglected im tired of waiting for love that never will be resurrected nothing is the same im fading from all the pain and all that's been said I cant take anymore or I'll end up dead paralyzed from being paranoid I cant fill my lifes void the scars of the yesteryears are here to stay, no matter what I do they wont go away they are forever haunting death is what im wanting I can no longer suffocate how I feel , im covered in wounds that will not heal, so im doomed to this fate to life a life full of hate
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As I start to fade I see death yet im unafraid yet death wont take me to my grave so I continue to live losing hope forgetting to forgive why wont I stay slain? Why cant I end all my pain im losing control death wont take my infected soul im tired and im weak death is the antidote that I seek why wont the demons leave me alone all the happiness has been overthrown I want to fall down and move on, to lie down and die the one I want to end is I before I fade away hold my hand then watch me drift away and don't try to understand death is what im waiting for, for this life isn't worth living anymore, this life is mindless im tired of living like this

dear diary, im tired of all the shit thats gone wrong, i hate everything losing it all, just to find myself going on, nothing in life has gone right, im dying im fading dissapearing into the night, i look for hope there is none,i stare at the bullets as i put them into my gun, this is my end, im tired of getting nothng in return for all the love i would send, all the beatings that would happen with out cause, to late to be saved for my will to live is lost, im fading now, im falling down, it in my intrest to end this, i look at my gun figuring i wont be missed, its loaded, i point it at my forehead, ten seconds later i have pulled the trigger and i am dead, no one cares no ones theres all the feeling stabbing, so ive ended it all this hopeless life i was grabbing it was my time, no one listened or paid attention to the signs, to the damn warning, now they stand over my grave all in mourning I SAID I WOULD DO IT WHAT ARE YOU THINKING NOW??? im stopping the pain i used to allow so be happy intsead becuse this worthless peace of shit is dead

dear diary today i mowed the lawn, unfortunately there were animals hiding in the tall grass i ran over a squrriel a snake a chipmunk and i cant tell what this one thing is, its head is stuck the the blade gah!!! im going to have to get a new oneso ive already killed something but im going to do it again

dear diary , today i got drunk again nothing unuasual i got mad at my cd player so i continuesly punched it untill my blood was all over it then i took my skateboard and started playing baseball with it, after that i ollied unto it stupid cd player, it shouldnt have scratched my Korn cd now ita hanging in my room if this happen again ill be even more pissed i still am, as im going now, i need to kill something,

dear diary i just got through trying to hold my friend as ransom nobody wanted her so i ended up untieing her damn this day has really sucked and i have no money im going to go kill something now

dear diary today i tried to end it all, it didnt work to bad, o well onward with the satanic ceremonies im tired of all the posers and this so called life im living, ill get over it when i die