EGAndrea Proud to be...
Sniper Specialist
                   in nomine Dei nostri Satanas Luciferi ezcelsil, ave satanas

ya nee paneymayoo ya khatyel bi shtonebood ya znayoo pachyeemoo ya eeschchyoo vi sleeshkam teemno svyeet nee rabayet syeetsee slamon gdye lyoobet ya ooyeezhzayoo seechyas ya nee khachyoo astavat'sa zdyes' adeen ya adeen ya syadoo zdyes' shol'ka noozhno zhdat' pocceda na peereesatkoo gdye mi nahkodeemsa ya nee znayoo shtoto nee f paryat kee pamageetee pazhalsta ya zabloodeelsa ya zabloodeelsa mnye nee nraveetsa lyoodee zdyes ya adeen ya lyoobee neekamoo vi nee vazrahayetye slamt'sa' eta maya ochyeereed oo menya bolee ya nee splyoo ya patarcyal

thinking about the living hell im living in, tired of everything, wanting it all to end,
i loved you, i still do, i want you, but its to late its something we must realize, that i will fade and die, just dont cry for me im not worth crying over, dying so high never feeling so sober, always wanting something i could never have, so i most let go of whati still grab, out of control, loosing my everything including my fading soul, if you could only see whats on the inside, so mucg pain this is my suicide, if you could only see what has happened in this life, sick of everyting so ill end it all tonight, i tell myself have patience, it will be over soon, silently awaiting my own doom, i dont want to die but i want to escape, get away from all this pain that is so great, so i have patience, my end is near, death is coming, it is clear, so i say my last goodbye then i prepare myself to die, im tired of everything so i end this! this is it look at my death in all of its magnificance, darkness covers me comes in my sleep and there is nothing you could have done, save yourself for i am no one

if you knew this was the last time youd see me would you be there if you knew this was my last day on earth would you even care if you saw the darkness inside destroying me would you try to save me whipe away the desolate tears and stop me from falling my lifes in decay im slowly but surely fading away this fallacy that everything is fine has crumbled down in time the emptiness withing yearns to be filled to eradicate the hate that has beeen instilled, to severed to be elated going on with life with nothing but hatred disheartened by your silence the time bomb insides has exploded now i resort to violence its rather sad, when i needed you the most you are gone no one to turn to now that everything has gone wrong if i was dead tommorow would you be sad or show sorrow
emptiness has befalled upon my shoulders i cant feel anything im only getting colder im tired of putting on a front that everything is alright, turning into shadow as dark as the night what would you do what would you say, now that im slowly fading away stop running from me dont turn your back on me now i dont know what to do now, you were the only reason i gave a flying fuck the only damn reason i didnt give up, but thats about to change, the inner emotions are comming out ive never felt more deranged,

the emotions that werent skin deep the numbness inside begins to creep inner death consumes the man i used to be emiting the darkness out setting the hate free look at what ive become the end or everything has begun i cant find happiness i cant find balence, to drift away from the darknessi cant get you out of my mind maybe im stubborn maybe im blind, but i still love you........

Famine of life within
stuck in this despondency of deplore, remaining absent just like before never felt so alone, fighting a loosing battle on my own, vitality fading away from existence, falling away from lack of attentiveness im running out of time loosing what is rightfully mine, i can't take the lacerations of my befallowed life, going through all this unbroken strife, all alone with no were to turn falling away from this pain i did not earn, the essance of suicide is inside me instilled, all the good inside being slowly killed, i want to escape from the distress eradicate the darkness, that has enveloped my soul engulfing me swallowing me whole, drained from the recuring neurotic torment, i long for it to end the hostility of malice has defiled what was once ethical, lossing grasp on what is beautiful, i covet for tender attachment, i long for no judgement, hardened by the epoch of deprivement,
CHORUS
the world is turning black, i want to run away but theres no turning back, diminishing into oblivion, im tired of this world im living in, the famine of life within is breaking me down, i look fro something to hold on too, yet nothings around, nothing in life but emptiness, going on is hopeless, living for nothing, just to perish, never felt so repressed, left to die in misery tired of being so depressed, this anguish that is so great, living a life doomed to a terrible fate awaiting something, getting nothing

damn everything is changing life sucks i despise this world i wonder why i go on each days o well ill get over it when i die

dear diary today i wait to see if the cops have an arrest warrent out on me if they do then........ oops im going to prison for aggravated assault if not then yay ill buy an ice cream cone and be a better person (yeah right) this day kind of sucks majorly but all of my days are like that its sad but o well ill die some day and get over it peace out