[Shiarox]'s diary
Mommy why don't you love me?
By: Mary , CA
Mommy why don’t you love me ?
Why can’t you hear my cry’s
Mommy why dont you see all the pain
you’ve done to my inside’s
Your love is so unreachable so distant
from me and yet you give it so Freely to
men you barely know
Remember Chrisman in 94
All I wanted was something to unwrap
But he was threatening to leave
so you bought him the present instead.
I’ve loved you always and helped you always
but you’ve always seen me as a threat.
Mommy why don’t you love me ?
Do you think it’s my fault that dad left?
Do you think it’s my fault your secound husband
turned out to be a fag
Or is it because you lost yourself with all
these games you play
Mommy why don’t you love me?
Is it because when you look at me you see
my father instead ?
this made me so sad X.X evil poem >.< well yeah....this has nothing to do with the other ones.......oh well X.x
why
By: Maddy , Australia
Why don’t you look at me?
When I call your name
Why don’t you talk to me?
Why do you pass me the blame?
I did nothing to hurt you
But you don’t really care
Why do you exclude me?
And make me feel I'm not there
Is it the way I dress
Or the way I talk
Why when I speak to you
You just start to walk
I know I'm loud and ecstatic
When I want to be
But why must I hurt myself
Before you’ll look at me?
well even if i hurt myself he still wont look at me X.x ...(coleman)
Questions Unaswered
By: kat , 14 , FL
Why dont he want me
Like he used to do?
Why dont he care for me
Like he always used to?
Why dont he Love me
Like he used to say he would?
Why dont he want me forever
Like i thought he could?
Why dont he want me
Like he used to do?.
yeah.....stupi
Sad Poems
A Dolphins cry
By: Emili , PA
A dolphins cry
If I was a dolphin and you were the sea
How would I get to be with thee
Trapped in this land alone and tired
Can't get out from the horrid treachery
Swimming along night and day
Waiting for the time to pass me by
Somebody save me and let me go
Somebody please let me go.
Submitted On: 01/22/05
the blade
By: becca , TN
THE BLADE
all the pain that i feel
as it slices across my wrist
so what, it’ll all heal
all the feelings that i feel the first night
it felt bad and wrong
but at the same time it felt so right
its wrong i know
but its hard to let go
its like a giant war
i have this urge
i just cant ignore
i thought i wouldn’t
but drop this blade
i just couldn’t
i felt bad within
buti ignored the feeling
and did it again
Submitted On: 01/22/05
unknown
By: kyana
i have to face the fact
that i am not your girl
gotta tell myself your
not my world
It’s easier for me to
get over you if your not
around
It would be easier for me
if I could get down
But it’s not up to me
whether or not we can hang
out
if i called you or told you,
you would never live and
sprout
but you probably would cuz
i’m the only one stuck on
you
if only you could let me
know if you loved me too
Submitted On: 01/20/05
A Little Girl With No Daddy
By: Devon , PA
Her hair was up in a ponytail Her favorite dress tied with a bow. Today was Daddy’s Day at school, And she couldn’t wait to go. But her mommy tried to tell her, That she probably should stay home. Why the kids might not understand, If she went to school alone. But she was not afraid; She knew just what to say. What to tell her classmates Of why he wasn’t there today. But still her mother worried, For her to face this day alone. And that was why once again, She tried to keep her daughter home. But the little girl went to school, Eager to tell them all. About a dad she never sees A dad who never calls. There were daddies along the wall in back, For everyone to meet. Children squirming impatiently, Anxious in their seats. One by one the teacher called, A student from the class.. To introduce their daddy, As seconds slowly passed. At last the teacher called her name, Every child turned to stare. Each of them was searching, For a man who wasn’t there. "Where’s her daddy at?" She heard a boy call out. "She probably doesn’t have one," Another student dared to shout. And from somewhere near the back, She heard a daddy say, "Looks like another deadbeat dad, Too busy to waste his day." The words did not offend her, As she smiled up at her Mom. And looked back at her teacher, Who told her to go on. And with hands behind her back, Slowly she began to speak. And out from the mouth of a child, Came words incredibly unique. "My Daddy couldn’t be here, Because he lives so far away. But I know he wishes he could be, Since this is such a special day. And though you cannot meet him, I wanted you to know. All about my daddy, And how much he loves me so. He loved to tell me stories He taught me to ride my bike. He surprised me with pink roses, And taught me to fly a kite. We used to share fudge sundaes, And ice cream in a cone. And though you cannot see him, I’m not standing here alone. I’m not standing here alone. Cause my daddy’s always with me, Even though we are apart I know because he told me, He’ll forever be in my heart" With that, her little hand reached up, And lay across her chest. Feeling her own heartbeat, Beneath her favorite dress. And from somewhere in the crowd of dads, Her mother stood in tears. Proudly watching her daughter, Who was wise beyond her years. For she stood up for the love Of a man not in her life. Doing what was best for her, Doing what was right. And when she dropped her hand back down, Staring straight into the crowd. She finished with a voice so soft, But its message clear and loud. "I love my daddy very much, He’s my shining star. And if he could, he’d be here, But heaven’s just too far. You see he was a fireman And died just this past year When airplanes hit the towers And taught Americans to fear. But sometimes when I close my eyes, It’s like he never went away." And then she closed her eyes, And saw him there that day. And to her mother’s amazement, She witnessed with surprise. A room full of daddies and children, All starting to close their eyes. Who knows what they saw before them, Who knows what they felt inside. Perhaps for merely a second, They saw him at her side. "I know you’re with me Daddy," To the silence she called out. And what happened next made believers, Of those once filled with doubt. Not one in that room could explain it, For each of their eyes had been closed. But there on the desk beside her, Was a fragrant long–stemmed pink rose. And a child was blessed, if only for a moment, By the love of her shining bright star. And given the gift of believing, That heaven is never too far..
And as hope drifts away, we’re
left with broken dreams and lost memories
Submitted On: 01/14/05
i miss u mom,,,
By: ona mills , IN
Originaly Authored by: mona mills
im sitting here with tears streaming down my face,
everyone says go on,but your memory i cant erase,
youre my mom,the reason im alive,
it hurts so bad,the pain cuts deep like a knife,
you passed away december 2,2004,
when i heard you were gone i dropped to the floor.
i look at your picture all day,
i love you mom more than words can ever say,
i never got a chance to say goodbye,
all i can do is remember the times we had and cry,
i would give my life to hold you once more,
please mom,i keep waiting by the door,
i want to go home,and be by yor side,
i cant take the pain,all i do is cry,
when you were here i took u for granted,
now it hurts so bad i cant stand it,
i feel that someody took your life,
im going to find out mom,if i have to look day and night,
till then ill hold you in my heart,
thats a place i know we will never part.,
love always,,
your daughter, mona mills
Submitted On: 01/08/05
goodbye mom
By: mona , IN
Originaly Authored by: mona
i wish i could of been there to help you,
to wipe every tear from your eyes
i’ll always think if maybe i was there
my mom wouldnt of died,
i’ll always remember the times we had
mom i know you wouldnt want to see me this sad
i cant stop crying mom
i really miss you,mommy what are we gonna do,
id do anything so you would never have to go
we love you so
we just wanted to say we love you
and goodbye
i gotta go mom,,,im gonna cry
love all your 6 kids and 24 grandkids
Submitted On: 01/07/05
2005 i hope it will be just fine
By: SEXYMAMAINLUV , TX
we started in august 2004
u put me through hell
but not once did i ever yell
i was gonna fight over u
on more than one night
alll becuz of u
but yet still i never knew
how u could hurt me like u do
once i really thought i lost u
but instead i came back to u at watever the cost
new years 2005
we’re still talking but yet u still hurt me
y do u do these terrible things to me
i want u to love me enough to where it doesnt hurt anymore
wat do i have to do for u to c
that i want it to be jus u and me.
y cant u see that everything im sayin is tru
i left everyhting i had jus for u
y can’t u do the same for me
then we can finally jus be.
2005 i hope it will be jus fine
i hope one day we spend all our night together
forever.
Submitted On: 01/01/05
Untrue Friends
By: caroline , NJ
*Untrue Friends*
*Untrue friends are found in many places.
*They are untrue in most cases
*They lie they cheat they live for hate
*All they want is to see you fail
*They want to be evil with a side–dish of nice
*True friends I want to find
*True friends I want to keep
*True friends I’d like to cherish
*And for them to cherish me
*Forever I would hold them
*Forever they’ll be dear
*Cause all I want for chirstmas
*Is a friend who’s there for me
*True friends would be forever
*Untrue friendships will vanish
*They will never be remembered
*All I want are True Friends
*But all I’ve got are untrue friends and me!
Submitted On: 12/11/04
Gone
By: Jordan
These memories, they fade away
Reminders of yesterday, Gone.
They must be erased.
Nothing will ever be the same again,
Especially not without you.
Drowned in pain, the memories of how good life used to be...
I had you in my arms,
I had you here next to me.
You were mine.
You said we would be together forever...
well I guess forever ended.
You left me here with nothing
but pain and a broken heart.
Submitted On: 12/07/04
bitter poem
By: Sarah
air sifts through my bones like an empty hurricane
crackling through my soul swift and beautiful as the tears fall
rushing running hoping
i am stuck in complete bitterness, my life force has been drained
and you look on so emptily
the sky shatters
my heart frozen slowly breaks like an open wound
yes amor
amor
the cauldron in ecstatic painful flames you try to soak it up with your soft fingers
they are flame resistant yes
i was not for sure but now i am soaked in the realization of nothing
nothing there at all
stuck like a blank canvas to a cobblestone wall
you look at me
i quickly fall without support
the blank expression on your face so sympathetic
the eyes that held all my rapture
the lips that ne’er scorned a sweet embrace now look upon me
so coldly
nothing
nothing
bitter blonde lean barbie whore
pink high heeled footstraps dig into my bare thighs
not a whore, but as you’d like to see it
bleeding heart stupid sensitive frail little barbie whore
skirt flares up on accident
little pretty fishnets
red pink black orange blue lips
yeah
isn’t that just how you like it
temporary slut
below concubine in status
streetwhore girlfriend
smash crash
bloody cold
how i hate this
wasted my time? no but yes
pretty silver bracelet hangs from my weak wrist
can’t move my arms my legs
stomach body aches
this stupid liquid crap keeps flowing from my eyes with these twisted groaning murmuring suffering noises
you say don’t cry
don’t cry
don’t cry
such comfort you are
to me the loser girlfriend
your deep feelings mean nothing
mean less to me than the poster of the nude girls on your wall
chained to a love i can’t let go of
you are so cold but can’t help it
i offered you everything
at least you didn’t lie to me
and your words scarring my bedroom wall in agony as more tears fall
like mucus on a sticky floor
like my soul is chained to the love i thought we had
and i whimpered in the night for your soft arms to hold me
your little barbie whore
...okay i accidentally coppied the whole page so my bad X.x oh well heres some more
I'm Sorry
By: Lyndsy , IN
I’m sorry that I listened
When you told me "I Love You"
I’m sorry that I said it back
And really felt it too
I’m sorry we had fun
And enjoyed our time together
I’m sorry you made me feel secure
Even through the stormy weather
I’m sorry you made me laugh
And smile and even giggle
I’m sorry I loved how you tickled me
So closer to you I would wiggle
I’m sorry I felt safe in your arms
And loved just to be held by you
I’m sorry we could speak without words
And I loved who you knew what to do
I’m sorry you were my first real love
And taught me how good it felt
I’m sorry you were so sweet to me
And could make my happy heart melt
But most of all I’m sorry
That its over and we’re through
Because I don’t think I’ll ever be able
To say goodbye to you
...X.x still no comment
losing my first love
By: Paige , LA
Originaly Authored by: Paige H
It‘s killin me inside,
Not being able to talk to you,
To be able to put my arms around you,
No being able to tell you hello,
I miss you what can i say,
I miss not being with you,
Yeah i know we werent always able to be together,
But we found ways to be together,
All i ask is for another chance,
Another day to hold you in my arms,
Another day to look into your eyes and know what your thinkin,
Another day not havin to worry about you walkin out,
All i want is a 2nd chance,
Yeah i know i didnt screw up,
But if i get that chance,
Im not gunna sit back,
Ima tell you how i feel,
Yeah you might not like me at first,
But in the beging did you,
No you didnt you grew to like me,
And i want so bad to make you fall for me again,
And ima try with my best to make that happen,
Just spend one more day with me,
And if you don‘t feel anything,
Then i will let go of you,
Just give me a day and a place and ill be there,
Just hanging out and talkin that is all i ask for,
Nuttin more......Give me that chance
...no comment just superspiffy poem of doom...X.x
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