dear RP-peoples!

. . . i won't be here tonight!
why?!
because, i'm going to a football game (WTF?!) . . .to support out band. then i'm sleeping over Haku's house. .

- this is where the fun starts -

we're going to the Ren-Fair tomarrow. . . this will be the first time i've RPed Desya in a live-action setting since he got his life here! how fun!

so Desya will have a field-day tomarrow :3

and then i have to work like hell to finish AR's pages for this week tomarrow night, so if i'm on, i'll be slow.

terribly sorry, but thus is the way of the procrastinator *laughs sheepishly*

i wish i had more time. . .

i've got 12+ stories. . .all open at the same time, and a novel in my hand. AND i'm role-playing here.

how the @#$@# amd i gonna read all of this tonight??!

don't get me wrong, i'm not complaining, on the contrary, i just wish i had more time. . .i want so much to read. . . GAH i'm a lit-whore. if someone writes me smutt. . .i will draw them whatever they want, i swear. . *joygasms*

none of that had relevence, i just think it's funny how many things i manage to read at the same time. *sighs and laughs*

OMFudgingGods!!

i. . . our. . . it's back.

if ye hadn't noticed my apsense (understandable and slightly expected) . . . our computer died.

.<

but. . .but. . . it's back! with a little messing around. . . it. . .was a really simple fix ^^;

but now i know. *cues that wierd 'now you know' voice* and i hope nobody's angry . . . cause if i could have been here, i would have!

*hugs DA, Y!H, ET, EP, etc. . .*

bweeeeeeeee! :dance:

wheeee i finished summer reading and all of the prodjects that go with it!

what? oh, as it turns out it was due friday. which. . . is appearantly today ^^;;

just finished the final report at 3:23 the morning it's due. is that sexy or what?

bwahahaha. now i'm going to finish reading this fic, then go upstairs and either draw or sleep. it doesn't matter because it's MY TIME again!

*cries*

i hate having chronic procrastination syndrome. . .!
yes, it's real, because i said so. and i have it so bad it must be real >.>

fooey. it feels nice to be free, though. i can finally draw again without feeling horrible about doing something i enjoy when i should be forcing myself into schoolbooks. and i can read stuff that's not school-related. . .oh yeah. this definately makes me appritiate summer more, the next two weeks are MINE!

*clings to remainder of summer*

screw The Jungle!!
. . i read five pages. that's all they're getting out of me.

but. . this shortens my summer reading load quite a bit. i think i'm going to work on coloring that AR header tonight, now. tomarrow i WILL read 'The Bell Jar', but untill then. . . damn it all!

raaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~~~~~~~~!

. . . chu. *puffy face*

this isn't fare. we got high-speed cable thing, and i can download stuffs. so naturally i went and got as much yaoi as i could lay claws upon. . . but. . . though they're downloaded under 'video/animation'. . . all i get is the audio!!

so now i have the audio of 10+ yaoi-anime. . . that sounds really spiffy. . . but i can't see anything!! *poro-poro*

fuu. i have to figure out what a 'torrent' file is, too. anybody know?? XD

ah well. it's nice to have something small and irrelevant to whine about. it makes the world seem quite fluffy, ne??

http://www.ranting-gryphon.com/Rants/

he makes me smile, and lifts the weight i throw upon my opinion of the human race. listen to his comedy, it's not the imature, racist crap one gets on basic cable. it's sexy, that's what it is.

i highly suggest that ye listen to some of his fluffy stuff.

we got a cable modem today. . . o_o;
it's really fast, and that scares me. i'm used to a friendly 42.3 modem. . . 

and of course, i'm using it to pirate music and look at art.
but. . . i found this really odd virsion of 'The Phantom of Opera' . . . the woman is more opera than in the movie (and i think she sings better than that fluffy femme they cast), but the male/phantom is really. . . hard-rock ish. he sounds like he's snarling. it's funny.

but. . . they blend together, and. . . it's odd o_o;;

anyway. we have a better connection now, so i'll be faster! zipping around and actually following some of the links people send me!! woo!! (i usually don't click unless it's really interesting, in fear of killing our compy)

mao~~

but it's only for a month, nanoda. . . which means of course, that we must steal all music possible within this month.

Ouka's such a bad little bug. >.> and it's not stealing. it's sharing XD

OK. Severus Snape is described as 'greasy haired with a large hooked nose' and pretty much ugly, too.

so why do people draw him as being a pretty, delicate boy with straight hair and a button nose?!?

even in profile veiws, they give him a completely normal nose! not large, not hooked. . . the opposite of being hooked, usually. . .!! and pretty?! he's. . . he's not s'posed to be pretty!! he's a greasy, ugly git, damnit!!

. . . terribly sorry, but pretty-Snape does not compute.

kitty kitty kitty

we got a 'ittle kitty.

he is a he and he's rather fluffy. super-smart with really oversized paws and whiskers so long they make arcs over his head.

mao~ i think we will name him 'Stag', but as of yet, we are not sure. maomaomao~~~~~

*wriggles tail happily*

. . . if anyone want's to chat about HP, i'd be happy. because. . . i finished the book yesterday, and nobody i know has . . and. . . and. . .AAAH!!!

now all these people are gonna open their eyes and see the S/M! hahaha. or not XD but. . but. . . AAAH!

it. . it broke through. . . !!

for those of ye whom don't know. . . i've been slowly tightening a toe-ring around my ear for a good two+ years now, tightening it every now and then.

well. . . just now, when i was brushing my teeth, i looked in the mirror, and thought something was caught on it, so i looked closer . . . nothing was caught, it was the two ends, pinched together, and rolled out of the hole. . . !!

i. . . officially have a 'peirced' ear!! 0_0 and it was done with a toe-ring (which has completely blunt ends, may i add) over a period of 2-3 years. . . o_o wow. i'm flabbergasted. i never expected it to actually break through. . . wow.

i can spin it all the way around. . .! woo *has fun spinning the earing around through hole in ear* wow. i thought i'd notice it.

o_o anthrocon rocked.

we met people.

here are some other events/signifigant-nesses?!

~the majority of people were homosexual. the majority of the other people were bi. some of the others were straight, and even the straight people were fluffy. . . sorry, i know that's not something to focus on, but it's not often i get to be around such an accepting group of people :heart: (something tells me that i didn't get that out right. ~_~)

~there were more females there than last time. . . but. . . that doesn't matter. because we met people. not as though it's likely that i'll communicate with them until next year, but hey, it was enlightening.

condensed socialization.

~got kissed by a random male who 'always wanted to kiss somebody with fangs' . . . o_o;;

~saw a comedian that made me laugh, and brightened my veiws a bit.

~got a new tail. it's like. . . three feet longer, so now i hafta figure out a way of keeping it off the ground. but it rocks.

~bought porn (because goodness knows that's essential ^^;)

~saw/experienced stuff not usually experienced.

~walked down the streats of Philli, PA at 2-3 AM, with a group of furrs, and scared the shit out of normal people.

~got badges of bug&fly. because i don't have a 'fursona', being that i'm not really a furr myself, just have a tail and like the art/people/fandom. . .

~took fun pictures.

~met people who are appearently famous/important in the anthro fandom

~had fun in general

lots more happened, and i'll post links to pictures eventually, but for now i have to find food. because. .. amidst all the fun, we kinda forgot to eat.

it's so awesome to know there are people out there who accept people no matter what. for a while, i think my veiws on humans have been fuzzied from anti-human, to semi-positive anti-human fluff. ja, Ouka's a screwed up thing, that's for sure.

oi! and i'm off again! this time to someplace much, much better!!

Anthrocon!!!

*wriggles about excitedly*

Josie-sama is taking meir! woohoo!

:] Ouka ish a happy camper. but sadly, Ouka won't be back until sunday/monday. sorry.

but. . . but it's anthrocon! so. . . good. if any of ye are going, mayhap we'll meet? but i doubt any of ye are going. . . XD

lalala *wriggles some more, just for good measure*

ah, fuu. . . i can't find my 'S&M' wallet. . . ;.;

ah-well. . . hehehehe *scurries off*

just thought i'd let ye people know that i'm leaving on sunday, and won't be back 'till the end of the month. . . so. . . rp-peoples. . . have fun.

pretend that Ache'n is confused or whatever, just. .. please, Bri? don't control him.

that's it, i suppose. .. aaaah last day of schule was today. it. . . was alright except for the busride home, witht he youngyin's chorusing the Meowmix theme-song at me.

.> ye think they'd be used to the tail by now. aurgh.

m. . .my vest came.

*twitches*

it. . . it flippen finally came. . .

*twitches again*

GAAAAH!!

*stares*

i'm so happy. not really.

but really, ja.

maybe.

positive-neutral, more like.

*wags tail really fast*

oh, if ye don't know was i'm typing of, it would be my binding vest.

and no, binding vest is not anything sexual, or bondage-related.

'tis a vest to help make FTM TS critters like meir, look like a male.

. . . and it works.

it's just like my usual binding, only; it's smoother, it looks natural, there's no uncomfortable lump in my back at all times. . . and i can breath!! and. . . looking male is always a pluss. being a male is easy, dressing like a male is easy, facially looking like a male isn't even all that hard (for a neanderthal like meir, anyway) . . . but. . . but. . . ah.

mayhap i'll post a picture.

****explodes, wriggles, joygasms, etc. . .***

:::lurve:::

NOOOOOO~~~!!!

;_; finally got two pages done early, and now Keenspace won't let me upload them . . . damnit.

why the @#$! is everything being so flipping negative lately?! every time i get even mildly positive, something blows up in my face!!

gggAH i'm so pissed. *cries* (<--not really, i actually don't mind all that much, as long as keenspace comes back online sometime before 12:00, cause i really, really hate the fifty-billion person que-line. that's why i like uploading early, but noooo)

:p if ye didn't know already, about two weeks ago I attempted to make contact with a male I like.

XD

how? one may ask? by running up to him, calling his name, shoving an indirect, poorly-written note into his hand, bowing and saying sorry extremely fast, and finally running full-speed in the opposite direction.

yep. see the lack of social skills coming into play?

neither of us has said a thing to the other since. not that we had before. . . >.>

anyhow.

just had another really spiffy dream last night. again, if ye didn't already know, I never dream realistic. and by that I don't mean I fly, or have super powers in dreams, but that it's in a different world, different people. . . almost never dream about people I know, and I’m almost never physically this.

anyhow, last night was another epic.

it was in an alternate-universe, and everyone was being recruited for some army, but it was more of a prison. . . very hard to explain. anyhow -- so I was in there, we were in mess hall which was kinda like this big gymnasium split and one side was mess, and the other was training, and . . . I was in mess, and other people were in training. . .

ja. . . well, I can't describe the plot of this dream, or the scenery properly, but I may have been able to draw it if I had the patients.

but there was one point at which we were allowed to go over to the training side and kiss a recruit whom the higher-ups would then consider allowing to be freed.

and there was the male I like. now, take into consideration that this was meant for humiliation, as we were all men. and that this male hadn't any clue whom I was. . .

but everyone knew he wasn't strong enough for combat, and was probably going to be one of those executed. . . so I crossed the barrier, and to everyone's surprise, pressed a kiss on the top of his hairline (ah, the small details)

I remember the odd look on his face as I backed away, and I smiled, I remember the feel of it. and then he was taken away, and everything was silent.

after that the dream got progressively weirder. I made friends with this really big, buff African-American dude, and helped him escape also (though not through the kissing thing, the higher-ups hadn't expected anyone to actually do that, so when I proved 'em wrong, they stopped that option)

so ja .. . he escaped through the door, but I had to go through the wall, although it wasn't really a wall, it was a spider-web kinda thing. and once on the other I side I met a spider, and killed her (they were all female spiders)

but then there were suddenly like. . . 20 of them, and each introduced themselves politely before attacking in unison ("I am Espestis, I am Arison, etc. . .") and it was hard, but I killed them all.

then I was in this room of doors that all lead to different dimensions, and I had to find my father, and then find the male I liked for some reason (if forget why, now >.>)

but I walked through the wrong door, and all of a sudden I was this Pikachu-ish creature sitting inna tree with two other creatures (one was some kind of blobb), making faces.

then I was back searching for the male I liked, cause apparently one of the creatures in the tree was my father (?!)

but then I woke up.

ja.

so. . . what did I learn?

that I really wanna kiss that guy on the forehead/hairline now, and may have to draw that image (another dream in third-person) because it makes me go 'squee'

and now I know how to deal with my male-problem.

the next time I see him, and have a chance to say anything.. . . I’m going to walk up to him and ask him to reject me,

yep.

because I hate open endings, and the schule-year is almost over, and if he doesn't reject me flat-out, I’ll hate the head forever for inputting this dreams and making me think fluffy thoughts when I know perfectly well it will never happen.

so ja. that's my solution. if I can be rejected, I can make the mind stop. hopefully.

why should ye care? ye don't. but I had to share that somewhere.

(haha i spell-checked it and it capitilized the 'i's. damnit. ah well, i'm too lazy to fix.)

she fed me bacon. XD

before the concert, me mum fed me flippen bacon. my voice was cracking all over. . . >.>

but aside from that, it wasn't too horribly horrible. the higher choir was excelent *_* i can't wait to get to the higher choir, their songs are so much prettier than ours :D

nanana getting ready for our Chorus concert tonight. :D

this. . . proves to be the prologue to a very restrained and stressfull weekend. *shivers*

first, tonight's the concert, and though it's fun, it's also stressful, especially since i have to endure a certain soloist whom makes my brain explode. ow.

and tomarrow's mum's birthday, which while it isn't bad, it aslo isn't exsactly how i'd like to spend the Saturday (being her slave, as accustomed to family traditions).

and last, but not least, let's wrap that up with a nice term papger due monday, und there ye have it. woo. great weekend. ~_~

but wasever. focusing on tonight, and not singing myself horse before we even get there. that would bite. (too bad i think it's too late. . . XD)

the girls in the locker room have finally noticed my lump, and so they took it upon themselves to pass it around the school that i have a penis. which puts me in a tight spot.

because i don't really wanna deny that. (i usually encourage the belief that i have one.) but, i don't wanna have to face a teacher/counsoler/(orworse)afamilymember. . . so. . . ja. i've just decided not to say anything.



and then today. :D today i get to be Ethan Frome in a play 3rd period . . . . which ye know just gives me an excuse to look even manlier than usual.

*cackles*

so i'm sitting here bound tighter than ever before, and i can honestly (and quite happily!) say two things:

1.it's hard to breath and i'm gonna be really paranoid of getting attacked today, because if i do, i'll likely loose -and- pass out.

+

2.from the front, angles. and back, i look like a guy! it's only in profile that there's a bit of problem. . . but hey, it's better than i've gotten it before, so. . .!! yatta!!

maybe i'll post pictures later. *sings a bit, happily*

so. that's good. it's raised my negative-neutral past few months a bit to neutral-teatering-towards-positive. so assuming today doesn't get worse (which it most likely will XD), i'm a happy little boy.

*does a jig*