(dream rant)

ok. i had a really, really big dream last night. crazy details, etc. . . ._.

first, i was Draco Malfoy. anyhow, it was after HBP, and both i and Harry had been caught by some funky muggle doctors, or something of that sort, and they were gonna take out our brains and put somebody else's in!! (not each others)

Harry was all, "yeah ok." and just let them sedate them, cause he didn't get it. but i started crying and when the doctors asked why, i was all "i'm not gonna be me anymore. i'm not gonna remember anything, it's like i'm gonna die!"

and the doctors kinda flipped because that effect was supposed to be a secret or something and that i figured it out was strange. . .but one of the doctors with big shoulders and smooth short dark hair hugged me and patted my back and said "don't worry it won't hurt and they'll still have some of your memories" i didn't get it, but before i could say anything else, some doctor stabed me with a tranquilizer.

it was. . . graphic. my perspective switched to third person after they sedated both of us, and zoomed in on what he docters were doing in my open head. they separated teh lobes of the brain, which after a little protest, separated like somwhat-cooked Ramen does. . . with a little boingylooking wiggle. . .and they dug down through stuff, not actually damaging anything, but like the noodles, until they found a little compressed square of brain. it was all very dry. somebody laughed and said, "yep that's it" and they cut this little wire coming out of it! (like. .if ye've ever gutted a computer, those flat ribony wires? it was one of those, only brain-colored)

then they scooped out the brain, all except that little box, and put in another box, plugging a different wire into it.

the next thing i knew, i was a different person, all dazed and cofused like "woa where am i? who am i? what's going ooon???"

then my cat started to meow and i woke up and took a pee.

then i went back to sleep! and suddenly i was on the run!

i think more happened in there, but i've lost that bit of the dream. . .

the next thing i can remember, i'm being drug along by Severus Snape to see voldemort, and i'm protesting like "lemme go, bastard! raaaar!"

and then another lapse in memory, and i'm forcably snuggling at his rudely awakened body and why he's all "what the hell are you doing? go away!" i'm all "nooo i'm scared and tired and i don't know anything but that you seeem familiaaar!"

and then my mum came in and woke me up cause she's leaving for an interview.

i have wierd dreams. but now i wanna draw somebody's brain being worked on. oooh it was sooo vivid.

it's mildly straight, so close yer eyes. ..but holey shit i need to add this to the lists of songs i need to saranade somebody with oneday. . .!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hhm67vUMamg

(that video should be required to watch. GAHhahaha)

current list:
~you are sixteen going on seventeen
~that song from Phantom of the Opera where the bitchy little main girl abandons the Phantom for that stupid anoying pretty boy and they have that duet that actually sounds good (but i can never remember the tittle)
~Past the point of no return (i've done this one. and they answered with the female part. gahahaha i love liking nerds)
~rental cop
~do you take it**

(**=new)

g-gah. . .i think. . . i'll be gone for a few days, or at least tonight. knowing me i'll be better by morning, but who knows.

the bloody website died. and i can't ask what happened to it because one has to log in to ask questions and they won't let me log oooon.

i was sooo exited, too >.>

so. . i'm gonna go draw, and just. . .stay away from the compy. cause the internet really disgusts me at the moment.

(and it's irrational, so ja. i'm sure it will either work out or i'll find a way to fix things, but for right now i'm just gonna pretend like the freaking internet doesn't exist :D)

http://mute-opera.com thanks a bundle, kazix, wonderful server you are.

anyone know of a server that allows adult art, is afordable and won't diiiiiiiiieeeee?! ;_;

*waddles off to draw*

(and i'm not sad, either. just agrivated and mildly flustered.

in other news, i saw brokeback mountain yesterday. it was good, but the sex scene was soooo poorly depicted my ass burns thinking about it. ow ow ow. but ja. and whoever played Inis [sp?] needs to OPEN THEIR FREAKING LIPS ONCE IN A WHILE!!! everytime they went on screne i just. . .stared at their mouth. GODS. >.<)

ok. now that i've done a bit more on the image and checked updates i need sleep.

do this, it's oddly accurate ._. http://www.okcupid.com/tests/take?testid=12721960859055255705

(my results)
the Observer
Test finished!
you chose BZ - your Enneagram type is FIVE.

"I need to understand the world"

Observers have a need for knowledge and are introverted, curious, analytical, and insightful.

How to Get Along with Me

  * Be independent, not clingy.
  * Speak in a straightforward and brief manner.
  * I need time alone to process my feelings and thoughts.
  * Remember that If I seem aloof, distant, or arrogant, it may be that I am feeling uncomfortable.
  * Make me feel welcome, but not too intensely, or I might doubt your sincerity.
  * If I become irritated when I have to repeat things, it may be because it was such an effort to get my thoughts out in the first place.
  * don't come on like a bulldozer.
  * Help me to avoid my pet peeves: big parties, other people's loud music, overdone emotions, and intrusions on my privacy.

What I Like About Being a Five

  * standing back and viewing life objectively
  * coming to a thorough understanding; perceiving causes and effects
  * my sense of integrity: doing what I think is right and not being influenced by social pressure
  * not being caught up in material possessions and status
  * being calm in a crisis

What's Hard About Being a Five

  * being slow to put my knowledge and insights out in the world
  * feeling bad when I act defensive or like a know-it-all
  * being pressured to be with people when I don't want to be
  * watching others with better social skills, but less intelligence or technical skill, do better professionally

Fives as Children Often

  * spend a lot of time alone reading, making collections, and so on
  * have a few special friends rather than many
  * are very bright and curious and do well in school
  * have independent minds and often question their parents and teachers
  * watch events from a detached point of view, gathering information
  * assume a poker face in order not to look afraid
  * are sensitive; avoid interpersonal conflict
  * feel intruded upon and controlled and/or ignored and neglected

Fives as Parents

  * are often kind, perceptive, and devoted
  * are sometimes authoritarian and demanding
  * may expect more intellectual achievement than is developmentally appropriate
  * may be intolerant of their children expressing strong emotions


(http://www.okcupid.com/tests/take?testid=12721960859055255705)

oh my. i have just discovered that not all rap is bad ._.
Atmosphere is a good. . .whatever ye call rap people. do they still count as bands? *shrugs* anyway. . .they. . .he. . .it's good. mmmhm. and Cake, too.

but what's better. . .is 'you are sixteen going on seventeen" because i've. . .fallen into singing it at random again. i say again because i do it every few months. oooh i wanna saranade somebody XDDD

but everyone i know is oooolder than meeeee ;_; i cry emo tears of anguish because this is the only thing even mildly wrong at the moment.

i cry happy tears because there's a chance i'll get to attend a summer program at that . . .college. with sequencial arts. especially after that recomendation Ms. Holder wrote. almost made me cry. gods i love that woman.

aaaaaaaaaaand uh buh that's it? i'm working on lifting the extremely bad habit of chronic procrastination offa myself. by putting off school work and doing the art i've said i'd doooooo.

*reads porn for a bit and sleeeeeps*

BANG BANG GOES THE LOOOOOOOOOOVE TRAAAAIIIIIN~~~~~~<3

GAH the F@#$ing FISH VIDEO!!

http://www.youtube.com/w/kpop?v=_e0zGi5ohp0&search=korean

that was the first korean music-video i'd ever seen. . . way back when. and i just found it again. crap on a crapper. it's good. but. . . it made me cry. again. and i hate kids. so i cry for the FISH! GODS the director of that should win an award.

<3 silly Koreans and their fetish for hitting people with trucks in their music videos <3

anyhow. sorry. no arting got done tonight. . .i became all nastalgic and have been looking up every music-video i could think of. because i've naught known that one can easily gain access to such things before.

._.

i also found http://www.youtube.com/w/Lee-Seung-Ki---%22-I-Said-Your-My-Girl-%22?v=NsWyYc34d74&amp;search=seung%20ki
which is the video that inspired a lot of Yoki/Singa's relationship <3 <3 <3

gods i'm a happy boy at the moment. but that damn fish movie made me cry and now i can't seem to get re-happy.

i wanna find that video with nice graphics and the white room and the veins that turn into vines and and and something about poison but i can't remember who sang it or what it was caaaallled ;_;

. . . i wish we still had the International Channel. *sniffles* i used to watch 'Korean Music Countdown' and that other one they had that was like. . .top 40 international <3 <3 <3 it was THE channel.

bloody government conspiracies to take away the culture in American youth e_e

OHMGwithsugarontop!!

;_; i'm so sorry. but inspiration has struck. . .again. i swear, i'm on a inspiration-high! i've scanned in at least three pictures ever day this past week ;_; and left a lot unscanned. . .i know i was supposed to finish stuff this weekend. . .but. . but. . .

i just read Breath. . .and. . .now i need to do comic pages like woa.

http://breath.se/home.htm

read it. now.

baaaah i r sorry. things will get done eventually!

mute-opera.com is officially mine. though it's not existing yet XD

http://restrictedsection.org/file.php?file=4601 is good. i hate the pairing (snape/sirius snape/lucius) but the plot is amazing, as well as the writing style. . .so i'll let it slide. the ending made me cry. happily. i guess. not really, but i would have if it were a crying-type ending.

XD

haha ok. now that i'm done reading. . .it's time to get to work!! *scurries off to draw like the good little creature he is(n't)*

wao.

i've always had an appriciation for anatomy. especially male. . .

but snot.

something about the PV for "Nightmare" by Sads. . . is beautiful. and it's not even porn!

http://www.youtube.com/w/nightmare-SADS?v=yKn-fQYAZV8&amp;search=Sads

*flabergasted* ye should watch it. just for the amazing male torso. . . gods i wish i were built like that *_*

aaawe how cute. i'm famous ^^;;

http://viewmorepics.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewPicture&amp;friendID=18070297&MyToken=c3ebad62-8993-4617-9fda-2f7d07c5b8ec

*shrugs and laughs*

"We are freaks we follow the code of freaks
We are freaks stand back and that's that
We are freaks we fuck who we please and do what we choose
We're not bad we're not diseased or confused

We are freaks we are butch we are fem
We are freaks look at him look at them
We are freaks I know this guy who can suck his own dick
And my mother has a friend who has 3 tits
T-t-t-true story

We are freaks we follow the code of freaks
We are freaks stand back and that's that
We are freaks we fuck who we please and do what we choose
We're not bad we're not diseased or confused
One of us one of us
One of us one of us
One of us one of us
One of us one of us
One of us one of us
One of us one of us
One of us one of us
One of us one of us
One of us one of us
One of us one of us
One of us one of us
One of us one of us

And then I thought I was a freak when I shaved my head and pierced my dick
Walks like a lumberjack and talks like a lady
With the flannel shirt, steel toe boots, Levi's faded
All hail
She's the king, she's the queen
All hail of the freaks, all the freaks on the scene
From the Bows of the Bowery to the bustle of Bombay
She's the bearded lady of Avenue A
That's the way God planned it
That's the way
That's the way God planned it
That's the way
That's the way God planned it
That's the way
That's the way God planned it
That the way

All hail
She's the king, she's the queen
All hail of the freaks, all the freaks on the scene
From the Bows of the Bowery to the bustle of Bombay
She's the bearded lady of Avenue A
That's the way God planned it
That's the way-ac"

Freaks - Hedwig and the Angry Inch

OMG RENT

we went and saw the Braodway virsion last night. . . it kicked major bum. like. . . MAJOR bum.

all the scenes having to do with Angel were 200% better. . .and. . . and. . .just EVERYTHING.

OOOH lavibohem was SO Sexy ;_; again 200-bazillion times better. and smuttier. the entire play was smuttier.

Angel's Death, for instance. . .was a demonstration on how everyone's passing AIDS around. . .which is basically. . . smut. mmm <3

not to be taken lightly, though. i wanted to curl up and cry. it wasn't a normal oh boohoo someone died . .. it was a feeltheurgetogofetusRIGHTNOW cry. it was pretty funny. everyone in the theatre crying at once. fags and non-fags alike.

oooh so good. all the actors/actresses were different and better than the movie. much more real. but then, that's pretty obvious and should be expected.

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BEFORE THE RENTORAMA

we went in early this time, so we had plenty of time to walk around. . . XD

however, we were trying to go to a drawing gallery in SOHO (which is absolutely fascinating. wanna live there BAD). . .and we thought it was found. . .but it turned out to be there live-action gallery instead!! we were supposed to stay outside and look in at the acting from the windows, but mum and me just waddled in!! xD

kudos to the actor though, he didn't falter for a single moment, which is saying something, cause we were inspecting everything, poking, prodding, mum was asking stupid questions. . .oooh it was horrid. apsolutely mortifying.

but really awesome, too. we were eventually shooed off by an office-worker-person. haha.

XD

and NYC gangsters are a lot nicer then they are around here. . . or maybe we just happened across all the gay ones?? i swear i saw four gangsters walk by us, talking loud enough for me to hear:

"why you always walking in front of me, man?"

"well if i walk behind you, i step on yo shoes. and i don't wanna step on yo shoes, man~"

"alright. dat's fine then, ma~n"

and that was it! XD it was so funny.

i'll probably get shot one day for laughing at people. especially gangsters.

i'm such an pervy idiot XD

my current term paper is on the slippery slope. spacifically how it's used in Fahrenheit 451 and Tommy's Tale; "A Fairy Tale About Fear". . .

but. . . Tommy's tale, as ye mayormaynot know. . . was written by Alan Cumming.

i. . . it. . . it's too much. to get to write 'Cumming' in a term paper. . . i find. . . that while i didn't think about it while writing the rough draft. . there's all kinds of smexual inuendo spewn throughout my paper !!!

the worst is likely, (and i quote directly from the paper) "Cumming comes right out" that paragraph in particular uses the words 'cumming' and 'comes' so many times. . . my english teacher wrote 'WHAT?!' in the margin. . .!!

and i, being the sick bastard that i am, 'm gonna leave it in, too. because it makes perfect sense in the paragraph, and is not gramatically incorrect. . . i will have to remove some of the exessive 'comes' in the paper though. . .

oh this is too much for my humor sensors to handle. . . i'm gonna explode! AAAAH CUMMING!

*snickers and runs off*

gods i love this term paper. i'm gonna fail.

http://www.livejournal.com/community/pornish_pixies/381997.html?view=16270637&style=mine#t16270637

BEST F@#%ING FANFICTION EVER!!!!

. . . i don't care if ye're not into Snape/Draco. . ! XD it's so perfectly cannon. . . and well written. . . and . . and. . .!! <3 <3 <3

the fact that S/M is my "OTP" (one true pairing, so i've learned ;D) . . .and that that is exactly how i precieve their relationship to be. . . oooooh it's goooooooood!

oh, and it's got the ending to HBP how i believed it to be, as well~~~ OOOOH GOOD GODS I MUST DRAW FANNART NOOOOOOOOOOW

aaah the solstice is almost through. 3:23 in the morning, and i just finished my Book Report <3 <3 <3 i fecking love it at the moment. but that's probably due to my inhalation of insense and candle-smelly-goodness for the past. . . while.

haha. welp. gonna go translate Julius Caesar now. *hops off all giddy-like*

hope ye creatures are having a good time, or a good sleep (hopefully a nice dream to go along with a good sleep, if ye are indeed sleeping)

aiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiwooooooooooofles

http://www.heavy.com/heavy.php?videoPath=../content/carnage/flash_video/GayHarryPotter

. . .

YES.

(weasley is our queen, potter is our king. . .)

FINALLY!
the artist who does the 'Neville Sucks' comics made a sight for them so i can jam it into yer heads. . .!!

;_; it's so good i can't express my pain from laughing so hard. . .

http://art.lilyknickers.com/neville/

of course Y!hosting still has more recent stuffs. . . and more in general. myr. ("woofles!!" http://yaoi.y-gallery.net/view/81998/ )

holey crap. i'm bloody crying. a freaking story is making me cry . ..and it's not even sad. WTF?

http://vividly.amiss.org/bellsinthenight.html

. . .i think this Author may be rising the ranks of my mental list of favorites. . . her stuff is different, well written. . .and craponnacracker. . .it gets to me.

AAAH!
oh my FUDGING gods!!!!!!!

http://zakath-nath.joueb.com/images/cool.JPG

http://yaoi.y-gallery.net/journal/silvrain/19420/?offset=9

*cries* no, mista fred and george, butt-humping is GOOD

XD if ye read the comments, ye find out they have no idea what twincest is, and that some fangirl just made them hold up the signs. . . but still *cries tears of laughter*

Weasley cannot save a thing!
He cannot block a single ring!
That's why Slytherins all sing:
Weasley is our King! (queen!!)

Weasley was born in a bin!
He always lets the quaffle in!
Weasley will make sure we win!
Weasley is our King! (queen!)

Weasley is our King! (queen!)
Weasley is our King! (queen!)
He always lets the quaffle in!
Weasley is our King.

(queen? hahaha he is SUCH a woman.)

aiiiiii the best movie EVER!!! i swear it will satisfy the hearts/lusts of het and slash fans alike :heart: :heart: :heart:

no spoilers, cause i'm that kinda jerk (unless ye want, in which message and wheee. dicussion dicussion dicussion!)

*MULTIPLEJOYGASMS*!!!

. . . on a more sombre note. they put me in the bloody ensamble (left-over) section of the musical. and thus i'm thinking about not doing it. buuh.

*beeps and pops back into wired, no sleep for 24+ hours, harrysnotterhigh mode*