boredom taking over
world colappsing
nothing to do
except write to you
mabye you will stop this endless torture
mabye you will pull me through?
or mabye this endless tortur will get to you
i hope you never have to face this dead and lonly fantom race
where all thats good and true
goes down the drain before you





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this is the effect of boredom taking control and never letting go. so don't think im stupid because im so bored i will take that as a compliment

chapter 1
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Mariya walked into the bar in a very loose robe that didn't give anything away her face hidden in the hooded robe she sat down at the bar. Making a gruff gesture, the man behind the bar slid a whiskey glass and a bottle to her. She was a regular. Since the war had started, she had come out of the blue and asked for a whiskey in a manly way so the bartender would not know that she was a girl of 14 years but would think her a young man of 16. The bartender was a man in his late twenties and did not care if a 9 year old troll came in and ordered a vodka or some Indian rum. But that didn't matter; as long as she could get away even for a moment from all that was to be... for her comfort was soon interrupted by a banged door as someone entered the bar.
A seven year old boy came in screaming his head off, “They murdered him! They murdered him!”
"Sam! Sam! the cook said that you'd be here. Where are you?” The boy started to look at the customers one by one. The boy was brown headed and blue eyed. Those blue eyes seemed to burn into your soul if you stared to long. But that was not true. His eyes pierced your very existence and you could not lie to them for you would be afraid the eyes would condemn you.
At last, the skinny feverish looking boy came to Mariya. “You are where you are not allowed!”
“Sam, you have to come with me right now! They umm... did the deed as they have said." Mariya looked at the boy squarely, "Timothy, you know better. You are not allowed in here either for you are scaring these poor people and making them drink more than they have to.”
“I know, but you know I’m right, Sam. And what are you doing here anyway? Is that a rum??"


"No, it's a whisky and leave me be. I just might celebrate his memory by drinkin' anyway. So, I need not worry but you then need to get lost for I may just do something I regret later"


"All right, I’m leaving and will umm.. not vocalize this but you know you can't come home smelling like liquor again!"


"Shut your mouth or I will cut it out! Timothy, go back to the house and leave me be" Mariya said in a dangerous tone. Timothy got the message from the fire burning in her eyes.


He left and Mariya got up and walked towards the counter, paid her debt and left before anyone noticed, for she did not need any one questioning her reality identity


walking in the cold dark and damp night in the mist is not one of the greatest things a lady is warned about but this lady was never warned and never will be for everyone cunsidered her to be a he even though she did not need to tight up her chest she was flat as a door but that only gave her more gourage that she was ment to be a man but came out a girl that was the wrong thing at the wronge time for when her brother was born it would have been better if she was him and he her for they where always switchin rolles he was chubbie so he had a bigger chest then she did witch she thaugh was just fine.

trying to get away from the memories of her father that was dead at this verry moment in time and that tore her heart she really wanted to kill him her self but not have it done for her.

really sucked when she was not even the one who ordered the execution witch even she didn't know about but what really sucks now is that she has to defend her fathers name for the honor of her brother and her family.

so instead of mudering inesence in the drunkin rage that was sturring inside of her she decided that it was time to practice orjump off a wall aspecaliy this wall she was on would do. for when she was walking she atomaticly went up to the surounding wall of the city for spying and calming. it was a rare habit that would take years to brake but she didn't know that so went with her flow. she got up and started foot in front and *swish* foot in front *swish* .that continued till she almost choped a guard in half. flushing she appoligesed and left the safty of the heights of the city.
swiftly she jumped off the wall and headed home in a rage.something needed to happen soon or see whould go crazy mariya thought calming down when she finnaly reached home.

the sun is shinning
the air is screeming
that i'm needing something that now one's got
for if they do i would runn away and never look back
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