Pfffthhthhhh, I feel like an empty baloon.

I dreamt about the world ending again. How weird, its like a regular thing now. I dreamt I was in america somewhere by the sea and a giant red tsunami came crashing towards me and everyone else. There were thousands of people, big crowds ran down streets and got taken away by the red wave, it was pretty scary all I could hear was people screaming and drowning. I managed to escape and get to a multi story car park and was safe. I found an old workshop with some guy in it, he was fixing a train, he told me I could come with him. He claimed that this trian would be our ticket to living through the apocalypse. He had a little girl with him who I think was his daughter, she had a pet monkey. I spoke to her a while until he monkey escaped through a window. She went after it and I heard a scream. An old man came running in with a knife, yelling, I couldn't hear what he was saying and eventually pinned him down so he didn't kill the guy with the train. His wife came in after with a big metal pole, she started hitting me with it. She yelled how the girl outside had been killed and it was all our fault. Her dad broke down in tears and I let go of the old man. The end.

Listen to some of this stuff...

http://cuneiformrecords.com/bandshtml/univers.html

Things are not good. Damn things. I failed an interview fro safeway (bastards! That Tracey will burn in hell!), I'm i'll, boredom is eating me alive, I'm a bloody loner surrounded by couples and my family are doing their best to push me that little bit further over the line. Its amazing how everything can go from being amazing to this in a weekend.

Hahaha! My dad is ranting at my mother and she isn't even in the house, she left about a minute ago! Hahahahahah!

I was just scared that my head would turn into an orange. I still am, please no! I don't want an orange for a head!

Not much has happend lately, last night my friends neglected to aknowlage the fact that I exist. Today I went to chester and purchased three cds and I just finished watching Doctor who. I feel sorry for you people who don't have it!

Do people realise how seasonal they are? No one is single at this time of the year, every year. Accept for me and the usual people of course. I wish I was a swan. They seem to have it good, they don't have silly angsty and confused ways of finding a partner and when they find one they stay with them. No cheating, being unsure of sexuality, being tied down or the like. I want to be reincartnated as a swan.

Old people are loud and this is very annoying, especially in cafés. My theory is that they have bad hearing so they speak louder to level things out like someone wearing headphones. Wales contains alot of old people. This is due to the fact that young people can't afford houses in Wales and they don't want to stay here anyway because there is nothing to do. This makes Welsh cafés stressfull. Today I tried to read a Friedrich Nietzche book in one, it wasn't easy. I'll take some Mr. men books next time!

I apologise for all the ranting. There seems to be alot to rant about at the moment somehow. Maybe I'm just bored. I love you all really.

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People are strange; I once walked into a lesson in a full pirate getup and no one said a word.

Last night I kissed a girl. Shortly after I found out that she was blatantly bisexual and 23 years old. Why is it never simple!?

Arggh! I need to live on my own before my family give me a mental breakdown.

Just writing in my diary to see what the time is...

I just cut my finger on my top hat! Haha, what a strange way to obtain a cut.

Last night I thought I forgot language but it didn't last long/

If you don't listen to Nick Drake, go and do it! Do it right now! Very hard not to like, even if you don't like it you can't deny that its amazing. Kind of like some people don't like some great classical music but they know its amazing.

Arr, I love Led Zeppelin so much, so damn amazing I tell you! Just, amazing! I've been learing "babe I'm gonna leave you" today, such a pretty song. I connected my guitar amp to my stereo and listened to them through my window in the sun a few days ago, I reccomend it to anyone! I love the sun too.

Went to an open mic thing on friday, that was cool, many friends there. The music was alright apart from the guy who completely sabotaged "man on the moon" by REM. I'm glad I didn't go up in my drunkeness although I'm not really that bad. Not anywhere near as bad as that guy at least. Luiz was good, as were bethan and faye. After that we went to Laurence's flat thing, we invited two random people from the pub. We there there a while but it was quite boring, we drank some wine and got more drunk.
Danny and I decided to go to tresspass at a girls private school. Danny wanted to see the archetecture, I wanted to see that and also females. We only saw the archetecture until we heard voices and thought we were being chased. We started to run, first through a forest and then through feilds, then a bog, thats where the running ended. Danny lost his shoe. Then spent the night at peter's.

The last two days have been nice, I feel different and I don't know why. My grandparents came over today and I finally cut my 18th birthday cake. We had some fizzy wine, very dangerous fizzy wine. I opened it through the window, I'm sure that plastic cork is up there orbiting the planet right now. I spoke to Louis about going to Oxford a few minutes ago, that should be happening in about two weeks time. I'm sure there will be much fun over easter.

Bloody illness, being all hot cold and dry. Maybe it was all that nutmeg I smoked last night. Danny gave me a John Cage cd which I'm listening to right now, pianos, nails, rubber bands, good and bad notes etc. Its not comfortable to listen to but good, its like harsh Erik Satie, I listen to Satie when hungover, I think I might die if I try and do the same with good ol' John.

Hunter S. Thompson is dead. He shot himslef in the head last night. If you don't know his work he was an amazing writer and one of the legendary beats.

RIP

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Last night I dreamt that I took photos of John Lennon and then went and watched old trains and all their billowing smoke at a station. The dream was mainly grey, yellow and brown.