[Dark Mousy the Kaitou]'s diary
To Craig: Good luck, bro!! Kick butt out on the ice(not beforehand please -._-.). We're all rootin' for ya back at home. You come back with the gold or else!!
We'll all be watching you if you're on TV! So you'd better rock the judge's world, show 'em what skating's all about!!
Well I can't regret,
can't you just forget it?
I started something I couldn't finish
And if we go down,
we go down together
best friends means,
well best friends means
And I've got a twenty-dollar bill
that says you're up late night starting
fist fights versus fences in your backyard
Wearing your black eye like a badge of honor
Soaking in sympathy
from friends who never loved you
nearly half as much as me
Broken down in bars and bathrooms
All I did was what I had to
Don't believe me when I tell you
it's just what anyone would do
Take the time to talk about it
Think a lot and live without it
Don't believe me when I tell you
it's something unforgivable..
Well I can't regret,
can't you just forget it?
I started something I couldn't finish
If we go down,
we go down together
best friends means,
well best friends means
You never knew
well i never told you...
Everything I know about breaking hearts
I learned from you, it's true
I've never done it with the style and grace you have
But I've made long term plans
based on these mistakes
Broken down in bars and bathrooms
All I did was what I had to
Don't believe me when I tell you
it's just what anyone would do
Take the time to talk about it
Think a lot and live without it
Don't believe me when I tell you
it's something unforgivable
Is this what you call tact?
I swear you're as subtle as a brick in the small of my back
so let's end this call,
and end this conversation
there's nothing worse...
that's right he said, that's right he said it
I swear, you have no idea
The jealousy that became me thinking
that's right he said
that you always had it way too easy
Broken down in bars and bathrooms
All I did was what I had to
Don't believe me when I tell you
it's just what anyone would do
Take the time to talk about it
Think a lot and live without it
Don't believe me when I tell you
it's something unforgivable
Best friends means I pulled the trigger
Best friends means you get what you deserve
Dmk:Heheh, Ironic, ne. best friends means I'll pull the trigger. Not enough time to live a lie and think about. There's so much truth behind it.^^
Bang.
DMK:*runs in circles bawling* Krad sucked Dark into the mirrior! And he's taking over Sato-kun's body! And Dai-chan needs Dark-kun!! and Krad-kun is trying to kill Dai-chan!! And Riku thought that Dai-chan was cheating on her, but I know Sato-kun's secretly in love with him! And that Dai-chan loves Sato-kun back, but he doesn't realize it!!
I need emotional support, my poor Dark-kun won't live for long if Dai-chan doesn't save him...and with Krad on the loose...
*runs away to find [unhealthy obsession]*
January 8th is now officially Wav Wave[unhealthy obsession] Day! Why?! Because his number one fangirl says so!
Everyone tackle hug him and tell him that DMK sent you!
Ladeda!
My mom's being a total bitch. All I get is, I wasn't as fat as you are when I was your age. Then she started yelling at me for what I was eating!!
This is pretty much my constant eating routine:
Breakfast-
Pops Cereal
Sometimes orange juice
Lunch-
Tuna fish sandwich(Wednsdays during school subway, Thurs during school either pizza or hotdog)
small baggie of chex mix
Afterschool snack:
Small Apple(note that I don't always eat said apple)
(insert ice skating time here)
Diet Caffiene free coke
Dinner-
Small portion of whatever we're eating(and when I say small I mean a quarter of what my mom eats and hers fills the entire plate)
small amout of veggies
Desert-
I don't eat it, mom on the other hand eats it every night
So what's she bitching about!! All I get is your so fat! Jesus H. Christ, I eat very little, I skate almost everyday, I do a hard workout on tuesdays, and I'm starting to bike to school. My legs are rock hard from muscle, there's hardly any fat on my arm(I can take a fistful of fat from my mom's arms) and while I admit I have some fat on my tummy I also have abs underneath that, I can hold a push-up position longer than her, I can do more push-ups, do more crunches and situps. I am stonger than her in every way, and no matter how many neato Karate moves she tries on my, she can't escape my grip!!
Is this right?! To be told I'm fat, that I eat too much?!(Often times I have to be forced to eat anything after lunch, and look what I eat for lunch!!) Not only that, but I'm currently depressed which means I am eating much, MUCH less than I normally do. I've taken those fat counting tests, I have less fat than normal 13 yr olds. I also have a wide build, my mom doesn't and is the same size as me(by glancing I mean). She also has a belly that's at least three times the size of mine. >>So I am currently pissed off, depressed, and wearing clothes that are way too big for me(I wear a zero, snug-fit) in clothes.
>>I needed to bitch, thnks for listening. X.X
Written about Friday 2004-12-31
Written: (7266 days ago)
DMK: Toady I learned that AR is obsessed with me. If he were any other eighteen yr old, I'd be scared. But he's Wave Summers, so I'm not.
K:Only hottest person in the whole world.
DMK: K, I lock you in the shiny box with the Mokuba plushies for a reason.
K:^^ Oh?
DMK: You were s'posed to stay there for all eternity!!
*DMK relocks K in the Titanium box*
DMK:Now STAY!
Anyways. I actually read [New Years Revolution]'s diary, and I'm pretty sure it's over completly, either way I decided not to give her her Christmas present, so no Yu-Gi-Oh bag and lipgloss pencils w/ notebooks for her.
*glances at Neko no Hiei(her real cat) who's sleeping on top of Yami Yugi*
DMK: Of course, I think Neko-kun is pretty attached to Yami right now. 0.0
[Update 9:28]
DMK: Okay, Damn [New Years Revolution] to the deepest regions of the thirteenth level of hell. I just read a comment in [~*Tinkerbell*~]'s guestbook(I don't hate you honny^^). It was going on about how ever since fourth grade I've been a controlling bitch. I would just like to say that even though I've had my moments...I'm not. Hell, who let you sit there and talk about DragonBall Z even though I didn't care. Who let you talk about Pan and Allenby even though I DID NOT FUCKING CARE!!
Then I fucking read how I was controlling her while she was talking about commiting suicide!! WTF?!! all I can say is I was fucking worried about her!! She WAS my best friend, who amongst my readers would ever let their friend commit suicide. She said she felt fucking alone, well what do I do, I tell her nicely that I'll quit playing YGO just for her, so that we can spend time together. She talls me not to do that(quite forcefully I might add). So I keep playing. Eventually I got bored and spent time with her. What does she do?!! IGNORE ME!! So I thought, fine, screw her and went back to playing.
Recently I started playing FFI with her boyfriend. all of the sudden I get accused of flirting with him!! AS IF!! Nicholas is nice and all, but I would never go out with him. Underneath his kiss-up self he's a fucking SOB. so we get into a fucking argument and that's that, it's over.
And all I do is stumble across traces of her lies.
That's it, this rant is over, and damn me to hell if I ever mention or talk to that girl again.
STFU Alana Hackes!!
DMK:Today I returned from OC,MD (Ocean City, Maryland.^^) It was kinda boring, most of the shops were closed. And these men wouldn't stop hitt...
Ar:Where?!
DMK:@.@ Nani?! Ar this is my diary...out.
AR: But you're in mine
DMK:-._-. You put me there by your own choice, you have raided my diary.
AR:*sniffle<insert adorable puppy dog eys here>*
DMK: Here, the latest Chobits wallscroll. Stare at the pretty picture and leave me to destroy stuf in peace.
AR:Yay! *flytackleglom
DMK: Good...as I was saying these 3vil people were hitting on me, and not leaving in me to read my book in...0.0 AR please tell me that is not a Nurkoru cosplay outfit(Nurkoro is one of the main characters in CLAMP school detectives, they solve cases...mainly for women).
AR:*grins*
DMK:*inches over to Iuni* He's all yours sweetheart. *runs out of the room screaming*
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DMK:Alright, I have now found a safe and secluded area where I can finish my diary entry and wonder why AR is acting like me...I am the fangirl, he is not allowed to be the fanboy.
*sigh* anyways...the hottub was luke warm, the coffee was horrible and I spent most of my time playing my new PS2.
*Afro squirrel runs by*
DMK:0.o Bluerose senses are tingling...mus
Glompy(the Catboy sidekick):*Hands her the bag with the 'Fangirl'costu
DMK as Fangirl:*glomp
K a.k.a Dark(DMK's alter ego): and so concludes tonights performance, please thank guest stars: [unhealthy obsession], his alter ego Bluerose, his hacker Iuni, his cuteness, Afro squirrel, his fanboy, Glompy the catboy, and...SUGAR!! *joins DMK in the suffocating of Bluerose*
Okay the mood needs explaining (run...) due to my recent Battle Royale book obsession I got the movies(only one has come in and I'm eagerly awaiting the second). So anyways I watched the first BR, and for those of you who have read the book you know that Shuya and Nuriko run away(for those that have read the back of the second movie you know that they form 'Wild Seven' a rebel group), anyways towards the end, instead of getting almost caught by the cops they shared a sentimental moment. The last lines where something along the lines of
Shuya:'Let's run Nuriko-Chan'
Nuriko:'Hai'(yes for you Japanese Illiterates)
Shuya:(narrating)In the end all you can do is run.<insert pretty red Kanji> RUN!!
Note: That isn't exactly what was said, just what I remembered.
Overall it was a pretty good movie, but it only dabbled in the books storyline. All the killing happened too quickly and the rules changed some.I'd reccomend watching it BEFORE you read the book.^^
I just completed Chapter four of Battle Royale^^ Technically that five chapters, since Chapter 0 is a prolouge of sorts.^^ I'm going on vacation tom and I hope I can get a Playstation memory chip for my PS2 so I can save FFVII.^^ I'm addicted.^^
Out of boredom I decided to write a sequel of sorts to Battle Royale. Battle Royale2: The Requiem Continues.
I'm over the Kari breaking up with me incident. This is a very good thing.^^
So tear me open and pour me out...
It's over...Hikari-
Too many memories are left now. I'll hold them dear and keep them untainted by my anger and fear. Six more months of watching a sheath of sorts being given to another sword...Koshim
But no one seems to care about the soul...a sword has a soul, a sword has hopes, what happen when hopes are gone?
I'm speaking in prose, this isn't good. I've sunk even further into depression. It hurts when the one you've protected for years has forsaken you. It hurts even worse when you're attacked by those with no knowledge. Random words of 'I hate you' can make the hurt of goodbye even worse.
This is to you Hikari-dono. Know that I no longer care. If this is goodbye then let us part, but know that I will always remember the good times, and I will always welcome you back.
Battale Royale year five...Remaini
Goddamnit all...I feel hurt, betrayed, forsaken, and lost.
My BFF hates me...she thinks I'm flirting with her boyfriend. And I'm sure she wants me out of her life...I'm quickly sinking into depression mode and I can't get these damned suicide thoughts out of my head...I don't want to commit suicide...at least I don't think, well I do...
I dunno anymore.
I'm just sick of it all, I'm slowly losing the urge to socilaize with people. I just want to be left alone. I'm making up for time without friends by gaming. I've picked up and I've beaten games that I haven't played in years and have never beaten.
My mind's telling me to cry, my body says I can't. My mom's calling me a useless bitch again. She says that if she makes me feel like shit it'll motivate me to do things.
I'm sick and I'm sinking into 'I-don't-care' made. That's where I look like I'm in space and I have no expression on my face. My parents don't know, won't spend enough time to listen. Or they do know...and they don't care.
My dad's given up on me...My mom's cursing me out. I think she's planning on sending me to a shrink...even if she does I probably won't talk to the person.
I'm eating less now...I'm never hungry...My parents are starting to force me to eat.(Trust me I'm not starving myself on purpose. I just don't feel hungry anymore and then I forget to eat).
[Yes, this is posted twice for a reason...>.<]
Written about Wednesday 2004-12-01
Written: (7296 days ago)
Hmmm...Strange conversations.
Dude in my class: Blah, blah, blah, rap, blah, blah, blah, rap...
tk: THE SKY IN MY WORLD IS PURPLE!! *breathes hard*
Hikari: Dude, you okay...?
tk: Do I look okay?
Nich: I hope you like padded walls.
tk: Are the men in the white jackets here to take me already!! Well they won't find me!
Dude in class: The sky in my world is purple.
tk: Stop stealing my world! *slides halfway across the classroom on her chair*
Class:...
Teacher:0.o
*My friend steals my paper *
tk: Give it back.
Friend: Ask nicely.
tk: Give it, please.
Friend: Get down and beg.
tk: Just give it to me, Damnit!
Friend/tk: Dude, this is so wrong. >.<
Nick: Dude, your calculator's wrong.
Me: I know...it's trying to...take over the world!! *punches in random numbers and throws it at him* Meh!
Teacher: shut up and do your math.
Nick:*throws the calculator back while tk's twitching* The guys in the white coats are here to give you your medicine.
Me: No!!! You'll never take me alive!!*falls out of her chair calculator lands on top of her*
(At that point everyone was staring at me and the teacher was pissed...and my calculator still doesn't work T.T)
This one is for Hikari. She said she wants to know what's going on in her friends life...well here goes.
My dad is making me do a ton of math today which really really sucks. I've also been listening to Gackt all day.
My parents are really mad at me for failing my math test and have it in for me. >.<
Speaking of Gackt, I'm attempting to get a hyde cd. Hyde is from l'arc en-ciel for you jrock/jpop illiterates. I'm also attempting to get the movie that stars hiim and Gackt. It's called Moonchild. We will know in a few hours wether I will get it or not.
Let's see. How do I feel today. I hate my parents at the moment and my back hurts. My life really sucks at the moment. >.<
Umm...I'm working on a manga just for school. Which i means I will only draw it in school. It's called PcLover"g"(Pc lover girl) and it's the counter part to Machall(www.machall.co
PcLover"G"
Bending the Rules to Their Fullest
The front cover says the same thing...but also:
Saving the world...
By destroying one Mac at a time
And it's about Me, Hikari and Nicholas, we wanna save the world from Macs...and Joseph, he wants to take over the world with Macs.
Man I feel so bad for Hikari. She got all depressed all of the sudden and it scared me. I think she's happy now, but she won't tell me anything. >.< I really wish she would. It makes me feel really bad when she doesn't...
And a discussion I had with
[Darkening Dream]: What do you mean when you say "YOu laugh because I am different...I laugh because you are all the same"
Me:Just because I'm different(Like different things, do stuff in a different way) from some people they laugh at me and make fun of me...but then I laugh at them because not one of them has an original thought.
DD:And you think that you do honestly?
Me:Actually yes. I'm the girl who walks around in men's clothes and biker gloves. Or anything else weird i can find while everywhere I look I see a bunch of blondes wearing pink mini(and I mean mini) skirts. I'm a brunette by the way, and I do my own thing(well i really conform to the nonconformists)^^ I'm a huge fan of anime, jrock, and Japanese classics, I love computers and music, I play the guitar, I draw...I'll do anything if it appeals to me, while many other people would laugh at me for it and do what the 'popular' kids are doing. I'm a loser and a reject and proud of it.^^
I get laughed at for that, and I laugh at them for caring.
You laughing 'cause I'm different I'm laughing 'cause your all the same...
DD:That is just the thing....all the things you do....with all the weirdness as you say, are done by others your age to...you belong to a clik just like everyone else...I don't care if you are Goth, and most of you don't even know how that originated. I am not trying to cut you down.....But what is different? And how could a person say they are truly different
Me:There is no such thing as different. I told you I conform to the nonconformists which then makes me a conformist!^^ It makes no sense, I know. But your just repeating what I just said.
Oh and, I hate when People call me goth. >.< And as for where the term originated from, What do you want. The label? The Architechture? The time period? I don't particularly like the term goth because it means so many different things.
And no one can really say there truly different... I'd have to get into religion to explain that.
The same thing goes for the term 'Punk'. Punk is suppoased to be the people who do their own thing their own way, the nonconformist type. Which is not possible, because then you are conforming to the nonconformists
If you really wanna know why I have the saying in my house, I saw it on an avator and then later on a T-shirt. I liked it, so I put it up. What it really means to me is that a long time agao people used to laugh at me all the time because I was overweight. Now I've lost that weight and I could kick any of the people who used to beat me up easily. So it's more of remembering what I was, and what I am now rather than saying 'I'm different'. BUt I am different I went from overweight and zero confidence to powerful with more confidence and zero self esteem.^^
I do hang out with the rejects. Why? Because they've always been my friends. They're my REAL friends. Why are we the rejects. Because no one else will hang out with us because of what we like. Stupid, ne?
Well anyone who actually read this is loved by me.^^
Not really a diary entry but I wanted to write it.
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We had spent days looking for her. My angelic warrior...She really had no name but we called her angel...and she had been kidnapped by my Archnemesis, the High Archangel Nirvana of Darkness.
Her squadron had found her first. THey tried everything to stop me from seeing the tortured, mangled form of my lover. They had tortured her, draged her as close to death as an angel can possibly get and kept her alive. They had forced her to fall, hard.
Her left wing had been almost complely severed from her body, all that remained was bone and a few stubborn feathers. Her right wing had been broken in three places and had been pinned to the wall in those three places, and they burned the once white wing to an ugly shade of black.
The mask that she was forced to wear whenever I wasn't around her was broken. A chan was around her neck and the word "Tenshi" meaning Angel that was burned into her skin had been cut out. Her arms where also pinned to the wall. She had daggers and even her own sword sticking out of her body in random places.
"She's been forced to fall Seiketsu, even if we were to awaken her she would not be the angel we once knew and loved." Said one of Angel's men.
"I know, but there is a way." I replied.
"How, sir?"
"Find a mortal bloodline for her to live in. She will need at leat a millenia to heal from the mental tortures she's in. By then this war will be long over and I will have slept to regain my own powers.
"She will awaken when I am needed to battle Nirvana again. That is how we'll keep her alive.'
"Yessir...'
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Tis from a comic I'm drawing.^^
Strawberry fields where nothing is real.
Blood and tears and never ending fear.
Pain and sorrow, hurts to feels.
Hate morals...nothi
Hate the pain that I'm feeling.
Angel, demons, mortals and minions...
in...
Strawberry fields where nothing is real.
I can't believe it. School is starting up again. I HATE school. Except that I get to see [New Years Revolution]-Chan and[€:DemonFire]-kun.
So, besides hating school nothing else is up. I'm trying to decide on whether I should complete the Fushigi Yugi manga series I own or the DN Angel manga series of which I've read the first two books.
I dunno what's wrong with me...Ever since I truned teenager I fel as though I'm walking through a nevering ending circle. An Endless Waltz in three/ four time consisting of Love, Friendship, and Rejection.
My parents get constantly mad at me. I try to avoid them, and so far I'm doing a pretty good job. I like to loose myself on the net though, but then my dad decidedes to go and raise my security level so I now cannot access half the sites I like. The good thing is the sites that I have a social life on I am either a respected MOD (Ph33r /\/\3) and/or I know the webmaster/mist
Written about Monday 2004-05-10
Written: (7501 days ago)
Okay, stuck in head...must sing....
Baby, look at me, and tell me what you see.
You ain't seen the best of me yet.
Give me time I'll make you forget the rest.
I got more in me, and you can set it free.
I can catch the moon in my hand. Don't you know who I am?
Remember my name
I'm gonna live forever. I'm gonna learn how to fly. (high)
I feel it comin' together. People will see me and cry. (Fame)
I'm gonna make it to heaven. Light up the sky like a flame. (high!)
I'm gonna live forever. Baby, Remember my name.
(REMEMBER, REMEMBER, REMEMBER, REMEMBER, REMEMBER, )
Baby, hold me tight, 'cause you can make it right.
You can shoot me straight to the top.
Give me love and take all I got to give.
Baby, I'll be tough. Too much is not enough.
I can ride your heart till it breaks. Ooh, I got what it takes. (fame)
I'm gonna live forever. I'm gonna learn how to fly. (high)
I feel it comin' together. People will see me and cry. (fame)
I'm gonna make it to heaven. Light up the sky like a flame. (fame)
I'm gonna live forever. Baby, Remember my name.
(REMEMBER, REMEMBER, REMEMBER, REMEMBER, REMEMBER, REMEMBER)
FAME!...
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Sorry, had the urge to sing it. ^^