i'm still reely sad that rosy dumped me, and that was lase christmas. i don't think i'll ever get over it. the funny thing is, the day she dumped me is the day i turnd goth i guess sum things reelly do turn out ok in the end naw all i can do is think about the night that wee spent out in the snow, and the fooloing day when i went over and she said she "hated my guts!"

damn i'm tired, i got no sleap at all last night i was at a gig w/ my band and after that i just kinda hung around a while. but hay as long as we are havin' fun, as misrubul as my life is, I honistly don't cair at all. i'm still reely sad about rosey leeving me *wimpers* but i guess she has beter things to do than listin to me talk about my 3 famos relitivs.

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R.E.M. rox dudes and dudets

Tubthumping

We'll be singing
When we're winning
We'll be singing

I get knocked down
But I get up again
You're never going to keep me down

Pissing the night away
Pissing the night away

He drinks a whisky drink
He drinks a vodka drink
He drinks a lager drink
He drinks a cider drink
He sings the songs that remind him
Of the good times
He sings the songs that remind him
Of the better times:

"Oh Danny Boy
Danny Boy
Danny Boy..."

I get knocked down
But I get up again
You're never going to keep me down

Pissing the night away
Pissing the night away

He drinks a whisky drink
He drinks a vodka drink
He drinks a lager drink
He drinks a cider drink
He sings the songs that remind him
Of the good times
He sings the songs that remind him
Of the better times:

"Don't cry for me
Next door neighbour..."

I get knocked down
But I get up again
You're never going to keep me down

We'll be singing
When we're winning
We'll be singing

lonly, tierd, sad, depresed, me

God Called In Sick Today

Aftershave and smoke
And the same unfunny jokes
They say they'll take you "Anywhere
But there"
Believe every half-whispered
Half-remembered lie
Where truth is a luxury
They can't afford to buy

Scapegoat
Looking for a scapegoat

There's always someone else for you to blame

Backed into a corner
He barricades his life
Fastens up the shutters every night
This island is big enough
For every castaway
But most of us are looking round
For someone else to blame

Scapegoat
Looking for a scapegoat

There's always someone else for you to blame

This is the Goodship Lifestyle
All my friends jumped ship
I elect me the captain
This is the loneliest voyage
I've ever been on
Up in the crow's nest -
Over there! I see land!
First mate? There is no First Mate...
This is the Goodship Lifestyle

Sail away from the world

So steer a course
A course for nowhere
And drop the anchor
My little Empire
I'm going nowhere
I'm going nowhere
I'm going nowhere
I'm going nowhere

This is the Goodship Lifestyle
I fly my very own flag
TV dinners for one
At the captain's table
Repel all boarders!
Draw the curtains tighter!
Where's the crew? There is no crew...
This is the Goodship Lifestyle

So steer a course
A course for nowhere
And drop the anchor
My little Empire
I'm going nowhere
I'm going nowhere
I'm going nowhere
I'm going nowhere

(I'm almost broken)

Overwhelmed with a deep repulsion for sights seen so commonly, now I have come to be the walking enmity. Assimilate into a culture of post morality, from what I've seen, I hate humanity. Rot with repulsion. I'll write the world a brand new song. Look upon your bleak creation, but is it truly me that's to be the human blasphemy? I'll set the world on fire and, in burning light I'll write my first love song and I will feel warmth. Hide your eyes in heaven, in the lies. Believe. Relieve. I'll end the world tonight. Overwhelmed with a deep repulsion for sights seen so commonly, now I have come to be a walking enmity, for humanity, the human blasphemy, I'll end the world tonight.

When this began
I had nothing to say
And I'd get lost in the nothingness inside of me
I was confused
And I let it all out to find/That I'm
Not the only person with these things in mind
Inside of me
But all the vacancy the words revealed
Is the only real thing that I've got left to feel
Nothing to lose
Just stuck/Hollow and alone
And the fault is my own
And the fault is my own

I want to heal
I want to feel
What I thought was never real
I want to let go of the pain I've held so long
[Erase all the pain 'til it's gone]
It's gone]
I want to heal
I want to feel
Like I'm close to something real
I want to find something I've wanted all along
Somewhere I Belong

And I've got nothing to say
I can't believe I didn't fall right down on my face
I was confused
Looking everywhere/Only to fin that it's
Not the way I had imagined it all in my mind
So what am I
What do I have but negativity
'Cause I can't justify the
Way everyone is looking at me
Nothing to lose
Nothing to gain/Hollow and alone
And the fault is my own
The fault is my own

I will never know
Myself until I do this on my own
And I will never feel
Anything else until my wounds are healed
I will never be
Anything 'til I break away from me
And I will break away
I'll find myself today

I want to heal
I want to feel like I'm
Somewhere I belong

Somewhere I belong - by Linkin Park
this song meens so much to me because it is exactly what I feel