i love you ash i don't know what i would do without you. youre the moste inportint thing in my life and if i didn't have you i would probibly kill myself. and as my last wish it would be fore you to se me and one hug is all that i would need... i love you and nothing can ever change that, nothing. i hope you reed this i don''t even know y i'm typing this, it's probly because i'm reely sad right now i think i will go to my room and not come out intell the day i die and just play the guitar to pass the time. oh i don't know i'm sad, bord, distrot, tired, scaird, evrything


i love you

to each his own life

those are all i can think of

life is water in the oshen, if even one drop is removed the oshen shrinks

death comes in time don't dwell in it when youre alive

life is short live it when you can

susisde is a perinant solution fore a teporairy proble

i swear if char dies i will not sleep fore the rest of my misrible life! if she thinks her life is that bad she better reed at least one artical that i will poste up here in about a week or so i hope she will be alright

Fallen

Im beging to fall, deeper and deeper in this pain, the hurt and suffer, Im feeling

Nothing will help, im so lost

My world is a mess, everything is lost and upside down

im falling more and more everday

trying to make it day by day

Could i ever be the same? I dont think

Draw

you wanna go, you dont wanna hold on

you wanna let go, you feel like nothing matters

you feel like you dont matter

no one listens, no one cares, why hold on, why let everyone win

you take th object, place it over the skin and you draw'you keep on drawing untill you see red, the drips fall on the floor just like your tears

A shock of pain run threw your body, you feel it only for a min, then its gone, You want to keep drawing, The pain is too much, but you draw anyways

you see a line of red, it spills from your body, it runs onto the floor, soon there is so much red on that

floor but you are to lifeless, your drawings have stopped forever

i'm bord

i have nothing 2 say sept....

RUBBER CHIKAN YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

you know i'm so fuckin' sick of hot people saying that they are ugly! i meen do you have any idea how anoying the fucking negitive people are i mean holey hell these people need more help than a humin can give them!!!

The Vampire Creed


I am a Vampire.

I worship my ego and I worship my life, for I am the only God that is.

I am proud that I am a predatory animal and I honor my animal instincts.

I exalt my rational mind and hold no belief that is in defiance of reason.

I recognize the difference between the worlds of truth and fantasy.

I acknowledge the fact that survival is the highest law.

I acknowledge the Powers of Darkness to be hidden natural laws through which I work my magic.

I know that my beliefs in Ritual are fantasy but the magic is real,

and I respect and acknowledge the results of my magic.

I realize there is no heaven as there is no hell,

and I view death as the destroyer of life.

Therefore I will make the most of life here and now.

I am a Vampire.

Bow down before me.

What is a Satanist?

Satanism is not well defined by anyone, It is different depending on what type of satanism is being practiced. There are four main groups of terms and descriptions that Satanism has been called, but only Religious Satanism is the true religion.


  1. Religious Satanism: This is the recognition of Satan as a deity or a force of nature, not the Chrisitian devil. Serious adults usually practice this, but some followers are teenagers. There are three main traditions including (1) The Church of Satan, (2) The Temple of Set, and (3) The Church of Satanic Liberation. Some other Satanic groups exist today or recently, but they are not as followed as the ones above.

      The number of Satanists is not actually known. A Us Department of the Army pamphlet #165-13 estimated that the Church of Satan had ten thousand to twenty thousand members in the late 1970's. No estimate of this could be accurate because the Church of Satan, the largest group of Satanist, does not release its membership numbers.

      The Satan that Satanist recognize is almost completely different from the Chrisitian devil. Their Satan is pre-Christian, forming from the Pagan image of power, virility, sexuality, and sensuality. Instead of a living deity, Satan is a force of nature. It has nothing to do with demons, Hell, and profound evil.

  2. Gothic Satanism: This is a religion that is profoundly evil and mostly imaginary, in the eye of the public. It was invented during the late Middle Ages, but never existed in an organized manor. It is mainly what people think satanism is, including ritual killing of children, selling of souls to the devil, breaking crucifixes, conducting of black masses, and other abserd ideas. Gothic Satanism was invented by the Christian Church. There are a few anti-Christian believers who get their rituals from anti-Satanic writings, that do worship the Christian devil, Satan. They do not, however, commit criminal acts or abuse other people.

  3. Satanic Dabblers: These are rebellious teenagers or young adults who practice a blend of elements taken from Religious Satanism, Gothic Satanism, ceremonial Magick, and other sources of ritual practices. This is usually only practiced for a short period of time by the teenagers, until they outgrow it. A number of followers is impossible to obtain because they don't practice at an oganized level. They occasionally do crimal activities on a small level, such as cemetary vandalization and making graffiti of Satanic symbols. Rarely, a few have been know to sacrifice animals.

  4. Other types of Satanism: To justify their horrendous acts, Serial murders will occationally claim to be Satanists. However, police investigations reveal that they don't know much about the religion. Child molesters sometimes abuse children in a Satanic setting as a means of scaring and controlling the victims. These molesters are not acctually satanists, they just use the idea of Gothic Satanism to further their criminal activities. Heavy metal rock bands pretend to be satanists to gain notoriety to sell their records.

the dark side of my mind will overcome in a mater of days. all enimese bewairy of my wrath for you shall be consumed in a life worce than death

my wize words to all the hot girls out there are

Save water, take a shower with me

being a vampire dos not meen that you can't cross runing water, you can't look at croses, you don't have a reeflection, and you cant look be neer silver, no all of those are silly myths and lor. no vampireisim is infact a religon. it's like wicca and satinisum combined. no we do not bite, or kill we are pesful people un like most mortal beeings. the way a vampire dies is, however with a steak thrue the heart but not just any wood it has to be burnt cherry, but that will kill the sole. a vampire dose have a sole you know we are not little walking devals. no we are simply emortal soles traped in a mortal body just like any animal in any of all 3 worlds. we don't drink blood because we live of it alone no way. a vampire drinks blood because that is how the life force stays alive. and we don't bite because that would be to painful fore the willing blood giver, a reel vampire makes a small cut with a rasor blade or a silver knife on the sholder or back and suck out just a small bit of blood. the only reason we suck the blood is because of the sucking sensation calming the minde. thats all 4 now

being a vampire dos not meen that you can't cross runing water, you can't look at croses, you don't have a reeflection, and you cant look be neer silver, no all of those are silly myths and lor. no vampireisim is infact a religon. it's like wicca and satinisum combined. no we do not bite, or kill we are pesful people un like most mortal beeings. the way a vampire dies is, however with a steak thrue the heart but not just any wood it has to be burnt cherry, but that will kill the sole. a vampire dose have a sole you know we are not little walking devals. no we are simply emortal soles traped in a mortal body just like any animal in any of all 3 worlds. we don't drink blood because we live of it alone no way. a vampire drinks blood because that is how the life force stays alive. and we don't bite because that would be to painful fore the willing blood giver, a reel vampire makes a small cut with a rasor blade or a silver knife on the sholder or back and suck out just a small bit of blood. the only reason we suck the blood is because of the sucking sensation calming the minde, thats all 4 now

I JUST GOT BACK FROM DISNY-WORLD!!!!!!!
it was so fun i went on:
test track(x2), the twilight zone tower of teror as seen on my house(x9), rockin' rooler-coster(x1)(it broke down so i couldn't go on it agan), space mountin(x2)(i had 2 leve), old thunder mountan(x1), old splash mountan(x1)(it kinda creeped me out w/ all the happy animals), pirats of the caribein(x1), mishin space(x1) and that's about all the rides i did, oh yah and the mailstrum and the mexico ride at epcot.
   i also did some of the shows like the indiana jones spectacular, the tiki room, and the "sounds dangeris" drue cairy thingie.
   i also went to a fierworks boat ride one night. it was so much fun!
   i went to down town disny and plesher island almost evry night and saw concerts and stuf like that. i got to go to disny-quest and play free arcade games and bumper cars and verchual reeality games and other cool things like that
  it was sooooo much fun!