(THE FOLLOING IS A MESSAGE I SENT TO ONE OF MY FRIENDS IN THE MIDST OF AN INCREDIBLY LONG CONVORSATION WITH MY FRIEND WHO WAS ON THE PHONE WITH MY OTHER FRIEND)


sorry but if you have the time i reely need to tell someone and seing as youre like the onlyone who i have any chance of geting to lisin i figured i might tell you...



my friend brittany(but evryone calls her -b-) looks like she is about to comit suiside, actuly fore all i know she could be des now as i'm telling you this. i was talking to her yesterday and she seemed to be alright but then tonight i got an IM from my friend tabbi that she was gona comit suiside and as i was trying to help keep my -b- alive my mom comes over and tells me i hafto say goodbye and go to bed and evryone knows that a parent is the last person you want to involve if youre friend is about to kill herself, so i just say no but evenchualy i get off because tabbi (who i was talking to) had to hang up so i got off right and me being of the vampire religon was gon'a cast a spell of protection fore her =, and to do that i needed salt but my bitchin' mom(who if i havn't alrady told you is not my reel mom infact my friends are all the family i have so if one of them dies it's harder then if one of the people i live with dies) wouldn't let me have any because she hates my guts all the way to hell and thinks i need salt to put out a fire that i might start because i usto start small controled fires in tin coffe cans in my room and now i have absolutly no way of knoing if my friend (who as i said meens alot to me because my friends are the only reel family i have) is alive or not or even if she will make it thru the night and i'm so scaird and sad and distrowt and i reely needed to tell someone so thank you fore lisning thats all

heres a reely bad poim by me...


y must i be the one,
the one who stands alone,
the one who crys alone,
the onw who lives alone,
the one who dies alone,
y must i be the one,
the one without love,
the one without life,
the one without happynes,
the one without sleep,
y must i be the one who lives but is not happy,
y must i ve the one who crys but may not die,
y must i be the one who can't sleep nor can be awakend,
y y must i be me

i love you ash i don't know what i would do without you. youre the moste inportint thing in my life and if i didn't have you i would probibly kill myself. and as my last wish it would be fore you to se me and one hug is all that i would need... i love you and nothing can ever change that, nothing. i hope you reed this i don''t even know y i'm typing this, it's probly because i'm reely sad right now i think i will go to my room and not come out intell the day i die and just play the guitar to pass the time. oh i don't know i'm sad, bord, distrot, tired, scaird, evrything


i love you

to each his own life

those are all i can think of

life is water in the oshen, if even one drop is removed the oshen shrinks

death comes in time don't dwell in it when youre alive

life is short live it when you can

susisde is a perinant solution fore a teporairy proble

i swear if char dies i will not sleep fore the rest of my misrible life! if she thinks her life is that bad she better reed at least one artical that i will poste up here in about a week or so i hope she will be alright

Fallen

Im beging to fall, deeper and deeper in this pain, the hurt and suffer, Im feeling

Nothing will help, im so lost

My world is a mess, everything is lost and upside down

im falling more and more everday

trying to make it day by day

Could i ever be the same? I dont think

Draw

you wanna go, you dont wanna hold on

you wanna let go, you feel like nothing matters

you feel like you dont matter

no one listens, no one cares, why hold on, why let everyone win

you take th object, place it over the skin and you draw'you keep on drawing untill you see red, the drips fall on the floor just like your tears

A shock of pain run threw your body, you feel it only for a min, then its gone, You want to keep drawing, The pain is too much, but you draw anyways

you see a line of red, it spills from your body, it runs onto the floor, soon there is so much red on that

floor but you are to lifeless, your drawings have stopped forever

i'm bord

i have nothing 2 say sept....

RUBBER CHIKAN YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

you know i'm so fuckin' sick of hot people saying that they are ugly! i meen do you have any idea how anoying the fucking negitive people are i mean holey hell these people need more help than a humin can give them!!!

The Vampire Creed


I am a Vampire.

I worship my ego and I worship my life, for I am the only God that is.

I am proud that I am a predatory animal and I honor my animal instincts.

I exalt my rational mind and hold no belief that is in defiance of reason.

I recognize the difference between the worlds of truth and fantasy.

I acknowledge the fact that survival is the highest law.

I acknowledge the Powers of Darkness to be hidden natural laws through which I work my magic.

I know that my beliefs in Ritual are fantasy but the magic is real,

and I respect and acknowledge the results of my magic.

I realize there is no heaven as there is no hell,

and I view death as the destroyer of life.

Therefore I will make the most of life here and now.

I am a Vampire.

Bow down before me.

What is a Satanist?

Satanism is not well defined by anyone, It is different depending on what type of satanism is being practiced. There are four main groups of terms and descriptions that Satanism has been called, but only Religious Satanism is the true religion.


  1. Religious Satanism: This is the recognition of Satan as a deity or a force of nature, not the Chrisitian devil. Serious adults usually practice this, but some followers are teenagers. There are three main traditions including (1) The Church of Satan, (2) The Temple of Set, and (3) The Church of Satanic Liberation. Some other Satanic groups exist today or recently, but they are not as followed as the ones above.

      The number of Satanists is not actually known. A Us Department of the Army pamphlet #165-13 estimated that the Church of Satan had ten thousand to twenty thousand members in the late 1970's. No estimate of this could be accurate because the Church of Satan, the largest group of Satanist, does not release its membership numbers.

      The Satan that Satanist recognize is almost completely different from the Chrisitian devil. Their Satan is pre-Christian, forming from the Pagan image of power, virility, sexuality, and sensuality. Instead of a living deity, Satan is a force of nature. It has nothing to do with demons, Hell, and profound evil.

  2. Gothic Satanism: This is a religion that is profoundly evil and mostly imaginary, in the eye of the public. It was invented during the late Middle Ages, but never existed in an organized manor. It is mainly what people think satanism is, including ritual killing of children, selling of souls to the devil, breaking crucifixes, conducting of black masses, and other abserd ideas. Gothic Satanism was invented by the Christian Church. There are a few anti-Christian believers who get their rituals from anti-Satanic writings, that do worship the Christian devil, Satan. They do not, however, commit criminal acts or abuse other people.

  3. Satanic Dabblers: These are rebellious teenagers or young adults who practice a blend of elements taken from Religious Satanism, Gothic Satanism, ceremonial Magick, and other sources of ritual practices. This is usually only practiced for a short period of time by the teenagers, until they outgrow it. A number of followers is impossible to obtain because they don't practice at an oganized level. They occasionally do crimal activities on a small level, such as cemetary vandalization and making graffiti of Satanic symbols. Rarely, a few have been know to sacrifice animals.

  4. Other types of Satanism: To justify their horrendous acts, Serial murders will occationally claim to be Satanists. However, police investigations reveal that they don't know much about the religion. Child molesters sometimes abuse children in a Satanic setting as a means of scaring and controlling the victims. These molesters are not acctually satanists, they just use the idea of Gothic Satanism to further their criminal activities. Heavy metal rock bands pretend to be satanists to gain notoriety to sell their records.

the dark side of my mind will overcome in a mater of days. all enimese bewairy of my wrath for you shall be consumed in a life worce than death

my wize words to all the hot girls out there are

Save water, take a shower with me