I feel it's time for a new entry

So far, work kind of gets in the way of social life.....
but    what really gets in the way  is being grounded

from driving......

not a lot of people i know have a car... and they cant come get me because im in the boonies

school gets in the way..... my weekends are actually pretty open   untill 5 oclock.....then work........

ever have your heart opened.... you know   where you actually think you love someone, but always denied love like that could exist to you........

then you found out you were right...... but then something happens..... small but something  and your heart "door" kind of opens again.....

curiosity kills cats...... but i am not a cat

Last night I started working with customers......
thank god none of them were grouchy.... infact most of them were quite friendly and accepting of my mistakes and said i had to learn sometime.... made me laugh a bit  a couple times i felt like crying   but its stupid to cry over spilled milk or chicken or ketchup or forgetting rolls... or an extra side.... .......or forgetting to repeat the order... the list can go ooooon and ooon.

hopefully ill have better luck friday....and can memorize this menu......

ooo and schools about to start..... i have so many books to read..... and all these hard classes......how the hell am i gunna make it through the year

i barely made it through last year

Well today i went to the mall w/ my mom.........
we looked at old fossil's clothing for my mom
i bought so addidas goodyears shoe's
and we went by hot topic

i found some nintendo panties that i wanted and a belt buckel       
    but thats not the embarrassingly funny part.
its the part where i find these earing's i've been dying to have.   

I find these cute earings and i decided to show them to my mom....









"ABSOLUTLY NOTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" she YELLED as loud as she could....

my mouth just about dropped(or did) and i started to look around the store and saw people laughing and trying to hold in the laugh out of politeness.....

I too felt like laughing out of embarrassment.

My mom meanwhile dissapeared into the rack of clothing, leaving me standing there stunned.

I felt like someone on those comedy TV show's who's parents were yelling at the kid to make the audience laugh.

it worked! ill say

eventually my mom sneaked out of the rack of clothing and was all red in the face and i calmly explained that
the earing's werent really gaged.   they just looked that way....... she was saying "theres no way" but i pulled the earing apart and showed her........
and out of embarrassment she decided to get the earings for me anyway.

well.... thats the event for my day.....

Dont you love it when unexpected things happen......
theres a certain .... excitement that flows through your veins,body that just makes it so hard to bear..... you just have to go with the flow. Flow it must for the good or the bad....   never forget the summer flings or the boys or girls of summer......
it will be something to lecture your children, friends children, your grand children.....or someone elses kids about..... yea yea....

i can see you, your bronze skin shining in the sun--
I can tell you our love will stilll be strong after the boys of summer have gone!-DJ Sammy- Ataris-OLD PEOPLES BANDS TOO

when ever i think of him
i see myself jumping off a building
getting shot in the head
him getting shot in the head(that was quite pleasent)
and dying.

??? whats going on in my morbid head???

I wish i was pretty, i wish i was someone else. someone else that doenst care... someone else that could never get hurt.......im sick of crying.....im sick of this thing called love..... sometimes i wish i could take away all my past bf's and go back to my first love....but thats impossible.

all the bf's after have just crushed my heart....and my new one. i really hope he doesnt.... he doesnt sound like he will...... but then again..... they all do.... not intentionally.....but they do....over and over

My heart gets broken by one, saved by another, and could possible be taken by someone else..... how can it get so confusing so quick. i dont know what to do.

i dont want my heart smashed everytime i give it out...please dont break it.....

Yea Robbie and me broke up.....i dont fit in his life..... i never did so what i was thinking..... god only knows.....
the only male i can trust in my life   is my dog.......yes..... he's there for me....he gives me unconditional love.... hes cute.... he's playful.... and he doesnt get tired of me.... he doest criticize me....

i wish my dog would turn into my prince... god knows any guy wont be that good to me...... i can only hope for 2nd best