Blackest Blue
It's a feeling of eternal low
That's brought about with a blow,
A blow to the heart or to the face.
Is there anything but this forsaken pace?
You bring about the blackest blue,
You may wonder but it's all true.
Every word you say stabs at the heart,
Can you give no peace in part?
It nulls every feeling in the body
To see someone act so gaudy.
You play an unforgivable role
To lead away the innocent soul.
You bring about the blackest blue,
You may wonder but it's all true.
Every word you say stabs at the heart,
Can you give no peace in part?
Can't you for once see all
The damage and pain caused for all?
To ride away on a great white stallion,
And ignore that you offer this great bullion.
That would be my greatest wish,
Greater then to swim amongst the fish.
You bring about the blackest blue,
You may wonder but it's all true.
Every word you say stabs at the heart,
Can you give no peace in part?
And end this blackest blue...
Well, today was better. Justin had to take a quiz or test during lunch, so I sat and talked with Katie, a night student I know that was making up a class. Ofcourse two girls talking, we were talking about guys, specifically guys around the campus we thought were nice, or cute, or hot, some happened to be staff members. Well, one of the male staff members, not one we were discussing, thankfully, came over to talk to us. When he sat down he asked us what were discussing, and after laughing we told him. And he actually suggested I ask Mark out! o.O He said it wouldn't be too big of a deal since I graduate in like 2 weeks. I pointed out I was leaving for Stanley right afterwards, and so he said to just go on one date. Oh my gosh! I feel so embaressed, I hope he keeps his mouth shut, or I'll kill him.
Well....Let's just say I spent lunch curled up at Justin's side. And I am now extremely pissy and moody. Today did not go well, and my Russian class just agrivated things even worse! My heart feels torn, and my soul is on the verge of falling off a cliff. Ain't life grand?
Katheryn
You've left me alone
I have a broken soul
How am I to continue
Living with this toll
My soul and your's
Were always as one
Now you are gone
And I feel you won
I wish you could
Come back to me
But you have gone
And let me flee
It has been almost six months since the time of Katy's death. I can feel the connection getting stronger again. Let's just hope that tomorrow everything runs smooth, and the weight doesn't cause any unneeded trouble.
Happy Beltane, Everyone! A little poem for the Beltane night.
Beltane
The moon rises high
The fires lit blood red
The goddess looks down
Her children all led
To the fires' circle
Where unions made sacred
The scarifice is made
The blood hot is shed
Couples dance and sing
Life is blood taken
New life is created
Spring' height shaken
Come to the fires
Play by my side
There is a union
Waiting, don't bide
Remembering a Time
I remember a time when you stood by my side.
I remember a time when you promised to stay there.
I remember a time when you told me you had to go.
I remember a time when I pleaded with you to stay.
I remember a time when you packed your stuff to leave.
I remember a time when I hugged you goodbye.
I remember a time when you kissed my cheeck.
I remember a time when you came back for a stay.
I remember a time when you said you'd came back.
I remember a time when you tried to make me jealous.
I remember a time when you said you'd never come back.
I remember and that is all...
Another Gerald poem. There are a lot for him.
Promises
Promises are what hold friendships together,
Without them no one can survive in this untamed world.
What happened to the time when you promised
That if I would give you a second
You would tame my wild heart?
What happened to the time when you promised
That you would always be there for me
In times when I needed you the most?
Well that time has come,
And where are you when I need you?
You were my one true friend,
But I guess what the world has to say is true,
No friendship can last forever.
Can the only friendship that lasts
Be the one made with someone not of this world
One time you said you loved me,
But how can that be true
If you don't keep the promises you made?
But no matter what you decide
I will always be there for you.
Times are tough and we all need each other,
We must help each other through thick and think.
That is what I am determined to do, evem if you will no.
I wrote this to Gerald a few years back. I'm so glad he's back. I love him more then anything.
Today is not one of them
He is sitting alone
Just off a coral-tree-sha
At this excellent moment in his life
He looks a grave
Because he is pondering a different time
Constant assault of images
And the raise of a troubling question
Was he ever that guy
He turns very quiet
And seems very ill at ease
He is gone, somewhere else
He has become an artifact of fear
He must bear this cost
It has let us down
It persists
Today is not one of them
Ok, it has been almost a year since my last diary entry, and a certain someone has encouraged me to start writing again. I don't know what on...but I will try....hhmmmm.
*wanders off to find note book*
Strangeness
His touch feels like your's
Your touch feels like his
It is something confusing
Wouldn't it be strange
If you were both the same?
A winged one I love so
That prances through waves
Waves of water, waves of cloud
A mighty winged horse
Wouldn't it be strange
If it were all so real?
A castle in the clouds
A palace by the sea
A place where gods rule
A place where kings abide
Wouldn't it be strange
If I could live there?
Two people who are one
A fantasy creature real
My castle in the clouds
My dreams of things to be
Wouldn't it be strange
If all my dreams were true?
My ticket finally got approved, I have my library! YA!! *dances for joy* go check it out. http://elfwood
I just noticed my ticket is locked, and I will soon know whether or not my library will be open with this ticket, which it should. Keep watching, I should have my library link any day now.
Well, I decided to put my story on my home-page, since I can get it up on there faster. I will still put them up on Elfwood, but they will also be on my home-page.
Ok, still waiting for approval on the prologue and one poem, but I got started on Chapter 1, and accidentally saved it as chapter 2, oops, gotta go back and rename it.
I finally got my prologue uploaded, and a poem, I will get the link to my library up soon.
Ok, Gotta get that transfer done. Must get story up!!...
Well, not much is going on. I don't have to work this weekend, working part time oh well, So we plan to going
camping, somewhere down south, we aren't sure of where yet. Still working on getting my story in .txt format.