My heart hurts today
   
     It has been the most awful summer...
     tied and tethered; no freedom.

Oh her words... Jay bird:

I would love to sit and collect dust with you, dear prince.
And carve our happily ever after into these ivory paged story books.
If such an existence ever took a breath in time.


I am pulsating with trees.
Anger,
A longing.
A helpless want to clutch you tight against me.


Footsteps leading away.
From havens beneath and between strong arms.
A place of old declarations, a map of hearts
Dreams.
These escapes in bright light, heat, sweet sips of summer.
And your smell.
Branding my senses, all you. All you and your epic fire.

Our flame…
Dying out.

To hang in confusion
Between hate
And adoration
Worship
And infidelity.
An asylum of thoughts with legs and spurs
A tangle of many bonds.
One could never sort out.

It is this wheel I glue myself to
Mulling and blocking out
A past i do not want to accept has past me by.

It is with this redundancy I die,
With no patience.

OMG!
Yesterday "hopeful" told me that Alex [africa4me] had been banned.
I couldn't imagine...such a humble spirit is he.
Spamming is listed on the house of my friend...still, i could not think why.
I just opened a message from Alex at Myspace...it was one of those silly chain letters...an especially silly one. But it mentioned St.Jude, and promised luck. Poor Alex...i think it said to send 28 copies!

Then i got Alex's next message...he asked if it had worked...if i got the good luck he sent me.

Such Irony...the most innocent person i know. He believed what someone sent him.He tried to improve his living situation, and to help others, and he got banned from Elftown instead.

Sometimes i think how wonderful Elftown is...like having the very world in your hands... But when something like this happens i remember that noone really does know you out here... A simple conversation could have cleared the misunderstanding...but the world is deaf.

I am moving back home tomorrow (friday)...it may be awhile till i have the net.
I'll miss all my dear friends...and see ya soon :) Rock on!!!

On Thursday i'm having surgery on my right arm.
I think it may be a long time till i can be online again.
That bums me out, because i'll really miss my friends here.

Jack says he'll take dictation, hehehe, but i don't know how that would work out :)

So if anyone wonders where i've gone...it will be a temporary absense. You take care :)
x0xx0x0x0x0x
Janet Rae

I found this "lovely entry" in [Remos Page]:

came across this i like it

Dear Good-looking guys,

Thanks for ruining things for us average-looking guys. You, like all men, will tag pretty much anything female. So you go out to bars and other social venues and you go for the low-hanging fruit. You go for the average-looking girl. Why? Because they are easy and don't give you half the shit that hot women give.

So what's the big deal? The big deal is that average girls don't know their place anymore. They suddenly think that they are hot just because they have been banged by a hot guy. They are wrong, and they do not know it. We average guys, however, do know it. We know that the average girl -- in the long term -- is out of your league. We know that she is in our league, the league of the average. But she does not know that.

So the average girl goes on thinking she is hot and holding out for a hot guy to spend the rest of her life with. Yes, it's great for the ego of the average girl. She bangs a hot guy every now and then, and she really thinks she is the shit. No one told her, though, that any guy (hot or not) will bang any average girl. Sadly, the average women develop this "I'll never settle" mentality. Average guys are suddenly not an option for them, leaving us average guys out in the cold. The genuine hot girls, of course, are not an option for us, so that leaves us with the fat chicks. Thanks. Thanks a lot, hot guy. Meanwhile, the really hot chicks are sitting around dissing us and waiting for you to come talk to them. (And we can only imagine the torture that the fat guys are going through as we average guys are forced to mack on their women.)

So do the social scene a favor -- stick with your own kind. Leave the average girls to us, and stop creating delusions of grandeur in their minds. The average chick is our niche. We work hard enough as it is for the average girl. Now you go work hard to bag the hot chick. Don't be afraid of a little work.
Heh, when i expressed my feelings on the sexist drivel ,[Remos Page] wasn't able to discuss it. Heh, he just ended our relation and ran away!
My opinion of his entry is of a sexist ass, that puts girls in labels like piles of meat. So all of you Remo lovin' girls...get ready to be treated like a doormat!!

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