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Written about Wednesday 2007-08-22
Written: (6301 days ago)

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  ....And how will it be then?
  Shall i set you into your boat with liquer
  and a bob marly pipe; and send you into that good night?

           Please Stay.

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Written about Thursday 2007-08-16
Written: (6308 days ago)

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Oh No! no no no no

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Written about Tuesday 2007-07-31
Written: (6324 days ago)

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      My heart hurts today

     It has been the most awful summer...
     tied and tethered; no freedom.

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Written about Tuesday 2007-06-19
Written: (6365 days ago)

June 19

Over this and under that, butter between bread, legs between legs, and around and around, up but not down, smiles and frowns, everything calm everything bright, convincing someone that things are alright..., You know that its dark, you're smelling the fear, wanting , such yearning to get out of here...stuck in the headlights like some frightened deer, a lifetime of learning tells you run-do not stay, you never expected to turn out this way...go now,don't sleep, you're in way too deep,---so over the border and through many towns, only rest when you have to sit down, follow your heart, get to that place, where breathing is possible,where life returns grace.

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Written about Friday 2007-06-01
Written: (6384 days ago)

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Oh her words... Jay bird:

I would love to sit and collect dust with you, dear prince.
And carve our happily ever after into these ivory paged story books.
If such an existence ever took a breath in time.

I am pulsating with trees.
Anger,
A longing.
A helpless want to clutch you tight against me.

Footsteps leading away.
From havens beneath and between strong arms.
A place of old declarations, a map of hearts
Dreams.
These escapes in bright light, heat, sweet sips of summer.
And your smell.
Branding my senses, all you. All you and your epic fire.

Our flame…
Dying out.

To hang in confusion
Between hate
And adoration
Worship
And infidelity.
An asylum of thoughts with legs and spurs
A tangle of many bonds.
One could never sort out.

It is this wheel I glue myself to
Mulling and blocking out
A past i do not want to accept has past me by.

It is with this redundancy I die,
With no patience.

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Written about Saturday 2007-05-19
Written: (6397 days ago)

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OMG!
Yesterday "hopeful" told me that Alex [africa4me] had been banned.
I couldn't imagine...such a humble spirit is he.
Spamming is listed on the house of my friend...still, i could not think why.
I just opened a message from Alex at Myspace...it was one of those silly chain letters...an especially silly one. But it mentioned St.Jude, and promised luck. Poor Alex...i think it said to send 28 copies!

Then i got Alex's next message...he asked if it had worked...if i got the good luck he sent me.

Such Irony...the most innocent person i know. He believed what someone sent him.He tried to improve his living situation, and to help others, and he got banned from Elftown instead.

Sometimes i think how wonderful Elftown is...like having the very world in your hands... But when something like this happens i remember that noone really does know you out here... A simple conversation could have cleared the misunderstanding...but the world is deaf.

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Written about Friday 2007-04-27
Written: (6419 days ago)

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I am moving back home tomorrow (friday)...it may be awhile till i have the net.
I'll miss all my dear friends...and see ya soon :) Rock on!!!

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Written about Tuesday 2007-04-10
Written: (6436 days ago)

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On Thursday i'm having surgery on my right arm.
I think it may be a long time till i can be online again.
That bums me out, because i'll really miss my friends here.

Jack says he'll take dictation, hehehe, but i don't know how that would work out :)

So if anyone wonders where i've gone...it will be a temporary absense. You take care :)
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Janet Rae

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