20:24 — I'm up to my neck with study stuff and I have no idea what to do. I guess the best thing I could do now is study independently some stuff and just try to pass the damned exams. Crap, my mix or realism, skepticism and no absolute truths is really stressing, but apparently I can't convince myself of any other way. ...Which would totally violate my current mix way too much anyway. I'm strange, yeah. Sigh. And that bloody extended math!
Tired.
Today, I helped my dad to cut down a tree in our yard, just outside my window. Its leaves kept dropping into the rain drain on the roof and blocking the water's way. I wouldn't have wanted to cut it, but well. I had fun climbing up the tree, tying the string, sawing off branches and pulling the tree into the wanted direction.
00:22 — I saw "The Hitchhiker's Guide To The Galaxy" today. I liked it.
I have also been very depressed today, or yesterday. Yet it doesn't make me think anything differently or anything. I guess I've also been tired. This is strange, yet ordinary.
10:58 — So I noticed a weird pattern in my dreams. I had a dream last night. I can't believe it was about merfolk and their breeding habits. Well, that's not the point. When I ended up in water (for some reason I didn't seem to be with the merfolk, I was more like a cameraperson), I was there for a while and then started falling. Now that is the point. I've had dreams where I'm in water and start getting pulled down at great speed. And that's yet not the most important thing. Every time, I never even fight because I like the feeling of getting my lungs decompressed! XD Then I wake up. I guess in real life I stop breathing or something. But damn that decompressing feeling is awesome. So much for regular dreams where you fall.
12:13 — I saw Fantastic Four yesterday. It was good :D
22:21 — So, today I went to get [Isilando] from the Helsinki airport. You know, the usual. I had a chocolate bar in my pocket and it melted, but it solidified once we were back home. Enough, anyway. It rained in about the same place both ways, except that when returning, it was about thrice as hard and I had to slow down from 120 km/h to 80 km/h.
01:03 — I have to add to my Ropecon memories. :P First of all, I actually met [Sarde] and [Plunderbunny]. Yeah, that was about it for meeting people. I saw a person walking around with a nice big purple tentacle. I also saw a group of ninjas abusing a big Spider-Man doll. I guess the most memorable one was a person dressed up as some skeleton warrior (well, just the huge skull and Dimmuburger or something written on the front) and going around saying "Iiiso hali!" ("biiig hug!") to people, hugging them and stroking their heads. XD
I sort of do hope that realism is just a passing fad.
20:56 — Ropecon's over for me. The people in costumes were worth the whole of it, again. XD Maybe some day I'll actually remember to bring a camera along. And I like Johanna Sinisalo's attitude.
19:44 — Well, I saw Sin City. And... yeah.
23:01 — I should be sleeping because I need to get up at about 6:30 tomorrow so that I can drive to Ropecon. I'm thinking I'll meet at least three people I know from the net... whee.
Huh. Sin City was good... sort of... but there was something that bothered me or something along those lines. And it just started feeling silly. O_o With luck, I'll have a nice nightmare. Could use one, at least.
21:27 — It's somewhat amazing how much IRL conversations get better when you just don't (have to) care about inconvenient pauses in between speaking. Of course, since it's about me, that results in a LOT of inconvenient silences. I must be talented or something.
01:23 — I can't believe it. Just THINKING makes me use up enough energy to heat my body up so that I'll be nearly dead for a few seconds. I drove my mom to Turku and back, and my room wasn't even cooler when I got back. I fucking hate summer. It's been the worst bloody damned summer ever. Not only is the heat untolerable, I've also been more tired, school hasn't gone well and I have issues. Vittu perkele saatana.
00:45 — It's BLOODY FUCKING HOT! >_< And, since it's been raining, it's humid too! Like, our meter says 60 and it was 50 to 40 before. Why can't it be winter?!
17:24 — Well, Batman was good. :D
16:59 — I just totally fucked my eyes by watching TV for four and a half hours. Sigh.
23:16 — It's damned 21 degrees outside, still! At this time! I've been bloody dead the whole fucking day. >_<
21:05 — It's fucking bloody HOT here! Aaargh! My brain's fried. It's been like 30°C the whole day and my room's been 28°C. >_< Inhumane!
14:41 — Yeeeah, renaming your original image files is an extremely exciting and useful thing to do. Holy crap I'm shivering out of sheer anticipation.
Bloody damned heat. It's 29°C in the shadow.
14:44 — Update: 30°C in the shadow. >_< !!!
19:55 — I've sometimes come across people who keep on calling others "mister", "miss" and so on. I've gotten called those too, sometimes. It's bloody obscene if you think about it. The first thing people say about others is the look of their genitals and secondary sexual characteristic
01:02 — "Any transition serious enough to alter your definition of self will require not just small adjustments in your way of living and thinking but a full-on metamorphosis.
... That quote sort of scares me... probably because it's often true. ó_ò
20:00 — In other news, I did get my glasses (whee, I actually can sometimes not see double or triple and so on!) and I finished the second phase of driving school. I'll just need to take this certificate thing to the police after about three months.
03:35 — Uuuuh. I went to Helsinki today to see two people and came back just about half an hour ago. Tired. My legs are dead. x_x
13:40 — Sleep good. I still feel tired, but I guess that's sort of good. Well, now I have seen both [Sarde] and [Roma] in real life. Scary. The damn Helsinki bus station is an evil place. I didn't have time to buy anything decent to drink.
Today I have the slippery driving training whatever thing, and I'll get my new glasses. I wonder how long it'll take for me to drive there. Hmmh. I guess I'll go get the glasses, then go to the driving place and after that to the store. Cookies are needed.
14:40 — Heh heh, I went to the eye doctor today. She put some funny stuff in my eyes that made them feel funny. It's going away now, though. I think she said something along the lines that I only have a tendency to dynamic squint. Well, kind of felt like that. She also said it's not really repairable, but I got a new pair of glasses that fixes something about it. I think I got a bit more short-sighted.
Well, I'll get the new glasses on the fourth. Then I can go to the slippery driving lesson thing wearing my new glasses. X)
08:53 — I didn't sleep too good today. But that's not interesting. What is, is the song I just listened to. Finnish metal, specifically Teräsbetoni. >_> I guess you would need to listen to it and know Finnish to erm... "appreciate" it.
16:07 — Reaction test. XD http://www.loo
My best was 0,14, next 0,203 and mostly I was getting 0,21–0,24.