01:07 — I make a note that I watched Zatoichi today. I liked it.

01:26 — Hahaha! [True, plain and simple] made a typo!
[2005/10/08_01:26:15] * Veltzeh hits bed
[2005/10/08_01:26:17] <Veltzeh> night!
[2005/10/08_01:26:18] <True> mnight
[2005/10/08_01:26:19] * Disconnected

13:44 — I was totally convinced yesterday that I need to leave at approximately 12:30 so that I can take this piece of paper to the police so that I can get my permanent driver's license, and then go to lectures that start at 14. So I did just that. After taking the paper to the police, I left for university. Right before the center of Tampere I looked at the time and realized, damnit, the lecture started at 12 and not at 14. It was 13:11 by then, so I snickered, turned around with style and drove home.

22:12 — I went to physics lectures that started at 8 and left at 10. Then I went to the computer store to buy power units. I also went to a big store to look for a shirt. You know that feeling you get when you're looking for a shirt and there's a whole floor of a huge building full of shirts and stuff? Now, the only option isn't to go poke a salesperson and say "I want a shirt." There are also choices like 1. go shopping with your preferred parent, 2. leave, 3. have a nervous breakdown and 4. get nervous and leave. The 5th option of trying on every shirt there is... well, infernal and should not be tried. I nearly always do 4 nowadays. Let's just say that I don't have much clothes.
The power supply units were okay. It was rather sad to realize that most of the noise in my computer is generated by the damned hard disks and not the fans. Oh well, I suppose it is a bit quieter. [Gastogh]'s computer got noticeably better (I think), but there the main noisemaker was the CPU fan, of course. Or some other fan.
I was so busy installing my power unit that I nearly forgot to go play today! What a shame. Either way, it was awesome playing. We got totally pwned with our 11 goblin and 2 hobgoblin heads though.

20:57 — Just for the record, I went to watch Moving Castle (that anime, yeah...) on Saturday. I liked it.

21:11 — Oh the hilarity that is my and [Lunnie]'s conversation (just imagine the topics before this that might have caused this to happen and you'll never sleep another night) XD
(21:09:22) [Lunnie]: I think my dog enjoys starving herself xD
(21:09:32) [Veltzeh]: how nice XD
(21:09:40) [Lunnie]: i know lol
(21:09:45) [Lunnie]: her stomach kept growling
(21:09:53) [Lunnie]: so i taunted her a little ot force her ot eat her face xD
(21:10:01) [Lunnie]: i mean
(21:10:03) [Lunnie]: her food
(21:10:05) [Lunnie]: god damnit xD

14:13 — I counted the gas stations I could see on my way to school and back. Two in Hervanta, one near a Prisma store, one near the center, two in Lielahti, two near Teivon ravirata and the Ylöjärvi Shell. I remembered there would be a gas station near Näsijärvi, but apparently it was disassembled or something. I sure couldn't see it at least. Or then I just looked in the wrong place. There was also at least one, probably two boat stations along the way. And of course the place where big trucks get gas or something, but it's somewhat hidden.
Result: 9 gas stations on a 30 km trip.

14:40 — I was checking that my translation of goblin was correct, and I stumbled on some hilarious dictionary entries in the vicinity. First, "go-devil" is either putkenpuhdistusharja (a brush to clean pipes) or nitroglyserolin räjäyttämislaite (a device used to ignite nitroglycerine / make nitroglycerine explode). Is there any connection between these two? The whole concept of the totally unrelated word meaning both of these specific things is flat-out hilarious.
The next funny one was "god-forsaken". "At a god-forsaken time" was translated as "epäkristilliseen aikaan" (literally "at an unchristianly time"). Awesome. All the while "jumalaton" was correctly translated as "godless". However, in Finnish "jumalaton" is at least sometimes used in a place where in English "god-forsaken" would be used. That is, I'd like "at a god-forsaken time" to be translated as "jumalattomaan aikaan" which is literally in English "at a godless time". It makes a very nice mental image. Besides that, "jumalaton" can be used in other ways also, and it's generally a damn awesome word. Jumalattoman hieno sana. XD God-things make nice sayings even if I don't really believe in them or much anything.
...So what was "goblin" again? Krhm. "Peikko, menninkäinen". Yes. I'm once again right.

20:58 — Yay! My first actual gaming session was today. How awesome. Well, I got my little epicine halfling rogue killed anyway, but fortunately the other characters in the party were good. XD Heal away!

22:06 — I need to complain about my sleep, too. So, on Monday night I went to sleep early because I needed to get up at 6. Well, of course around midnight my dad starts making a damn big amount of noise in the kitchen and I wake up right after I had fallen asleep after rolling around in my bed for about an hour, maybe more. On Tuesday night I went to sleep and woke up at 4 because my guts were being annying assholes. Damn it hurt. I stayed up until maybe 5 or 5:30 and then slept until six. Let's see what happens today. Maybe my stomach strikes again, at least it hurt a moment ago.

14:27 — In Monday morning I was driving to school and kept glancing at the mirror because if there was an ambulance coming, I'd want to be out of the way. This has never happened to me and the three times an ambulance has went past was when I already was on the other lane. Even more frequently I've seen ambulances coming toward and driving past. Now, I didn't have any reason to keep glancing at the mirror so often. Yet I did, just up until the center of Tampere. Right there, I heard the sirens of an ambulance behind me, looked in the mirror and oh stars, there was an ambulance right behind me! The irony is ridiculous.
I blew my body fluids out through my nose today. I bet the people next to and in front of me had fun in lectures. I didn't bother to stay and infect the math exercise group, so I gave my papers to the assistent and left.

08:00 — Well, I slept very bad because of this damned cold again and my nose is being overly productive. I'm rather tired, but I think the pain pill is making me feel a bit better.
Here's a new link to my collection, too: http://www.rotten.com/library/sex/hermaphrodite/

20:41 — I was rather dead today, then slept over an hour at about 16 and now I feel like I won't sleep in the night at all. Sigh. Besides that, I wrote up my character description and background for my D&D campaign in university. Over 2000 words worth of babble in Finnish, probably to be illustrated by a drawing of the character. Please shoot me.

16:12 — Sigh, this illness kicked into high gear. First my throat just hurt, the nose started dripping and now my nostrils are conspiring against my brain which is confounded by the amount of snot. I couldn't sleep well so I'm tired too, yay. And what the heck is it with being cold in the night, except right when you get up, at which point you're sweating so much you'd need a shower? >_> Of course this only happens if I stay in bed longer than optimal, I suppose. Maybe it's just that I start rolling about so frequently that it's a form of exercise.

15:26 — I figured I'd write this thing here for the sake of writing it and remembering a realization, among other things that will be revealed.
For some reason a person referred to me with a gender-specific pronoun, even though these people know I say I'm genderless. Well, of course I was a little confused, and who wouldn't? The offender gave a reason that I understood as not being specific or not caring about my wishes. The first one was it conflict with my understanding of specific/unspecific and the other I would have had difficulty to digest when coming from a friend-like person.
Well, being confused, I had to go over it and ask more, and it collided with the issue about which we had been talking about. Along the lines the others started saying that I should get over it. Over what? I was still trying to understand what was going on, and then it I started feeling that the others didn't want to talk about it at all. This is one reason why I'm writing here and not trying to explain this to the others. They made it pretty clear to me that they don't want to hear my side of the issue. Of course my side of the issue seems to drastically differ from theirs and I'm not the best explainer.
Once again I'm not sure whether I should feel bitter, angry, insulted, happy that they didn't offend me worsely, indifferent or stupid for not getting it all at the same time as the others.
The issue we were discussing went completely unsolved, but I guess that's better.

21:11 — More psychoanalysis. For a long time I've been in positions where I constantly slightly disagree with people, but not so much that it would be the end of all. Now, I've noticed that if I express it so, very few ever even notice I said anything. If I try to completely explain everything about how I see things and so on, every single piece of text I'd write would be a page long. If I shortly and bluntly say I disagree, I'm quite often either forced to accept things or asked why and interrogated about it. I tend to give reasons for my choices (which I've noticed very few people doing otherwise), yet I seem to be the only one who's forced to explain them completely and have to be perfect. Now, it's bad enough that I'm a perfectionist in my eyes, but now others expect me to be perfect, too. Maybe I should just always keep my mouth shut.
It doesn't help the issues that I always think that what if I really am wrong or not explaining things understandably enough. Then, when I'm forced to give out a usually rather extremist view, I tend to give in because I have much difficulty accepting only one way for things. Sigh, I never knew flexibility was such a flaw...

22:14 — So I did take two hours to read these and other pages...
Intersex horror (more or less) stories in English: http://www.usc.edu/isd/archives/queerfrontiers/queer/papers/holmes.long.html
http://www.healthyplace.com/communities/gender/intersexuals/about_me.htm
It's a FAQ, read it: http://www.healthyplace.com/communities/gender/intersexuals/intersexuality_faq.htm
http://www.healthyplace.com/communities/gender/intersexuals/article_mmic.htm This stuff would make a horrible horror story...

http://www.livejournal.com/community/androgynes/ Yeah, I just joined that.

16:25 — It's a windy day today. In case anyone wanted to know. In other news, I went to the RPG club again, played a nice game (very nice especially because I won both of the instances we played it, damn I rule) and signed up for a fuksi D&D thing. (Fuksi is a "first-year" university student, and apparently people stay that way until they've taken part in the "joke" thing that's arranged in vappu (first of May). Yes.)

23:02 — I was busy today, even if I felt sick in the nauseated fashion for the whole day up until just now. Krhm. I crept up on a fly today. It totally didn't see my finger coming until I touched it. I found doing that oddly satisfying.

15:48 — I have made progress today! I finally asked the janitor or whatever of one of the university buildings where its basement was. Well, being me, I had known where the entrances where. I'm just that good. The stairway from indoors was well hidden by clothes racks and a room and non-staircase-like structures, but it was there where I'd thought it to be. I had walked past several times, looking for a stairway and hadn't seen it. Oh well. The other entrance was the one from outside and it too was the door I had been eyeing suspiciously. Yeah, only I can accomplish something like this. :P

22:03 — Krhm. Cloak and Dagger. I've been reading comics again. I've seen them before somewhere else, probably in some X-Men story, but I remembered they were special somehow. Special, yeah. As if everybody else wasn't.
Well, it made me think about what they say: Without light there is no shadow and without shadowthere is no light (or it's useless). Something along those lines. Nevertheless, what is light and darkness without the things in between that reflect, refract, scatter and block that light?
Then I thought about electromagnetic waves and the whole thing lost its purpose and mysticism. Except not, but it's still a metaphor or analogy, I suppose. I never really liked metaphors. I like physics and that brings a whole new mysticity to it.

13:59 — Holy crap. The RPG club of my university is in the basement of Sähkötalo (Electricity house) and its address is SA016. Yet again I looked through the A hall and saw no staircase whatsoever leading downstairs. I know there is some way to the basement because I've been there. I think I went there from the outside, though, but I still can't figure out where the damn basement is. I think I'll blame it on waking up at 6 after bad nights, having to study physics and math right after each other for 4 hours and being unbelievably hungry because I'd get sick if I ate any more food in the morning. I should bring a snack and juice from home or something.
I was very hungry today and gave up as stated, drove home and forgot I was hungry. Damnit, I started doing the math exercises, thinking that I had forgotten something and didn't remember what it was. Geez. It's food time!

22:23 — Yes. http://geebasonparade.keenspot.com/d/20050817.html

19:01 — Right. First day of school has been dealt with. I chickened on the advanced physics course because it seemed like there were too many people in there and it really isn't meant for anyone except those who study technical sciences (whatever it is in English... it sounds ridiculous translated). I canceled that course, then did some more thinking and enrolled again. I've been unstable today.
I even went to the health center office thing of the university, talked to a nurse and dumped all my problems on her. I don't think she even flinched, though she did say something vague after I was done with the biggest issue. I can't help imagining that she's probably telling people that she met a total nutcase today. X) Heh, well, that's not so funny.

15:07 — Gah! I have to wake up at 6 tomorrow. What a tragedy!

21:43 — University starts tomorrow. However, I don't have any lectures on Monday during the first period (except two math PC exercises), so it'll start on Tuesday. How interesting. In any case, I'll have lectures from 8 to 12 every Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday for the whole year. The whole thought of that makes me tired already.
In other news, I've been slightly annoyed by some idiots in IRC. Oh well, I suppose I'd gotten too deep into a paradise-like state. The world is full of idiots, blah blah...