07:46 — I went to sleep at about 23. Fell asleep at about midnight. Woke up a little before 3. Rolled in bed for two hours without being able to sleep. So I just got up and logged in. I'm damn tired. In addition to not being able to sleep I felt very nauseous. Not sick, but bad. It wasn't too strong to make me feel like throwing up (okay, except when I rolled in bed too fast), though. It's the sort of nauseous feeling you have if you haven't had enough to eat. Well, I had had plenty of food and eating didn't exactly help. My dad said it's because of the change in daily rhythm. That's weird, because I went to bed about 0–3 hours earlier than usual. and didn't get bad feelings when I changed my sleeping rhythm two weeks ago. Unless this is the sick-becoming part of that change and not the return to normal. Nevertheless, it's late and illogical in my brain.
In other news, I've been busy (and bouncy) with my little RPG project. I got caught up making another character, but damn I had fun. I couldn't decide what sex the character was so I started writing up the description without any personal pronouns. Well, about halfway the description I figured out a sex for it but decided to keep on writing without personal pronouns, half because the first beginning was that way already and half because I defied gender again. Well, by the time I finished the description, I'd forgotten the sex already. Go me.
This is an excerpt from a conversation I had at the time:
[2006/01/09_06:56:06] <Veltzeh> I didn't use personal pronouns >_>
[2006/01/09_07:10:06] <mod> another non gender specific?
[2006/01/09_07:11:01] <mod> in my head there's a bunch of your androgyn chara standing together pointing at a male one and whisper amongst themselves "penis! omg!"
[2006/01/09_07:15:48] <Veltzeh> XDD
[2006/01/09_07:16:14] <Veltzeh> well usually my androgynes have a penis of some kind, too ;)
[2006/01/09_07:16:34] <Veltzeh> but they could go "balls! omg!"
[2006/01/09_07:17:12] <Veltzeh> anyway, nope, that one's erm... "normal", if you can say that XD
[2006/01/09_07:17:33] <Veltzeh> I just couldn't decide what sex it was until I had already written haf of the desc
[2006/01/09_07:17:49] <Veltzeh> then I just continued my pronounlessnes
[2006/01/09_07:20:03] <mod> ha
[2006/01/09_07:20:43] <Veltzeh> but now I forgot what sex I decided it was...
[2006/01/09_07:21:02] <Veltzeh> I wonder if this ever happens to other people >_>
...Right.
16:15 — I don't think I've felt this dead even last year in the signal processing lectures. I theoretically slept through the first programming lecture. After that, it got to a really interesting point (namely an issue I didn't yet know about) and I got a bit better. I was more attentive on physics exercise class, but wasn't too alert there either. Fortunately the subjects weren't too hard to understand. I sure as hell didn't stay there for programming exercises. I'd be sitting there listening to stuff I already know and wouldn't be home testing my new knowledge about file in- and output.
02:20 — University starts again next Monday. I'm going to be so screwed and dead. I haven't been doing my homework or any reading and my sleeping rhythm is totally unacceptable by working standards. I'm worried that I won't have time for all the stuff I need time for. Eek. I also have a book to read. Next period I'll also have to study Swedish again... I could be worse screwed, but even this is getting on my "stress" indicator.
I was given my first RPG campaign to GM probably yesterday. It was rather sudden. I hope I won't fail completely...
I'm probably in a negative and a little angsty mode this night. Maybe I should just finish this character.
04:16 — A whole lot of stuff has happened lately. I say that because I can't really go into too much detail. Let's just say that I've been drawing, snow-plowing and reading webcomics. Specifically http://www.dom
15:42 — Whaddaya know. http://www.liv
15:45 — Oh, by the way, I also got the Legend of the Rangers DVD (Babylon 5 stuff) yesterday and watched it. Yay!
13:24 — Dangit. I'm really tired, and since I'm pretty sure I slept good, there's two things I can blame. 1) My parents caught a cold from my tiny cousin and now I'm getting it. 2) The firework fumes got into my brain. Some brainiac opened the door in the night and let all the smoke in. Or then it was normal fumes when my parents started making tin figures.
14:17 — Last night I accidentally poked myself too far in the throat with my toothbrush while I was brushing my teeth and I nearly threw up. However, I didn't. Now, this happens to me every now and then, maybe a few times a year, and it's always the same, I get a throwing up reflex but I never actually throw up. I think I can somehow consciously prevent stuff coming up from my stomach. I have weird control over my body. I can move my nostrils, scalp, move my ears up and down, have the other corner of my mouth go down and other up, turn my tongue upside-down (to both sides) and open up my Eustachian tube without yawning or swallowing. I can roll my tongue into an U-shape thanks to my genes, but I can also make it wavy because I practiced that. Those are rather head-specific things. I can also make weird finger and toe gestures and stop shivering when I'm cold. (And probably other stuff I've forgotten.)
Well, maybe everyone else can do this too, it's not like I knew. I felt like sharing. XD
15:16 — I've been playing around with http://www.spr
01:01 — We left Joensuu at about 14, made a stop first at a friend of our parents, then at my dad's mom, then a gas station for fuel and then another gas station for a map. We were taking a weird route and no one told me I should turn to Hanko when we were supposed to be heading for Tampere. Additionally, we were playing silly word games, so no one noticed when we just drove on. After about 50 km dad noticed it, we stopped, turned around and took yet another route. We got home at about 20 to midnight, which was the purpose anyway.
The house is cold, but nicely so. There's nothing quite like your own bed, room, computer, shower, toilet, space and net connection. Okay, I'm lying about the net connection. Ours is sucky at this time of year.
22:53 — I moved small logs around today. There's a big pile of them on my granny's back yard, and we needed to move them to the shed and behind it. Well, after the first session we ate and played a card game where one part requires that you slap the pile of cards with your hand, testing which player's reflexes are best... well, my dad randomly came to slap one pile. People always go there with nails first. I clawed [Gastogh] first some days ago, my parents clawed each other and on that particular time my dad clawed me, and there's a huge surface cut on my pinky finger now. Therefore I decided not to go move logs around anymore. Geez, this cut is nearly as long as the first part of my finger! It's kinda sore but at least it doesn't really hurt. Next card game: "More injuries!"
We'll be going to Kitee tomorrow and then back home, hopefully before midnight or it'll be the day after tomorrow.
Argh! What if someone has stolen my computer from home? Gaa! Gaa!
22:36 — So I'm in Joensuu leeching off my aunt's connection. I have to sleep in a princess cousin's room, but at least it's all mine! Buhahaha. Sleep. X-Files. Prooogram.
22:40 — So, gift stash. Too big a T-shirt, gift card worth 25 €, 30 € money, a questionable DVD and a Lego bike. http://elftown
18:04 — Damn powerouts. No school for two weeks! Whee! But damnit, I have to go to my uncle and princess cousin at 16 tomorrow. Oh well, at least there'll be food, though I won't like mot of it. Then we have to go to Joensuu, and I'll have to operate the internet through my dreadful GPRS connection. >_> Oh well, at least I'll have a connection. Hopefully.
19:21 — In other news, I just watched Narnia. Yay.
20:23 — In case anyone cared, I feel much better now. Whoo. No physics lectures on Thursday, even if that means I gotta go there at 8 tomorrow.
Some time ago I got a new shelf and organized the empty boxes I have stored on the top of my shelves. I detached my small shelves, took two away and reattached the third. I attached it right by the door at a height where I wouldn't hit my head on it even if I were bouncy. Now, that's crucial because I'm not that tall. I specifically told this to my parents because I thought it was funny. Now, today my dad came into my room and when he left, he hit his head on the shelf, just like I planned. I was amused as hell. XD
22:48 — I spend too much time not-sleeping during schoolweeks. Three toes on my right foot are being infectious assholes. I have to say though that I'm more concerned about my mom's reaction to it than the whole thing itself.
OMFGG. Gollum porn. >__> Hah, caught your attention? :P
22:42 — I was really damn pissed yesterday. However, no, The RPG Incident didn't cause it, but bloody damnit that didn't make things better either. I think it's actually good that I've now fogotten what made things so bloody crappy yesterday. I know the several factors involved, but not the actual cause unless it is something of the several factors. I can't really remember much. Nevertheless, I felt totally crap yesterday right from the morning as far as I remember. Blah blah blah.
I drew a lot too. At least that made me feel better. I continued that today. I drew six or seven sketches and threw them around at people in digital form. Here's a sketch of a healed Vineg if you didn't happen to have enough of that. http://elftown
15:43 — Whee! Whee! I bought a new keyboard, USB hub and an Elfquest comic. Bounce. No more worn out keys.
14:54 — Water came back about 10 hours after it was cut. Which was a long time ago already, but thought it'd be worth meantioning. In other news, I've been programming a lot. Whee :D
21:24 — Kudos to our water-distribu
17:04 — Murphy pwned me today. Actually it started already yesterday, when I started seriously working on another new programming assignment. "Make a program that prints the nth line of Pascal's triangle, with three functions." Okay, I wrote that, except it only had one function for the factorial and I couldn't figure out any other reasonable function. Any more would also increase the program's length. Let's give a hand to the program designer.
Today I drove to the university, and after I was done there, I'd got get [Gastogh] from school. Okay, I left the university late. Then it seemed like rush hour in traffic. After a few kilometers all the snow from the top of my car bulked on my windshield when I decelerated, because I hadn't wiped it off because that had never happened to me. The car wipers were far too puny to wipe that mass off. Fortunately I could still make a left to a relatively peaceful road (from the highway!), but after that left turn the road turned right and I saw nothing. Well, I stopped, cleaned the damn windshield, turned around and continued is the rush hour. Which made me arrive damn late, naturally. Krhm... if you're late, Murphy makes sure to take everything out of it and make you arrive even more late.
Okay, back to programming now.
01:16 — My internet is being a total ASSHOLE! Bloody damned fucker mumble mumble...
23:53 — Today I went to the math course 2 exam. Didn't go as well as the first one, meaning I'm certain I don't get full points and I couldn't answer to one part of one exercise, and I think two other parts of other exercises are a bit fumbled. Either way, I think I'll pass at least. The roads were slippery and it's started snowing full-time. Sort of. I've cleaned the yard twice already, and damn that snow's heavy. And the damn bushes/trees in front of our front yard (they grow in the gutter, or more precisely right between the gutter and the grassy part of the yard) bend to the yard so that I can't really push the loads of snow where it belongs because otherwise I'll damage the tree things and/or it becomes even harder to push the snow further away. Oh well.
Secondly, I watched a British documentary called "Secret Intersex". I suppose it was okay, but sure can't beat the internet when it comes to information. I suppose it's good that it gave a mostly personal view from the people, though, which is something I haven't yet quite ound in the net yet. Then again, there were parts in it that I just shook my head at. And let's not talk about the Finnish translation. English is a crappy language and they didn't try to hide it in the documentary, but the Finnish translator couldn't even have bothered to check how "correct" the terms were... Oh well, at least I know that Finnish is awesome.
I need a keyboard that makes less noise. This damn thing is hurting my ears, damnit.
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23:18 — I have seen Ghost in the shell 2. Whee.
00:59 — Excuse me while I squee. I'm way too damn fascinated about telepaths. I've been sitting here, reading a book about things set in the universe of Babylon 5, and the stuff about telepaths. I want more, damnit. Why can't there be hundred books instead of three? I suppose the book isn't written that well, stars know how I could ever notice such a thing, but I'm so interested in telepathy that I'd read anything half-decent anyway.
More to the point, why does the idea of telepathy fascinate me so much? I suppose it's either a personal quirk or something or then I'm just so socially inept when it comes to people that telepathy starts sounding way too nice.
Now excuse me while I fantasize about telepaths.