21:33 — Hey, I haven't written a diary entry this year! About time. I decided I won't go to probability lectures anymore. The lecturer sucks. Assembly programming has been pretty neat this far. I wasted my vacation but got some little schoolwork done. Last Friday, I had a Shadowrun game. We had an elevator chase sequence and I laughed a lot at that. Also, my little hacker was booted out of the network. That wasn't nice.

21:44 — Also, I got 24 D6's for present. As for Nanowrimo... I wrote about 25000 words in November and got the full 50000 words in December. Whee!

00:24 — Damn, I forgot to tell that I finished reading Watchmen today. I started a few days ago and read most of it today because I didn't want to interrupt my reading. Serious superhero business! Seriously.

12:56 — Whee, everyone else is in Joensuu now.
http://www.deltabravo.net/custody/rorschach.php And with this, you know how to reply to the inkblot test. :D

19:56 — I'm too lazy to say anything about my courses and studies. So you get this instead: http://www.writersco.com/_sexy%20porn%20image

15:38 — Shadowrun is awesome, even though we botched our last run. The target's head exploded...
In other news, it's funny to lie in bed and when I'm hot, move aside the quilt. The warmth floats off me to the ceiling and then I listen how the ceiling makes a little rustling noise. The few first times I didn't figure out why it happened and was a bit freaked out, but after I did, it's damn fun. Physics is awesome too.

14:25 — So, I'm ridiculously busy and crap. Yet, I've just spent a few hours reading a webcomic. http://www.ghastlycomic.com/ specifically. (For those who are still innocent, that comic addresses just about all sexual action -related taboos (and other stuff) so if you don't like that, well... But hey, tentacles! Shiny!)
This made me lol: http://www.ghastlycomic.com/d/20040523.html Specifically the last panel. It's all about the visual.

14:48 — This, however, is just brilliant: http://www.ghastlycomic.com/d/20041031.html

03:09 — At long last, I got to play Shadowrun. I'm happy now. It was slightly embarrassing that I forgot most of my dice home, and then I only had two D6's. At one point I needed to roll 15 of them. Oh well. I ransacked our boardgame boxes today. I didn't see any extra dice, until I remembered that Monopoly could have several. So I looked for the monopoly game and found close to ten dice there. I took them all except for two and now I have enough dice to throw Electronic warfare and Scan. Excuse me while I squee.
School is kind of hectic. Nevertheless, I spent today drawing and writing. I've written 11451 words of my NaNoWriMo story since November ended.

02:31 — I was in my first beer-fest of sorts. Of course I didn't drink, but well. At one point, there was a group of people close to me and they suddenly went about introducing themselves. Finnish names are delighting sometimes. Jouni, Janne, Jenni, Janne, Joni. Seriously. I think there were a Jani and a third Janne, too. It was damn funny.

22:06 — I was sitting there, writing to a person, following several channels, had a bunch of terminals open to do my programming assignment, bunch of other programs for my Shadowrun character, and who knows what else. Then, all of a sudden my dad comes in and yells at me, insisting that I shut down my programs and computer RIGHT NOW. He didn't offer much of an explanation and I was already panicking because I had like 20 or more programs to be closed. He explained something about how mom's computer was locked up, it was an emergency and how he needed to black out the whole house to fix it. Now, this is just plain ridiculous, but I had already started closing programs and was still in panic. By the time I had closed all the stuff down, I had told him that I would come take a look at it first.
Now, blacking out the whole house for this is ridiculous because you can just pull the plug. It's exactly the same effect for the computer, and the cords are ridiculously easy to access and don't affect anything else than the computer itself. However, since this is indeed a laptop, pulling the plug doesn't help, because it's charged. I had realized that by the time I was done.
When I got to the comp, I saw that it was far from urgent. It was just locked up and my dad said nothing worked. So I pressed the fucking power button and the "problem" was solved in four seconds.
I haven't been that angry in a long, long time. At least I could monitor myself while being angry, so now I know more about myself. I can't speak when I'm angry and if others speak, I feel more anger or then it makes me want to cry.
Maybe I should go explain my dad about pressing the power button for four seconds and explain to him that if pulling the plug doesn't help, then neither does blacking out the house. Of course, he should know this because he's graduated from a fucking university of technology.

01:36 — My exams for this period are over. Circuit analysis went okay, I suppose, and I think I wrote a lot of nice things on the Programming 2 exam, but I ran out of time! Three-hour exam, damnit, and about half the people were still writing when the time ended. Fourier methods exam was bad, and I didn't know how to answer to some questions. I wrote stuff that I thought would make sense, though, so I'll hope I'll at least pass.
My little Shadowrunner is coming along quite nice, actually I think it's almost finished. Whee!
Also, NaNoWriMo has ended. I got past my personal goal of 10000 words and instead crossed 25000 words. I feel accomplished. Now please read what I wrote! http://www.writersco.com/39.NaNoWriMo.2006:%20Tales%20from%20Kyerrion

14:45 — Today I finally sold my old TV that had been gathering dust under my lighttable shelf. I took it to Tampere and then thought that while I'm there, I might just as well buy stuff I needed. So I went to buy gloves and a network switch hub. I also was at the dentist today, but nothing happened there. My teeth are almost perfect. I only have that one cavity I got when I was in USA.
I spent about three hours on designing my little Shadowrunner on Monday, and I was kind of hyper after that. I went to sleep and rolled around for at least two hours, coming up with a great background story for my character. I can totally explain why ey's gotten all that nifty equipment and knowledge and stuff and still needs to be a Shadowrunner. It's probably not all that brilliant though, taking into account that I did whip it up while I was trying to sleep. Nevertheless, I got up in the night and WROTE that damn piece of text because I gleed at it about every minute and that was the primary reason I couldn't sleep. I was hungry too, though, since I had forgotten to eat anything. Well, I slept under 4 hours, still got up at 6 and went to lectures. I felt kind of dead in the evening, though.
Excuse me while I bounce.

09:43 — I bet all you stalkers are delighted in the amount of spam I've produced lately. Still, in case you didn't know, it's Transgender day of remembrance today! http://www.gender.org/remember/day/ ...or http://www.rememberingourdead.org/day/index.html

21:53 — Well, I spent the best part of the day reading the Shadowrun 4th edition core book. This thing is addictive. Besides that, I'll be damned if this will be the first human I'll play! Intersexed, of course. GM-approved!

21:44 — Oh gee, I redid the drawing style rant. I felt it was a bit incomplete yesterday too, but well, too late.

Hm. More and more people have told me that my style looks like anime/manga style. At first I refused to show my drawings to anyone, so no one could really tell me what it looked like. Therefore, my skills and style "developed" in peace. I didn't try to imitate any other styles or drawings either, because I thought it was cheating, wrong and bad. At 16, when I first publicly showed off my drawings in Elfwood, almost no one called my style anime-like. And now that's changing...

I first drew rabbits in a realistic/comic style. Then I started reading X-Men and eventually drew my first humans, inspired by superhero comics. Those humans were children. I didn't want to draw men or women at that point. Heck, it took me about a year to draw even a teen. A year was a very long time indeed when I was 12 and very bored. Since then, my style still hasn't really changed as far as I can see; it's essentially the same. Only my skills have become "better". It's weird that I can see approximately the same skill level in my drawings from 2003 as in my current drawings... after that, it seems I just went through phases where I fixed anatomy, got more patient and detailed and so on.
I first saw anime when I joined Elfwood. I felt pretty indifferent to it, I think. I didn't want to draw it, I rather had my own style. I could tell by then that my style didn't really look like comic book style, but I didn't know why. Probably because I didn't ink much. I still say my style isn't even near anime.
So why are people calling my style anime or anime-like? Tell me!

After too many people (yeah, most would say it's just very few people) said that my style looks like anime, I decided to take out some of my X-Men comics and absorb the art.
It feels a bit wrong and like giving up to start changing my style just because other people say it looks like anime. Heck, I'd feel dirty either way. Don't know if that's good or bad.

So, maybe you should expect a bit of a change in my style. But no, I will NOT start drawing huge breasts unless some poor unfortunate character really has some.

22:42 — I started creating a Shadowrun character today. Couldn't get it done, though (huge surprise), but at least I absorbed a lot of info. For the first time in my tiny RPGing history, I'm actually thinking of making a human character! Apocalypse!
And whee, GM doesn't seem to mind my androgynes either.

00:00 — Leeeeeeroooyy! http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Image:Leeroy_card.jpg

14:05 — Oh gee. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Asperger_syndrome#Social_differences
The social differences are pretty much straight out of my life. Plus shyness. Also the language part, except my handwriting is fairly legible. Of course that might be because I was taught how to write well, I write fairly slowly and practice hand coordination skills. Excuses :D Some of the other stuff matches too. Yay, I'm so good at diagnosing myself.

11:24 — I got the damn program to work! Damn I'm good. Still gotta nitpick on it, but hey, I got it working while sitting in the library working on my laptop, and I'm not even out of battery! Granted, it's at 28 % now, but yeah. I used 69 % of the battery to work out what it was! Now I'll eat. I could maybe even do NaNoWriMo, but that's maybe a bit too much to ask.

23:03 — Nine hours of programming HELL! I've been putting my puzzle-assembling program together and it seems I've got everything put up except for the actual assembling. It just generates errors and errors and errors and I have no clue what's wrong with it. It's ridiculous. And the deadline is in less than 49 hours. I feel less pissed than I'd think, though.

23:23 — Yeah, related to that, the thing's deadline is in 48 hours, which is way too little time at this point, and I still haven't done the exercises for Friday's Fourier's methods exercises. I feel fucked up. Sigh. Whine.

00:28 — One of the things that pisses me off ridiculously is when people don't drive in their own lanes. Especially in winter, because it shows. I just don't understand what's so hard to keep your damn car in your own damn lane when you can SEE where the middle line and side lines are! Are they really so bad at handling their car that they just can't drive on any kind of snow or ice? Are they really so fucking useless scared cowards, huh? I stay on my own fucking lane! And I bloody well expect others to do the same!
Also, NaNoWriMo. Therefore: http://veltzeh.livejournal.com/11859.html and http://elftown.lysator.liu.se/_THOH%20Kyerrion%20HTML

12:55 — There was a damn hideous snowstorm yesterday. Morning was clear, but still it took me 50 minutes to drive to school. Well, when I left at around 17, the storm was there. I had to dig out my car and by the time I got one side of the windshield cleaned, the other was covered. So I decided to trust my windshield wipers, which was a bad idea. Well, I did see enough to be able to drive. It wasn't like anyone would be driving anywhere over half the speed limit. The highway of Hervanta was dark, too and there was an ambulance on the other lanes.
Oh well, the driving weather was hideous and it took me over an hour to get home. I took photos of our yard and I'll upload them some time.

18:06 —
Note the layers on top of the car's front.

17:20 — Whoo! My WLAN on my laptop works at the university! Yay! Even mom's stuff at home works now.