[BlackDragon]'s diary

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Written about Saturday 2007-03-24
Written: (6453 days ago)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YKVcw9fw22E&mode=related&search=

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pWhQVlzDkJc

Hele Kõre & Kristjan Kasearu
Both in Estonian. These songs makes me proud of knowing the language and to be born in Estonia.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kPxbadEWyXg

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rhriz73_pVk

The two above ones are other 'interesting' songs in Estonian.

857207  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2006-09-27
Written: (6631 days ago)

These are just words written on a white paper. Maybe they have a meaning. Or maybe they have not. I just wanted to write them here in case I would loose the paper. It should be written like this. Read it as you want. If you've read it, please comment.



A curse! This is what this is... Damned? You? Something tells me... This doesn't matter anymore. Dark Matters. Dark... Death. Death is an illusion. Yet he is here. Always. Come to me. Come to me my dear friend. Curse upon you. Light bulb? These shattered pieces of glass... cut into my skin. Do you see it? The wings. Demons. Angels. Nothing comes out of nothing. Quote. Quote me? When the evening falls. Please. Don't bother. You're dead anyway. Proof? It is obvious. Even the dead must know and obey. Come to me. Trust. It is all a matter of trust. Dependence? They all lie. Behind your back? Liars. People. Do you lie? I couldn't. His eyes. Scary? unexplainable. Snow. Soon my dear. Soon. Soon it will all end. Is there a reason? Only time. You sadden me. Smile. Forsaken. Is it a curse? Life? Have one? I saw one fly by my window once. Mirror. Mirrored reflections. rescue. hatred. Feed it and it becomes greater. Deny it and it doesn't exist. My dreams. Reflections. What it all should be. Blood, death and gore. Blood is life. When life turns its back against you, the blood does the same. You did it aswell. Tell me... is it still the same? it is never the same. Never. Nevermore. The sound of silence. You don't hear the whispers. Silent tears. Your soul is crying. Repair the pieces. Dark end. It is all gone. You live in a memory. A memory of a Dream. Twist it and it becomes you. It is just a matter of dealing with it. You're lost. Lost is only a state of mind. my mind feels pity for your mind. Tried to smile? Everywhere. Not in my dreams. You hurt me. Without knowing it. Shattered mind. I'm not you. Denial? Ever thought about it? You expect me to be all of what you've never be. Alive. Alive or dead? I see you. I always see you! It opens your heart and all is new. Promise. Promise me! It is just a word. My dear. Darling, why so sad? It will always let you down. Break the rules. It is all messed up. This is how you see it. You? Close my eyes and listen to the rain. Fall forever. They don't fall forever. They have wings. It is in the rain. Mystery. Please tell me this won't last forever. I hope it will. Want to be immortal? Wouldn't mind being something. Something deep. Unbeliever. Saint and Sinner. I could have gave you my everything. You aren't notable to this world. I'll be what I want to be. You don't listen. Careful. it might happen to you too. It has already. Give me something to live on. You can't live. Only be alive. Butterfly. You can't be what you want. I crave freedom. You are not free. You are as dead as dead can be. It is hard to dance with the devil on your back. I'd rather be somewhere else now. I see the memories. They never fade. Nor do the scars. It is all history. History repeats itself. I will bring glory upon your death.

What fear is in your soul? I might have seen the dark ends of the sky. Stars. Did you see them? They whisper to me. Secrets of the past. Stop dreaming and live in what is now. You can't change the unchangeable. I'll change if you want me too. You can't change. You are who you are. Who am I? There is someone... I wish it could be as before. You don't understand. I will always be here. With you? Forever. Forever or for as long as I will remain? For as long as this all will last. My friend, my soul. My soul keeper. Did you find a key? The key. It opens all doors yet you can't pass through them. Going Under. Under my make-up there hides a mask of nothingness. A beautiful mind. Beautiful. Are you? Beauty lies in the beholder eyes. Behind blue eyes. Eyes of hatred. Pure blood. Half blood? Total nothingness. Tell me your secret and I'll tell you mine. I have no secrets. You hide them. Behind the nothingness? It exists no more. Fragile. You are. A king without a crown. On a throne made up of the meaningfulness of the emptiness of the nothingness. I'd be wherever you'd be. There is no you. It is called reality. There is only me. I see it drop down from your arms. Is it deep? They are my friends and saviors. They are the enemies you dream of all night. There is no dark. Without the darkness there is no shadows. I just couldn't ignore it. I'm somewhere I shouldn't be. Things aren't as pretty on the inside. I see things I shouldn't see. Only. Sometimes I hear a sound. Kill it and it becomes a part of you. Confused. Don't stay. Don't say a thing. Things say themselves. This goes on and on. It never ends. Nothing does. I'm something you're not. You are the smile I erased from the memories I left behind. Stop haunting me! Who are we? Take a look in the mirror. Melting. My world looks so empty. Half-empty or half-full? With teeth. I enjoy our conversation. It is so pointless to remain when you can rise above. Above there is no such place for our kind. A pen is mightier than a sword. A pen can look like a sword. Sharp end. Sharpening knives. They're so pretty... Shiny. My little sunshine. Where are you. Hide behind a smile and a dark cloud and you'll be alright. Bless you. I'd never forget a such grace. Graceful. Envy. They never stop. Until the end of time. Sometimes I think that I can see right through myself. Your world that is. It doesn't matter anymore. None does matter. I just walk to hurt myself. Did it work? I just knew it was something bad. I tried to see through it all. The smile when you tore me apart. In my time of need? All the whispers... No mercy no more. You made me realize it all was a lie. No escape. I still remember. Unforgettable. Unforgivable. What you did I shall never forgive. How can someone be so full of crap and lies. It is all hidden. They were blind. I saw it. You took away it all. Someone. That was you... Wasn't it. Let me heal you. Now I only care for dead gardens. Now I know why. It keeps me here. I see your smile. Darling you know I love you till the end of time. Don't go away. Break the silence. In perfect harmony. A perfect circle. Nothing is perfect. They are so beautiful. They are not perfect. Wish you were? Only a wish once upon a time. Times circle by. Stay forever.

751134  Link to this entry 
Written about Monday 2006-02-20
Written: (6850 days ago)

http://quizfarm.com/test.php?q_id=10907



I got:

You are an agnostic. Though it is generally taken that agnostics neither believe nor disbelieve in God, it is possible to be a theist or atheist in addition to an agnostic. Agnostics don't believe it is possible to prove the existence of God (nor lack thereof). Agnosticism is a philosophy that God's existence cannot be proven. Some say it is possible to be agnostic and follow a religion; however, one cannot be a devout believer if he or she does not truly believe.


agnosticism 75%
Paganism 71%
Hinduism 67%
atheism 58%
Buddhism 58%
Judaism 42%
Christianity 33%
Islam 29%
Satanism 29%

619171  Link to this entry 
Written about Saturday 2005-07-09
Written: (7076 days ago)

As I was going up the stair
I met a man who wasn't there
He wasn't there again today
I wish, I wish he'd stay away


Hughes Mearns

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