yesterday was a day of sun, and relief. at school i practised with a band.. later we sat in the sun. but [Rockin' Ronja], poor little one, had a stomachache.

Later on i took the bus to my good friend Martin. we walked around in a small nice forest and talked about many things.. it was so beautiful there! we talked and reflected upon filosophical questions, but we also talked about [Rockin' Ronja] and his girlfriend. it was good to share my questions and opinions with him, and to discuss his thoughts as well. all this talking was a product of the fact that yesterday was a special day for me and martin, because we have actually "invented" a day called sayoutloudwhatyoureallythinkaboutthesituatinorthefeelingsyourinevenifyouwouldentsaythemifitwasn'tthisday-day, and this day was yesterday. so i called [Rockin' Ronja] and talked about some issues and thoughts i had. not really issues, but i don't have a word for the therm..(or a therm for the word? :S)

i think it was good for the both of us, even though im not really finished yet. it sounds very dramatic but it really isn't.

well today i woke up at martins place, not so quite refreshed in my body, but a little more structurated(is this a word) in my mind. we took the bus to lillestrøm.. nothing special there, and i took the train home. then i came home, played some Korg, and left for the doctor's. there, i was told that my liver was okay again, but that she didnt know what to do with my constant tiredness.

now i'm sitting here, infront of my computer, with a glass of pepsi and a wierd looking french crepe. and i miss [Rockin' Ronja]

im supused to be the "producer" for a band the whole weekend, but i dont want to.. i get nothing out of it, not even experience.. fuck it i say.. i much rather want to go tho my grandmothers birthday today, and meet up with [Rockin' Ronja] one of the next days.. but.. i'm tied up. i think its time to break a promise..

I have a great girfriend! i've been with her today, we watched Sleepy Hollow. and had fun on the trampoline( Not that kinda fun! ;P you kinky-thinking-fuck! )

i like her..i'm very lucky to "Have" her.

Schmunch!

i want a professional camera.. i see motives everywhere.
i want to be artistic.
i want to write a new letter to my [Rockin' Ronja]

I have written very much music these two days. just small parts, but still..

i have slept alot today.. and i have been sucked blood out of at the medical center here, to check my liver satus.and i have been to the dentist today too. oh my english suck right now, sorry.

i've sent [Rockin' Ronja] the letter i wrote yesterday.I'm gonna visit her tomorrow. I miss her alot.. She's real special.

now i feel rather artistic, or just selfdestructive. feeling kinda good actually. i want to make something.. i need a companion in/with my artwork. I'll ask [Rockin' Ronja].

Oh god i love The Blue lotus.

Smile could kill...

Home today too. my liver stats are high. mabye i get blood poisoning. :P

i'm boring the living crap out of me, which ironicly is good, couse iv'e got that crap in my liver.. but it's just an
expression.

since i have nothing to do, i will write [Rockin' Ronja] a letter. :)

I Like the fish, it raises my selfconfidence, and i can almost feel her, when i touch it. :) Nam

Yesterday , my father cut himself with a chainsaw, in his face.. ouch! but he is ok now, i think.

im not good at writing a diary. i write so little, even though it's plenty on my mind. i'm the kind of person who has problems expressing my self, my feelings and thoughts. i think thats because i think in a very diverse way than others do. 

Today "Marius & Linn (C)" was here. we watched a sick movie, i don't remember its name, but it was really sick.
and i Got a new pair of real cool socks! :P
we've worked in the studio room today, making a plateau for my piano. it's going to be great!

well I want to call My dearest little beauty ([Rockin' Ronja]) now, to say good night.

She's coming here tomorrow.. looking forward to that! :)

Yesterday was a good day. [Rockin' Ronja] was here! :)

it's boring today..

looking down at my past diary postings, I see that I have huge mood swings.

well I'm fine now :)

better? i don't know.

okay, today... i have lots of bad feelings. and regret. i was stupid yesterday. i hope i didn't ruin it all... damn my melancholic nature.. i want to hug.

Piano helps but only in present time, when i play. 22:42

what a crappy day! I just want to be in a dark chamber.. alone. 19:07

what a great day! i like a girl :)

feeble but satisfied. the Formloff gig last night went great, although both me and marius was sick. lots of people there, including [Rockin' Ronja], which i miss right now..

well, I must make use of the day.

resilent and motivated. isn't it strange that a tiny little message on a elecronic device, can make you feel alot better?

but it's still cold here! :P

frozen and disjointed. it's so cold here. home today too. should have been at school, should have felt..

instead- letter.

im blocked for further frolic..too many bad feelings.

Tomorrow it will be okay! :)

Pallid and Silent. Home today. Feeling a bit ill. Too sick for school. It's boring here though.

I Miss...

Vain and Oblivoin. I'm a bit Blue tonight..
Cold and Hollow, but in a warm way. Like my songs...