now i feel rather artistic, or just selfdestructiv
Oh god i love The Blue lotus.
Smile could kill...
Home today too. my liver stats are high. mabye i get blood poisoning. :P
i'm boring the living crap out of me, which ironicly is good, couse iv'e got that crap in my liver.. but it's just an
expression.
since i have nothing to do, i will write [Rockin' Ronja] a letter. :)
I Like the fish, it raises my selfconfidence
Yesterday , my father cut himself with a chainsaw, in his face.. ouch! but he is ok now, i think.
im not good at writing a diary. i write so little, even though it's plenty on my mind. i'm the kind of person who has problems expressing my self, my feelings and thoughts. i think thats because i think in a very diverse way than others do.
Today "Marius & Linn (C)" was here. we watched a sick movie, i don't remember its name, but it was really sick.
and i Got a new pair of real cool socks! :P
we've worked in the studio room today, making a plateau for my piano. it's going to be great!
well I want to call My dearest little beauty ([Rockin' Ronja]) now, to say good night.
She's coming here tomorrow.. looking forward to that! :)
Yesterday was a good day. [Rockin' Ronja] was here! :)
it's boring today..
looking down at my past diary postings, I see that I have huge mood swings.
well I'm fine now :)
better? i don't know.
okay, today... i have lots of bad feelings. and regret. i was stupid yesterday. i hope i didn't ruin it all... damn my melancholic nature.. i want to hug.
Piano helps but only in present time, when i play. 22:42
what a crappy day! I just want to be in a dark chamber.. alone. 19:07
what a great day! i like a girl :)
feeble but satisfied. the Formloff gig last night went great, although both me and marius was sick. lots of people there, including [Rockin' Ronja], which i miss right now..
well, I must make use of the day.
resilent and motivated. isn't it strange that a tiny little message on a elecronic device, can make you feel alot better?
but it's still cold here! :P
frozen and disjointed. it's so cold here. home today too. should have been at school, should have felt..
instead- letter.
im blocked for further frolic..too many bad feelings.
Tomorrow it will be okay! :)
Pallid and Silent. Home today. Feeling a bit ill. Too sick for school. It's boring here though.
I Miss...
Vain and Oblivoin. I'm a bit Blue tonight..
Cold and Hollow, but in a warm way. Like my songs...