My inner dragon is...

[mist dragon#99]

In the war between good and evil, a Mist Dragon tends to walk the fine line of Neutrality.
When it comes to the powers of Chaos vs. those of Law and Order, your inner dragon walks a fine line between Law and Chaos.
As far as magical tendancies, Your inner dragon has the ability to conquer the world of magic, but it will not be easy.
During combat situations, a true Mist Dragon prefers to defeat opponents by the use of spells and other tactics.

[Dragon Description:]
The Mist Dragon is a highly magical being. It makes it's home in moist areas, but seems to have the ability to appear in any fog or mist in any climate. It is unclear as to whether these dragons follow mist, or mist follows these dragons.

The Mist Dragon is a grayish blue in color, and floats freely in air as though it were mist itself. The Mist Dragon never leaves tracks or traces of it's passing. These dragons move very gracefully and swiftly through their element.

Mist Dragons are very free in nature and seem to be very unpredictable personalities. They are outspoken, and often are harbingers of great changes or happenings.

Hey,

There are some very headached thoughts that are running through my head constantly. I mean, the actual application somewhat applies to me, but I don't really know how to explain it. I mean, it also somewhat doesn't apply, but I'll leave that to your discresion.

For the last few years, the whole idea of being in love, loving the idea of love, and what love is has run through my head many times and I still haven't drawn an actual conclusion. The only real thing I have come up with is that the ACTAUL FEELING of love cannot be described in any language, whether it's human or not. When I usually read other people's views on love, it's something like "It's the feeling where..." or "This happens when..." or even something like "I love him/her because..." All three of these, or probably any description used, only describes what relates to love, rather than the actual feeling itself. That's just my thought about the genre but anywayz...

Lately, I've been thinking about the actual levels of someone falling in love. I figured, there are two general levels in a relationship. Once the first level is obtained, love is present. But once the second level is obtained, a mature and pure love is present. There is a huge difference between the two...

When people typically think of love, they just relate things to love. I do that too because there is no way I can actually describe general love.. everyone feels differently about love.. or some nothing at all until they have obtained it.

In love, (or at least in my opinion of love,) there's a maturity level to it. FOR EXAMPLE: When an obstacle (or two,) approaches... there's a decision to be made. Do they diverge their ways? Does one decide to end the relationship because of the suffering and depression of the other due to the obstacle? Or.. Does the person/people end the relationship because they just feel it's too much of a pain in the ass.

The first two demonstrate love, but one is higher than the other. For the person to do something so painful and dramatic because of the other's well-fare, is one of the ultimate sacrifices. I personally would like to give a standing ovation to anyone who has done that.. they are selfless people and the world will realize how good you are at heart. The other is also love (diverging ways..) but for different reasoning. It simply shows that they do love them, but not enough to go through obstacles.. which isn't pure and mature love in the first place.

I mean, I know opinions differ and I'm probably somewhat wrong about this genre, but I'm giving it a shot and maybe if somebody actually reads this, they can give me the heads up or possibly realize something they didn't know before. I'm not trying to preach or even change opinions. I just wanted to write about this to get a perspective on life and perhaps mature somewhat in the genre.

There's just.. it's a complex issue. Love is the happiest feeling in the world, but it doesn't always make you happy. It's extremely ironic and some people say "to the hell with love," until they finally find the love of their lives. Some people are not lucky enough to find their soulmate, but they still love anyway. What's the deal with this feeling? It mixes everyone up to an extent where they have to reach out and somehow "realize," what they actually want. Then, when they get confused again, the whole process repeats.

[A girl I know very well wrote this...

"Loving him gives me something to triumph along side me when times get hard. The feeling of loving someone so perfect is like nothing is wrong in this world, even in the greatest times of despair. Most of all, loving him is like breathing. I feel the air circulate through my body and it energizes me to live. It's there no matter what, walking with me through every step of my life, making me feel like the most special person in the world, even through I'm unknown to most of it."

"I only wish that I could return the feeling that never leaves me, I only wish I would love fully like I've never been hurt, give everything like nothing has been stolen, and live life as if there's no tomorrow. I wish I could return everything he's given me because it haunts me day and night, helping me wherever I need to go within my life, and helps me help others."

"I never want the feeling to leave, I would be willing to go through anything and sacrifice anything without hesitation. It just seems like nothing else matters and my whole world melts into one perfect feeling that cannot be broken... the feeling of love."]

I don't really want to talk about my emotional involvement with Cody. That's really no ones buisness and it's more private than probably a lot of stuff I keep inside. I'm not in any way ashamed of loving Cody, but if you knew me, you would understand.

With all the love I have,
~Angel

Hey, just a lil song to say how I've been feelin' since last night...when I found out the supposive truth...

Took me a while
But I'm finally here
I just wanna testify
Make it crystal clear
See I've been picked out
To be picked on
Talked about out my friends mouths
I've been beat down
Til he turned my life around
Turn my life around

Seems like I always fall short
Of bein worthy
Cuz I ain't good enough
But He still loves me

I aint no superstar
The spotlight aint shining on me
Cuz I ain't good enough
But He still loves me
I used to wake up somedays
And wish I'd stayed asleep
Cuz I went to bed on top of the world
Today the world's on top of me
Everybody's got opinions
They ain't been in my position
That it breaks my heart
When I hear what they have to say about me

[Seems like I always fall short
Of bein worthy
Cuz I ain't good enough
But He still loves me
I ain't no superstar
I wanna be for you
The spotlight ain't shining on me
Cuz I aint good enough
but He still loves me]

[I'm not perfect]
(I'm not perfect)
[Yes I do wrong]
(yes I do wrong)
[I'm trying my best]
(trying my best but)
[But it aint good enough]
(just aint good enough)
[Shunned by the world
If I don't succeed
Cuz I aint good enough]
But he still loves me
(I just aint good enough)

If you ain't worthy just raise your hands
And let me know that you understand
That we are all so blessed
To be loved

Stand for him or fall for anything
Cuz through his eyes we all look the same
What will we do
Without out pain

Seems like I always fall short
Of bein worthy
Cuz I ain't good enough
But He still loves me

I ain't no superstar
(I ain't no superstar but I wanna be for you Lord)
The spotlight ain't shining on me
Cuz I aint good enough
But You still love me

I'm not perfect
Yes I do wrong
I'm trying my best but
(tryin my best)
It aint good enough
(I'm not good enough)
Shunned be the word
(shunned by the world)
If i dont succeed
(i dont succeed-ceed-ceed)
Cuz I aint good enough
But He still loves me
(child sing with me)
I'm not perfect
Yes I do wrong
I'm trying my best but
It aint good enough
(But the Lord's been so good to me)
Shunned be the word
(Shunned by the world)
If i don't succeed
Cuz I ain't good enough
(I ain't good enough)
But He still loves me
(The Lord still loves me)

No I ain't good enough
But He still loves me
(Raise your hands if you understand)
No I ain't good enough
(How He blessed you cuz He blessed you too)
but He still loves me
(even though I aint worthy)
No I aint good enough
(you aint worthy, He is there for you)
but He still loves me
(no matter what I do)
No I ain't good enough
(I ain't good enough)
but He still loves me
the Lord still loves me

http://beyonce.lyrics-songs.com/lyrics/78496/

The IF Survey~

I stole this from someone on elfpack's description thingy... :)

LOVE
"I dream of a love that even time will lie down and be still for."

"True love cannot be found where it truely does not excist, nor can it be hidden where it truely does."

~Life isn't measured by the breaths you take, but by the moments that take your breath away.~

Before I met you I never knew what it was like to look at someone and smile for no reason.~

~I'd rather have bad times with you than good times with anyone else. I'd rather stand through a storm with you than safe all by myself. I'd have it harder together than easier apart. Above all, I'd rather have you because you're the only one in my heart.~

~Love is living your own life, but sharing it. Love is forgiveness. It's making a million mistakes and turning them into learning experiences. Love is patience, optimistic and sometimes it's a kiss when there is nothing left to say.~

~Love is knowing that you can't be with someone forever, that there'll never be another person that completes you as completely, that you're perfectly imperfect together, that you'll lose a little part of yourself when you lose this person, but taking the time to love them anyway and walking away when it's over with a smile despite the tears.~

~You don't get to choose, you just fall in love. And you get this person who is all right and all wrong at the same time. And you know that you love them so much except sometimes they just drive you completely insane and no on can explain it and the reason it's so confusing is because it's love. But if love didn't have any challenges, what would be the point?~

~Everyone says love hurts, but that is not true. Loneliness hurts. Rejection hurts. Losing someone hurts. Envy hurts. Everyone gets these things confused with love, but in reality love is the only thing in this world that covers up all pain and makes someone feel wonderful again. Love is the only thing in this world that does not hurt.~

~Do you want me to tell you something really subversive? Love is everything it's cracked up to be. That's why people are so cynical about it. It really is worth fighting for, being brave for, risking everything for. And the trouble is, if you don't risk everything, you risk even more.~

~You know you're infatuated with someone when you say they are perfect. You know you are in love with someone once you realize they're really not perfect, rather the things you love about them are.~

~I need you. I need that guy who can make me laugh just by the way he says hello when I pick up the phone. The guy who makes my hands shake when I'm sitting next to him. And the guy who isn't afraid to keep hugging me when I'm not ready to let go yet.~

~It's incredible the way you make me smile...~

~The world is going to throw us a million reasons why this isn't going to work out between me and you. But, what the world doesn't know is that I'm armed with the one reason why it will... I love you.~

~Do not be afraid of what you feel for someone... they can't be mad at you... you cannot control your emotions, so why not just tell them what is on you mind, and how you feel? And maybe, just maybe, they will tell you back.~

~I hug you and I almost feel like that's where I belong and honestly, that's the only place I want to be.~

~Sometimes you love someone so that you have to be numb to it, because if you actually felt how much you loved them, it would kill you.~

~Love is too strong a word to say to early, but it has too beautiful a meaning to say too late.~

~A kiss is a kiss until you find the one you love, a hug is a hug until its the one you're thinking of, a dream is a dream until you make it come true, love is just a word until its proven to you.~

Hey,

I WARN YOU: THIS IS IN A NUTSHELL....

Well, I sort of had an epiphany last night. Unless you have known me for quite some time, you wouldn't understand why this is a good/new realization for me. I suppose it means I am moving on in a new direction because I would always be stuck in the past. It's a REALLY REALLY *X infinity* good thing because that it means I am truly underline TRULY happy.

If you know me, I'm usually only happy for a limited amount of reasons, if at all. But during my Homecoming dance, I felt something I never really felt before. It was amazing because I knew that THAT exact (place/whom I was with) was where I was supposed to be -it's where I was meant to be at that time. I wasn't supposed to be with anyone else or anywhere else.

For YEARS, I ALWAYS thought I belonged with ONE particular person. Did I "love" them? Yes. Did I go out with other people during that period, yes. I know it sounds mean, but I honestly thought I liked them [the other people I went out with,] during that time frame. I mean, I was just confused as to how I felt and didn't even know it until afterward.

Yet, I always went back to the same person -the same old feeling that what's "meant to be," is never going to happen. I was depressed, anxious, and just generally unhappy. Unhappy was not the only thing I felt at the time. I was so suicidal and even came close a few times. I was an all around bitch and now I look back, and regret every minute I wasted before....

What made it worse, was everyone else said we looked so cute together. They would constantly ask why we weren't together. They would nag and nag forEVER! It was horrible!!!! But, he just never wanted to, for reasons not known to me.

I mean, supposedly he told two people the "we woulda went out but..." speech. Yet, he denies liking me and the periods where he says he does, are simple confusions (well, to him anyway.) I mean, everyone thinks he does, (generally,) and I dunno if the whole "you two are cute thing," is ever gonna end. I mean, maybe we appear to be "fate," (or whatever the hell you wanna call it,) but now I know that this so called "fate," lies else ware for numerous reasons.

Now, I really do not give a shit whether he is in love with me or not. I wasted two/three years waiting for his ass to come around. He tells me, "I don't care if we are friends," and then calls me his Sister, the goes back to the "I don't like her mood." What the hell? I wasted all that time and I want to go back and change time so badly. I mean, I know that I am where I AM supposed to be -I'm with WHOM I'm supposed to be with and no one's going to alter that decision.

In contrast to then... I am now happy we're not together [or basically ever were together,] because I wouldn't of been here, in this state now -and here (right now,) is a VERY good thing. At the dance, I knew I was dancing with the right person. Now, it's not like I didn't have feeling with this person before -because yes, I did love this person before the dance. However, at the dance...I was positive that I'm not supposed to be with ANYONE else.

During that period of two/three years, I didn't really feel anything about anyone. It's like bloop, feeling block. (Yes, I did use bloop because I didn't know what else to put there.) It's like no matter what I did, I never liked anyone else for real, I never felt anything but "love" for real. I mean, I thought I did, but I really didn't. I liked the same person and now, I'm POSITIVE I don't like this person anymore. (I mean, I was positive before, but yeah.. you get what I mean.) After time passed, I knew I was ALWAYS going to "love" this ONE person. I was never gonna be with anyone else because I didn't feel ANYTHING for ANYONE else. Now, that feelings gone.

After I started to have this feeling (the new epiphany feeling,) I realized I just wasted almost two/three years of my life. It put me in a state that I shouldn't of been in. Why, I don't know. I'm not confused now because NOW is the only time that I am moving away from that direction and moving foreword into something amazing, something new, and most of all... something real. I also know because I'm I actually feel something now, in contrast to having no other emotion before. NOW is the only emotion I feel and it's the only emotion I wanna feel.

This feeling is just as if everything melts away and that one moment, (while the dancing occurs,) is the RIGHT moment. It feels like I am sheltered from everything horrible and wrong because there is nothing like that around me (which I know there is, but it feels as if there's not at that particular moment.) I feel as if the only thing I need to do is just dance with that ONE person. At that moment, the dancing was like me showing how I feel about this person and how I feel like ...myself.

The best symbol I can give you (and yes, it does sound corny,) is like a bubble. Like I'm standing in the middle of a room where horrible things are placed, deceiving thoughts and words try to haunt me, and most of all... they are trying to destroy the bubble. Now, this bubble is a thin layer wrapped around me protecting me from everything in this room. The feeling is the bubble. But the bubble is popped if the feeling isn't true for the reasons and guidelines that I BELIEVE it is true for (I know that's confusing but PLAY ALONG! lolz.)

At that time, and as the feeling begins to grow more prominently, I feel truly happy, no matter what happens. I know the source of this feeling feels somewhat the same about me also. Yet, it's just like I'm ecstatic and NO MATTER WHAT, this feeling will ALWAYS make me so excited (not like horny excited,) because I know it's the feeling I want to have and am supposed to have with this person.

JUST OMG lolz... there's really nothing in English to describe it more than that. Although, there is LOADS more lolz :)

Love always,
~Angel

Hey,

I am going to kinda so a switch order here. I don't really wanna write anymore but I'll write a BIT about this.

The friend I have had for over three years, *Daniel,* said the "I don't care if we are friends anymore," type of thing. Then, he ignores me. He's being a freakin idiot b-cuz of the reasoning *or supposive reasoning,* and all this. Pisses me off that we can't even be FRIENDS... but you know what... FUCK IT! If he doesn't wanna be friends, we don't have to be.

By the way, IF AND ONLY IF anyone tore us apart *as friends,* which I'm thinking that was a factor, I hope they burn in hell and then come back to life and then burn in hell again because they sure do deserve it. MOTHER FUCKERS. Not that they care what I SAY, but I'm SURE what's about to come to them is gonna make them regret lifting a finger (and yea, that should scare you whoever you are...)

THE ABOVE PARAGRAPH ONLY APPLIES IF SOMEONE TRIED TO TARE US APART~

~Angel

Hey Everybody!

Now, I am not the preppy type but dances and especially PROM are very VERY important to me for many reasons. There's just certain emotions you feel at a dance or PROM that you can't really feel anywhere else. That's why they are so important to me. It's like at a dance, everything is different because nothing matters, just that one night where everything is planned and all you worry about is having fun.

For my entire life, I won't doubt it, I have been treated like a freak. It doesn't really matter whether I am a freak or not, it's just.. I've been treated like one. Most people treat me like shit, use me, abuse me, and just throw me around until their done and wanna move on to the next person. At first, I supposed it was because I was gullible and just retarded. Now, it's more like I'm just easy like that. Thanks world.. makes me wanna kill myself every day when people do that. But I suppose MOST people just don't give a fucking shit.

Yet, at dances I don't have to be treated like a freak, I can be treated like a person and I look foreward to them every day because it's the ONE night in a very long time where I am considered the exact same as everyone else. At the last homecoming I was at, I felt great because all my friends were there in the same place with me just having fun. I didn't have to worry about what others thought because everyone else was just like me, having fun.

Now, if someone fucks up those plans, I get super pist.. because it's so important to me. GOD DAMMIT! I mean, ERRRRR I get so depressed because I have nothing to look foreward to anymore (at least for a long while.) I mean, these are so important to me that if someone screws it up, I feel they they are treating me as if I'm unimportant... whether I'm important to them or not. I mean, they could love me to death and I would still feel like that because they took what I felt was really important and pushed it aside as if it were nothing.

I mean, I'm not saying anyone did this or they are at fault, because those are semi-false to completely false. I'm just saying that's how I feel when things like this get screwed over for me. I mean, seriously, if my homecoming night got seriously screwed up, I wouldn't even go. I'd sit in my room, cry, then do more homework and try to benefit society to be treated like a person.

Am I saying that all people treat me like shit? HELL NO! Everyone has friends and people they love. I know there are people that care about me a lot. Am I saying they don't matter or count? NO! That's not what I'm saying at all. I'm just saying a lot of society in general treats me that way and it makes me feel like shit because they don't even know me. Just... I don't think anyone could really understand so I'm gonna shut up.

~Angel

DATE   TIME   PLACE      ENSEMBLE
10-1-04 6:30 p.m. Fed. Ctr. Blrm. Octavio
10-16-04 7:30 p.m. 1st Pres.    Am/Viv (w/BCB)
10-22-04 7:30 p.m. Allendale, MI  Vivace (w/BCB)
10-29-04 7:30 p.m. Eaton Rapids, MI Vivace & Octavio
11-10-04 5:45 p.m. Heritage Dome  Octavio
12-1-04 7:00 p.m. Schuler's Rest. Amabile
12-2-04 7:00 p.m. Westlake Pres.  Octavio
12-3-04 7:30 p.m. Tecumseh, MI   Vivace & Octavio
12-8-04 7:00 p.m. Schuler's Rest. Vivace
12-18-04 7:30 p.m. 1st Pres.    All BCGC 
12-19-04 3:00 p.m. 1st Pres.    All BCGC 
4-23-05 7:30 p.m. 1st Pres.    All BCGC 
5-7-05  7:30 p.m. KCC Binda    Amabile & Vivace
5-8-05  3:00 p.m. KCC Binda    Amabile & Vivace


These are the dates and times of my concert. If you know which group I am in, then you know exactly what concerts I am in..

~Angel

Hey,

My life has pretty much been turned upside down at this point. The reason I am not making any entries is because I don't know what the fuck is going on and I am finding out so much about EVERYTHING that I didn't know before.

Things are happening to me that I never imagined possible. I wish I was someone else. It's not that I don't want some things within my life but others, I would do anything to live without. It's a long story... I'll make a noval when I finish

~Angel

Hey Everybody!

  So much has been going on right now. Last night, I thought I finally lost everything! I thought that sooner or later, I would kill myself. I was almost positive that last night would be the night. I can't possibily put into words everything thats happened.

  All I can say is thank you to someone who forgave me for unforgivable acts. I love this person very much and last night, I made a lot of realizations. If I wouldn't of talked to this "person," I would of probably been in bed all day, or crying, or maybe even dead. Thank you so much for how you've changed my life... not only last night, but every night since the first day I met you.

  I can promise you that I will always be there, always believe in you, and most of all always have faith in you. Nothing is ever going to change that.. no matter what happens. I hope we can be together for a very long time. I will always be there to support you in whatever you wanna do and I know what I'm saying is true.

  I know I have commited acts that are unforgivable. You were more of a person than I ever will be...because you offered me forgiveness. I will forever be thankful that you were there to listen to me and talk things through. There's so much to describe how I feel right now, but I get the feeling that everything is gonna be all right. Through Heaven and hell, everything will be all right. :)

~Angel

Dear ________,

(For *winkers* reasons, I have to keep the keeper of this anonomous.)

   Have you ever been around people that say things are just fate? Things such as the sky and the stars.... things that were made for each other and will always be together for all of eternity? Such a big promise, but something that someone is willing to sacrifice for anything in this world. The one true thing they want the most. The thing they are willing to give anything for.... even their life.

   For most of my life, I thought that ugliness, hatred, and lonliness was meant for me. I was so low at some points, that lower points were made below ground. For quite some time, I wanted to kill myself. LoLa... how fun. However, two people changed my life forever.

   Now... things are so different, it's not even funny. I am beginning to believe that I am not just a worthless piece of crap. I am starting to believe that I am a person too, not someone who deserves nothing. I mean, I am not being selfish. I am believing that I am an equal person.

   These people guided me through trouble and have been there pretty much my entire life. For that, I will be eternally greatful and I will love them for the rest of my life. Nothing can separate me from these two people... not pain nor death. I will always be with them and help them through anything. I am willing to sacrifice my everything for their welfare. They changed my life and I will be friends with them forever.

   Through anything in life, I want them to be happy above anything else. I will always care about them even if we are fighting. I will always believe in them and have faith in them, no doubt. There is absolutely NO doubt in my mind these people will be sucess.

   One of these "friends," is a guy. The other is a girl. This guy "friend" I have is one that I care about deeply *winkers.* The girl, I have been friends with since I was like negative born lol. These people have changed my life and I will always be thankful that I have them with me.

   One (at least I believe so,) will separate from us next year or thereafter. Although I don't want her to leave, I want her to know that she should do whatever her heart desisres. I want her to be happy and if that means leaving, I support her in whatever she wants to do. If she does not follow her heart, she will not live a happy live. With that said, she's my Sissy forever and I love her :).

   The other "friend," is someone that I will always care about through thick and thin. I will always be there for him and have faith in him. I will always love him throughout my life. Perhaps not like couple love, but care about love. It's something that will never leave me. I can't stay mad at him forever because I know that we are meant to be friends (or something more,) for the rest of our lives. I would do anything for him and I trust him more than pretty much anyone. I love you Daniel :)

   Every day, I thank God that he gave them to me. We are like Brothers and Sisters... meant to be together through Hell, Heaven, Death, and life. Everything that happens, happens with us together. We have never faught about anything or stopped speaking to each other. It's pure fate that we met each other and pure fate that we will be together forever.

ViRgInItY

Lately, I have been asking my friends about virginity. Is this because I want to loose it? No, I want to wait until I feel as if it is the right time to loose it. However, before a few days ago, I really didn't know what the right time was. I have waited quite a while to have sex (16 years,) while people I used to know of 13, are now bearing children.

Do I get made fun of for being a virgin? By some people, yes. Others say "I wish I would have waited like you or I wouldn't be carrying this..." Some ask why I have waited. Frankly, I always imagined sex as something special, but not "non pre-marital" special. Frankly, it is true that sex is overrated. But I want to make it meaningful for my first time.

To me, having sex with a virgin is a reward in two ways. If you seriously care about the person, then you are willing to take their heart, mind, and gift to keep and hold with you. It would be special to you because it's from the one you love forever. Perhaps your not in love with them for the rest of your lives, but you do care about them deeply. The other thing is (if your a mother fucking asshole) is virgins can sometimes be tight and it feels better. I guess it's just one of facts of life.

Now, I used to believe that I would never have sex with someone who is a non-virgin for my first time. This is because I am loosing a lot more than they ever will. They've already had sex so their gift is elseware and they can take your gift and covenent and misuse it. Frankly, now my opinions have differed greatly. I believe that the person you are willing to loose it to is giving you something in return. The heart felt love of the promise that lasts forever. They are willing to recieve that gift and use it for the greater good (in your relationship etc.)

An Unbiological Sister(s) of mine, *in case you were wondering if I met any of my Sisters,* told me something I will never forget. I simply asked her what feeling I will get when I am ready to loose it. I figure every girl in the world gets a special feeliing and she just knows in all essence of things. I don't really know how to explain it.

The emotion basically is something along the lines of: You want to give this person a gift that lasts forever, whether you are with them or not. You want it to be them and no one else because your so incredibily in love with them, that it's impossible to not share this with them. This isn't simply love though, because all things don't last forever. This is a case where even you are not talking anymore, or your married to other people, or anything else... you wan them and them alone to carry the present you gave them that wonderful night.

^She also commented on how sex is overrated but one should make the first time meaningful... Which is something I also believe...^

You won't regret doing it with them for your one and only first time because it was with them -the person you so strongly were willing to give this gift to for all eternity. **I know this is sorta deep, but play along** This person is going to have YOUR heart and soul and gift until the end of the world and everyone burns in hell. :-D...

In some cases, sex is sex. I'm sorry to say, but it is. In other's it can be a special gift shared with someone and you will never be able to have that gift returned. I wanna make sure I found the right person before I am willing to give them the gift of forever. It's a mightly large promise and it's such a hard decision to make.

The person I wanna loose my virginity to (when I do indeed decide to loose it,) is someone that I care about so deeply, I want them to have my everything. *That sorta didn't sound right but again, play along :-D* I am willing to give my heart and mind to for all of time. They are someone I wanna share something with that I cannot and refuse to share with anyone else. I would be so deeply in love with them that words could not describe how I feel. Because I feel so deeply for them, I would be willing to make such a promise and bear such a memory or gift of forever.

Afterward, I wouldn't cry (maybe tears of joy,) I would simply be. Actually, I would be very happy. Not because I can prove myself, but I have such a connection with one person in this world, that I can share something so great with them....I would be happy for them and for me because we were obviously ment to share this together in this deep, dark, ...malicious world.

Hey, just something to think about lol
~Angel

Hey,

I know someone on here is taking my poetry...and it's pissing me off. Stop doing it! That's all I gotta say 'cuz some of it's published and if you publish it too, then you just committed an illegal action. Plus, two of those are not mine. They are someone elses, your just being an asshole and your gonna have to pay the consiquences of stealing my stuff..

Toddles David!

~Angel