• Kurt is the one that you love.

• Jordan is one you like but can't work out.

• You care most about Olivia.

• Elly is the one who knows you very well.

• Katie is your lucky star.

• Cold is the song that matches with Kurt.

• Ohio is for lovers is the song for Jordan.

• Sooner or later is the song that tells you most about YOUR mind.

• and Smoke 2 joints is the song telling you how you feel about life

001: Name: Molly what the fuck dude
002: Nickname: Mookie
003: Country of living: USA
004: Birthdate: 2/11/87
005: Height: 5'4"
006: Eye color: green
007: Shoesize: 7
008: School/work: GED classes GAYYYY
009: You smoke: yeh
010: Hobby's: Singing and smoking alot of pot..
011: Brothers/Sisters: My fucktard sister
012: Relationship: muh kleenex
013: Piercing(s): Lol my eyebrow, nose, tongue, and nipples
014: Tattoo(s): 2
015: Vacationland: lots of places dude
016: Are there people you wont reply to?: not really
017: Nicest person you met this year: Kurt
018: Person you rather not have met this year: Hmmm.. Robbies ex g/f brittney
019: Who would you like to meet: Kurt..
020: Who is it that you admire: Not really anyone
021: Most sexy person(s):Kurt
022: Favorite Pyama: Dunno
023: Favorite Car: cadilacz yum
024: Favorite Movie(s): Saw
025: Favorite Music: Rock, Punk, Emo, Death rap, etc.
026: Favorite City(s): Fuck dude i dunno Palm springs hell yea
027: Favorite Plush: Fuzzy stuff?
028: Favorite Perfume/au de toilette/aftershave: Cool water for women
029: Favoriete Magazine: Victorias secret
030: Favorite sound : bottle glass scraping across the pavement..
031: Favorite TV-series: Fuck tv
032: Favorite Writer: No one
033: Favorite Nickname: Dude and Mookie
034: What is on your mousepad: Dont have one its a lazor shiznit
035: What all is under your bed: Nothing..
036: Favorite color: Pink and black
037: Favorite Song ever: Venus Blue
038: Favorite song at this moment: I have no idea
39: Favorite food: anything good mostly chinese though
040: Favorite class at school: Lol..
041: Favorite drink: Captian morgan and coke
Alcoholic: Captian morgan
042: Lucky number: 7
043: What do you think that is greatest about yourself: Personality
Externally: Eyes
Internally: My originality and uniqueness kicks ass
044: What deodorant do you use: Dove and old spice (man shiznit)
045: Favorite shoes: my audios
046: What time do you go to bed on workdays: Uh when i crash
047: What word do you use most: hardcore
048: Most romantic moment in your life: first kiss
049: Most ashamed moment of your life: Dunno
050: You spend your time rather inside or outside: Outside
051: What do you do in the weekends: Smoke alot like always and drink
052: What class on school do/did you dislike most: School?
053: Your Breakfast: I wouldnt know
054: What do you really really dislike to eat: most food
055: Pets: 8 cats and 1 dog
056: Laugh or dream: laugh
057: Serious or funny: funny
058: Fast or slow: both are good
059: You prefer being alone or have relation: a relationship
060: Simple or Complicated: complicated
061: Cremate or Buried when dead: cremate
062: Sex or alcohol: sex
063: Stay up late or go to bed early: stay up late
064: Light of dark?: dark
065: Speak or Silence:speak
066: Tall or Small Woman: small
067: News paper: k
068: Hug or kiss: kiss
069: Happy or Sad: happy
070: Life or Death: Life
071: Gig or Disco: gig
072: Left or Right: right
073: Sausages on top, or on the side: dont care
074: Dark/ Red/ Blonde: red..
075: What would you ask god if you could ask him 1 single question: Is there a purpose to my torment or is it just a fucking mind game you like to play with people?
076: Do you believe in reincarnation: yeah
077: Do you believe in Aliens: yah
078: When you die, what will be your last words?: hopefully it will be in kurts arms so i can say i love you
079: Does true love exist?: yah
080: How many kids would you like to have?: Undecided
081: What is the thing you cant stand: being alone
082: Best feeling: orgasms and being in love
083: Worst feeling in the world: being alone
084: What are you afraid of: people
085: Are you an emotional person: yea dude
086: You cry while watching a movie?: Yea
087: Your goal in life: Be somebody
088: What was the promise you made to yourself at new years eve: not to make a promise to myself
089: Who is your favorite artist?: i dunno
090: As what animal would you like to reincarnate: i dunno
091: What is the most beautiful part on the female body: eyes...
092: Most original place to ask your love to marry you: I dunno..
093: What do you think of elftown?: Whatever
094: Is there something you miss about elftown?: NO
095: Where did you get this question list?: Kurt
096: Besides elftown, what do you do most on your PC: Talk on yahoo and msn
097: Is there a question you missed in this all?:NO?

...Fuck...Off...

Yea so kurts fucking pissed at me, how lovely.. I mean, right the fuck on! I have no fucking clue what I did to him but okay. Whatever I guess.. Im not the one who said I'd tell him everything i ever wanted to know! He told ME that! God he acts like I'm gonna get pissed at him.. And maybe since hes dodgeing the question so much maybe i should be mad at him? God.. What the fuck.. Whatever I dont even give a fuck.. Just another wasteful fight..

-Drowns myself in a dixi cup-

..I am unbearably sad right now.. I cry atleast once a day... Blah.. I hate being so far away from him.. All I can literally do is dream about touching him.. Feeling his arms wrapped around me.. seeing him smile..I dont know how i survive not physically being there with him.. It's so fucking hard sometimes i just get so fucking mad because we're not really together.. I mean fuck.. I'm using up so much space in my heart for Kurt, and im willingly doing this, not by force or question, and I dont even know if we'll ever actually see or touch eachother.. That's so hard to do.. He means the world to me, literally.. I don't know what i was intending to say in this.. so im going to stop blabbing cuz theres no reason...

I hate only having one thing in life holding me up, keeping me from being ripped into the darkness and raped of all happiness and excitement..

I love Kurt to death, don't get this entry wrong.. But what if its just false feelings?.. I mean I know my feelings for him are true and real..but.. How do I know that his are?.. I mean I trust him and I'd do anything for him.. But what if he decides he doesnt want me anymore?.. What if the only thing holding me.. Keeping me from my own death.. Goes away?.. Then what?..

 Then I am left to fall...

Kurt.. I love you.. More than anything else.. I mean yes I have other things in my life that make me happy, but none as true and understanding as you.. I know I tell you this all the time..How much I love you and How much you mean to me but you just don't seem to believe me when I tell you.. Does that mean i just dont show it enough?.. Or is it the evilness of the distance taking its toll..

   What if it tears us apart?.. -Looks down at the cold floor and sighs with tears in my eyes-..

I feel so lucky to have him, I mean come on there are so many girls on elftown that want him! they have his pictures up at their houses and yes it bothers me, but i know he loves me and not them so i dont really mind all that much.. I just wanted to inform everyone thats reading this, you may want him, and you may be thinking of him.. But when you think of him remember hes mine, and im not letting go until im torn away by the limbs and thrown forcefully to hell.. Bitches.. x.x

 Sometimes I just wish you'd understand...

"A Beautiful Letdown"

The expectations and standards I am forced to live with are burning a hole inside my well-being.
The tightrope that is dangled so high above sanity that I am expected to dance across so gracefully is starting to wear.
My only sence of hope and happiness is being raped so forcefully from my grip is taking a turn on me.
I no longer am the little girl you all have grown to love and adore so remorsefully.
My world once painted so colorofully is now starting to fade to black and gray.
My heart that at one time sang so joyfully is losing its insparation.
I no longer have that strong hand to hold and guide me,
I no longer feel the happiness that once burned a hole inside me...

M.A.L. *04*

"Torn"

The decisions I am faced with are tearing a hole inside me.
The confusion inside my head is taking a hold of me.
I am mentally going insane not knowing if you even care,
The way I think about you, wondering if your thinking of me too is just not fair.
I cant seen to find the words to show you how I feel.
Im afraid that it is my heart that I will allow you to steal.
I love you
I need you
I want you...
To get out of my head.
These are the feelings I need to shed.
I hate you
I despise you
I'd die for you...
I need you to tell me if you really care,
But telling you how i truely feel is something I do not dare.
I have to know if I can allow these feelings to be born,
Or if I shall remain silent, and my heart remain torn..

M.A.L. *04*

My face was kissed by the sweet rays of the sunshine gleaming off of the lake of my life...



 My sweet blue oblivion.. You make the nonscence make sence.. You make the dull turn bright..

    The way you've impacted and changed the way i feel about things.. the sweet things ive taken for granted.. the feelings ive overlooked.. happiness is something i long for.. something i strive for.. you've made the fight easily won.. Thank you..

The stars can only shine so bright when your world is clouded by a dull gray, and everything that surrounds you is an empty sprial...


 

"Look What You've Done"

Take my photo off the wall
If it just won't sing for you
'Cause all that's left has gone away
And there's nothing there for you to prove

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems likes such fun
Until you lose what you had won

Give me back my point of view
'Cause I just can't think for you
I can hardly hear you say
What should I do, well you choose

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems likes such fun
Until you lose what you had won

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
A fool of everyone
A fool of everyone

Take my photo off the wall
If it just won't sing for you
'Cause all that's left has gone away
And there's nothing there for you to do

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems likes such fun
Until you lose what you had won

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
A fool of everyone
A fool of everyone

Reality is nothing more than a dream...

Choices are nothing but a burden burning a hole into each and every one of our shoulders..

The childhood memories I at one time had, have come and passed.
The happiness I at one time experienced is now a part of my past.
The hole inside my heart is only becoming deeper,
And the tension and confusion inside my head is only becoming
steeper.
I no longer need your constant ridicule,
Because I now have come to realize its my heart that you have
fooled.
These ropes are no longer binding me to you so forcefully.
The pain I’ve felt for so long is finally being lifted
remorsefully.
My reason to smile has been raped so bitterly from me,
and my eyes feel like they can no longer see.
My eternal happiness is now only a dream.
My spinning thoughts I no longer know what they mean…


Yup i wrote it.. Comments would be lovely.

How come no matter what i do, i cant seem to make anyone happy? Including myself..!.. ugh

Ive come to the conclusion that I am way to sexual.. I seriously don't know any other girl that is like me.. I talk about sex all the time.. i think about it all the time.. i want it.. all the time! erghhhh.. :x

STITCHES FUCKING SUCK!!... GRRARR!!! n junk -pulls them out with tweezers even tho im not supposed 2-..hehehe.

heh.. have you ever had the feeling that everything is a fucking conspiracy?.. hehehe.. Its like.. everyone is being forced to like me.. and no one really does.. Hmmm.. -looks around nervously-... eh.. Yup.. my mouth fucking hurts, i feel like a weenie.. oh well..

Ooh.. Colorado is fucking retarded.. I miss home..really bad.. and obviously my friends miss me -glares bitterly at acea- i cant believe you.. that is so fucked up! I dont even know what to fucking think right now.. im so fucking mad..

Fuck men.. I am so about to fuckin go lesbian.. Its amazing how one person can rip a persons heart out without caring.. BLah FUCK YOU JONATHAN JAMES ADAM KORUS.. Fuck you..

....Im in the middle of taking semester tests.. and they suck butt. I woke up and only had like 10 minutes to get to school so im a bit crabby if i dare say so myself. :) Blah