Dear Diary,
Ok, first of all, Kura's older sister Reachel, or however the hell you spell her name hates me for, like, no reason. And she says I'M not punk. What the hell, she's a fuckin' prep, how would SHE know PUNK? Loser bitch... anywayz. Yeah, I told Kura basically my whole life, and how life doesn't exactly pass me like other people, and now it's really starting to haunt me. (Like nothing ever days? Every fuckin' day that passes haunts me) Not to meantion I'm totally afraid of Thrusday cause we have the High School Placement test, and it's like the first big test thingy we're going to be taking. I'm so scared. Everyone else has been studying, and me, I'm relaying on faith and God. Yeah, pretty pathetic huh? Well, Mom did say that everything happens for a reason, and if it's God will for me to fail, maybe there's something better for me in the future. Yeah... My last year in my school. I had practically almost forgotten. Last year of Nicky being annoying. Last year of Joseph calling me weird. Last year of laughing at nothing with TK. Last year of never fitting in. But hey, maybe there was something better outside of St. Rita's. Maybe a school that's not full of snobs. Maybe... but hey, right now I'm just concentrating on the days passing quickly so me and Kura can be reunited. Sure, most people would be a little concerned that the fast that thier older sistre's older sister hates them and mgiht pull soemthing, but hey, I'm different from most people, now aren't I? Plus, her preppy ass can't beat me AND the best big sister in the world. And if that's not true, I know I've got a bunch of guys willing to stuff themselves into a sweat bag and fly over to Indiana to beat her up. Cause I've got all 5 of my bros, Skyler, Nicky, Josh (Go Joshy!^-^), Maybe Joseph if I'm lucky^-^
Well, gotta go.
Kari
Vienna
By Billy Joel
(The song I sang for auditons^-^)
*piano intro.*
Slow down you crazy child...
You're so ambitious for a juvinile.
But then if you're so smart
Tell me why are you still so afriad?
Where's the fire, what's the hurry about?
You better, cool it off before you burn it out
You got so much to do
And only so many hours in a day
Hey, hey ,hey
But you know that when the truth is told
That you can get what you want
Or you can just get old
Your gonna
Kick off before you even get halfway through...
Uw.
When will you realize?
Vienna waits for you.
Slow down, your doin' fine
You can't be everything you wanna be before your time
Althought it's so romantic on the boardorline
Tonight... tonight
Too bad, but it's the laugh you lead
Your so ahead of yourself, that you forgot what you need
Thought you can see when your wrong
You know your can't always see when your right...
You right
You got your passion!
You got your pride!
But don't you know that only FOOLS are satisfied?
Dream on!
But don't imgine they'll all come true...
Uw.
When will you realize?
Vienna waits for you...
*Italian music*
Slow you crazy child
And take the phone off the hook
And disappear for a while
It's alright, you can't afford to lose a day or two
Uw.
When will you realize
Vienna waits for you...
And you know that when the truth is told
That you can get what ya want!
Or you can just get old
Your gonna
Kick off!
Before you even get halfway... through
Uw.
When will you realize?
Vienna... waits for you...
*piano ending*
Kari
Dear Diary,
Ok, maybe feeling a *little* better since yesterday. I have totally gotten over what I had just wrote yesterday, even though I know it's true. Hm... what else? Oh yes, like the fact I keep continuelessly updating my diary, yet, no one really reads it till I tell them. And it sort of annoyed me how none of my friends updated their's. Ok, it's not like I'm mad at them or anything it's just, here I am spilling my guts to a virtual book all my friends can read, and they have kept everything to themsleves. Ok, wiat, it's not that way. Now I'm making myself look noisy. Alright... how to put this? Oh yes, it is not that I'm noisy, it's just that I'm concerned. You know? I just wanna be updated on my friend's lives so I can keep up with when thier happy or sad. And help them out when thier sad. Like... um... a double mom... or something. Anywayz, saw 'The Incredibles' it was as great as Ryan had foretold, and I got Nicky a present. His B-day's on Friday, and I'm gonna make him the grreatest card he'lll ever get! (and his present ain't half bad ether^-^)
See ya!
Kari
Dear Diary,
Last night, I realized the truth. And as one of my very wise friends had said, 'The truth can be a good thing... but sometimes it can lead to pain' And he was right, and realizing the truth about my family and my situation just got me into the deepest of depressions. Nicky had always told me how sorry he felt for me when I would tell him about my life, or my story. Like the fact that my father doesn't give a damn about me. And the fact that every night I would sit alone on my bed while my brothers get my dad all to themselves. And it even happens at my mom's house. I could sit on my bed for hours, they wouldn't know I was there. They'd forget me. I just... I just realized how alone I am. My sister in Indiana, my best friend in Maryland. And all I have in return are 5 brothers who don't even care. Just to feel someone intentionally hug me, someone I really love, it would feel like all my problems were gone. All of them were gone. But no, I still must wait. Must I wait all my life? *sigh* I don't know. I don't even know why I'm telling you this.
Kari
Dear Diary,
Kura told me that we should forgive and forget, and just get on with our lives. Well, while Kura gets on with her life, I get stuck behind with this... incident. I mean, it felt like she was apart of me. Not just someone who was real to Kura. I find myself still checking her e-mail address, although I know no one will e-mail. Ever... I don't know why, now I want to put this person in my manga. It's like she won't leave me alone. Like she really was real, a strange spirit out to haunt me. I really wanna forget everything, I really do. But the pain I caused my sister because of her still comes back to me. I can't get any sleep anymore, and I don't think it's just because I have dreams about vampires with braces who eat my hand. *Sighs* Uh... Kura's gonna get mad I brought this up again. I guess it's only the truth, and I'm admitting myself to telling all the truth to everyone.
Kari
Dear Diary,
I can't stop thinking about going to Indiana this Christmas to see Kura again and for a whole week. I just can't keep it in, after Thanksgiving, all I have to do is wait till after Christmas. I hope it'll just hurry up soon cause I just gotta see Kura soon. Reading all thses fics about Mokuba and Seto makes me think of my Imoto-sama. *whines* Uh... I hope December will come soon. I just can't wait that long. Well, I guess nether than most people. I felt pretty good yesterday when Patrick told me how great he thought I was for giving up my chirstmas and birthday to see a friend. I told him Kura was, and would always be more than a friend. She was my sister... my Imoto-san.
Kari
Dear Diary,
It's hard to put what had happened on Monday behind me. It really is. Kura insisted on taking half the blame, when all of it was my fault. I lied to her. I took away the person she could believe it. I tried telling her it was for her own good, but now that I look at it, it sort of wasn't. I didn't believe in my sister, well, actually, I did. I don't know what came over me when I made that person, but the person was real to the one person I couldn't be to. Kura... she's someone you can't forget. It's been nearly 4 months since I last saw her, and only for a few hours. But images of when we first wrapped our arms around each other still blink in my mind. Because I knew she was MY sister. MINE. I've never had much hope in ever GETTING a sister, due to the fact I have so many brothers. But there she was, a pure angel I tell you. She was a bit strange, I can tell ya that, not really open to most people, and a little imature(who isn't?) but... there was something different about her. About all the other people I knew or had only talked to for a second. Yes, she was much different from them. She was kind-hearted, pure. And someone I could call... someone real. People like Kura or Camille come around once in a life-time. People say that you can have tons of friends, but only 5 out of all of them will be someoen you'll have a relationship all your life. Looks like I've got 2 already. 2 really great friends.
Kari
Dear Diary,
I'm going to adition for the school singing group thing. I don't know what to do. Kura and Camille say I'm awesome, it's just... I got a real embarressing thing going on. I can't even sing to my friend OVER the phone without being nervous. So dude, what kind of singer is that? I always use to sing. When I was little, I always thought I would get famous. But that the only problem was, I would be so scared to sing in front of thousands of people. I'm gonna have to get over myself real quickly before Thursday. Wish me luck everyone...
Kari
Dear Diary,
Guess what happened yesterday? Yep, another crazy friend of mine has joined Elftown. We're now the ~*PuNk FaIrY*~ trio!^^ But this is another specialiful friend, KURA!
She's my best friend AND my sister!
Kura/Kari: Aren't we special??
Yeah, anyway, gotta go.
Kari
Dear Diary,
Yet another friend has come onto elftown. Aren't I special?? Anyway, she has to be THEE coolest friend ever. And even though the crappy piece of shit school that I go to doesn't like her, she's the best friend a girl could ask for. And she's Cami!
Camille: *growls*
Kari: I mean Camille! Jk^_~
Camille: Yay!^^
Anyway, she's been my ultimate best friend since 4th grade when she left my school after one year!
Camille: Aren't I special?^_~
Anyway, we love music, and someday our band will be FAMOUS!!!!!!!!
Anyway, she's been with me though thick and thin, and I'd like to say I'm proud of that. Camille, thanks for being an AWESOME with a Capital A, friend. Love yas buddy!!!^-^
Kari
"Friends are friends from the heart, may they be closer than ever"
http://uk.geoc
Dear Diary,
Sorry just trying to see if it would go to the site. It took me forever to get this exact url. If you wanna check it out, go ahead. It's just pics of YGO. Anyway, I'm really pissed at my mom. Like, really pissed. And she feels SO bad about it. Well, she shoulda thought about that before reuined my life, shouldn't she have? Yep, life suckx and I always feel like crying now-a-days. Not ot mention my parents want to send me off to Siva learning center. Well, they can't make me! I'll run away just as they drive away home. I'll hide out in a Mcdonalds till I have to walk home, and they won't ever teach me a thing!
Ok, sound spretty stuoid, but I'm not gonna stand by and let people push me around!
Bye!
Kari
Dear Diary,
Ok, so someone actually does read my diary. Too bad he spends all his time laughing at it...
Kari: *glares at Dylan*
Dylan: What? It's fuckin' funny!
Yeah, he curses alot, but that's why he's my friend, right... right??
Dylan: Who said you were my friend?
Random guy: I did!
Dylan: DIE! *takes out stick*
Random guy: How are you gonna kill me with that?
Dylan: *takes off top, turns into light saber*
Random guy: OH no!
Dylan: *about to kill guy when batteries fall out* Oh shit...
Random guy: Ha!
Dylan: Ha! But I have durasell! *holds up pack of baterries*
Random guy: Oh fuck this! *stomps off*
Kari: Huh... that's my life... *sweatdrops*
Dylan: Batteries are great! *hugs batteries*
Kari
Dear Diary (or pretty much T.K.),
That was really nice, truely, but it doesn't exactly anwser my question. You see, everyone says I'm a great friend and all that other crap, but there's part 2 of my question; how am I a good friend? I mean, any other friend can be goofy, or can be crazy, have fun, and like the same stuff. I mean, isn't that what friends are for? So, why does everyone seem to think I'm, like, the greatest friend ever? I'm just a normal kid (well, I think) So, why?
Kari
Dear Diary,
There is something I have been always been wondering. And some people might say, "Who cares?" when I ask it, but this question means the world to me to have an answer; why do all the greatest friends I have, like me? Camille, she'd change herself, even the part that makes her completely popular, so she could be on the same page as me. Kura would give anything to help, or save me, just because I seemed to understand. All the friends that I have online love me, and would give anything to give a helping hand. And then I look at myself, and wonder, why everyone likes me.
Look at me, I'm a complete loser at school. One of my friends is thought to be gay with my other guy friend. My other friend is completely hated by everyone, I'm made fun of because I like YGO, and yet, everyone stads by my side. I would always help someone, even if it left me with nothing because, that's what I thought life was about, it was my sole purpose, and now I see my own friends, picking up thier own problems, and even helping me with mine. And I feel werid, cause I thought I was the servant, I don't know, it's complicated to understand. Sorry for taking up time...
Kari
Dear Diary,
Today, I think I found the meaning of life, and at such a young age too. That life is all about being yourself, no matter what anyone else thinks. To be proud of who you are, and not take anyone else's shit. To love what you love, don't be someone else to get popular. Cause everyone's got someone, and sometimes that someone just has to be you.
That was my preach for today. Hope you liked and learned!
Kari
Dear Diary,
Long time, no see huh? I just found out that one of my other great friends has joined elftown. Im gonna wave and say hi.
Kari: *waves* HI!
Joseph: //thinking// just pretend you don't know her...
Anyway, ya, his name is Joseph and his username is kofan. I don't know what it means ether, but hey, he's the smart one of my friends. And he also
Joseph: *covers Kari's mouth* You don't have to tell them EVERYTHING!
Kari: What? See how smart he is^-^
Joseph: -_-U
Anyway, this is porbably so stupid right now. See ya!
Kari
Dear Diary,
I'm sharing a strong bond with my newest deck, my spirit deck. It has all my friendship cards, from Josh, Ryan, and Kura. My friendship cards come in handy a whole lot. And their is positively no fault in it. I even like it more than my most powerful deck (which is really powerful I might add) Well, I might as well go. I'm gonna check my e-mail for the zillonth time and see if I got a review/e-mail from Kura.
Kari
Dear Diary,
My thoughts always seem to be on Kura. I can't take my mind off her. I also found out that I wasn't the only one crying after Kura left my aunt's house. That made me happy, considering I felt so stupid when I cried for a half an hour. Hey, but things are back to normal and we will probably see each other in the next 4 mounths. How cool is that? Well, see ya!
Kari
Dear Diary,
Today I had to leave Ohio. It was really sad. I really miss Kura too. It took 6 freakin' hours to get home as well. And just imagine that with all 3 of my brothers in the back going crazy. Well, gtg. We got home at 9.
Kari
Dear Diary,
I went to Ohio today. Talk about 6 hours in the car with 3 brothers and a broken cd player. Talk about my luck. But hey, tomorrow I'll finally see Kura. I met up with my 2 coolest cousins, David and Timmy. They maybe, like, 4 years older than me, but their still the coolest cousins ever! Not to meantion I met up with my coolest aunt. So, I hung out with them and had fun. Well, nothing much else.
Kari