Dear Diary,
Wow, it's October already... it feels like we just started school, but we didn't cause it started in September. I'm just confused about everything. Everyone seems to have a plan of what they're gonna do, what college they are gonna go to, what job they want. I'm just focused on graduating from 9th grade>.< I went back to St. Rita's yesterday, it was nice to know that everyone had remembered me. Gosh, Dylan has really grown up. But what can ya say? They all grow up one day or the other, I just am delaying when I have too.
There's a Dylan at my school who really has a thing for me, it really makes me feel good that he doesn't sterotype me like the rest of the world does. He's nice and sweet and kind, and he likes me. But, the thing is, I don't feel like I feel the same way he does about me. Camille said that I should just wait it out, that sooner or later, I would probably have feelings for him, I just had to wait for the right time. But I just don't know. It's like I don't want to like him, and yet I do. It's really confusing>.< His going to fast with our relationship, he's already started kissing me on our 2nd date, he even tried to make out with me. Mentally, I'm just a kid, I'm just not ready for this kind of relationship, I've only known the guy for, like, 4 weeks.
I don't know weather to let him go, or just wait it out...
Bye!
Kari
"Shut up" by Blink-182
Shut the fuck up she said, I'm going fucking deaf
You're always too loud, everything's too loud
Now that all my friends left, this place is fucking dead
I wanna move out, when can we move out? This shit has got to stop
I'll run away
Get the fuck up she said
your life is meaningless
it's going nowhere, you're going nowhere
you're just a fuck up she said, I'll live alone instead
she said you don't care, I know I don't care
I'll never ask permission from you,
fuck off I'm not listening to you
I'm not coming home, I'm never going to come back home
I got too fucked up again, and passed out on the plane
Try to forget you, I can't forget you
No sleep on this flight, I'll think about the nights
we had to get through, how did we get through?
I'll never ask permission from you,
fuck off I'm not listening to you
I'm not coming home, I'm never going to come back home
I'll run away
I think it's time that I should leave
I think it's time that I should leave
I think it's time that I should leave
I think it's time that I should leave
I'll never ask permission from you,
fuck off i'm not listening to you
I'm not coming home, I'm never going to come back home
I'll run away
I think it's time for me to leave
(I'll run away)
I think it's time for me to leave
(I'll run away)
I think it's time for me to leave
(I'll run away)
I think it's time for me to leave.
Oh my gosh, this is so freakin hilarious:
"THIS LADY IS GIVING BIRTH IN THE HOSPITAL AND THE DOCTOR DELIVERING THE BABY DELIVERS IT, CUTS THE EMBILICAL CORD, AND THEN THROWS THE BABY REALLY HARD AGAINST THE WALL. THE MOTHER AND FATHER START FREEKING OUT WHEN THE DOCTOR PICKS UP THE BABY BY IT'S LEG AND SLAMS IT AGAINST THE WALL AGAIN. THEN HE PICKS UP WHAT'S LEFT OF THE BABY, SMILES AT THE DEVISTATED PARENTS AND SAYS "I'M JUST MESS'N WITH YOU, IT WAS ALREADY DEAD"
It's kinda sad actually0.o
Quotes:
"I love the rain... cause no one can see the tears I cry"
"I am your beloved loss. I will always be your beloved loss."
"I love life, I just hate my life"
"I love TV because I watch too much of it"
"I'd rather head bang than be a victim of the media"
"If every word I said would make you laugh, I'd talk forever"
"Sanji's like wonder bread, he's black on the outside, white on the inside"
"Words can't change how you feel inside"
"Simple things amuse me, that's why I laugh at you"
Kari and Dylan: *trying to study for a test on China*
Dylan: What is "The Way"? (meaning "Dao")
Kari: Right or left?
"I regret nothing"
"I'm my own person, what you see is what you get, deal with it."
"Oh, don't be such a stud muffin-._-."
"Thank you for breaking my heart"
"I refuse to be normal"
"It's talking without the sound"
"You can mess with me, but you can't mess with my sister... no wait, you can't do ether."
"If there was anything worth fighting for, it would be you"
"You've got to be kidding me! Your the weirdest of weird and when I send you something that's weird you think it's weird... That's weird!"
"Love is like a rose, so why is it dying?"
"Would you smile if you knew how much it hurt?"
"I will not change myself for the benefit of others"
"I don't have ADD, your just too boring"
"Individuality is the key to life"
"*wearing a spiked necklace* Yeah, I had to sneak this to school. If my Mom ever saw me wearing this she'd ask where I got it and what dog I stole it from"
"I wear black because I am mourning for my country"
"Boys are just brothers who happen to share DNA with you"
"I'm the kinda kid your parents see on the street, and *PRAY* that thier kid won't turn out like me"
"Life's a joke and the joke's on you."
"Being tall doesn't make me any different from people who are short. I just wake up in the morning a few more feet away from the floor"
"Son of a bisquit!"
"Normal people worry me"
Tyler: Would you fight someone over a penny?
Kari: Only if it was a nickel.
"Now what's wrong with liking rainbows?"
'Just look at the ground Kari... just look at the ground... just look at the-' *trips*
Tyler/Kari: *presenting a report on their mythology god, Zues*
Kari: And Zues was also known as the "Pimp God"
"*writing adjectives that make a good leader* *thinks* You gotta be a pimp! *writes it down*"
"Your drunk, I'm drunk, let's get married."
Nick: Are you ok?
Kari: *crying* No... no, I'm not ok. I will never be ok...
"Wow, this is worst than when me and Ryan got locked in the closet and thought we were gonna die!"
"Well, back in my old school we had to use cubby holes as lockers up till 8th grade. And people would steal stuff from each other too, including the CCD people! So much for learning about Christ."
"You mean to tell me I've been looking for a classroom that doesn't even exist for the past 20 minutes? Aw, damn!" *runs down the hall*
"I'm fighting for a dream that will never come true"
"Let's just pretend we're normal for one second..."
"Wow... that was stupid-._-."
"There is so much more to life then we fail to realize."
Kari: *couting down the last 5 seconds of school* 5-4-3-2-1... *bell doesn't ring* Ring damnit!
Bell: *rings*
Kari: That's what I thought^.^
"We have to stay strong, even when others say we're weak"
"I'm not the kind of person who will give up that easily"
"When I get good at one thing, I suck at the other too. It's kind of a one way deal."
"Why did we find a naked doll and condoms in your bathroom Patrick?? What are you hiding from us?!"
Patrick: What are condoms?
Kura/Kari: 0.oU
"Kerry, stop pretending to be a pregnant man again"
"He even makes ME sound smart>.<"
"I'm an older sister, little sister, and a brother. How weird could I get?"
"So I tried to put 10 peanuts up my nose when I was five. It seemed like a good idea at the time."
"Oh come on Kura, as if someone's really gonna hit me" *about to take a step into the street*
Kura: *pulls Kari back before she walks right into a speeding car* KARI!
Kari: Well that's new.
"I always wondered how Ryan could always be a straight A student, then I found out that I have an IQ of a knat"
"If talk is cheap, then why is it so expensive?"
"I want a boyfriend who is kind, caring, and can sing the national athem while girgling warm water"
"There is so much more to life than Anime... I just don't care to notice it."
"In elementary school I always got the bimbo teachers that just got out of college, who didn't know what the hell they wanted to do in their life, and decided at the last minute that they wanted to teach children."
"I didn't learn much French, I was too busy throwing pencils at the teacher"
"No wonder Dan always beats me in debates, I can barely debate with myself>.<"
"Ah, yes. It's good to be back in the USA where everyone does drugs and gets shot."
"It's action man's twin brother; idiot face! Yay idiot face^o^"
"College is about having fun, getting drunk, and doing what Brittney Spears did best; get married!... then get divorsed0.o"
"I will fight until I can't fight no more"
*picks up box of condoms* "You think I should asked the register if these things work?"
"So you mean to tell me Sanji is Indian, but he's racist against Indians?0.0 Ok, how does that work out?"
Dylan/Kari: *laughing over a joke they said about Yu-Gi-Oh*
Michelle: You're laughing cause I'm different, I'm laughing cause your all the same.
Dylan/Kari: *stops and look at her*
Kari: We're not laughing cause your different, we're laughing cause your ugly
Dylan/Kari: *start laughing again*
"I only vote for Pedro"
"Sorry, but I'm already in love... with my guitar"
(can't think of anymore, please place in 25 cents....)
Kari
Ok, so I decided to take a song and make it into my own song, not much changed, but... oh well:
Hey there Makura
What's it like in New York City?
I'm a thousand miles away
But girl tonight you look so pretty
Yes you do
Time Square can't shine as bright as you
I swear it's true
Hey there Makura
Dont you worry about the distance
I'm right there if you get lonely
Give this song another listen
Close your eyes
Listen to my voice its my disguise
I'm by your side
oh its what you do to me
oh its what you do to me
oh its what you do to me
oh its what you do to me
what you do to me
Hey there Makura
I know times are gettin hard
But just believe me girl
Someday I'll pay the bills with this guitar
We'll have it good
We'll have the life we knew we would
My word is good
Hey there Makura
I've got so much left to say
If every simple song I wrote to you
Would take your breath away
I'd write it all
Even more love for me you'd fall
We'd have it all
oh its what you do to me
oh its what you do to me
oh its what you do to me
oh its what you do to me
A thousand miles seems pretty far
But they've got planes and trains and cars
I'd walk to you if i had no other way
Our friends would all make fun of us
And we'll just laugh along because we know
That none of them have felt this way
Makura, I can promise you
That by the time that we get through
The world will never ever be the same
And you're to blame
Hey there Makura
You be good and don't you miss me
Two more years and you'll be done with school
And I'll be makin history like I do
You know its all because of you
We can do whatever we want to
Hey there Makura here's to you
This ones for you
oh its what you do to me
oh its what you do to me
oh its what you do to me
oh its what you do to me
what you do to me...
"What makes a good boyfriend?"
[A good boy friend will, respect his woman's privacy, but wont let her block him out, will hold her when she's feeling down, will tell her he loves her every day, will not use physical violence when in an arguement, will stp in if she is being asaulted (Raped, beaten, etc, etc.), will let no one abuse her, will let no one touch her, will not sexually aault her, and stop when she says "no", will not walk all over her, will not play her like a violin, will be true to her and will not cheat]
Went to a Green Day concert and it fucking rocked! Billie Joe is SO my idol now, so here are some of his words of wisdom for you:
Billie Joe 's words of wisdom
"Are you canadian? Oh, okay, 'cause you're sure as hell acting like one right now."
"All saints are gonna be there? Tre, you might get laid!"
VH1's Behind the Music: "We put the fun back in dysfunctional.
VH1's Behind the Music: "You say it to my face, you might be pickin' yourself off the ground."
"[Our 'Waiting' video] was totally a failure. [mtvSTAR] doesn't show any videos anymore. If we had a booty video - if we had, like, McG, with girls shaking their ass in the video -- it would probably get played. Actually, I am just really bitter right now."
"It's fun until someone gets hurt...then it's halarious."
"Punk rock is dead...and I fucking killed it."
"Minority is about being an individual. It's like you have to sift through the darkness to find your place and be that individual you want to be your entire life."
"You think your life is tough? Try being a parent!"
"I'm not gonna say anything inspirational; I'm just gonna fucking swear a lot."
"They have bad taste. I am not a good-looking guy."
"School is practice for the future, and practice makes perfect, and nobodies perfect, so why practice?"
"I sound like an Englishman impersonating an American impersonating an Englishman."
"There's nothing wrong with being a loser, it just depends on how good you are at it."
"I think the little bush is a bit stupid and more or less the puppet of his old man."
"I fucking hate Lynyrd Skynyrd, I've always hated Lynyrd Skynyrd. Fuckin' backwards ass hillbilly shit."
"B-I-L-L-I-E J-O-E. My real name is Billie Joe. And it's southern, my moms from Oklahoma and that's how I got the name."
"Well, you know, I look at myself in the morning and yes, yeah I-I am a God."
"A guy walks up to me and asks 'What's Punk?'. So I kick over a garbage can and say 'That's punk!'. So he kicks over the garbage can and says 'That's Punk?', and I say 'No that's trendy!'
"It's my fucking life and you know what nobody invited you...so there's the door...see ya!"
"When someone is in a car accident and they're driving at 100 mph, drunk, who's tape do you think his listening to at that time? Think about it."
"The darkness is coming now god dammit!"
"My mom was from Oklahoma, hence the name Billie Joe...It's not William Joseph it's just Billie Joe."
"They sound like Tré choking on a hair ball." (Slipknot)
"Just about 99% of the population masturbates while the other 1%, lie about it."
"This song's off our album. It's called Kerplunk. It's kind of in line with the shit thing, ya know, it's like you take a dookie and it kerplunks in the toilet."
"What? You can heckle me if you want, it's okay I won't understand!" (at a foreign concert)
"'Welcome to Montreal-- fuck you', would be a good sign at your highways."
"Ah, if someone falls down, please pick him back up cuz it doesn't mean that there's a fuckin' camera in your face that you don't have to lookout for each other."
"Yeah fuck me! I wish all of you could fuck me!"
"A lot of people, when they talk to me, I can't wait for them to shut up. Like, shut up. you're a moron. I have nothing to say, you know?"
"Never run in the rain with your socks on."
"I never thought that being obnoxious would get me where I am now."
"Aw, how the fuck are you all doin' tonight?... That's what I fuckin' wanted to hear, goddamnit!"
"I'm not as depressed as I used to be. The Prozac's working!"
"I hate celebrities. I really hate them."
"I actually have less friends now than I ever had."
"I'm still wearing the pants I had in the eleventh grade."
"Our passion is our strength."
"Adrienne is the only woman I will ever love."
"I got body lice in Gremany! I'd tell you they were crabs, but I wasn't getting laid."
"You want a drumstick? Like a ice cream cone or a chicken wing!?"
"One thing I want to teach my son is sensitivity to other people. I want to teach him not to be this macho freak."
"I kind of became everyone’s weird uncle. I was drunk all the time wearing a fucking leopard g string."
"Attack your instruments. Don’t let them attack you."
"Punk is always something that’s going to be with us and to try and explain that would be stupid at this point."
"Do I want to change the world with music? Well fuck yeah I want to change the world to a certain extent yeah. It needs to be changed....it needs a kick in the ass."
"What do you mean we walked around dressed like girls? We walked around in our own clothes they just happened to be dresses."
(In regards to the story on the Kerplunk cover The Diary of Laurie L) "I thought it was kinda lame. The story was great. Totally hilarious. But it was too much. Kinda like turning us into a parody of ourselves."
(When asked in 1992 where they would be in 3 years) "I’m going to point a gun at Tre. Tre is going to point a gun at Mike. Mike is going to point a gun at me." (Mike: "We’re going to count to 3 and pull the trigger.")
"History will tell if we were really a good band or just a one day fly."
"There is not a band you can mention that we haven’t kicked their ass at one time or another."
(at the 47th Annual Grammy Awards, acceptance speech) "Rock 'n' roll can be fun and dangerous at the same time."
"Woodstock was about the closest thing to anarchy I've ever seen in my whole life, and I didn't like it."
"You're the fucking leaders, you have the power. Don't let these bastards dictate the rest of the world, or dictate you fucking life!" (at Live 8 concert on July 2, 2005 in Berlin, Germany)
This is for all the rebels like me who just want to do whatever the fuck they want too and just want to do it without anyone's concern. Dude, can't they get it through their heads that WE DON'T CARE?? Well anywayz, here's "One Good Reason" by Blink 182(THEE best song ever!!!/or than "Welcome to my Life"/):
Mom and Dad they quite don't
understand it
All the kids they laugh as if they planned it
Why do girls want to pierce their nose
And walk around in torn pantyhose,
oh yeah
I like the ones who say they listen
to the punk rock
I like the kids who fight against how
they were brought up
They hate the trends and think it's
fucked to care.
Its cool when they piss people off with
what they wear, oh yeah
So give me one good reason
Why we need to be like them
Kids will have fun and offend
They don't want to and don't fit in
Hate the jocks, the preps, the
hippie-fuckin' scumbags
Heavy-metalers with their awful,
pussy hair bands
Counting seconds until we can get away
Ditchin' school almost every single day,
oh yeah
So give me one good reason
Why we need to be like them
Kids will have fun and offend
They don't want to and don't fit in
Give me one good reason
Why we need to be like them
Kids will have fun and offend
They don't want to and don't fit in
Random shit I wrote while I was bored/depresse
Razors are awesome...
and IRISH GUYS R HOTT!!!
^.~
//keep playing love like it was just a game, pretending to feel the same, then turn around and leave again.//
Guys are jerks. At least the guys that I live with are-._-.
I miss being in love
Pie!
Cherries
brown is yucky
Like Nick's face
Joey
idiot
doggie^^
Pheonix:'(
depression
cutting
razors
blood
[blade3575]
He's funny!
like... Isono!
Isono is your mother!
Seto: Mokuba, midgets are babies...
Mokuba: 0.o
stupid
Like me
bad grades
school suckx!
like my friends living far away from me
pain
joy
opposite of what I really am
fake
I'm a fake
Everyone's fake
Your fake
Let's eat chocolate!
laugh at loud
happy
I don't remember that feeling
//beauty queen of only 18, she had some trouble with herself//
I'm the girl with a broken smile
In fact, it's not even a smile
Cause I'm fake
Like everyone else
Like my Mom and her lies
like my promises
and the ones that people made to me
like my life
lies
fake
pretend
who are you?
//why do you look so familiar? I could swear that I have seen your face before//
Avril Lavigne is annoying
Hilary Duff is a fag face
like Jesse McCartney
He shaves his eyebrows
*laughter*
Claire
She's awesome
//Can I get another AMEN??(AMEN!)//
I love the song "Holiday"
And Green Day
Billie Joe is hott
Tre cool is a good drummer
I wanna learn to play guiatr
guiatrs are awesome
Aaron is cool
Simple plan
God MUST hate me
Anarchy
Screw the government
They are fakes!
Like the rest of the world
who am I again?
right, fake
no one
not even there
Why do I bother?
//I dare you to move, I dare you to life yourself up of the floor//
I don't have enough strength
I'm weak
I lost
Again
R U happy now?
I lost like you wanted me too
Like the rest of the world did
The rest of the fake world
Cause fake people suck
So I suck
Yes
where's self-esteem when you need it?
It's never there
Cause it's fake
//Summer has come and passed, the innocent can never last...//
Why do people die?
sorrow
goodbye forever
goodbye for now
You said you would be there for me
//I beg to dream and differ from the hollow lies//
tears
crying
depression
me
dead inside
where are you?
lost forever
//I walk this empty street, on the blvd. of broken dreams//
and I'll walk forever.
"Wake Me Up When September Ends" by Green Day:
Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends
like my fathers come to pass
seven years has gone so fast
wake me up when september ends
here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are
as my memory rests
but never forgets what I lost
wake me up when september ends
summer has come and passed
the innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends
ring out the bells again
like we did when spring began
wake me up when september ends
here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are
as my memory rests
but never forgets what I lost
wake me up when september ends
Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends
like my father's come to pass
twenty years has gone so fast
wake me up when september ends
wake me up when september ends
wake me up when september ends...
Dear Diary,
I'm really tired and wiped out. I have no reason why what so ever. I could seriously fall asleep right where I'm sitting. *sigh* I miss my cousins a lot. I didn't have to be anything for them, they had loved me before they even met me, and it seemed almost too hard to believe that there could be so many people that loved me. Just think what they would've thought, to hear their cousin commited suicide, and they haven't even talked to me before and never knew what I was like. I guess you could say they would've been sad, they said I was sort of famous since my real name was Alana, which is an old family name, I guess. I remember everyone was real sad when it came time for me to leave. Aunt Mary(the coolest aunt EVER!) even looked like she was about to cry, and she has more backbone then anyone I ever met in my life. I guess that's where I get my toughness cause my Dad isn't really tough and isn't into fighting, and my mom is real gentle... sort of0.o But it sure would've been fun to live with my cousins. Like, brother and sister or something^^(since most of my cousins are guys except for Shannon) Who's really cool actually, but she's only 10 and she thinks I'm goth>.< Couldn't blame her though, most people get that impression, it's, like, the first thing they think of me. But I don't really care, I am who I am, and I will be that for the rest of my life.
I've been reading this really negative fic, all about cutting, blood, death, depression, alchol, and anger. It just makes me more and more depressed and I know I shouldn't be reading it. But I can;t help it, I remember so clearly the last time I cut, and it makes me want to cut more and more. I know Camille and Kura will freak if they found out I cut, or if I started cutting again, but what else am I gona do? It's not like they can do anything about it anyway, I'm all alone here... this is another thing I don't get, why do all the people I care about most live so far away? I wanna runaway again, maybe just to say hi to Brian or something. I have actually been trying to say thanks ever since I ranaway last, but I haven't had the chance, kinda pathetic, huh? I remember I tried to laugh it off when my Mom was so pissed that I had ranaway. She started yelling at me saying if I had just gone down one ally to the other I would probably raped and killed, or just raped and scared for life. Yeah, it really sucks to be a girl. We gotta go through all the pain, periods, ear piercing, weight lose and all that other shit... yeah, I'm pretty much just talking on and on huh? Yeah, well, it's my dairy, and I can talk about whatever the hell I want to, and ya'll can't do anything about it!
Geez... I can't believe I'm getting all worked up over a diary entry, it isn't like anyone's reading anyway. Why do I bother? Man... I really need a role model. I mean, look at me, I'm everything my mother never thought In would become, and just setting a horrible example for my brothers since *I* have to be THIER role model. I don't want to be a role model, I just wanna find my own. I really just want someone older to look up to. Someone who's nice and cool, and who will know right from wrong. Who won't judge me by what I wear or what I talk like, but will like me because of who I am. But I guess that's asking for too much, huh?
Mom says it's hard being the oldest cause I have to make all the mistakes, and then my brothers get to learn from them and avoid them. See? Why do I have to suffer everything for them? It's not like they care about me anyway? They're all just a bunch of selfish brats!!! So why do I bother? My Mom forced me to take care of them at 4 for what? A bunch of jerks?? Ug, I can;t believe I even wasted my childhood on them.
And I just keep going and going... well, I'm bored, what else am I suppose to do? Well, gtg.
Bye.
Kari
Dear Diary,
Yo, what up ya'll??? Got back from my trip last night(yeah, I had to ride 3 planes to get here, and 1 plane ride was 6 and a half hours!!>< Trying dealing with that sitting next to Patrick-._-.) Yep, so basically I hate planes now, I seriously starting getting real sick at the end of the last plane ride and almost threw up my chocolate milk(and it was goo chocolate milk*cries*) So anyway, I guess you guys will wanna know how it went, huh?
Well, I guess we can say Ireland was nice, and pretty and all, and it wasn't like ANYTHING in America(did you know that Ireland has the title of "yougest country" because there is no abortion. And boy, when they say youngest country, I'm talking about people having, like, 8 kids!!) But hey, if it means no abortion, than sure, it's fine.
So anyway, I met, like, a half of my family in Ireland and believe me, the past 10 days it had been cousins, cousins, and more cousins!(besides my 10 year old cousin Shannon, I was the only girl... well, I was use to it^^) But, oh my gosh, I had this one cousin, his name was Patrick(a lot of Patricks and Seans in my family) and he was, like, 6'7!!! He was so flippin' tall, it was cool! And then he went on the tranpaline, and jumped and he sent you FLYING!!! It was so fun, he was like a big bro to me.
But anyway, I'll stop now, I'm sure you ppl really don't care.
So see ya!
Kari
Dear Diary,
Lol! I love my last entry=^^= La la la... what should I write about? Um... I dunno. Lately I have been doing ok, having more confidence in myself ever since I finally got over my writers block(which I;ve had sincre, like, May 3rd>.<) Not to mention I've been drawing a lot more. And they actually come out good!! I think I'm actually starting to have mopre self-esteem(wonder how long that'll last, lol) So, uh, what else? Oh yeah, I'm leavin' on Friday to go to Ireland to go see my 55 zillion cousins(which I hear are very excited to see me^^) Not to meantion I GOT MY BRACES OFF!!! YES!!!!(and just to let ya'll know, I've had 'em since 3rd grade, so I think it's about time it came!)
What else? Um... I'm starting to be nicer to my brothers... isn't it scary? And my Mom says I'm trying to be "bad" or something, and that by wearing black and wearing my studded belts, she says I'm trying to be something I'm not. Ug, she'll never understand. This IS who I am, she doesn't like me the way I am. Oh well, I don't care. As Green Day said in their song "I don't care if you don't, I don't care if you don't, I don't care if you don't care" Yep, cause I don't care. Hmmm... I wonder if there's a "I Don't Care@wiki" lol, that would be wicked sweet.
Anywayz, um... I think that's pretty much it. Love ya'll so much!!!!
Kari
*10 Commandments of a Teenager*
1-- thou shall not sneak out when parents
are sleeping. (why wait?)
2--thou shall not do drugz (alcohol last longer)
3--thou shall not steel from k-mart.
(Wal*Mart has a bigger selection)
4--thou shall not get arrested for
vandalism. (destruction has a bigger effect)
5--thou shall not steel from thy parents.
(every-1 knows grandma has more money)
6--thou shall not get in fights. (just start them)
7--thou shall not skip class. (just take the whole day off)
8--thou shall not strip in class. (hooters pays more)
9--thou shall not think about having sex.
(as Jazzy says just do it)
10--thou shall not help old ladies cross
the street. (just leave them in the middle)
Here's something funny:
Questions that are left unawnsered
How do "do not walk on grass" signs get there?
When a store has double doors why do they only let you use one of them?
If there was a crumb on the table and you cut it in half, would you have two crumbs or two halves of a crumb?
"What was Captian Hook's name before he had a hook for a hand?"
Do bald people get dandruff?
Why doesn't baking soda freeze?
What if you were to ask a genie to grant you more than three wishes for one of you wishes?
If you made biscuits with chocolate milk instead of regular milk, would they taste chocolaty?
If you rented a movie and were late returning it and then you died would someone you knew or a family member have to pay the late fee?
Can a person with no ears wear glasses?
Do the actors in the re-enactments on Americas most wanted, ever get arrested (because they were seen on TV portraying the criminal)?
Are people who are allergic to nuts allergic to coconuts too?
If someone's peeing and halfway through they die, would they keep peeing or stop?
How come French fries are not considered vegetables, since they are just deep fried potatoes?
Can you still say "Put it where the sun don't shine " on a nude beach?
Why is it that when adults have multiple personalities it's schizophrenia, but when a child has imaginary friends it's cute?
Can you put a gay man in a straight jacket?
Why do bullies always ask "what’s your problem" when they're obviously not going to solve it?
Do stairs go up or down?
When people say, "I’m so tired it's not even funny" or "my head hurts so much it's not even funny", why would it even be funny in the first place?
Why is there a top line on lined paper if we never use it?
Why do the numbers on phones go down while the numbers on calculators go up?
If the sky is the limit, then what is space, over the limit?
Are children who act in rated 'R' movies allowed to see them?
Can you make a candle out of your earwax?
When French people swear do they say pardon my English?
Aren't the 'good things that come to those who wait' just the leftovers from the people that got there first?
If the swat team breaks down your door do they have to replace it later?
Can a fire truck park in the fire lane?
Can it be cloudy and foggy at the same time?
"Cute as a button" Is that supposed to be a compliment? Since when are buttons cute?
Can you breathe out of your nose and mouth at the same time? (lol i no your trying to do it because i am too)
Are marbles made of marble?
Why does the last piece of ice always stick to the bottom of the cup?
If you pay for a vacation and your plane crashes on the way there, do you get you money back? (Granted you lived)
Who was the first person to look at a cow and say, "I think I'll squeeze these dangly things here and drink what comes out"?
Who was the first person to say, "See that chicken over there ... I'm gonna eat the first thing that comes out if its butt"?
Isn't Disney World just a people trap operated by a mouse?
If electricity comes from electrons, does morality come from morons?
Do illiterate people get the full effect of Alphabet soup?
Why do we wash behind our ears? Who really looks there?
Why don't the hairs on your arms get split ends?
Why is it illegal to park in a handicapped parking space but its ok to use a handicapped toilet?
In that song, she'll be coming around the mountain, who is she lol?
How come we say 'It's colder than hell outside' when isn't it realistically always colder than hell since hell is supposed to be firey?
Why is it that if something says, "do not eat" on the packaging it becomes extra tempting to eat?
Why are people so scared of mice, yet we all love Mickey Mouse?
Wouldn't it be smart to make the sticky stuff on envelopes taste like chocolate?
Why are the commercials for cable companies on cable but not on regular television? Don't they want the people without cable to buy the cable?
"Have you ever noticed that if you rearranged the letters in mother in law, they come out to Woman Hitler?"
Isn't it funny how the word 'politics' is made up of the words 'poli' meaning 'many' in Latin, and 'tics' as in 'bloodsucking creatures’?
Why is it that when things get wet they get darker, even though water is clear??
Why is it that when you get out of a swimming pool, your urine is hotter when you use the restroom lol?
Can mute people burp?
What happens if you put this side up face down while popping microwave popcorn?
Why is chopsticks one of the easiest songs to play on the piano, but the hardest thing to eat with lol?
If a fork were made of gold would it still be considered silverware?
If heat rises, then shouldn't hell be cold?
Why is there that little space inside strawberries, as if it was meant for a pit, and then the seeds are on the outside?
Why isn't chocolate considered a vegetable, if chocolate comes from cocoa beans, and all beans are a vegetable?
Why is toilet bowl cleaning liquid only blue?
Why do you go “back and forth” to town if you really must go forth before you go back?
Why doos shaped macaroni taste better than the normal kind?
Why is vanilla ice cream white when vanilla extract is brown?
Why can't you get a tan on your palms?
Why do dogs sniff other dog’s bottoms to say hello, why don’t they just bark in their face or something?
Why do companies offer you "free gifts?" Since when has a gift NOT been free?
If something "goes without saying," why do people still say it?
You know the expression, "Don't quit your day job?" Well what do you say to people that work nights?
[He slowly sneeked down the hall, past the bathroom, and over to Mokuba’s bedroom. He slowly creeked open the door and peeked in. There Mokuba was, fast asleep as he should be. Seto smiled, his eyes glowing with tenderness and love. He slowly opened the door and walked in. He lowered himself on the edge of the bed, stroking Mokuba’s hair as he slept. He could’ve died back there. Back on that battlefield. Back on that cold hard ground, stained with the invisible blood of soldiers who had died before him. He would’ve never gotten to see his brother again. Never gotten to see that beautiful smile, that glow of happiness in his eyes. He could’ve lost the one thing that mattered to him the most.]
Don't you guys think that's good? Sure, it's really corny, but I think it's pretty dang good(since now I can't write for crap>.<) Man, I really miss being able to write like this. I guess you don't know what you really have until you've totally lost it...
Anyway, so I was gonna tell you about camp. Well, I made a ton of friends. Really cool/crazy friends too, people I could actually related to(not that I don't relate to Kura and Camille or anything) But still. Anywayz, so we made a guy gang where we basically all have guy nicknames, so anyway, here's some info:
Kate(a.k.a: Frank): The first friend I made. She's a little more maturer than me, but she always speaks her mind, and she was someone to really look up to. And even though she's done some pretty outrageous stuff, I know deep down she's got a good heart.
Christina(a.k.a Ryan): She's one of the friends I really could connect to and wasn't afraid to talk to. She's one of my Emo allies and tends to know how bitchy popular girls can be, the poor kid goes to an all girls school>.<
Claire(a.k.a Eugene): One of my awesome punk pals. She was into almost everything I was into, and porbably one of the best friends I made there. She was never afraid to be herself and act out, even when it was a little too out of place. I always look up to her as a great example of what I should try and be.
Emily(a.k.a Emeril): One of the girly girls of the group. She's so perfect! But she's so nice, you can't really hate her. She's all into fashion, and, ew, likes Jesse Mcarney(I know I spelt that wrong>.<) Did you know that kid shaves his eyebrows? Well, anyway, she's was one cool chick.
Hana(a.k.a Guy): One of my favs of the group, well, ok, they're all my favorites, but anyway. She was the cool anime person. She had mangas and her name is actually Japanese for flower! Now I think that is pretty cool. What I enjoyed the most though was probably when she stood up for me when the other kids made fun of me for looking "too into" the manga I was reading when it was getting to a serious part. Now, I'll have you know that no one had ever stood up for me in a long time like she did, and it just made me feel really good.
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Well, anyway. I guess that's my pointless discription of my buds that I made at camp. Of course I have a buttload more I haven't even mention, but these guys are probably the coolest and closest I made.
Well, see ya.
Kari
Dear Diary,
Might as well write something while I have the time. I really really really *really* wanna see Kura. I NEED to see Kura. Everything just seems, like, ug, bad... I dunno, maybe this is just me, but still. I just need someone. Someone who actually loves me. Been at the beach the past week just to let ya'll know. It's been ok. I kinda feel seperated though, since I've been hangin' out with all the stupid boys in my family. Well, maybe not the boys. But my step family. I always felt they never really liked me. But my friend says that's all in my head, and maybe it is, but it really hurts to see your 2 year old step cousin totally hate you, but not hate Ryan or any of your other brothers. Or anyone else in that matter. I don't know why, but I guess it's been hurting me the most, since she seemed to be the only one who I could talk to, even though she couldn't understand. But whatever.
I'll probably tell you guys how it was in camp later.
But anyway, gtg
Kari
Dear Diary,
Wow, my last entry was so stupid>.< I hate most of the entries here, but for some reason I feel I should keep them in here. Lately I've been really wanting to write something, anything, a song, a story, a peom, but every time I try too, it just, just, comes out wrong and stupid. I haven't written a decent story in a long while and I'm scared my inspiration to write and my love for it might be gone forever. It was the one thing I truely enjoyed. Right now I'm in Portsmith, just met back up with my cousins and Uncle and Aunt. They have grown up so much>.< And me, I'm just the same old Kari, never changing, just getting more and more depressed, I guess. It's just, to see them grown up, and then me like this, ug, it just feels different. But wow, I never realize how much I really love my cousins and everyone else. When I was hugging them, I just didn't wanna let go. Or, maybe it was just because I always need a hug because I'm stupid like that. Ug, I'm just gonna think this entry is gonna be stupid, like, tomorrow.
Well, gtg.
Kari
Dear Diary,
I'm writing to you on this joyful, strange, sorrowful day. Well, ok, maybe I'm writing because I'm crying my eyes out at the moment. Yeah, I know your probably wondering why, well, tomorrow I leave for camp in PA for the next 2 weeks, and won't be able to bother you with stupid diary entries, so I decided to write one now. Another reason is that my mom had always told me to write down what I was feeling, at the time I was feeling it, so I could look back and just, well, look into my own soul as it was at the time of sorrow. But one of the main reasons is, this is the final day I see Josh, because he's leaving for Illionois, then the beach with his family and won't be back till summers over. And I guess I'm just really emotional about that because, 1. Well, I'm emotional about most of these seperation things, 2. Because Josh is my best friend. My real good friend. But he's not like Camille or anything, he's a guy, guy's don't get us. He's annoiying at times, but cool at others. He's strange, yet funny, and always makes me laugh. I don't think there's ever been a time where he didn't make me laugh. And I guess another reason is, I have known Josh since he was 5 years old, we practically grew up together. And no matter how many times he annoys me, or how many times he weirdes me out, he will always be my best friend. My... really strange, best friend...
Kari
Dear Diary,
Finally home, but have nothing to say. I look at my other entries, and just feel stupid and get embarrassed about even writing them(yeah, I have a embarrassment problem) So, once again, since I didn't have anything to say, I'm gonna put another song. It's my favorite song(at the moment) and it's really good, you should maybe read the lyrics.
"The Best Of You" by Foo Fighters
I’ve got another confession to make
I’m your fool
Everyone’s got their chains to break
Holdin’ you
Were you born to resist or be abused?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Are you gone and onto someone new?
I needed somewhere to hang my head
Without your noose
You gave me something that I didn’t have
But had no use
I was too weak to give in
Too strong to lose
My heart is under arrest again
But I break loose
My head is giving me life or death
But I can’t choose
I swear I’ll never give in
I refuse
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Has someone taken your faith?
Its real, the pain you feel
Your trust, you must
Confess
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Oh...
Oh...Oh...Oh..
Has someone taken your faith?
Its real, the pain you feel
The life, the love
You die to heal
The hope that starts
The broken hearts
Your trust, you must
Confess
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
I’ve got another confession my friend
I’m no fool
I’m getting tired of starting again
Somewhere new
Were you born to resist or be abused?
I swear I’ll never give in
I refuse
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Has someone taken your faith?
Its real, the pain you feel
Your trust, you must
Confess
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
Oh...
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Flippin' love that song!!!(and the music video is really good too)
Anywayz, peace
Kari
Dear Diary,
The days just seem to drag on and onnnnn I don't know what to do anymore. Me and my Mom keep fighting, I think my step dad's just annoyed with me, and I'm so homesick I just wanna die sometimes. I don't even wanna eat anymore(yeah, this homesickness is THAT bad) Talk about a vacation turned upside down. I just feel trapped, and just lock myself inside all day... but things are getting a lil better. Today's my last day down here and I didn't go out to the beach once. As cool, and fun as this place might be, it would be cooler and much funner with the people I truely love to enjoy it with(I miss Camille and Kura the most *sniffle*) Well, I'll stop complaining *yawn*
Talk to ya'll laterz~
Kari