++[Fake It Like I Matter]
++[I'm a nobody, but that doesn't automatically make you a somebody]
++[do you want a song of glory? well im f**king screaming at you!]
++[death is the next best thing...after u of course]
++{shrimpies!!
++[i like being out of the box...THE BOX SUCKS AND YOU KNOW IT]
++[i'm not smiling because you're funny, i'm smiling because you'll be dead someday]
++[and for one desperate moment there. he crept back into her memory. god it's so painful when something that is so close is still so far out of reach]
{PARENTS}
Parents to state one word it equals to Annoyance.
A father who's never there and is Now actually starting to care!
A mother who is everywhere two faced and is certainly unaware.
But don't worry about me, you'll se me out that door when i'm 18.
To stop thinking of a fairy tale of one big happy family.
And start facing the true reality, and have things turn out peacefully.
When i move out i'll live my life how i wanted to live intentionally.
Why are they still alive it feels like they have been dead for centuries.
Oh well, They have allways looked down on me.
So to state the truth they will die eventually!
Random...0.o
Hey ya'll... another song, sorry guys, I express myself through music, and sometimes I feel like someone is watching my every move and reading everything I say that I don't want them to know...
Niomi: ...WTF?0.o
Kari: Uh... yeah, nvm, here's the song:
"Extraordinary Girl" by Green Day
She's an Extraordinary girl
In an ordinary world
And she cant seem to get away
He lacks the courage in his mind
Like a child left behind
Like a pet left in the rain
She's all alone again
Wiping the tears from her eyes
Some days he feels like dying
She gets so sick of crying
She sees the mirror of herself
An image she wants to sell
To anyone willing to buy
He steals the image in her kiss
From her hearts apocalypse
From the one called whatsername
She's all alone again
Wiping the tears from her eyes
Some days he feels like dying
She gets so sick of crying
She's all alone again
Wiping the tears from her eyes
Some days he feels like dying
Some days it's not worth trying
Now that they both are finding
She gets so sick of crying
She's an Extraordinary girl
an Extraordinary girl
an Extraordinary girl
an Extraordinary girl
I love HIM
I hated to see HIM with HER
Then SHE dumped HIM
But HE didn't like ME
And said HE was SORRY
Now I hate MYSELF
HE broke MY heart
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Hello, My name is HiKari.
I live in America.
I am a rebel.
My mommy is a depressed alcoholic.
My daddy is a workoholic.
My brothers are a pain.
I am so depressed.
I write poems of my "horrible tradgic" life.
I think I'll go slit my wrists now! :D
Kinda says it all, doesn't it?
I thought it was cute.
This is the latest song I'm learning on the guitar:
"Yellow" by Coldplay:
Look at the stars,
Look how they shine for you,
And everything you do,
Yeah they were all yellow,
I came along
I wrote a song for you
And all the things you do
And it was called yellow
So then I took my turn
Oh all the things I've done
And it was all yellow
Your skin
Oh yeah your skin and bones
Turn into something beautiful
D'you know you know I love you so
You know I love you so
I swam across
I jumped across for you
Oh all the things you do
Cause you were all yellow
I drew a line
I drew a line for you
Oh what a thing to do
And it was all yellow
Your skin
Oh yeah your skin and bones
Turn into something beautiful
D'you know for you i bleed myself dry
For you i bleed myself dry
Its true look how they shine for you
look how they shine for you
look how they shine for you
look how they shine for you
look how they shine for you
look how they shine
look at the stars look how they shine for you
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*sniffle* this song makes me want to cry!!>o< Man, I want a boyfriend who would love me like that-.-
This is a peom from a good friend of mine from St. Rita's who always knew how to have a good time, even if we all knew the fact that we were trapped in catholic school till high school:
Have you ever watched kids
On a merry-go-round
Or listened to the rain
Slapping on the ground?
Ever followed a butterfly's erratic flight?
Or gazed at the sun into the fading night?
You better slow down.
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.
Do you run through each day
On the fly?
When you ask How are you?
Do you hear the reply?
When the day is done
Do you lie in your bed
With the next hun dred chores
Running through your head?
You'd better slow down
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.
Ever told your child,
We'll do it tomorrow?
And in your haste,
Not see his sorrow?
Ever lost touch
Let a good friendship die
Cause you never had time
To call and say,"Hi"
You'd better slow down.
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last .
When you run so fast to get somewhere
You miss half the fun of getting there.
When you worry and hurry through your day,
It is like an unopened gift....
Thrown away.
Life is not a race.
Do take it slower
Hear the music
Before the song is over.
I took a 'what kind of girl are you?' quiz and this is what I got:
A GAME-BOY. Youre like a tomboy without the love of sports. Reality sucks, but as long as you have your electronics you feel you can cope. Time goes unnoticed when youre locked in your room hooked up to your Nintendo, rocking to your favourite collection of guitar-driven albums.
Your virtues: Intelligence, sense-of-humou
Your flaws: Inability to cope with real life, action-freak spirit, reclusive nature.
Your Personality type is the only type that would like this cool online gothic Game:
www.life-blood
I stole this from [Sidecars Are For Bitches] cause I could relate a lot to some of the stuff in here and feel her pain:
"Loving someone that doesn't love you is like reaching for a star.
You know you'll never reach it, but you just got to keep trying."
Love is when at 2:30 AM you wake up
hoping that your dream was reality
Grant me the serenity to accept the
things I cannot change, the courage
to change the things I can,
and the wisdom to hide the bodies of
those people I had to kill
because they pissed me off.
Pray that your lonliness may spur you
into finding something to live for,
great enough to die for.
"Love is like Heaven, but it can hurt like Hell"
Maybe the change of your dreams is
already happening and you don't even
realize, or perhaps it might just be
taking a little longer to you on
becoming a reality.
Facts do not cease to exist because they are ignored.
Our lives improve only when we take chances
and the first and most difficult risk we can
take is to be honest with ourselves.
If you had to choose between
someone you love or someone
who loves you, pick the person
who loves you because you can
learn to love someone but you cant
make someone love you back.
We come to love not by finding the perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly.-Ang
"Always Look On The Brightside Of Life"(from the Monty Python movie) This goes out to my awesomest, most coolest, most loveliest, most loving and caring best big sister in the world *breath* KURA!^o^
Some things in life are bad
They can really make you mad
Other things just make you swear and curse.
When you're chewing on life's gristle
Don't grumble, give a whistle
And this'll help things turn out for the best...
And...always look on the bright side of life...
Always look on the light side of life...
If life seems jolly rotten
There's something you've forgotten
And that's to laugh and smile and dance and sing.
When you're feeling in the dumps
Don't be silly chumps
Just purse your lips and whistle - that's the thing.
And...always look on the bright side of life...
Always look on the light side of life...
For life is quite absurd
And death's the final word
You must always face the curtain with a bow.
Forget about your sin - give the audience a grin
Enjoy it - it's your last chance anyhow.
So always look on the bright side of death
Just before you draw your terminal breath
Life's a piece of shit
When you look at it
Life's a laugh and death's a joke, it's true.
You'll see it's all a show
Keep 'em laughing as you go
Just remember that the last laugh is on you.
And always look on the bright side of life...
Always look on the right side of life...
(Come on guys, cheer up!)
Always look on the bright side of life...
Always look on the bright side of life...
(Worse things happen at sea, you know.)
Always look on the bright side of life...
(I mean - what have you got to lose?)
(You know, you come from nothing - you're going back to nothing.
What have you lost? Nothing!)
Always look on the right side of life...
"Minority" by Green Day
i want to be the minority
i dont need your authority
down with the moral majority
'cause i want to be the minority
i pledge allegiance to the underworld
one nation under dog
there of which i stand alone
a face in the crowd
unsung, against the mold
without a doubt,
singled out
the only way i know
i want to be the minority
i dont need your authority
down with the moral majority
'cause i want to be the minority
stepped out of the line
like a sheep runs from the herd
marching out of time
to my own beat now
the only way i know
one light, one mind
flashing in the dark
blinded by silence of a thousand broken hearts
"for cryin out loud" she screamed unto me
a free for all
fuck 'em all
"you are your own sight"
i want to be the minority
i dont need your authority
down with the moral majority
'cause i want to be the minority
ANGER
1. Who did you last get angry with? …. some fucking preps in my Health class
2. What is your weapon of choice? my fist, I don't believe in weapons
3. Would you hit a member of the opposite sex? yes
4.How about of the same sex? YES
5.Who was the last person who got really angry at you? some asshole in my Algebra class
6.What is your pet peeve? WTF?0.o
7.Do you keep grudges, or can you let them go easily? I let it go, I also don't believe in grudges. They are dumb and useless
Sloth
1.What is one thing you're supposed to do daily that you haven't done in a long time? dunno, homework?
2. What is the latest you've ever woken up? 12 in the afternoon
3.Name a person you've been meaning to contact, but haven't? um... I dunno... Camille?
4. What is the last lame excuse you made? My brother ate my homework
5.Have you ever watched an infomercial all the way through? eh, probably not
6. How many times did you hit the snooze button on your alarm clock today? I don’t use an alarm clock..
GLUTTONY
1. What is your overpriced yuppie beverage of choice? JUICY JUICE!^o^
2. Meat eaters: white meat or red meat? I don care
3. What is the greatest amount of alcohol you've had in one sitting/outing
4. Have you ever used a professional diet company? um... unless u count when I ate a slim fast cause it said it was a chocolate shake when I was 12
5. Do you have an issue with your weight? nah, but I think I should work out more
6. Do you prefer sweets, salty foods, or spicy foods?… SUGAR!!! sweet, dir
7. Have you ever looked at a small housepet or child and thought "Food!"? Um... NO...0.o
LUST
1. How many people have you seen naked (not counting movies/family)? what the fuck is up with these questions??
2. 2. How many people have seen YOU naked (not counting physicians/fam
3. Have you ever caught yourself staring at the chest/crotch of a member of your gender of choice during a normal conversation? actually I have
4. Have you "done it"? WHO GIVES A FUCK?!
6. Have you ever been propositioned by a prostitute? NO U STUPID ASSHOLES!
7. Have you ever had to get tested for an STD or pregnancy? um, NO
GREED
1. How many credit cards do you own? None.
2. What's your guilty pleasure store? ok, fuck you
3. If you had $1 million, what would you do with it? no idea, I'm happy when I have 5 dollars>.<
4. Would you rather be rich, or famous? famous, screw money
5. Would you accept a boring job if it meant you would make megabucks? …. Um... I guess since I'm so fucking poor>.<
6. Have you ever stolen anything? ….Oh! Oh! Me and my friends shoplifted eyeline once^^
7. How many MP3s are on your hard drive? … none:p
PRIDE
1. What one thing have you done that you're most proud of? … I dunno, standing up for what I believe in?
2. What one thing have you done that your parents are most proud of? ch-nothing.
3. What thing would you like to accomplish in your life? Just to be with someone I truely love
4. Do you get annoyed by coming in second place? No, I'm happy if I get 20th place>.<
5. Have you ever entered a contest of skill, knowing you were of much higher skill than all the other competitors? No.
6. Have you ever cheated on something to get a higher score? probably
7. What did you do today that you're proud of? nothing
ENVY
1. What item (or person) of your friends would you most want to have for your own? Uw! Brendan!
2. Who would you want to go on "Trading Spaces" with? …. Um... Delaney?
3. If you could be anyone else in the world, who would you be? … Billie Joe Armstrong
4. Have you ever been cheated on? nah
5. Have you ever wished you had a physical feature different from your own? yeah, muscles
6. What inborn trait do you see in others that you wish you had for yourself? I love myself the way I am
7. Do you wish you'd come up with this survey? No, cause whoever made this has no life
8. Finally, what is your favorite deadly sin? Suicide
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"Brighter than Sunshine" by Aqualung
I never understood before
I never knew what love was for
My heart was broke, my head was sore
What a feeling
Tied up in ancient history
I didnt believe in destiny
I look up you're standing next to me
What a feeling
What a feeling in my soul
Love burns brighter than sunshine
Brighter than sunshine
Let the rain fall, i don't care
I'm yours and suddenly you're mine
Suddenly you're mine
And it's brighter than sunshine
I never saw it happening
I'd given up and given in
I just couldn't take the hurt again
What a feeling
I didn't have the strength to fight
Suddenly you seemed so right
Me and you
What a feeling
What a feeling in my soul
Love burns brighter than sunshine
It's brighter than sunshine
Let the rain fall, I don't care
I'm yours and suddenly you're mine
Suddenly you're mine
It's brighter than the sun
It's brighter than the sun
It's brighter than the sun, sun, shine.
Love will remain a mystery
But give me your hand and you will see
Your heart is keeping time with me
What a feeling in my soul
Love burns brighter than sunshine
It's brighter than sunshine
Let the rain fall, I don't care
I'm yours and suddenly you're mine
Suddenly you're mine
I got a feeling in my soul ...
This is "Lose Yourself" by Eniem(yes, a rap song. He's about the only rapper I like):
"Lose Yourself"
Look, if you had one shot, one opportunity
To seize everything you ever wanted-One moment
Would you capture it or just let it slip?
His palms are sweaty, knees weak, arms are heavy
There's vomit on his sweater already, mom's spaghetti
He's nervous, but on the surface he looks calm and ready
To drop bombs, but he keeps on forgettin
What he wrote down, the whole crowd goes so loud
He opens his mouth, but the words won't come out
He's chokin, how everybody's jokin now
The clock's run out, time's up over, bloah!
Snap back to reality, Oh there goes gravity
Oh, there goes Rabbit, he choked
He's so mad, but he won't give up that
Easy, no
He won't have it , he knows his whole back's to these ropes
It don't matter, he's dope
He knows that, but he's broke
He's so stagnant that he knows
When he goes back to his mobile home, that's when it's
Back to the lab again yo
This whole rap shit
He better go capture this moment and hope it don't pass him
You better lose yourself in the music, the moment
You own it, you better never let it go
You only get one shot, do not miss your chance to blow
This opportunity comes once in a lifetime yo
The soul's escaping, through this hole that it's gaping
This world is mine for the taking
Make me king, as we move toward a, new world order
A normal life is borin, but superstardom's close to post mortem
It only grows harder, only grows hotter
He blows us all over these hoes is all on him
Coast to coast shows, he's know as the globetrotter
Lonely roads, God only knows
He's grown farther from home, he's no father
He goes home and barely knows his own daughter
But hold your nose cuz here goes the cold water
His hoes don't want him no mo, he's cold product
They moved on to the next schmoe who flows
He nose dove and sold nada
So the soap opera is told and unfolds
I suppose it's old partna', but the beat goes on
Da da dum da dum da da
You better lose yourself in the music, the moment
You own it, you better never let it go
You only get one shot, do not miss your chance to blow
This opportunity comes once in a lifetime yo
No more games, I'ma change what you call rage
Tear this mothafuckin roof off like 2 dogs caged
I was playin in the beginnin, the mood all changed
I been chewed up and spit out and booed off stage
But I kept rhymin and stepwritin the next cypher
Best believe somebody's payin the pied piper
All the pain inside amplified by the fact
That I can't get by with my 9 to 5
And I can't provide the right type of life for my family
Cuz man, these goddam food stamps don't buy diapers
And it's no movie, there's no Mekhi Phifer, this is my life
And these times are so hard and it's getting even harder
Tryin to feed and water my seed, plus
See dishonor caught up between being a father and a prima donna
Baby mama drama's screamin on and
Too much for me to wanna
Stay in one spot, another day of monotony
Has gotten me to the point, I'm like a snail
I've got to formulate a plot fore I end up in jail or shot
Success is my only mothafuckin option, failure's not
Mom, I love you, but this trailer's got to go
I cannot grow old in Salem's lot
So here I go is my shot.
Feet fail me not cuz maybe the only opportunity that I got
You better lose yourself in the music, the moment
You own it, you better never let it go
You only get one shot, do not miss your chance to blow
This opportunity comes once in a lifetime yo
You can do anything you set your mind to, man
Once again, stealing stuff from other people's houses(got this from [Love Hurts]). But let's just make it clear that I only do this because I think these things are worth your time to read, so hopefully they are worht your time^^
Niomi: You talk too much.
Kari: I know^.~:
Favorite Sayings:
You laugh at me because Im different, I laugh at you because your all the same.
Dont ask God for an easier life, ask him to make you a stronger person.
Life isnt measured by the breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.
Be your self so no one can tell you that your doing it wrong.
Never give up what you want most for what you want at the moment.
I believe that man will not merelly endure: He will prevail.
Below the navel there is neither religion nor truth.
Do not stand in a place of danger trusting in miracles.
In times of prosperity friends will be plenty, in times of adversity not one in twenty.
We ignore the ones who adore us and adore the ones who ignore us.
Don't let the fear of striking out keep you from playing the game.
Can I have a map to your heart because I am lost on your eyes.
Welcome to obession, it makes the world go round, we're made up by the people we surround, we live and die for crap we dont need
Another thing I got from someone's house([^_^ bubi et ^_^]):
ThIs Is ThIs CaT
ThIs Is Is CaT
ThIs Is HoW CaT
ThIs Is To CaT
ThIs Is KEep CaT
ThIs Is ReTaRdS CaT
ThIS Is BuSy CaT
ThIs Is FoR CaT
ThIs Is FoRty CaT
ThIs Is SeCoNdS CaT
NoW Go BaCk AnD rEaD aLl ThE WoRdS DoWn WaRdS oN ThE tHiRd WoRd On EaCh LiNe!!!
Ok, so I keep putting up useless diary entries, but this was TOO pretty!
Niomi: That's probably why we all stopped reading ur diary.
Kari: Woah, Niomi. When did you come back to life?
Niomi: I was dead?0.o
LOL~
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Stole this from [Stars Drenched In My Pain Again](I don't really feel like writing a real entry>.<):
Are you tired of all those sissy friendship poems that always sound good, but never actually come close to reality? Well, here is a series of promises that really speaks to true friendship:
1. When you are sad - I will help you get drunk and plot revenge against the sorry bastard who made you sad.
2. When you are blue - I will try to dislodge whatever is choking you.
3. When you smile - I will know you finally got laid.
4. When you are scared - I will rag on you about it every chance I get.
5. When you are worried - I will tell you horrible stories about how much worse it could be and to quit whining.
6. When you are confused - I will use little words.
7. When you are sick - Stay the hell away from me until you are well again. I don't want whatever you have.
8. When you fall - I will point and laugh at your clumsy ass.
This is my oath...I pledge it till the end. Why? You may ask... Because you are my friend.