whoa i'm on elftown real long huh?
So... Just before Cindy and I started seeing each other, she told me I wouldn't last, because she'd drive me insane, mad, and utterly crazy. Part of it is true. She does drive me crazy at times, but who doesn't. I still want her to be my girlfriend. There are several things that have happened these last 2 months I would rather have done otherwise when I think of it, but it is foolish to regret what has already been done. You'll only feel more miserable each time you think of it, though you can't change a thing.
It was my dad's birthday yesterday, and mine's coming up on wednessday, so to keep things simple we invited family and friends to come over tomorrow for cake etc. Cindy'll come as well. I can't wait. I have had only one moment alone with her since the start of school, but even that was inside of school. I guess she's busy with work, and school for the upcoming tests.
Ahhhh. I'm so very much pissed off at the moment. Cindy's in need of a massage, and I cannot give her one. I can't do a massage, I suck at it. Therefore, Jelle is going to give her one. I do not mind, but what I do care about is the shirt that has got to come off. Jelle is just a friend, but I guess I don't like the idea off him on top of Cindy, while she's not wearing a shirt. And he keeps making all these 'funny' somments all day, and it really pisses me off. One at a time is enough, but I feel like factory employee of insults.
PS: I know you'll read this, Cindy. Don't mind me. I want you to have Jelle do the massage. I won't tell you not to, because situations like these will come by in the future, and I need to deal with them.
BWAH. How I hate Mondays. You're all absorbed in the relaxed mood of the week-ends, and then suddenly everything turns back to the standard procedure. Getting up early; making lunch for school; riding your bike while your butt's freezing off, ahh, yes.
I did have a nice week-end though. I spend the entire Saturday at Cindy's place, at there, and left at night. On Sunday she had a photoshoot about which I shall not talk >.> but that was only in the morning, so around... 14:00 (2:00PM) she called me, and we went to the mall together. It's not really a mall though. Its more like one street, with all types of stores on it. From there, we took the bus and went to my place, where we ate and watched the first part of some movie with Beyonce in it. Hmm, yes. Quite so.
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Riight. Cindy's internet broke. Or, actually some miscommunictio
TT_TT
I'm bored. I've got loads of anime to watch, but I'm really not in the mood. Not even the decent ones I watch. Nevertheless, I am only bored nighttime. During the day I'm not bored. Eventhough I might claim otherwise at that moment. Ever. I'm tired at the most.
Bwah!
Good times!! Yessir.
Many kisses, and such. Many lovelyness and such. Many... Times.
Really. The HeHa-project sucked. Bigtime. We went to the school-thingie
"WTF?!" - "Beer." xD
We quickly reunited with the rest of the bunch though. Sucky sucky. That's what it did. It sucked.
The weekend was nice though. Well, parts of it. I went to this... I don't know what it's called... 'Beurs'** (for the Dutchies) about videogames. It SUCKED. I went last year as well, but it was about 3 times bigger then, and this time there were 2 'beurs'es united, and it was way smaller. TT_TT
The evening I went to Cindy's place. Jelle was asked as well, but I figured he wouldn't show up. xD Good results. We watched Bambi 2(don't ask >.>), and the real thing started afterwards. A lot of kisses, and hugs, and rolling over should be enough for you guys to catch my drift. It took me about 30 minutes to leave her front door. And when I hadn't even left for 10 seconds, I found out my Mp3-player was still in her room. Right. Good reason to stop by again on Sunday. So I did...
Sunday. More of the thing mentioned above. Lots more, and I also clicked a lot. On a computer of course, I wasn't trying to point out something weird. xD But yeah, I made 10 Euro's... But I never got them. They did pay for Cindy's stuff though. Oh, and... She's my Girlfriend since today! YAY!
OMGWTFBBQ-Happ
That's it. The whole thing so far. Checkout.
**= 'Beurs'. It's like a HUGE hall filled with fanboys, and many nerds in this case. Everyone has come to see what's going on, the newest games, and everything. You also have them in different themes, such as Motorbike's, or cars, or even poststamps, if you please. Ah! Conventions? Is that the word?
Bwah. Mysterious beings are under my bed. >.< Not really though. I just felt like writing something again.
But, basically, I've got nothing big to say. Eventhough a crisis is going on right now. Tomorrow is HeHa-day (Totally Havo(Havo is the name of my current education)). It's some sort of excursion to a higher education.We visit a school in The Hague.
It;s only an hour ago since that last post, but since then, all remaining soberness seems gone. I have the biggest trouble finding the right words. I name people ducks, and I admitt I liked people some time ago. I look at people's eyes and find it funny how they move. Riight. What can I say? Aclohol rules. xD
Today was quite sleepy. I went to bed around 3 AM, so that's no surprise.
I woke up around 12 O'clock, or acutally 11 O'clock. I got out of bed at 12 O'clock. My parents were jumping through the house, and there were people washing my windows making weird sounds. My mom came barging in my room telling me my friend Roald had come by earlier. He's lives 2 houses down the street. I went by his house when I took out the trash, and he then later stopped by my house with his Xbox360. Yes, quite charming. We played videogames all day, because he had a new game... Gears Of War, for those of you who know it.
This evening, I went to a play of my mom and dad's group, even though they weren't acting. My dad does technics and lights, and my mom normally acts, not this time though. The play was called "Black Sheep, White Lambs" (translated). I had seen it before, with my parents old group, and this one wasn't that good compared to it. People forgot lines throughout the first part, and even though it kept going better and better, overall, the quality of the play wasn;t that good. It was a fun play though.
Ah. Yet another day gone, with more insanity running through my veins. Cindy keeps acting weirder and weirder, and she's really starting to piss me off. I like her though, so I cannot just turn and walk, like I'd do with a regular person, or even a friend.
Everyone tells me I should be patient, and wait for another week and see if it passes. I quite agree, but if this keeps up... I'm not sure if I'll make it to the next week. I really feel like bursting out in anger, smashing everyone around me to pieces. Tear down the school, and break every window in it. I really run on frustration at the moment, and I cannot get away from it.
It's kind of a Triangular situation, with one path outwards as well. I have friend, Jelle, and another, CIndy. The three of us make the triangle. I like Cindy a lot, but Jelle does as well, and we are friends. At the same time, Cindy likes us both as well as an outsider, whom Jelle and I don't know. She likes the outsider more than she likes us, leaving us hanging and waiting. For as far as I am informed, Jelle has no clue as to what's going on atm, but that'll work out.
Cindy, at the same time, is getting all jealous whenever I hang out with another girl. Yet, she is not my girlfriend, nor is the other girl, Renate, I was hanging out with. It is all the result of her own vagueness, and her not being able to make up her mind.
And, after a few days have pssed, she's getting weirder and weirder, and I have no clue as to what to do with it. Today, Jelle also made an interreting sataement. Renate might like me as well. I highly doubt it though, but Jelle thinks so. He asked me what I would do if Renate asked me to go out and such. That's would surely add to the problems. Great, yet another wonder running through my head. And, let Renate be one of Cindy's best friends at school. I was going to ask Renate for back-up concerning Cindy, since I have no clue what to do, but... Now I cannot ask her to help me anymore. Jelle threw that idea out of the window.
[>.< This sucks!]
Sinchao says:
So...
Sinchao says:
What did life bring you this day?
Limbed says:
i don't kno
Limbed says:
ask life
Sinchao says:
...
Sinchao says:
How are you?!
Limbed says:
well..
Limbed says:
quite good
Limbed says:
why're you asking?!
Sinchao says:
Just trying to be... Nice...
Sinchao says:
Eww
Sinchao says:
What a dusgusting word
Limbed says:
yeah
Limbed says:
especially for you
Sinchao says:
I wonder why normal people use it...
Your Birthdate: January 17
You tend to find yourself lucky - both in business and in life.
And while being wealthy is nice, you enjoy sharing your abundance with others.
You put your luck to good use: you are very ambitious and goal oriented.
Often times, you get over excited and take on more than you can manage.
Your strength: Your ability to make your own luck
Your weakness: Thinking you can do it all
Your power color: Bronze
Your power symbol: Half Moon
Your power month: August