[12-24] Me on Christmas... www.livejournal.com/users/sebhar
[12-23] Merry early Christmas, happy new year, whatnot. Nitemare Hippie Girl I'd like comments, eh?
[12-13] "In this life, it's do or die, it's sink or swim...and I've found that this life's worth living and I want to live it with you..."
If only everyone could handle things the right way... if only there was a right way to handle things... if only life was not shit, most days.

1. Egg Nog or Hot Chocolate? Nog. Cocoa you can have anytime. Nog is special. It's also fun to steal it from my uncle Marcus.
2. Does Santa wrap presents or just sit them under
the tree? Oh, they're wrapped, and each kid gets a different type of candy-cane themed wrapping paper, so no tags are necessary.
3. Colored lights on tree/house or white? I like colored, but we have a fake tree with built-in white lights. Eew.
4. Do you hang mistletoe? Dear lord, no. "Mistletoe can be deadly if you eat it." "Well, a kiss can be deadly if you mean it."
5. When do you put your decorations up? As soon as the house is clean enough to. This year we left it pretty late, because we redid our downstairs.
6. What is your favorite holiday dish (excluding
dessert)? TOFURKEY! with cranberry sauce!
7. Favorite Holiday memory as a child? Driving through the park in Dubuque with all the moving light figures and such. Then going to Uncle Kevin's house and having hot cocoa in the hot tub. Mmm.
8. When and how did you learn the truth about Santa? Up until I was about six, Santa hand-wrote us letters. When I compared Santa's handwriting to Dad's, suddenly the next Christmas, the note was typed, and has been ever since.
9. Do you open a gift on Christmas Eve? Rarely.
10. What kind of cookies does Santa get set out for
him? Well, we make so many cookies that he gets some of each, a glass of milk, a bag of oats, and a beer. And we were doing that before the Santa Claus version of "Iron Man". 
11. Snow, like it or dread it? It is the best. You can play in it, throw it at people, and go hottub-ing with your cousins and see who can roll in the snow the longest. Muha.
12. Can you ice skate? Er. No.
13. Do you remember your favorite gift? I'd have to say... how my sister is nice to everyone on the 23rd and 24th in a vain attempt to make up for the rest of the year.
14. What's the most important thing about the Holidays
for you?  Sharing love as much as possible.
15. What is your favorite Holiday Dessert? Mrs. Ellingson (my neighbour)'s fruit salsa. Mmm.
16. What is your favorite holiday tradition? Why, the party, of course. All sorts of random people show up, we have a good time and lots of food...
17. What tops your tree? A very lacy angel
18. Which do you prefer? Giving or receiving? Certainly giving. But I don't like to buy gifts, I prefer to make them, or give in the form of love. (This both fits with my morals and my budget ^_^) 
19. What is your favorite Christmas Carol? Hmm, tough one. I like the Barenaked Ladies version of "Jingle Bells". 
20. Candy Canes! Yuck or Yum? Yum! Obviously! My family, being Kanes, are obsessed (mildlyish) with candy canes!

-stolen from [Citrine] without permission: gasp!-


THE SEVEN DEADLY SINS


ANGER
1. Who did you last get angry with? um.... probably sister
2. What is your weapon of choice? the pen, for 'tis indeed mightier than the sword.
3. Would you hit a member of the opposite sex? I do so frequently
4.How about of the same sex? oh well, yesh
5.Who was the last person who got really angry at you? [chasingpeace]
6.What is your pet peeve? obese and obtuse people.
7.Do you keep grudges, or can you let them go easily? I let them go...actually, most of the time I forget about them.

Sloth
1.What is one thing you're supposed to do daily that you haven't done in a long time? er, homework.
2. What is the latest you've ever woken up? 12-ish
3.Name a person you've been meaning to contact, but haven't? EVAN!
4. What is the last lame excuse you made? Oh no, have asthma, can't run the mile... man, was 8th grade really that long ago?
5.Have you ever watched an infomercial all the way through? nosiree.
6. How many times did you hit the snooze button on your alarm clock today? er, alarm clock?!

GLUTTONY
1. What is your overpriced yuppie beverage of choice? Oh Amp, our home and native drink, true patriot love, won't pour you down the sink. With glowing hearts we buy thee up and drink 'til sugar high. Oh Amp, to thee I'll never lie...
2. Meat eaters: Can be cruel, tis true, and not only to what they're eating.
3. What is the greatest amount of alcohol you've had in one sitting/outing/event? I'm going to opt not to go here.
4. Have you ever used a professional diet company? er, no.
5. Do you have an issue with your weight? meh, I could drop a few pounds, but why waste my youth doing that?
6. Do you prefer sweets, salty foods, or spicy foods? Um, female... have random cravings...
7. Have you ever looked at a small housepet or child and thought "Food!"? EEEEEEEP! What kind of sick question IS that? And no.

LUST
1. How many people have you seen naked (not counting movies/family)? Dear lord, none... who needs nudity?
2. 2. How many people have seen YOU naked (not counting physicians/family)? no one I'm aware of.
3. Have you ever caught yourself staring at the chest/crotch of a member of your gender of choice during a normal conversation? Who's attracted to bodies anyway?
4. Have you "done it"? Erlack, no, despite what is said...
5. What is your favorite body part on a person of your gender of choice? Eyes. Shoulders and collarbones. Jim has a lovely jawline.
6. Have you ever been propositioned by a prostitute? not that I'm aware of.
7. Have you ever had to get tested for an STD or pregnancy? neh, never needed to ^.^

GREED
1. How many credit cards do you own? None
2. What's your guilty pleasure store? Moondog Music...
3. If you had $1 million, what would you do with it? Some days, I wish for heated toilet seats... but actually, I'd probably buy music, as selfish as that seems.
4. Would you rather be rich, or famous? Rich so I can still live life in peace.
5. Would you accept a boring job if it meant you would make megabucks? Depends... how desperate am I for money?
6. Have you ever stolen anything? Not from a store. Do sisters count, when you're stealing your own possessions back?
7. How many MP3s are on your hard drive? zippo.

PRIDE
1. What one thing have you done that you're most proud of? Not lost my head to anger
2. What one thing have you done that your parents are most proud of? School stuff, i dunno.
3. What thing would you like to accomplish in your life? change the world for the better
4. Do you get annoyed by coming in second place? No
5. Have you ever entered a contest of skill, knowing you were of much higher skill than all the other competitors? erm.... not seriously
6. Have you ever cheated on something to get a higher score? Seventh grade constitution test. We had like a freaking week to memorize the entire constitution. Erk.
7. What did you do today that you're proud of? I was nice to my sister. and I didn't let the anger build up, I just let it go.

ENVY
1. What item (or person) of your friends would you most want to have for your own? the computer of someone whose computer functions when asked
2. Who would you want to go on "Trading Spaces" with? BRI! Yee gads!
3. If you could be anyone else in the world, who would you be? probably me. I like me okay... lots more than I like some other people...
4. Have you ever been cheated on? oh aye.
5. Have you ever wished you had a physical feature different from your own? Oh aye.
6. What inborn trait do you see in others that you wish you had for yourself? Nice parents...
7. Do you wish you'd come up with this survey? Er, who is lame enough to decide on questions like these?

8. Finally, what is your favorite deadly sin? Uh...what the heck kind of question is that?

All right then. No more talking to them online. I'm through with that. Ball's in their court now. Should they want to make amends... well, they can talk to me. Like people were meant to do.

My Life's Soundtrack

OPENING CREDITS: Eminence Front - the Who

WAKING UP: White Men in Black Suits - Everclear

AVERAGE DAY: Deadbeat Holiday – Green Day

FIRST DATE: 13 Stitches - NOFX

FALLING IN LOVE: All Messed Up – Breaking Point

LOVE SCENE: Closer – Nine Inch Nails

BREAKING UP: Rest Stop – Matchbox Twenty

GETTING BACK TOGETHER: Cecelia – Simon and Garfunkel

SECRET LOVE: Why Don’t You Come Over - Garbage

LIFES OKAY: Got To Get You Into My Life – the Beatles

MENTAL BREAKDOWN: Brain Damage – Pink Floyd

DRIVING: Goin’ Mobile – the Who

LEARNING A LESSON: Education – the Kinks

DEEP THOUGHTS: I’m Thinking – Autopilot Off

FLASHBACK: A Day in the Life - Beatles

PARTYING: Bodies – Drowning Pool

HAPPY DANCE: Bohemian Rhapsody - Queen

REGRETNG: Forget It - Breaking Benjamin

LONG NIGHT ALONE: Nothing Compares 2 U – Sinead O’Connor

DEATH SCENE: Goodbye Cruel World – Pink Floyd

CLOSING CREDITS: She’s Got It All Worked Out - Semisonic

(stolen with permission from Steppanwolf)

[11-27] Snatches of song... "I wish I had a metal heart..." "So kill me with the love that you won't give to me..." "I don't want to wake up on my own anymore..." "I'll be leaving soon..."

[11-15] Mass confusion. Who the devil am I, anyway? And what the devil do I want?

COLD FEET! erlack.

Ouch! This isn't good.

Ow. Love. Confusion. Ow.

I got a little tired of never being called
Yeah I got a little sick of always being stalled
And that is why I said that "we should just be friends.
Go on, baby, get on home; this is where it ends".

And to tell you the truth, I got tired of the lies,
And never knowing what to do to get us to survive
Thanks for finally getting me to open up my eyes
I don't think you're worth it and that's really no surprise.

You said I broke your heart, and maybe that was true
How come, though, you never ever told me, "I love you"?
It was shit like that which made me call and tell you we were through
Seems to me that was the practical thing to do

And to tell you the truth, I got tired of the lies,
And never knowing what to do to get us to survive
Thanks for finally getting me to open up my eyes
I don't think you're worth it and that's really no surprise.

Now a year has gone and you've written me to say
That you miss me? need me? kiss me? thought of me today
You've met my new boyfriend, now you realise it's true
That I never ever would have run away with you

And to tell you the truth, it's really no surprise
There never really was a way to get us to survive
Now today I'm really glad I opened up my eyes
I couldn't make you worth it and that's really no surprise.

"Heal my heart and drown my woe." - Billy Boyd

I love him so much that I cried last night.
Crazy.

Now I think about it, I've never cried for any male-related reason before. EVER. Not even when Bush got re-elected.

"Oh, I gotta see you..." - Jimi Hendrix

[10-22] Mmmmkay, updated blogs below... Hawks won, yay; Hawkeyes lost, boo/hiss. I'm tired. Huzzah. Finished "The Stand" by Stephen King... good book.
[NEW SONG!!!!! YAY!!!!!] at http://green-day666.diaryland.com/051022_95.html go!

[10-20] Had a lovely conversation with Justin today.... heehee, he's a funny kid... Chem and Spanish tests tomorrow... eew...blogs haven't been updated... well maybe they have... you expect me to remember? I love you Jim!

Random diary entry. I felt like I was neglecting it. *brushes cobwebs from corners* I'm working on a new story, working title "Karas" involving...well, I'll tell you later, I gotta go. Byall!

[8-12-05] "You knows I loves you..." Party at Derek's tonight. I need a ride home! *pout* I miss Canada as well. Parade tomorrow in Ryan.. erlack. I'm in Dubuque at the moment, so I'm-a go be socialish. Bya!

STRUDEL WILL WIN! Buwahahahaha... Actually I have no idea what to write today, as I'm tired and...well...in Dubuque. So... yeah... anyone who reads this and is going to Derek's and might be able to give me a ride home, please message ASAP. Thankee!

Mmmkay. Since I'm a slut, allegedly, I think I can tell all in safety now. Girls, your "friend" Hannah is a lesbian, so proved with the assistance of two of her friends of varying genders. Thank you very much. The test I ran proved negative on the guy and positive on the girl; being that intimate and "slutty" with a guy proved to not arouse me in the slightest. Thank you guys for your unwavering support of my sexuality. And I was so happy from camp, I had new friends I wanted to show you. I hope you can see it from my end of the tunnel and I can still make you guess how old Evan is. 

Chelsea, if you read this: I really wish you wouldn't have used my name on the internet, or you'd talked to me on the phone. Without the help of your blog, I wouldn't have known who Carrie was talking about. But, FYI, I have my period right now and I have yet to lose my virginity and never intend to lose it to a male, so I don't know how I got pregnant. Maybe an incubus? Right.

7-20-05] I've figured out who Pink in The Wall reminds me of... Dan/[Disconnection]! I've posted some of my blog addresses below...
OH MY GOD I'M GOING TO MOLLY'S TOMORROW AND THEN TO CANADA FOR BAND CAMP! *dies*

What shall we use to fill the empty spaces where we used to talk?

I love Pink Floyd... *death*

[7-19-05]: Insomnia is not a sign of serious mental illness or depression, no matter what mum says. Now, if she'd notice some of my other odd behaviour, then maybe she'd have good reason to think I'm crazy...

[Fourish days until band camp!]