[RoseAngel]'s diary

383269  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2004-10-17
Written: (7341 days ago)

From the moment I met you, all those years ago, not a day has gone by that I haven't thought of you...and now that I'm with you, I'm in agony. The closer I get to you, the worse it gets.

The thought of not being with you.....I can't breathe.

I'm haunted by the kiss, you never should of given me. My heart is beating, hoping that kiss will not become a scar.

You are in my very soul, tormenting me.

What can I do? I will do anything you ask.

--Anakin Skywalker
381945  Link to this entry 
Written about Saturday 2004-10-16
Written: (7342 days ago)
Next in thread: 382357

Forgotten


Sitting within the midst of her life. Cloaked in a morose veil. Her face stained by her abiding tears. Her sullen eyes, tired and weary.

Watching her life shatter and fall around her, she turns her head, forcing back tears. She cannot shed another tear. Each one burns as is rolls down her pale cheeks.

Regaining her composure, she rises to her feet. Turning back to her shattered life, she whispers,
"Goodbye"

Her final words...so helpless, so faint.

Not to her surprise, no one hears her final farewell. A cool breeze blows and twists her long black hair, and in the next moment she is gone. Vanished into the darkness where she will stay.

No one will notice her absence, for no one truly noticed her being.

She is the the figure lurking in the shadows. She is a distant memory. She is forgotten.

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Drawn By: [DarkJenni]
381362  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2004-10-15
Written: (7343 days ago)

Linkin Park, Hit The Floor

There were just too many
Times people have tried to look inside of me
Wondering what I think of you
And I protect you out of courtesy
Too many times that I've held on
When I needed to push away
Afraid to say what was on my mind
Afraid to say what I need to say
Too many things that you say about me when I’m not around
You think having the upper hand
Means you gotta keep putting me down
But I've had too many stand-offs with you
It's about as much as I can stand
So I’ll wait until the upper hand is mine

One minute you're on top
The next you're not, watch it drop
Making your heart stop
Just before you hit the floor
One minute you're on top
The next you're not, missed your shot
Making your heart stop
You think you've won
And then it's all gone

So many people like me that put so much trust in all your lies
So concerned of what you think
To just say what we feel inside
So many people like me walk on eggshells all day long
All I know is that all I want is to feel like I'm not stepped on
There are so many things you say that make me feel
You've cross the line
What goes up will surely fall, and I'm counting down the time
Cause I've had so many stand-offs with you
Its about as much as I can stand
So I'm waiting until the upper hand is mine

One minute you're on top
The next you're not, watch it drop
Making your heart stop
Just before you hit the floor
One minute you're on top
The next you're not, missed your shot
Making your heart stop
You think you've won

And then it's all gone
And then it’s all gone
And then it’s all gone
And then it’s all gone
Now it’s all gone

I know I'll never trust a single thing you say
You knew your lies would divide us but you lied anyway
And all the lies have got you floating up above us all
But what goes up is got to fall

One minute you're on top
The next you're not, watch it drop
Making your heart stop
Just before you hit the floor
One minute you're on top
The next you're not, missed your shot
Making your heart stop
You think you've won

And then it's all gone
And then it’s all gone
And then it’s all gone
And then it’s all gone
Now it’s all gone

377383  Link to this entry 
Written about Monday 2004-10-11
Written: (7347 days ago)

Hold on a second...the "POSER BARBIE" is going to speak...

LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!




The "POSER BARBIE" is done speaking.

373200  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2004-10-07
Written: (7352 days ago)

It was all a lie, all of it.


I want to sleep so badly...
But, my mind is to busy.
I want to cry forever and ever...
But, I can't I just can't.
I want to scream my lungs out...
But, I can't, I'll remain silent.
I want to hurt me...
But, I CANNOT AND WILL NOT.

367211  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2004-09-30
Written: (7359 days ago)

He doesn't remember anything
He's forgotten everything
And here I thought we had something

He's forgotten everything

He's forgotten everything

He's forgotten everything

He's forgotten

He's forgotten

He's forgotten

365866  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2004-09-29
Written: (7360 days ago)

Evanescence, Lies

Bind my limbs with fear
Choke me with tears
I won't die for you

You've been here before
And come back for more
But not this time

You will never be strong enough
You will never be good enough
You were never conceived in love
You will not rise above

Somebody tell me what made us all believe you
I should have known all along it was all a lie

Now I know the truth
I'm through fearing you
And I am free

You will never be strong enough
You will never be good enough
You were never conceived in love
You will not rise above

Somebody tell me what made us all believe you
I should have known all along it was a lie

Somebody tell me what made us all believe you
I should have known all along it was all a lie
Somebody tell me what made us all believe you
I should have known it was all a lie
I should have known it was all a lie

363930  Link to this entry 
Written about Monday 2004-09-27
Written: (7362 days ago)

What I am to you  

A distant memory
A convenience
This is what I am to you
A time filler
A past good time
This is what I am to you
A last resort
A unlikely possibility
This is what I am to you
Old news
Forbidden
This is what I am to you
Dismissed
Forgotten
This is what I am to you

9-04

361810  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2004-09-24
Written: (7364 days ago)

Evanescence, Father Away

I took their smiles and I made them mine
I sold my soul just to hide the light
And now I see what I really am
A thief, a whore, and a liar

I run to you
Call out your name
I see you there, farther away

I'm numb to you, numb and deaf and blind
You give me all but the reason why
I reach but I feel only air at night
Not you, not love, just nothing

I run to you
Call out your name
I see you there, farther away

Try to forget you
But without you I feel nothing
Don't leave me here, by myself
I can't breathe

I run to you
Call out your name
I see you there, farther away

I run to you
Call out your name
I see you there, farther away
Farther away
Farther away
Farther away
Farther away
Farther away

361829  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2004-09-23
Written: (7364 days ago)
Next in thread: 368309

Linkin Park, In The End

It starts with
One thing, I don’t know why
It doesn’t even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind I designed this rhyme
To explain in due time
All I know, time is a valuable thing
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings
Watch it count down to the end of the day
The clock ticks life away
It’s so unreal, didn’t look out below
Watch the time go right out the window
Trying to hold on but didn’t even know
Wasted it all just to watch you go
I kept everything inside and even though I tried it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time when

I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter

One thing, I don’t know why
Doesn’t even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind I designed this rhyme
To remind myself how I tried so hard
Despite of the way you were mocking me
Acting like I was part of your property
Remembering all the times you fought with me
I’m surprised it got so far
Things aren’t the way they were before
You wouldn’t even recognize me anymore
Not that you knew me back then
But it all comes back to me in the end
You kept everything inside and even though I tried it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time when

I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter

I put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
And for all this
There’s only one thing you should know

I put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
And for all this
There’s only one thing you should know

I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter

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