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[RoseAngel]'s diary

505868 Link to this entry
Written about Friday 2005-02-25
Written: (7214 days ago)

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[Crimson candle wax...
Dense ebony smoke...
Lustful violent fire...
Paper thin rose petals...

All dispelling together.
Forming a seductive pool of passion...
Only for My Love and I.]

502556 Link to this entry
Written about Monday 2005-02-21
Written: (7217 days ago)

Can you feel your heart beat racing?
Can you taste the fear in her sweat?
You've done this wrong, it's too far gone
These sheets tell of regret
I admit that I'm just a fool for you
I am just a fool for you

Here is where we both go wrong

Tonight's your last chance to do exactly what you want to
And this could be my night,
This is what makes me feel alive
Makes you feel alive

Here is where we both go wrong
So sign me up and toss this key
'Cause for now we're living

In this moment that we both ignore the truth
It's all over
It's all over
I feel your heart against mine
So take a breath and close your eyes
Eyes

Your lungs have failed and they've both stopped breathing
My heart is dead it's way past beating
Something has gone terribly wrong
I'm scared, you're scared, we're scared of this
I never thought we'd make it out alive
I never told you but it's all in your goodbyes
it's all in your goodbyes

Well look who's dying now
slit wrists sleeping with the girl next door
I always knew you were such a sucker for that
It doesnt matter what you say
You never mattered anyway
I never mattered anyway

Don't shake I hate to see you tremble
Trembling
You've lost your touch haven't you
And I'm so addicted
so addicted

I never thought we'd make it out alive
It's all in your goodbyes

[Underoath, A Boy Brushed Red Living in Black and White]

501772 Link to this entry
Written about Monday 2005-02-21
Written: (7218 days ago)

Yet another tear rolls down my pale cheek
...Midnight cries, falling upon deaf ears...
I'll keep each tear for you
I'll stow them away
Only you, my love, may have them
They're yours
Take them

503293 Link to this entry
Written about Friday 2005-02-18
Written: (7216 days ago)

I just can't get you out of my head
Boy, your lovin' is all I think about
I just can't get you out of my head
Boy, its more than I dare to think about

Every night
Every day
Just to be there in your arms
Won't you stay
Won't you stay
Stay forever and ever and ever

There's a dark secret in me
Don't leave me lost in your arms
Set me free
Feel the need in me
Set me free
Stay forever and ever and ever

I just can't get you out of my head

[I've had this old school song stuck in my head forever!]

497108 Link to this entry
Written about Wednesday 2005-02-16
Written: (7223 days ago)

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496242 Link to this entry
Written about Tuesday 2005-02-15
Written: (7224 days ago)

I'll slit my wrist and draw a heart on the wall for you.
I will write a note also...
It will contain my everlasting love for you,
Every hidden emotion...
Along with all the invisible tears.
Finally...
I'll sign it with my blood.
A crimson farewell...sealed with a kiss.

I said I'd die for you. Did you not believe me?

490679 Link to this entry
Written about Tuesday 2005-02-08
Written: (7231 days ago)

U no wat rely bothrs meh? Ppl who typ lyk ths!

Ahh!!! Learn how to spell and type!

Ahem...

489747 Link to this entry
Written about Monday 2005-02-07
Written: (7232 days ago)

[Tough guys wear pink.]

Haha...I love that quote.

481546 Link to this entry
Written about Thursday 2005-01-27
Written: (7243 days ago)

[I want to die.]

I'll slit my wrist and draw a heart on the wall for you.
If I'm able, I will write a note also...
It will express my love for you that you are not aware of.
Finally...
I'll sign it with my blood.
A crimson farewell...sealed with a kiss.

[I died of a sweet sickness]

472816 Link to this entry
Written about Sunday 2005-01-16
Written: (7253 days ago)

.:.:.I long to be with you.:.:.

When I'm with you is when I'm happiest...

C r a d l e m e g e n t l y i n y o u r a r m s a n d n e v e r l e t m e g o.

Please.

459175 Link to this entry
Written about Wednesday 2004-12-29
Written: (7271 days ago)

I had a dream about you. But, before you think anything...listen to my dream.
I found out that someone was paying you large amounts of money to spend time with me and talk to me. This person secretly hated me, and you did also. When I found out the truth, I locked myself in my room for weeks. I died inside. I woke just before I slit my wrist.
Point in story; please, I beg of you, do not play games with me. I'm not strong enough.

437083 Link to this entry
Written about Tuesday 2004-12-07
Written: (7294 days ago)

All of my hate cannot be bound. I will not be drowned by your thoughtless scheming.
Now you can try to tear me down...beat me to the ground, I will see you screaming.

399592 Link to this entry
Written about Wednesday 2004-11-03
Written: (7328 days ago)

I know what died that night.
It can never be brought back to life once again,
I know, I know.

I know I died that night, and I'll never be brought back to life.
Once again, I know.

If you listen.
Listen close, beat-by-beat,
You can hear when the heart stops.
I saved the pieces when it broke and ground them all to dust.

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Written about Wednesday 2004-10-27
Written: (7335 days ago)

When this began I had nothing to say
And I'd get lost in the nothingness inside of me
I was confused
And I let it all out to find that
I'm not the only person with these things in mind
Inside of me
but all the vacancy the words revealed
Is the only real thing that I've got left to feel
Nothing to lose
Just stuck, hollow and alone
And the fault is my own
And the fault is my own

I want to heal, I want to feel
What I thought was never real
I want to let go of the pain I've held so long
Erase all the pain till it's gone
I want to heal, I want to feel
Like I'm close to something real.
I want to find something I've wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

And I've got nothing to say
I cant believe I didn’t fall right down on my face
I was confused
looking everywhere only to find that it's
Not the way I had imagined it all in my mind.
So what am I
What do I have but negativity
Cause I cant justify the way everyone is looking at me
Nothing to lose
Nothing to gain, hollow and alone
And the fault is my own
And the fault is my own

I want to heal, I want to feel
What I thought was never real
I want to let go of the pain I've held so long
Erase all the pain till it's gone
I want to heal, I want to feel
Like I'm close to something real
I want to find something I've wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

I will never know
Myself until I do this on my own
And I will never feel
Anything else until my wounds are healed
I will never be
Anything 'til I break away from me
And I will break away
I'll find myself today

I want to heal, I want to feel
What I thought was never real
I want to let go of the pain I've held so long
Erase all the pain till it's gone
I want to heal, I want to feel
Like I'm close to something real
I want to find something I've wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

I want to heal, I want to feel like
I'm somewhere I belong
I want to heal, I want to feel like
I'm somewhere I belong
Somewhere I belong

-Linkin Park, Somewhere I Belong-

388046 Link to this entry
Written about Saturday 2004-10-23
Written: (7339 days ago)

Take my hand, I'll be everything to you.
Take my hand, I'll take everything from you.
I will seep under your skin. I will.
I will hold onto your heart. I will.

What have you done?
What have you done?
What have you done?
What have you done?
DONE!

383280 Link to this entry
Written about Monday 2004-10-18
Written: (7344 days ago)

I wanna be pushed aside
So let me go
No turning back now
Let me take back my life
I'd rather be all alone
No turning back now
Anywhere on my own

383269 Link to this entry
Written about Sunday 2004-10-17
Written: (7344 days ago)

From the moment I met you, all those years ago, not a day has gone by that I haven't thought of you...and now that I'm with you, I'm in agony. The closer I get to you, the worse it gets.
The thought of not being with you.....I can't breathe.
I'm haunted by the kiss, you never should of given me. My heart is beating, hoping that kiss will not become a scar.
You are in my very soul, tormenting me.
What can I do? I will do anything you ask.
--Anakin Skywalker

381945 Link to this entry
Written about Saturday 2004-10-16
Written: (7346 days ago)

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Forgotten

Sitting within the midst of her life. Cloaked in a morose veil. Her face stained by her abiding tears. Her sullen eyes, tired and weary.
Watching her life shatter and fall around her, she turns her head, forcing back tears. She cannot shed another tear. Each one burns as is rolls down her pale cheeks.
Regaining her composure, she rises to her feet. Turning back to her shattered life, she whispers,
"Goodbye"
Her final words...so helpless, so faint.
Not to her surprise, no one hears her final farewell. A cool breeze blows and twists her long black hair, and in the next moment she is gone. Vanished into the darkness where she will stay.
No one will notice her absence, for no one truly noticed her being.
She is the the figure lurking in the shadows. She is a distant memory. She is forgotten.
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Drawn By: [DarkJenni]

381362 Link to this entry
Written about Friday 2004-10-15
Written: (7347 days ago)

Linkin Park, Hit The Floor

There were just too many
Times people have tried to look inside of me
Wondering what I think of you
And I protect you out of courtesy
Too many times that I've held on
When I needed to push away
Afraid to say what was on my mind
Afraid to say what I need to say
Too many things that you say about me when I’m not around
You think having the upper hand
Means you gotta keep putting me down
But I've had too many stand-offs with you
It's about as much as I can stand
So I’ll wait until the upper hand is mine

One minute you're on top
The next you're not, watch it drop
Making your heart stop
Just before you hit the floor
One minute you're on top
The next you're not, missed your shot
Making your heart stop
You think you've won
And then it's all gone

So many people like me that put so much trust in all your lies
So concerned of what you think
To just say what we feel inside
So many people like me walk on eggshells all day long
All I know is that all I want is to feel like I'm not stepped on
There are so many things you say that make me feel
You've cross the line
What goes up will surely fall, and I'm counting down the time
Cause I've had so many stand-offs with you
Its about as much as I can stand
So I'm waiting until the upper hand is mine

One minute you're on top
The next you're not, watch it drop
Making your heart stop
Just before you hit the floor
One minute you're on top
The next you're not, missed your shot
Making your heart stop
You think you've won

And then it's all gone
And then it’s all gone
And then it’s all gone
And then it’s all gone
Now it’s all gone

I know I'll never trust a single thing you say
You knew your lies would divide us but you lied anyway
And all the lies have got you floating up above us all
But what goes up is got to fall

One minute you're on top
The next you're not, watch it drop
Making your heart stop
Just before you hit the floor
One minute you're on top
The next you're not, missed your shot
Making your heart stop
You think you've won

And then it's all gone
And then it’s all gone
And then it’s all gone
And then it’s all gone
Now it’s all gone

402073 Link to this entry
Written about Tuesday 2004-10-12
Written: (7326 days ago)

Something isn't right
I can feel it again, feel it again
This isn't the first time
That you left me waiting
Sad excuses and false hopes high
I saw this coming still I don't know why
I let you in

I knew it all along
You're so predictable
I knew something would go wrong
Something's always wrong
So you don't have to call
Or say anything at all
So predictable

So take your empty words your broken promises
And all the time you stole cause I am done with this
I can give it away give it away
I'm doing everything I should've
And now I'm making a change
I'm living the day
I'm giving back what you gave me
I don't need anything

I knew it all along
You're so predictable
I knew something would go wrong
Something's always wrong
So you don't have to call
Or say anything at all
So predictable

Everywhere I go
Everyone I meet
Every time I try to fall in love
They all want to know why I'm so broken
Why am I so cold
Why I'm so hard inside
Why am I scared
What am I afraid of
I don't even know
This story's never had an end
I've been waiting
I've been searching
I've been hoping
I've been dreaming you would come back
But I know the ending of this story
You're never coming back
Never...never...never...never...

I knew it all along
You're so predictable
I knew something would go wrong
Something's always wrong
So you don't have to call
Or say anything at all
So predictable

Everywhere I go for the rest of my life
Everyone that I love
Everyone I care about
They're all gonna wanna know what's wrong with me
And I know what it is
I'm ending this right now...

377383 Link to this entry
Written about Monday 2004-10-11
Written: (7351 days ago)

Hold on a second...the "POSER BARBIE" is going to speak...

LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The "POSER BARBIE" is done speaking.

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