Warrenton.. is boring......

I know what i want to be but then last night my mom told me if i don't do something with computers then i'm wasting god given talent well you know what? i'm not as good with computers as she pretends i am i gave up on freakin flash! i want to be a listener like a psycologist.. but i don't want to have to like fix people i want them to fix themselves in front of me.. all's i want to do is listen to them tell me how they feel what they're like what they do.. i think teenagers just need someone to listen to them rather than trying to fix them and "help" them all the time.. i would also like to help them with like homework if they didn't want to talk one day or play games or just anything anything to help them

Okay people don't think I am prejudice after reading this.. I have nothing against black people.. definantly not mexicans or anything one of my best friends is mexican puerto rican lol... but we were at the pool yesterday and the pool was filled with black people it's not like I cared it's just a fact! But, we were over in one corner and these black kids were running and jumping in the pool.. two seperate lifeguards told them to stop running! They had to tell them like 9 times probably.. Then you look around and there is like 4 black couples making out! It's a family pool people! There's little children absolutely everywhere! It's rude NO PDA!!! haha Well, my mom taught in Charleston (like black people central) and all the black kids there were the ones that caused the most trouble.. They got into fights and all kinds of stuff.. They'd be singing in the middle of class and when they fight it's not like slow talking the go a mile a minute .. that's fine but not when my mom is teaching!! I'm glad Mom got away from there... But anyways how can some people not help but to be prejudice when this is the way they act?! If you don't want to be prejudiced then don't make yourself available for it.. Don't do totally uncalled for things when you aren't supposed to.. Oh yea and what happened to being called Caucasian on the state tests! I'm offended!

[If you REALLY LIKE SOMEONE right now AND MISS THEM and can't get them out of your head then re-post this within 1 mintute and whoever you are missing will surprise you..]

wooo doggies.. it's been like half a century since i've written in this thing.. well heres how my life goes

i am a stinkin failure.. no im jokin i just typed the first thing that came into my throbbing brain..

well im still in band i play tenor now and on february like 2nd mom bought me my own!! it's a conn and plays very nicely.. well mmm my grades are doin dandy friday was the last day of 3rd quarter dang time flies! well like sometime in may.. like the 24th is our graduation .. it's a big deal at this school i have to wear a dress and stuff and i'll kill myself before that day comes i promise.. not really.. im not too worried.. but i'm having a floor length dress and i WILL wear black and white converse under it i don't care what mom wants me to wear.. well the dress is black and white.. everyone is going tanning and getting manicures and their makeup and hair done and stuff and im like screw it who cares?? ill have danielle do my makeup and mom do my hair and i might go tanning considering im as white as white out.. so yea..

well let's seeee i might be moving next year again.. it'll suck so bad.. mom says she can't handle teaching at charleston anymore and stuff like that.. there's this job in warrenton (where all of my mom's relatives live) and it's teaching she says if she doesn't get that job then she's not teaching there's 3 jobs at SEMO.. i hope she gets those sooo bad.. i don't want to move.. i can't take that.. i (believe it or not) want to go to notre dame.. i want that freakin education.. it's like top notch and i have always dreamed of going there..

well like last tuesday the 14th we had semo science fair and i was the only one to go from my school.. which was okay since i got to go with the charleston kids.. well i met james naile.. i had graded his papers before and stuff, he has NICE handwriting.. but he's so nice and funny.. ethan browning.. or e bo..is so obnoxious and funny. hunter dugan.. or david dugan (his real name).. is really really nice and says some funny things.. ben rockett.. is just ben he's pretty nice and funny but is a little conceeded.. his mom died a year ago from breast cancer.. i feel bad for him.. i've known him a while though.. and there's madeline i can't remember her last name.. she's nice.. i hung out with her a lot.. there were like 17 of them or so but those are the ones i liked lol!! i'll put a picture of them on here.. well



top row goes:
nick, hunter, ben, james, ethan, and 4 other kids.. whatever there names are, lol
bottom row goes:
my mom, 2 black girls, some stuck up girl emily hill i think, madeline, lenzi oconnor, brandi ketchum, some weird girl, and sylvia roach..

that's the ctown kids!! lol


that's pretty much how my life is going. im pretty happy i have some good friends.. well im gonna get out of here

OMG.. (oh my goodness)(i go to catholic school now!)

My grades are failing me.. not really.. well i have a D in social studies.. i've never really been to dandy at social studies but never a D... I keep telling mom that this school is harder and she says "HA! you're an a-b student blah blah blah..." I keep telling her it's harder and she just says that I need to study now and i didn't need to at ste. gen. I said "Sounds like it's harder then isn't it if I now need to study and I didn't before??" I think she got it after that...

I really hate being rude to my mom.. It makes me feel hurt on the inside.. I know she hurts more than I do when I am rude though.. but I feel like sometimes it's the only way to get stuff through to her.. I wish there were other ways.. I wish her job wasn't so rough on her.. I wish her college stuff wasn't so hard on her.. I wish everything was different.. I wish we had more money sometimes.. so we could buy a house.. and a new car.. It's not like we have absolutely nothing like some families but life is tough sometimes.. it's hard to get out of bed a lot..

i was bored and i found this weird ass little question thingy...yeah fill it out if you wanna


What Would You Do If:



I said I liked u



I lived next door to u



I started smoking/ drinking



I stole something



I was hospitalized



I ran away from home



I got into a fight and u weren’t there





What Do You Think About My:



Personality



Eyes



Hair



Body (lets not answer this one PLEASE)





Would You:



Be my friend



Keep a secret if I told u one



Hold my hand



Take a bullet for me



Keep in touch



Try and solve my problems



Love me



Go out with me





Have You Ever:



Lied to make me feel better



Wanted to kiss me



Wanted to have sex with me (dont answer that!)



Kept something important from me



Thought I was unbearably annoying





And more:



Are we friends



When and how did we meet



Describe me in one word



What was your first impression



Do u still think that way about me now



What reminds you of me



If u could give me anything what would it be



How well do u know me



When is the last time u seen me



Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn’t



R u gonna put this on urs to see what I say about u



Have you ever liked me and do u still

There is this kid in my class that I like. He is so funny and nice to me. He isn't hot or anything weird. But, I like him so much and I don't know why. I'm afraid to ask him out because I like him so much I'm afraid he would say no and we wouldn't talk anymore.

What should I stinking do?!

I'm smart...sounds stuck up but I am... I'm on the math team, I got second in the school spelling bee, and I got 1st in the Science Fair... I just am... But recently I have been having trouble with all my classes, I just forget about the assignments and end doing a half ass job on them in band... I think well it's one assignment, I can bring it up with another one... but here I am with a D+ in language since midterm... I cried the whole hour.. I have never had a D I couldn't bring up to a B+ by the end of the quarter...... I can't go to my sister's 16 birthday party on friday and I am so depressed........ I hate not having good grades, it used to come so easy to me like last semester.... my teacher started grading me different all of a sudden.. I do the same thing on all his essays and he just now started giving me 10/20 on them.. I used to have a B in his class now i have a D this sucks

I love to shop, I could go shopping for toilet paper and have a ton of fun. I went to the mall yesterday and I got shoes(Adio), a hoodie, pants, and a new purse. I got smaller items as in like a book and junk but they don't matter. This is actually a pointless diary entry but I am bored so. yea.

 Beginning of the school year was fun until you get the swing of things and realize that it's for the next 175 days.
My classes are soooooo boring except Band (I play sax). My lip is the slightest bit swollen from biting my mouth piece to hard. Oopsies!Oh well. I guess.

 I hate having my mom as a teacher. Everyone expects you to either get answers on homework or get out of trouble. And it's nothing like that. ALL my teachers go hard on me, expecting me to do the best because who knows why. I hate teachers who pressure you into getting your homework done and getting A's. We want that just as much as you.

 I wish there was no such thing as celebritys. Everyone is always striving to be just like them, why not be yourself? That's the best thing to be in life.

Have you ever thought that you plainly just think way to much? I am constantly worrying about my future, I don't want to be anything less than my best. Everything that I used to be I hate. My life is constantly getting better but, what if it all stops and I go back to being like I was when I was little living in an apartment and Mom having 2 jobs? Mom won't do anything like get a cell phone or anything nowadays and she's constantly making me clean things that I didn't mess up. I'm always doing something and I don't have time to do anything like play games or anything I stay up alll night and read, it bores me to death the way she talks on and on to peolple and doesn't even give them a chance to talk! I wish I could go forward in time and see what I'm going to be. So I can stop worrying or try harder.