Im All Alone on a Saturday
Waiting for you to come my way
But I wait for you most of the Day

I Give Up Now
No longer will I hear your lame damn excuse
And I need to be cut loose.

See ya later
I wont look for you
See ya Later
I wont Wait for you

Im doing this from memory so it doesnt make sense
just this yet....I wrote it!!!!!!!

Summers Kite.
Im night
that unleashes a wolfs feverish bite
You see Im different
Im Not like you
I can never be completly untrue
Im lured to the moon that rests apon the lake
Though it shimmers and shines it will never truely take to the finest light
for upon it, it might break*

7,6,5,4,
3
This is what you do
To Me
Never at a lost for time
always circiling in my mind
Never have time to myself
because your always near
In my mind and in my soul
I stand apart\
through young and old

thoughts and words
dont make sense
It may seem as if im dense
Of course to some degree
But guess what?
That isnt me

No.. I like it
Im just surprised
REALLY surprised
Being the fact that Luv isnt the same as LOVE
and you said that you LOVE me. Not LUV
so..Yea... I have strong feelings for you
But I havent been able to straighten much out..One of the reasons I got pissed at work is that everyone kept peeps coming to me so I can help them and my mind was occupied with you and what you told me. I mean, I know that waiting on peeps is my job but there was a line of peeps waiting for me to help them. i can only help one person at a time and my mind jkept wondering back to you..
It was stressful
Plus Whenever I was thinking about you i still cant sort anything else. I know that i dont love you as much as Kris
I just want myself to forget about him! Because he is such an asshole!!!!!!
But Either way, he makes me cry. Inside and out. He makes me cry because i hate him and love him at the same time and its so fucking stressful and then theres my feelings for you. I Really, really like you. So much that im wearing an aries around my neck..
So, give me a comment about that. and I will finish my conclusion, ok?

Wish

go away and leave me on my own
so you can feel better
and I will feel lost and alone

Its just what you want
so you got your wish
dont waste your last two
Because its all about you

You lost me in your mind
forget it
Im out of time
I will never understand
so just tell me

Dont waste your last two
Do what you want to Do

Suffer in confusion?
Already Done
Look at me.
Are you Having Fun?

Only One more wish
Please make it good
PLease set me free
I wish that you would

What do you wish of me?
What can i do?
Is it all the pain you've caused
Undo?

Im afraid I was wrong
I cant be strong
so you tear down my walls
watch me, lurking in the halls..

Your WIsh!!! is My Command!!!
Your Want!!!! it Demands!!!

Your third and final
Finishes me
Turns me
Senial

You Leave me here
always to remember
Never to forget
A part of my that you Kept!

Dont Tell Me you Love Me
Cause Lieing Wont get you Anywhere
Not With Me
so forget it
And Leave Me Be
I wont Listen to what you say
Not Now
Not ever
Just go Away Forever!

Okay, i have been working on this for a while. I keep getting distracted... One day I shall finish it
.... I hope ..

At MoonBreak,
I'll Make Your Heart Ache

okay. Im going to tell you. What Happened. EWveryone seems towant to know. and Its starting to become a hassle writing it down so much. Plus it makes me relive it someho. It brings me down a couple notches because i still love him. I feel that me and him are still meant to be. Its fading...Slowly but sh=urely..Fading..
But ya wanna know who fucked me up? You wanna Know who waas the one guy I loved/Love? The One guy that can rip my life apart like no other guy has done? Oh. And the Guy who all those poems/songs are about..HIM..His Name Is Kris..:
He changed. When he propsed to me he asked me to wait for him because he was leaving to North dakota for a while. But Iwas going to come up there or he was going to come back. I waited for 3-4 months and then he told me he was coming back down and he couldnt wait to see me. that he had a surprise for me and it turned out he was the surprise. Then a week after he told me that I told him the truth. That I was afraid to love him to his face. I told him everythng that i hafd been hiding. That Night was the first time i went on webcam with him since he was outh there. and then next night.. He broke up with me. He told me that he met someone else...and that she told him to tell me that night. so he did. The relationship obviously didnt work out but ...yea..I still love him. I asked him why did I go on webcam if he was going to break up with me. ADn he told me" a last time thing"

ok. Last night I was told "you however...draw the line between hot and...seraphic...(i know you don't like big words but that means you have an angelic, other-wordly glow about you that just screams of a perfect beauty...)"
Do you know how much that made me smile?!?!?!
Even if he was making it up(not sure if he was) but dang!!!!!!!! I could used to talking to him!!!!!
He's so sweet.. And have NO Idea why!
Last night if you looked in on me, you would see my face red as an apple! or a cherry!
But Iw as smiling and laughing so beasically last night was definatly great. I got new shoes(pink and black sketchers), saw the movie I, Robot-Kickin Tush movie!) got chinese_Yummzza) and talked to the sweetest and pretty damn hot guy if I do say my self! Wissh great guys lived somewhere near me.. Oh! And He also gave me his number..he's livin in cali at the moment(like me!)

Feel the water
Wash over me
Sinkin in the bliss
Forget everything
i wont be that missed

So as I sink
I slowly think
Goodbye to life
Goodbye to strife

Dancing On the Edge
of a cliff
Saying goodbye to all
I've wished
This Is Goodbye
Please Dont Cry
Because You shouldnt care anymore
Because I dont care anymore..
No One Cares Anymore

You wont miss me!
So I wont say bye
And You wont cry

This has never happened
Life is .......


Over!

IM MAKING A DREAM DIARY ON THE INTERNET..
I HAVE ONE IN MY ROOM AND SINCE IM NOT IN MY ROOM AND I WONT BE THERE UNTIL THE 26TH..AT NIGHT, IM MAKING ONE NOW..
(I HAVE BEEN KEEPING ONE SINCE I WAS LIL, I KN OW IM A DORK, SHUT UP!

jULY 19tH---
lAST nIGHT i HAD A DREAM THAT i WAS bIT bY A vAMPIRE AND i WAS FOREVER sEARCHING FOR THE LEAD SINGER FROM oRgY TO TURN HIM INTO A VAMPIRE AND FUCK HIM..
wEIRD ASS DREAM OR WHAT??

jULY 20tH--
soMEtHING TO DO WITH aNGEL..aND aLSO MY PROM.. nICK WAS THE bUS dRIVER(i TOOK a sCHOOL bUS TO mY pROM! AND i WAS DRESSED IN NORMAL CLOTHES! nOT a dRESS!) i MADE nICK cRASH thE bUS BECAUSE MY pURSE WAS oN A sUITCASE ROlLING UP TO MY hIGHSCHOOL. tHEN i dITCHED niCK. nICK WASNT My DATE.. i dONT THINK i HAD a DATE... pLUS i NEEDED MY pURSE tO gET IN THE pROM BECAUSE iT HAD MY dRIVERS LISCESCE nUMBER IN IT..(fOR SOME REASON i NeEDED MY DRIVERS LISCENSE NUMBER TO GET INTO PROm, dONT ASK, i dONT kNOW)

jULY 21sT

mY DREAM LAST nIGHT WAS sOOOoo WEIRD!
vERY mUCh!! i HAD thAT tHE mUSIC vIDEO "SATISFACTION" hAD a bUNCH oF gUYS mAKING eRMM...fUCK THIS.. iM nOT sAYNG THAT SHIT hERE! iWILL sAYI IT IN MY dREAM dIARY aT mY HOUSE.. iT WAS A bIT tOO fUnKY fOR mE tO sTATE iT oN hERE...
i wILL SAY tHAT tHERE wERE lOTS OF gUYS iN IT anD thEY ALL WAnTED mE to DO something.. if yA CATCH ME dRIFT.. it wAS THe wEIDEST dREAMi hAVE hAD iN a lONG tiME..oH! anD tHEY WANTED ME TO LOOK AT tHEIR dICKS!
bTU i DONT tHINKi DID...wELL, i sAWaN x-rAY oF oNE.. oR tWO..BUT THATS aLL iM sAYING..
i thINK iTS SAFE TO sAY tHAT i MISS sEX..OOPS! i WAS wRONG...iTS thE tIME Of THE mONTH! tHAT tiS wHY!

july23-\I dreamed the cloudmonkey, aka-storm was hugely pissed at me for suggesting he go to the mall and smell curve or coolwater so he wrote me this hateful letter explaining to me how he was only allowed one trip to anywhere and he was using it on me and i had to he happy. and all the while i was reading the letter, I could see his face twisting with anger...
It was odd to say the least. Oh and he was scary when angry-at least in my dream)

IM MAKING A DREAM DIARY ON THE INTERNET..
I HAVE ONE IN MY ROOM AND SINCE IM NOT IN MY ROOM AND I WONT BE THERE UNTIL THE 26TH..AT NIGHT, IM MAKING ONE NOW..
(I HAVE BEEN KEEPING ONE SINCE I WAS LIL, I KN OW IM A DORK, SHUT UP!

IM MAKING A DREAM DIARY ON THE INTERNET..
I HAVE ONE IN MY ROOM AND SINCE IM NOT IN MY ROOM AND I WONT BE THERE UNTIL THE 26TH..AT NIGHT, IM MAKING ONE NOW..
(I HAVE BEEN KEEPING ONE SINCE I WAS LIL, I KN OW IM A DORK, SHUT UP!

IM MAKING A DREAM DIARY ON THE INTERNET..
I HAVE ONE IN MY ROOM AND SINCE IM NOT IN MY ROOM AND I WONT BE THERE UNTIL THE 26TH..AT NIGHT, IM MAKING ONE NOW..
(I HAVE BEEN KEEPING ONE SINCE I WAS LIL, I KN OW IM A DORK, SHUT UP!

IM MAKING A DREAM DIARY ON THE INTERNET..
I HAVE ONE IN MY ROOM AND SINCE IM NOT IN MY ROOM AND I WONT BE THERE UNTIL THE 26TH..AT NIGHT, IM MAKING ONE NOW..
(I HAVE BEEN KEEPING ONE SINCE I WAS LIL, I KN OW IM A DORK, SHUT UP!

IM MAKING A DREAM DIARY ON THE INTERNET..
I HAVE ONE IN MY ROOM AND SINCE IM NOT IN MY ROOM AND I WONT BE THERE UNTIL THE 26TH..AT NIGHT, IM MAKING ONE NOW..
(I HAVE BEEN KEEPING ONE SINCE I WAS LIL, I KN OW IM A DORK, SHUT UP!

IM MAKING A DREAM DIARY ON THE INTERNET..
I HAVE ONE IN MY ROOM AND SINCE IM NOT IN MY ROOM AND I WONT BE THERE UNTIL THE 26TH..AT NIGHT, IM MAKING ONE NOW..
(I HAVE BEEN KEEPING ONE SINCE I WAS LIL, I KN OW IM A DORK, SHUT UP!

IM MAKING A DREAM DIARY ON THE INTERNET..
I HAVE ONE IN MY ROOM AND SINCE IM NOT IN MY ROOM AND I WONT BE THERE UNTIL THE 26TH..AT NIGHT, IM MAKING ONE NOW..
(I HAVE BEEN KEEPING ONE SINCE I WAS LIL, I KN OW IM A DORK, SHUT UP!

Memories
Feelings
All Begin To Fade

Thoughts
Discussions
Debts Never to Be Repaid

(In the working..)

My Life



My lifes a bitch

it seems like hell

everyone has me convinced

i have to do well




my lifes a bitch

i wish i'd die

i try to hide it

i try to lie




everyones telling me

i'll be just fine

but at the end

the blade will be mine




my lifes a bitch

from the people im around

expecially my fucked up family

who thinks im the clown




my lifes a bitch

i know for a fact

that your the only person

that keeps my life in track




KLK