I see you watching me from far away
I see the words you wish to say
You keep me at a distance So the regection wont hurt
Staring straight
Nothings wrong
But tears will fall
Time passes
You cant see
The art of me
The Voices Blur
sounds drift
please tell me what you think, okay?
I told him I would call him and I didnt, so when I came home I went straight to bed(11pm) . then he told me that at 1am he parked at the end of my driveway and checked to see if my car was there and then went to the back of my house and looksed in my window to see if i was there..
Then earlier today, He asked if I wanted him to follow me there still cause my stepdad yelled at me. I said, whatever and he said he'd go home. But I had to wait for my sister at her apt. in my car.. then he drove up there and said he got worried.
I cant do anything by myself! He's always around. If im not, he whines!! give me a break!!
Sometimes I just wonder if you thought I'd cry..
Wonder if you knew it hurt when you said goodbye.
I guess you didnt care
Felt you had no feelings to spare..
Im through with those feelings you gave
I laugh for I know your image has begun to fade.
So glad Im not with you
Thank you for what you put me through
I would have never knew and married you
You Say You Love Me
You Say You Hate Me
I say, You'll Do It again
Over And Over
Lets See How Time Bends
Let me be loved
let me be held
Only By you
Your all I see
You have never left me
Everyone has thought you left
Cause I tell them you have
But:
Your on my desk.
Im on your bed
Hand cuffs chained to the bed
Laughter fills my head
sighs and moans
Louder you groan
I smile at your smirk
and Im back in my room alone
staring at my desk
thinking of our best..
Tears slide down my cheeks
Your touch I will forever seek
Rattle your hips and open your eyes
for I only speak in riddles and lies
You want the truth, Here I shall be
I dont care about you, You see?
The things you want and how you feel.
All and All, cant be real..
I am what you dont see
And I am what you want to be...
Honest and True
You think, Therefore you Lose
Assume I speak in riddles
Assume I speak in lies
Think whatever
For I wont cry
Just randomly notice most of my friends on here are guys..
Most friends in real life are girls..
Randomness.. HA!
Im crying and shaking
Im wishing and taking
all your emotions
and living them
Screaming
Crying
Filling my eyes with tears
that you gave to me
I need to get away
Leave here
I wish not to stay
Take me with you...
Fuck you all
For I dont Give a Fuck
Doesnt care at all
Just like my luck
All who Love me
I push away
All I want
wishes me not to stay
So I give up on you
I give up on everything I wish to do
...to you
I guess
I'd better to forget
We've never even met
yet, i feel something for you
Why Must I feel how i do?
So Goodbye to our talks
are never existing walks
Goodbye to my thoughts
Melt like fire
Freeze with desire
I want you more than I can tell
Needless to say
flames burning in hell
Im Kind of sweet like a flower
But Inside
I am a coward
A prick of a needle
and I will Bleed
you will hear
my suffering needs
(cant find the paper I wrote it on, theres more to come)
Fuck Me
Fuck You
Fuck Your Lies
They Arnt True
The Things You Told Me
Once Before
I Learned Wernt True
But I Also Learned
That I dont Need You
I May Think About You
Time and Time Again
But Never Again Will I
Want to be with you
So Fuck All Your Games
Fuck What You Said
Fuck Everything About You
No Longer will I Remember
Your Sweet Comfy Bed
(still in the making)
Can I Dream?!
Can I Fly?!
Can You Hold me Tight
And Never Let Go!
Oh please dont go...
...Away.
Because I need you here
Just to be Held
Dont Say A word
It would ruin it all
Just so I can let
the tears fall...
...Away..
Take No Offence
Its Not You
Its Me
You & Me
Just Cant Be
But Please Hold Me
My Vision is Lost
Only But a Blur
I dont need to see
What will occur
...Boredom awaits if I lower myself to thinking thoughts of the mindless lost souls that plague the earth like a disease..
No Matter what happens the fear of my mind haunts forever in the useless pool of memory. The cravings for support and freedom eat through me and swallows me whole. Theres no use trying to escape it. Time carries through like it will never end. For every person who dies, another person will live. And for every person who lives, another wishes not to. And While another wishes not to, Another Dies. THe Never Ending cycle of time. And all throughout the cycle, Time spreads. But never ends, For every Minute, a second passes by.
No One will ever wait, learn or understand why. It just is. We All who walk the earth must learn to deal with it. If not to deal, Then to forget it ever existed.
--Moon*Break, AKA- Jessica
Look in the fire
Tell me what you see
because I see the dark
and I feel the cold
No longer will do as told
I'll freeze the flame
with just one breath
I'll break your heart
with just one glance
Cause thats all you'll get from me
Doesnt matter what you feel
Nor what you see.
Because all of you
means nothing to me
Lost in the Darkness
Cant see a thing
Blinded by its Night
Grope for the Light
Stumble, Crawl and Stand
Desperate to feel the land
All Hope escapes me as you turn and walk away
Knowing, understanding That you'll no longer stay.