[Khwaish]'s diary
At a recent conference in Oxford, an extraordinary man
by the name of David Hawkins was one of the speakers.
This small frail -looking man in his seventies was
an absolute inspiration. His voice, deep strong and booming,
seemed totally out of place with his frail stature.
But it was clear to see, it was his strong spirit he
identified with. He was not his body, in fact he was hardly conscious
of it.
As a child he was caught in a snow drift and was floating above his body, ready to
leave, when the rescue team found him. He watched, as his father was beside himself because his son had stopped breathing. David did not want to see his father so upset so he decided for his father's sake, he would breath life back into his body.
He himself was really not that fussed, he was quite content to move on.This lack
of the fear of death has given this man a quiet confidence and knowing that everything is all alright with the world, it really is all to purpose. He has no doubts! He seems to be much more aware of the bigger picture than the rest of us.
The centrepins for a strong sense of spirituality
1. Is knowing that we are just energy, and energy cannot be destroyed, it only changes form. We don't die, we change form.
2. That everything is unfolding as it should. It might not be the way we want it to be, but it is unfolding the way it needs for our growing.
There are books out there that have been written about people and their
out of body experiences and you can get a flavour, but to be in the energy of someone
who has had an near death experience is a whole new ball game.
The total lack of fear was almost tangible.
The no doubt was heart warming and awesome, an experience that will stay with me
for a very long time.
David Hawkins has written three books
"Power vs Force". "The Eye". "I"
This was the subject of his lecture. I was so caught up with the energy of this remarkable man, and I'd be hard pressed to recall all the details of his lecture.
I have a problem i can't explain. I like the reason why i should be so confused. I have no reason why it shoud've been so plain. No questions, no excuse. I know..no. I don't know how i feel when i'm around you. I left a message but it's not even a small bit of use. Today you saw me and I saw you. We acted like complete strangers. Am i what i was anymore? Or am i merely a stranger. "leave me alone" you said. Fine.
I know..maybe i don't know, (leave me in my confusion..) how i feel when i'm around you.
Written about Friday 2003-11-21
Written: (7672 days ago)
DOB: 16/12/87
Name: Prem Kaur Neote
Nicknames: Chicken Boy, Moth girl, Repunzel, Pocahontas, Premmy, Pree-am, Pram, Prem-ature, Preamp..
Favourite,
Food: uh...pizza
Drink: uh...water?
Animal: i love all animals!
Season: all are special...:)
Constellation: Sagitarius..
Movie: ohh so many. Moulin Rouge, LOTR, Matrix, Bridget Jones' diary...
Song: too many to write down...
Brand name: brands are something i don't give a damn about.
Choose:
Blood or alcohol: i dunno..
Night or day: Night.
Sex or drugs: sex!
City or island: depends who i'm with....
Black or white: Both are cool
Rose or Lilly: both!
Jade or Diamond: both!!!
Many or few: Few.
Wealth or happiness: Happinesss
Want kids: Yes.
Want to get married: Yes.
Feel sorry for people: yeahh
Feel sorry for animals: of course!
Like attention: At times
Like people: Few
Like crowds: Not really...
Like parties: depends what kind of people are attending...
Like malls: If they got my kinda shops...yeah. :P
Are you:
Antisocial: At times.
Sociopathic: sorta....
Crazy: Yes
Perverted: pretty much.
Heterosexual: Yup.
Homosexual: Nope.
Bisexual: No.
Gloraphobic: Not really
Arachnophobia: Spiders are my friends
Homophobic: No.
An insomniac: wasn't..but i've become one in the past few months...*yawn
COCAINE GIRL - Nirvana
Looking for a new kinda lover
another girl made a brother
someone who can make me feel how i wanna feel
and tell me all the things that i wanna hear
and makes me loose control and makes me go insane
i want a girl, it's just cocaine
cocaine, cocaine
screwed up (screw her) everytime she needs to pee
in the blue reality
i just wanted to make me feel how i wanna feel
and tell me all the things that i wanna hear
and makes me loose control and makes go insane
i want a girl, it's just cocaine
cocaine, cocaine
and now i (want some)watched her, a wlulhuhu-wuhuh
jeah and i feel like the mud
cuz that girl who can make me feel how i wanna feel
and tell me all the things that i wanna hear
and makes me loose control and makes me go insane
jeah that girl, it's just cocaine
she left me for a snowman
say byeeeeee
Rage Against The Machine
Rage Against the Machine (1992)
Settle For Nothing
A jail cell is freedom from the pain in my home
Hatred passed on, passed on and passed on
A world of violent rage
But it's one that I can recognise
Having never seen the colour of my father's eyes
Yes, I dwell in hell, but it's a hell that I can grip
I tried to grip my family
But I slipped
To escape from the pain in an existence mundane
I gotta 9, a sign, a set and now I gotta name
Read my writing on the wall
No-one's here to catch me when I fall
Death is on my side....suicid
A jail cell is freedom from the pain in my home
Hatred passed on, passed on and passed on
A world of violent rage
But it's one that I can recognise
Having never seen the colour of my father's eyes
Yes, I dwell in hell, but it's a hell that I can grip
I tried to grip my family
But I slipped
To escape from the pain in an existence mundane
I gotta 9, a sign, a set and now I gotta name
Read my writing on the wall
No-one's here to catch me when I fall
Caught between my culture and the system....geno
Read my writing on the wall
No-one's here to catch me when I fall
If ignorance is bliss, then knock the smile off my face
Yeah!
If we don't take action now
We settle for nothing later
Settle for nothing now
And we'll settle for nothing later
If we don't take action now
We settle for nothing later
We'll settle for nothing now
And we'll settle for nothing later
If we don't take action now
We'll settle for nothing later
We settle for nothing now
And we'll settle for nothing later
If we don't take action now
We settle for nothing later
We'll settle for nothing now
And we'll settle for nothing later
proper entry....
life's boring...
must read...
must draw...
must breathe...
graaa...
PóG MO THóN!!! mUWAHAHAHAHAHA
proper entry my ass...
Awwww!
Who can resist a cute anime girl? No-one, not even women! You're adorable, innocent, and sweet. You are constantly trying to help others, and you tend to be fairly shy. Stay happy and you'll be fine.
they're making me do it...
Disorder | Rating
Paranoid: Low
Schizoid: Low
Schizotypal: Low
Antisocial: Low
Borderline: Moderate
Histrionic: Low
Narcissistic: Low
Avoidant: Low
Dependent: Moderate
Obsessive-Comp
URL of the test: http://www.4de
URL for more info: http://www.4de
I drew this on those notes you pass in class. Note between me and [chowburger]. I was hyper and i drew a (bad) samurai jack...and talking about how he runs around naked in a few episodes. *points* LOOK! A NAKED MAN! ARREST HIM!!! *falls over laughing* i'm easily amused...
Back up again. This is for [WingsOfTheOsiris] because he wants to see me smiling. *sigh* lol. i look drugged. :P
another picture! yayy. Me and a few of my friends. Sarah, Jessica, Jade, emily [chowburger], Luke [particle boy], eoin [-Wraith-] and me. hey, i'm not forcing a smile this time! it's natural! woot!
[Aeria] is far too attatched to this picture...i feel so guilty putting it baack up again. lol. Me as a kid.
Product of a period of slight Boredom.
I'm ambitious to make this in Craft Metalwork...:)
hehee reeaallly funny. :p
25 REASONS WHY CHOCOLATE
IS BETTER THAN A MAN!
Chocolate is rich, dark and satisfying
You're never disappointed when you open the wrapper
Chocolate doesn't care how many pieces you've eaten before
Chocolate always hits the spot
Chocolate doesn't secretly want to be eaten by your best friend
Chocolate doesn't think the shopping channel is stupid
Chocolate always smells good
Chocolates won't ask "Am I the best?" or "How was it?"
It doesn't sulk if you don't want it first thing in the morning
Chocolates are easy to pick up
Chocolate satisfies even when it has gone soft
You can suck a piece of chocolate even in front of your mother
Chocolate never leaves a bad taste in your mouth
You don't mind the brown stains left by chocolate
With chocolate, size doesn't really matter, it's always good
Chocolates do not wear white socks
Chocolate doesn't mind when you bite it's nuts
With chocolates, you don't have to be a virgin more than once
"If you love me, you'll swallow that" has real meaning with chocolate
You can have more than one chocolate a night without ruining your reputation
Chocolate doesn't just think it's smooth
Chocolates aren't into rape or leather
You can tell just by looking at it, that it hasn't been in anyone else's mouth!
This is Derek trying to be sophisticated. Good job. :p
You can't see my face! ahaha!
i'm in the middle. then there's [chowburger], [surferpilgrim], [-Wraith-] and [particle boy]. Derek is somewhere i think..or not.
Written about Monday 2003-09-22
Written: (7732 days ago)
Holocaust
Your eyes are almost dead
Can't get out of bed
And you can't sleep
You're sitting down to dress
And you're a mess
You look in the mirror
You look in your eyes
Then you realize
Everybody goes
Leaving those
Who fall behind
Everybody goes
As far as they can
They don't just care
They stood on the stairs
Laughing at your errors
Your mother's dead
She said, "Don't be afraid."
Your mother's dead
You're on your own
She's in her bed
Everybody goes
Leaving those
Who fall behind
Everybody goes
As far as they can
They don't just care
You're a wasted face
You're a sad-eyed lie
You're a holocaust
know
I know, you love the song but not the singer,
I know, you've got me wrapped around your finger,
I know, you want the sin without the sinner,
I know, I know.
I know, the past will catch you up as you run faster,
I know, the last in line is always called a bastard,
I know, the past will catch you up as you run faster,
I know, I know.
I know, you cut me loose from contradiction,
I know, I'm all wrapped up in sweet attrition,
I know, It's asking for your benediction,
I know, I know.
I know, the past will catch you up as you run faster,
I know, the last in line is always called a bastard,
I know, the past will catch you up as you run faster,
I know, I know.
I know, the past will catch you up as you run faster,
I know, the last in line is always called a bastard,
I know, the past will catch you up as you run faster,
I know, I know.
Nancy boy
Alcoholic kind of mood,
Lose my clothes,
Lose my lube,
Cruising for a piece of fun,
Looking out for number one,
Different partner every night,
So narcotic outta sight,
What a gas,
What a beautiful ass !
And it all breaks down at the role reversal,
Got the muse in my head she's universal,
Spinnin' me round she's coming over me,
And it all breaks down at the first rehearsal,
Got the muse in my head she's universal,
Spinnin' me round she's coming over me.
Kind of buzz that lasts for days,
Had some help from insect ways,
Comes across all shy and coy,
Just another nancy boy,
Woman man or modern monkey,
Just another happy junkie,
Fifty pounds,
Press my button,
Going down.
And it all breaks down at the role reversal,
Got the muse in my head she's universal,
Spinnin' me round she's coming over me,
And it all breaks down at the first rehearsal,
Got the muse in my head she's universal,
Spinnin' me round she's coming over me.
Does his makeup in his room
Douse himself with cheap perfume
Eyeholes in a paper bag
Greatest lay i ever had
Kind of guy who mates for life
Gotta help him find a wife
We're a couple
When our bodies double
And it all breaks down at the role reversal,
Got the muse in my head she's universal,
Spinnin' me round she's coming over me,
And it all breaks down at the first rehearsal,
Got the muse in my head she's universal,
Spinnin' me round she's coming over me.
And it all breaks down at the role reversal,
Got the muse in my head she's universal,
Spinnin' me round she's coming over me,
And it all breaks down at the first rehearsal,
Got the muse in my head she's universal,
Spinnin' me round she's coming over me.
Every me every you
Sucker love is heaven sent
You pucker up, our passion's spent
My hearts a tart, your body's rent
My body's broken, yours is spent
Carve your name into my arm
Instead of stressed, I lie here charmed
'Cause there's nothing else to do
Every me and every you
Sucker love, a box I choose
No other box I choose to use
Another love I would abuse
No circumstances could excuse
In the shape of things to come.
Too much poison come undone
'Cause there's nothing else to do
Every me and every you
Every me and every you
Every me, me
Sucker love is known to swing
Prone to cling and waste these things
Pucker up for heavens sake
There's never been so much at stake
I serve my head up on a plate
It's only comfort, calling late
'Cause there's nothing else to do
Every me and every you
Every me and every you
Every me, me
Every me and every you,
Every me, me
Like the naked leads the blind
I know I'm selfish, I'm unkind
Sucker love I always find
Someone to bruise and leave behind
All alone in space and time
There's nothing here but what here's mine
Something borrowed, something blue
Every me and every you
Every me and every you
Every me, me
Every me and every you
Every me, me
(x4)
To Bombay
A travelling circus came
They brought an intelegent elephant
and Nellie was her name
One dark night
she slipt her iron chain, and of she ran
to Hindustan and was never seen again
oooooooooooooo
Nellie the elephant pack her trunk and
said goodbye to the circus
of she road with a trumety trump
trump trump trump
Nellie the elephant packed her trunk
and trumbled of to the jungle
of she road with a thrumety trump
trump trump trump
Night by night she danced to the circus band
When Nellie was leading the big parade she looked
so proud and grand
No more tricks for Nellie to performe
They taught her how to take a bow and she tooked
to crowd by storm
oooooooooooooo
Nellie the elephant pack her trunk and
said goodbye to the circus
of she road with a trumety trump
trump trump trump
Nellie the elephant packed her trunk
and trumbled of to the jungle
of she road with a thrumety trump
trump trump trump
The head of the heard was calling far far away
they meet one night in silver light
on the road to Mandaley
oooooooooooooo
Nellie the elephant pack her trunk and
said goodbye to the circus
of she road with a trumety trump
trump trump trump
Nellie the elephant packed her trunk
and trumbled of to the jungle
of she road with a thrumety trump
trump trump trump