[Khwaish]'s diary

49937  Link to this entry 
Written about Saturday 2003-07-26
Written: (7645 days ago)

Love me, consent to me, declare yourself, refuse;
whatever punishment you wish to give me, it's a pleasure to surrender my heart to you.
Love me, consent to me, declare yourself, refuse;
whatever punishment you wish to give me, it's a pleasure to surrender my heart to you.
It's a pleasure to give my heart to you.
Love me, consent to me, declare yourself, refuse;
whatever punishment you wish to give me, it's a pleasure to surrender my heart to you.
It's a pleasure to give my heart to you.
When it seems that some heart is dearer than life,
it's not acceptable for him to spurn you.
Love compels you; this is the heart's trade, my friend...
This game of hearts is strange, friend; sometimes, even in victory there is defeat.
Whether victory or defeat, barrier or breakthrough,
whatever punishment you wish to give me, it's a pleasure to surrender my heart to you.
I've started to believe; I've fallen in love.
It's the first time I've considered someone as my own.
I must have her now, the one my heart has longed for.
Who is won and who is lost? Who can know anyone's fortune?
Whatever destiny may hold, may my love be near me!
Whatever punishment you wish to give me, it's a pleasure to surrender my heart to you.
It's a pleasure to give my heart to you.
Love me, consent to me, declare yourself, refuse;
whatever punishment you wish to give me, it's a pleasure to surrender my heart to you.
It's a pleasure to give my heart to you.

49936  Link to this entry 
Written about Saturday 2003-07-26
Written: (7645 days ago)
Next in thread: 49940

If there's anyone like you in another land, I'll complain to God.
If some stranger turned his face toward yours, it would be a disaster.
You came into my life,
came into my life and changed it utterly.
You kept faith with love so well, you changed life utterly.
Now I can't bear to think there might be someone else who'd devote himself to you like I would.
Forget touching; even the thought of someone mentioning you is unacceptable to me.
You erased the distances;
You erased the distances and changed life utterly.
You came into my life and changed it utterly.
If even a mirror should behold you, my heart will tell me to break it.
You're my obsession; you're my heart's content;
I'm mad for you, no matter what anyone might say.
You heightened my madness;
You heightened my madness and changed life utterly.
You changed life utterly.

49935  Link to this entry 
Written about Saturday 2003-07-26
Written: (7645 days ago)

My heart took faith, and I fell in love with you.
Since I've met you, darling,
I've understood what it is to be in love.


Since I've met you, darling,
I've understood what it is to be in love.
Your every way made me crazy for you;
my heart took faith, and I fell in love with you.


The heart didn't give me a chance; don't even know when love happened.
You came to me like destiny; may no misfortune befall our love!

Take my heart away, foreigner, take it away!
You're peace, you're comfort; you're the only desire of this heart.
You're my dawn and dusk; you're my touchstone in this world.

49934  Link to this entry 
Written about Saturday 2003-07-26
Written: (7645 days ago)

Don't think anything at all; just be happy and speak.

The one who must come will come; he won't stop nor will he be stopped.

The heart has gone mad; it has swayed and danced as though intoxicated.

Who knows what all we must do, what an uproar we're going to create.

The heart has gone mad; it has swayed and danced as though intoxicated.

Who knows what all we must do, what an uproar we're going to create.

Why should we think about tomorrow?
Come, let's just live in the present.
When God is one for everyone,
then we, having become one, will all sing.

A true life only belongs to he who lives and lets live.
We've come into this world, so let's take what pleasure from it we can.
A true life only belongs to he who lives and lets live.
We've come into this world, so let's take what pleasure from it we can.
If there are walls in our hearts, then let's topple them.
Come, let's go to our god and beseech him lovingly.
The heart has gone mad; it has swayed and danced as though intoxicated.

Who knows what all we must do, what an uproar we're going to create.

Why should we think about tomorrow?
Come, let's just live in the present.
When God is one for everyone,
then we, having become one, will all sing.

No matter what happens, let's always smile.
May there be desire in our hearts, and in pleasure may we dance and sing.
Joining hands, let's touch the sky.
Let us embroider our desires with the moon and stars.

A true life only belongs to he who lives and lets live.
If there are walls in our hearts, then let's topple them.
No matter what happens, let's always smile.
Joining hands, let's touch the sky.
The heart has gone mad; it has swayed and danced as though intoxicated.
Who knows what all we must do, what an uproar we're going to create.
The heart has gone mad; it has swayed and danced as though intoxicated.
Who knows what all we must do, what an uproar we're going to create.

49933  Link to this entry 
Written about Saturday 2003-07-26
Written: (7645 days ago)

Silent and still,
frozen, lost in thought,
silent and still, lost in secret thought,
You've gone utterly still; your lips are silent.
Your commotion has died down; you sit silently,
but your lovely, lovely face has betrayed you.
Your eyes have beheld some lovely dream.
Don't shy away from us, beautiful girl; speak to us a little.
  

What can I say? My glance met with a stranger,
and it was as if love's patterns were set into motion.
New desires bloomed in my heart such as I've never known.
We've never met each other; how our hearts met, I cannot know.
What should I do now? What name should I take, how should I call out to him?
  

At first glance, somehow we both become lost.
From our gazes, the patter of love's first rainfall showers down.
I grow bashful and lower my eyes.
A mischievious breeze plays havoc with me also;
it makes my scarf fly up as it flows, and in my heart a storm arises.
Simply standing still, I was plundered, looted.

Silent, lost in secretive thought,
you've gone utterly still; your lips are silent.
Your commotion has died down; you sit silently,
but your lovely, lovely face has betrayed you.
Your eyes have beheld some lovely dream.
Don't shy away from us, beautiful girl; speak to us a little.
These lips begged for a melody; it is you and your love.
That which these eyes have ceaselessly searched for is you and your love.
Even in a crowd, my heart feels lonely, as though
it fears that it might lose you.
Today I found such happiness that the very world sways and swells.
When I found you, I found life.

What can I say? My glance met with a stranger,
and it was as if love's patterns were set into motion.
What can I say?

49931  Link to this entry 
Written about Saturday 2003-07-26
Written: (7645 days ago)

Beloved enemy, how very cold-hearted!
Beloved enemy, so unfeeling; you can't know my heartache!
Cold-blooded exactor of debts, I appeal to God above!
How can I tell, whom should I tell, O God,
no one knows the pain in my heart!
No one knows...
Beloved enemy, how cold-hearted!
You who were distant are near now;
now you are near, why do you stay so far away?
Who knows...
You who were distant are near now;
now you are near, why do you stay so far away?
Come near, come; put this bangle on me
Don't torment me; heed what I have to say.
How shall I tell, whom shall I tell, God, the bangle doesn't obey;
it doesn't obey.
This bangle is so unfeeling...
The bangle doesn't obey; fickle unfeeling wretch, oh God!
Now stop sulking, won't you? No, no, no!
Come to me! Yes, yes, yes!
I'm slowly falling for your pretty words
The firefly told me, such is this lover of yours!
Your love will steal you away, yes!
Even the moonlight is laughing at your lover's talk.
The stars begin to smile and the wind to sing; the sky reels!
How can I tell, whom should I tell, O God!
Crazy one doesn't even know that much!

49928  Link to this entry 
Written about Saturday 2003-07-26
Written: (7645 days ago)

Whose footstep is this?
Whose shadow is this?
There was a knock at my heart;
who entered here?
Who spread this vibrant color over me?
I died from happiness, my happiness killed me
It killed me...
Who spread this vibrant color over me?
I died from happiness;
it killed me...
God, it killed me...
The moon did not decorate my palm,
nor did I contract any relationship with the stars.
Nor did I make any complaint of God...
I hid every sorrow;
with laughter I bore each injustice.
I even embraced thorns,
and was wounded by flowers.
Yes, but when I raised my hands in prayer,
I begged God for you!
God, I begged for you!
Who spread this vibrant color over me?
I died from happiness;
it killed me...
God, it killed me...
killed me...
Whose footstep is this?
Whose shadow is this?
There was a knock at my heart;
who entered here?

49927  Link to this entry 
Written about Saturday 2003-07-26
Written: (7645 days ago)

The weather stretches its limbs
Rain ripples and spreads
A gust of wind will come and this light will be extinguished.
I haven't let (the lamp of) our love be extinguished.
O beloved, this lamp hasn't been put out, nor will it be.
The lamp of my desire!
My beloved, come to me now, my love...
With this lamp, every inch of my body is burning
Come to me now, lover;
O my love, come to me now, beloved!
There was distance (between us), a remoteness...
There was distance (between us), a remoteness, a world of separation;
my eyes were fixed in wait for you.
And you were there...
shining, sparkling, swaying in happiness,
and here I was, burning for you...
The clouds have thundered again;
with a great rumble the rains have fallen.
A wandering storm has arrived,
but it hasn't managed to quench you,
O my love, this light [hasn't been quenched], however much they torment it —
the rain, the wind, the lightning!
My love, come to me now, my love
O my love, come to me now, beloved
Look at this crazy girl!
She knows nothing of the world.
A gust of wind will pass through,
and bring with it her lover.
My love, come to me now, my love
With all my heart, I didn't let this (lamp of) love be extinguished
O love, this light
With all my heart I didn't let this (lamp of) love be extinguished
O love, this light
O beloved, beloved, beloved

49924  Link to this entry 
Written about Saturday 2003-07-26
Written: (7645 days ago)

The moon waited alone in the arms of the night;
the moonlight guarded the blooming youth of the night.
A gust of wind; a shining night!
In a palanquin of stars arrived a crowd of fireflies.
A thought rose and hesitated on everyone's lips.
The drums and cymbals began to pound, a great tambourine started to tap, and
my lovely Radha strutted out and began dancing!
Who knows from whence this handsome loverboy appeared to dance!
My love, behold how my heart trembles with fear.
My lover
Don't seize my arms; shyness overwhelms me
Yes, let me go; you have my oath
No, no, don't be stubborn, let me go, my sweet!
Look, I'll badmouth you; go away, turn back, move, don't torture me, my love
My love, behold how my heart trembles with fear.
My love
On the banks of the Jamuna River, the drum will sound, Krishna will dance with Radha
Krishna shall dance with Radha
Songs on the lips, exultation in the heart
Krishna shall dance with Radha
Thirsting breaths and rapturous bodies,
Krishna shall dance with Radha
The world beholds them in astonishment.
Krishna shall dance with Radha

49680  Link to this entry 
Written about Saturday 2003-07-26
Written: (7646 days ago)

Kisi Se Ishq Ke Vaade
Promise of love to someone

Kahin Hum Tod Aaye Hain
We have broken it

Magar Ye Dil, Ye Jaan
But this heart , this life

Shayad Wahin Hum Chod Aaye Hain
Maybe we have left it there

Ishq Bina
without love

Ishq Bina Kya Jeena Yaara
what is the point of living ?

Ishq Bina Kya Marna
what is the point of dying ?

Gud Se Meetha
sweeter than gud ( sugar cane)

Imli Se Khatta
more sour than imli

Vaada Ye Pakka
its a firm promise

Dhaaga Ye Kachha
it is a flimsy thread

Is Se Pehle
Before this

Is Raaste Mein
on this path

Kitne Hi
how many

Mehboob Gaye Hain
lovers have gone Raaste Mein Dariya Hai Koi
is there a river in the path ?

Jis Mein Saare Doob Gaye Hain
that all drown in it ?

Khar, Sach Se Sachha
?Victory , truer than true

Har, Jhooth Se Jhootha
Defeat , bigger lie than lie



49677  Link to this entry 
Written about Saturday 2003-07-26
Written: (7646 days ago)

Ever since I saw you
What has come over me
What is this
Ecstasy I feel?

I hope I don't fall in love
I hope I don't get lost
How do I hold myself back, tell me!

A fragrance
Clouds my vision
And suffuses my being
What storm
Rages under my breath

I don't know
I hope I don't make the mistake
I hope I don't fall in love
How do I hold myself back, tell me

I can't
hold myself
back anymore

How do I
tell you?
Its no fault of mine

I hope I don't give into desire
I hope I don't fall in love
How do I hold myself back, tell me

49655  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2003-07-25
Written: (7646 days ago)

There goes the rainless cloud, I can't see any rain
here i can hear the cuckoo's melancholy, I can't hear any melody
This earth in itself is a garden, but the petals of my flower are dying
This life in itself is a bounty, but my soul is getting eroded...

49650  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2003-07-25
Written: (7646 days ago)

The moon shines bright,
Time seems to be moving slow
Nobody seems to be realising all this
But my eyes are alone set on you
As the breeze blows past
The garden seems to smile
Nobody seems to be enjoying all this
But my hands alone shall touch you
The wind shall continue blowing
The warmth of the sunshine shall continue
There is no change in all that
The sky and earth would wish us a great life
And those wishes haven't yet ceased
Forever in the skies...
The moon shines bright
There goes the desired cloud, ask for the rains
Here you can hear the cuckoo singing, listen to its music
The earth in itself is a beautiful garden, go search for your flowers
This life in itself is a bounty, go search for your needs.
The moon shines bright...

49647  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2003-07-25
Written: (7646 days ago)

You are the one,
how can i live without you?
Come soon,
Don't torment me anymore
Oh my love, come and reside in my breath,
oh moon, come down and make my heart your abode
come and meet me if you love me,
Otherwise, bury me into the ground at once.
Feel the restlessness of my breath
There seems to be no respite for them
They are telling me to lay my eyes
on the road ahead
If you break my hope
I will cease to live anymore
The choice of life or death
is now fully in your hands
i have come,
I have come for you
Breaking all the bonds for our love
My love, My love,
let us become one now
Let me get one with your breath
I wil come each time you call me
once i have given my heart to you
how can one eye sleep?
When the other one is weeping?
I crossed all the obstacles that lay
in the path of love...
I am a river laiden with desire,
About to join it's ocean
What is this?
Today my tears also feel sweet!!
Time is passing by every minute
Please tell time to stop now as i savour this moment.

49646  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2003-07-25
Written: (7646 days ago)
Next in thread: 49660

Deep are the shadows
Of the clouds of dreams...
Lost in love, we both see
Dreams being awake and asleep
Silently, and amazed...
This life is like a story
No one knows when what will happen...
This life is like a journey,
You never know which direction it'll take you...
I wish at this very moment
My eyes lose their power to see...
I wish I am never reminded
Of my dreams and aspirations
The blood flowing in the veins
Feels like fire...
There is a faint trace of consciousness left
But things are now out of my control
The Restlessness in my body
Spread through like electricity
But a pleasant cloud of pain
Spread over my mind and body
A pounding heart,
Quivering breath,
How will my difficulties ever resolve?

49643  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2003-07-25
Written: (7646 days ago)

Oh moon! How can you be in two skies?
Oh friend! Here i am not knowing what to do!
My eyes! You fell in love,
Wove the flower of love
You plucked that flower, my friend,
Alas! My heart, what can it do...

The sky can't get wet in the rain
A beautiful face can't dissolve in tears
Love never sought my permission before it got on me
Even after telling me, it does not leave me,
Even if I forget my heart won't forget
Even if i die,
My love will never die...

I got only one heart
Even that isn't mine, it's yours
I can give you whatever you ask for
Can even give my life for you,
But love isn't something that can be given;
If i do manage to give it,
it ceases to be "love"...

45724  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2003-07-10
Written: (7661 days ago)

The Very Secret Diary of Aragorn, Son of Arathorn

Day One:

Ringwraiths killed: 4. V. good.
Met up with Hobbits. Walked forty miles. Skinned a squirrel and ate it.
Still not King.

Day Four:

Stuck on mountain with Hobbits. Boromir really annoying.
Not King yet.

Day Six:

Orcs killed: none. Disappointing. Stubble update: I look rugged and manly. Yes!
Keep wanting to drop-kick Gimli. Holding myself back.
Still not King.

Day Ten:

Sorry no entries lately. V. dark in Mines of Moria. Big Baelrog.
Not King today either.

Day Eleven:

Orcs killed: 7. V. good. Stubble update: Looking mangy.

Legolas may be hotter than me.
I wonder if he would like me if I was King?

Day 28:

Beginning to find Frodo disturbingly attractive. Have a feeling if I make a move, Sam would kill me. Also, hairy feet kind of a turn-off.
Still not King.

Day 30:

In Lothlorien. Think Galadriel was hitting on me. Saucy wench.

Nice chat with Boromir. He’s not so bad.
Took a shower. Yay!
But still not King.

Day 32:

Orcs killed: none. Stubble update: subtly hairy.

Legolas told me that a shadow and a threat had been growing in his mind.

I think Legolas might be kinda gay.

Nope, not King.

Day 33:

Orcs killed: Countless thousands. V. good.

Boromir killed by Orcs. Bummer. Though he died bravely in my arms, am now quite sure that he was very definitely gay.
Not so sure about Gimli either.
RIP Boromir.
Still not King, but at least Boromir seemed to think I was. Might however have been blood loss.

Day 34:

Frodo went to Mordor. Said he was going alone, but took Sam with him. Why?

My God, is everyone in this movie gay but me?

Not so sure about me either.

Still not King, goddammit.

44412  Link to this entry 
Written about Saturday 2003-07-05
Written: (7667 days ago)

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44408  Link to this entry 
Written about Saturday 2003-07-05
Written: (7667 days ago)

The sun seems sad
A cloudy atmosphere
All looks bad
In me I can sense fear

Let’s talk about it
Yeah

Nevermind
I ain’t that bad
Your attempts are kind
Sadness is really all I had

C’mon!
Let’s Talk about it!
Yeah!

Lifes a whore
Love’s like a curse
What’s more
You ain’t my nurse

C’mon!
Let’s talk about it
Yeah
Let’s talk about it

41085  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2003-06-24
Written: (7677 days ago)

i take the previous entry back. Feeling quite sad. Isn't it sad when friendships, love, relationships and something good ends??? Very sad indeed. Especially when you're attatched. When you told him everything existing in your heart...and he just leaves. It hurts. But I am strong...

41034  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2003-06-24
Written: (7677 days ago)

I miss school. I miss love. I want time to go faster. I miss my friends. I miss my life. I'm stuck at home a prison. My family are mad at me for some reason. I didn't do anything. I don't deserve this pain. I want to stop. I want to just stop here and leave everything behind. Leave all the pain to victimize themselves. I can't. They're victimizing nothing. me.

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