Hangman's Hill

He trudged up the damp dusy road,
This was the end.
Final farewells
to friends, sons and daughters
Final farewells
to his one and only beloved.
May God have mercy on her,
She was drowning in tears
He drowned in her tears
As he kissed her one last time.
As he drowned in his own
The man looked ahead.
The prosecuters were waiting,
Uniformed.
Some were laughing
Some were casually chatting.
The man shed a last tear,
As he looked up at the sky,
the early morning mist,
the dew on the green grass of the hilly village
He quietly sang the martyrs ballad
As his heavy feet transported him to the opposition
The led him up the hill.
Within minutes,
The rope burnt his neck
His balled died away
So did he
What remained was a limp body that was his.
Silence screamed and cried through the countryside
As the wind sang a ballad
Of the forgotten story of Séamus Fitzgearód.

I just realised what love really feels like. I value this feeling so much. It's not like the others. This isn't lust. It's just love. And it's so sweet. I would rather not lose this. it just seems so perfect...i want it to remain this way, as time flies by we'll get closer and closer. *dreams*

I AM A:Chaotic Good Half-Elf Ranger

Chaotic Good characters are independent types with a strong belief in the value of goodness. They have little use for governments and other forces of order, and will generally do their own things, without heed to such groups.

Half-Elves are a cross between a human and an elf. They are smaller, like their elven ancestors, but have a much shorter lifespan. They are sometimes looked down upon as half-breeds, but this is rare. They have both the curious drive of humans and the patience of elves.

Rangers are the defenders of nature and the elements. They are in tune with the Earth, and work to keep it safe and healthy.

What's with it with magazines??? I picked up the hello magazine out of work with boredom, and it was full of things like "Prince William makes people laugh" and "A celebrity couple went out for a romantic dinner, OH LOOK! he's wearing a wedding ring.." It's annoying, like WHO CARES??? I was more bored reading that magazine than being bored alone.

Look into my eyes,
See the pain,
the hurt
the scars
Do you see the tears?
The burn
I close my eyes
I feel a knife burning,
Burning away my skin.
Are you happy now?
Are you happy at what you've done?
Do you regret it?
Look into my eyes
And see this pain.
Cry like me
Burn like me
Bleed like me
You asked for it.

You are most like Leo! Even though you can do anything you put your mind to, you always put yourself down. Don't! Be more confident, there's more to life than appearances.

Hold my hands
I will feel honoured
Give me a hug
I will be hopefull
Stroke my hair
I will begin to feel loved
Kiss my cheek
I shall begin to glow
Kiss my lips
I shall kiss you back
Love me
And I'll be forever yours

And it sounds like...armageddon
Sounds like...armageddon
Sounds like...cum and drink with me....
Cum and drink with me

And I remember him fucking me,
And I remember liking it,
I didn't know any better...

And I remember the smell, and the pain, and the shame...
And I remember being afraid and thinking everyday,
Every single day.. that it was my fault...

Oh, but what happened to that little girl?
Who used to dream of one day ruling the world,
Who used to draw pretty pictures in my room---beneath the moon
Destroying to create
Softly praying to "God"

What do I do now?
What do I do now?

As I secretely masturbate...
But then I'd hear his hooves coming down the floor
With a Bible in his hand...

Softly opening my door and he'd say...

DAUGHTER! The day of your attonement is due!
Well there's 3 million sinners out there...
and that includes you!

No daddy, don't... no daddy, don't...
LEAVE ME ALONE! LEAVE ME ALONE! LEAVE ME ALONE!
NO, I DON'T WANT TO BE FREE! NO, I DON'T WANT TO BE FREE!
SO TAKE YOUR DICK OUT OF ME!
PLEASE TAKE YOUR DICK OUT OF ME! PLEASE TAKE YOUR DICK OUT OF ME! PLEASE TAKE
YOUR DICK OUT OF ME!

I'm bleeding, it's not fair...

You see, there's this little place I like to go...
I like to run and hide--deep inside,
Where all the nightmares are real, and all the monsters come alive,
Oh, but the things I've seen in soft, soft visions and terrifying prophecies,
Like serpents on the take and gods coming in all sizes and shapes
Nothing seems fulfilling anymore..

Well your temples are swollen in deceit and the body of your missionary,

He's rotting... rotting in defeat mama?

MAMA!
Are the aliens coming to take us away? (mama?)
Is armageddon gonna happen again today?

LOOK WHAT HE DID TO ME! WHY DID YOU DO IT TO ME?!
HOW COULD YOU DO IT TO ME! WHY DID YOU DO IT TO ME?!

I will not cry... I will not cry...
I--PREFER--TO--DIE! than live--this life--of LIES!

KILL WHAT YOU CAN ---- CHALLENGE EVERYTHING
Vengeance is mine...

Hey, I'm sorry baby...
please come back inside...we can laugh a little... and live and die,
no wait. see, eye got this hot pot of jonestown tea
And it's been brewing for you and me,
Oh, it only takes one sip,
Come one baby,
Surrender your lips,
I can take you someplace nice...
I can take you...someplace NICE!

Breed my disease, be my disease...
Breed my disease, be my disease...
and vengeance will be mine
It's closer than u think...

So I entered his room at 32 past noon
With my little ritual knife...
I cut out his tounge
Liberated his wife
She loved me for it other world woman,

Well, thats what she called me (Destroyer),
the one who sets you free, (cum and drink with me)

We all die like cartoons, surrender your children,
kids who like to kill, lies...

killing me
he's killing me
we killing me
me killing me

killing me ......

infectious human waste
forefather
cancer
hunter
prostate gods

killer
KILLER

a testosterone feeding drone
multiplying, multiplying hungry clones

time to
DEFY
the HIVE

KILL YOUR MASTERS!

MENOCIIIIDE!

[I.I.L]
our time has come!!!

you're just as weak as me
but not as strong!

just as imperfect!
but twice as flawed!

i see your skin
and i hate the way

you look at me!
and softly invade

eye'm afraid!
insane!
rage intensified!

i'll feel no fear or hate as i ...
commit ....
MENOCIDE!!
(menocide!)

girls in the playroom
house-wives

servants in the workplace
slaves to lies!!

RISE!
RISE!

[II.]
those who refuse to grow
we leave behind

!give death to them!
with an evolved state of mind

no one's listening
save your cries

everything they taught
was a lie

hear me now this battlecry
DIE! DIE!
CONCUBINE!

- what to wear
- what to eat
- what to feel
- what to think
- how to act
- how to speak
- insecure
- incomplete!!

ENOUGH!!!

.. apple eater!
.. deceiver!
.. protector of the way!

this is the beginning of my Liberation!
THIS IS THE BEGINNING!!

BRIDES & BREEDERS!!

Lillith, Eve, Isis, Kali

GIVE ME FREE!!

(always)
REMEMBER!!!

FEE-MALE CIRCUMCISIONS!
BURNING!
LIKE SALEM WITCHES!

NEVER AGAIN!
NEVER AGAIN!

no compassion
kill your masters!
MENOCIDE!

kill your masters
kill your masters
kill your masters
MENOCIDE!

... my confession

because i'm diluted
&
perfectly flawed

i shall
live by passion
&
not by law

and i'm
insecure ...
i need aggression

to
feed the spiders
of perception

and i'm
supposed to be strong
& have
all the answers

a
cannibal
in the
new church of cancer

but i'm
nothing special
i'm not unique

i have
many secrets
& i
eat the weak

and i'm
at an end

i'm at an end .....

and there's ...
NO WAY OUT!!

[chorus]

i need to find my sanctuary
..... someplace safe
gotta get this outta me
..... this is my escape

II.
and i
think about it
all the time

i'm
volatile
&
afraid to cry

but i'm
still not comfortable
in my skin

and the
anesthetics slowly
wearing thin

& i
need to talk to
someone new

i need a different
latitude

& i'm
in this void

all alone!
feeling needy

... hungry to grow

but i'm
suffocating
-- can't come down

and .... no ....
THERE'S NO WAY OUT!!!

[chorus]

i need to find my sanctuary
.... someplace safe
gotta get this outta me!
.... THIS IS MY ESCAPE!!!

--- all i see is sadness
all i see is sadness ....
what's left?

-- this will teach them.
this will teach them,

......you've got to......
push.
Push.
PUSH....
YOUR WAY OUT!!!

FOLLOW ME!
FOLLOW ME!
THIS IS YOUR WAY OUT!!

........you are not alone

- this is where i hide my power
- this is where i become free
- this is where i take control
- and slowly choke your fantasies

- i want to know my day is coming
- see my enemies be punished
- shed my skin again
- this will be my best revenge!!

SHED MY SKIN AGAIN
THIS WILL BE MY BEST REVENGE!

I remember
suffering

I remember
... feeling the sting

of childhood
& injections

holy bruises
sweet infections

soaked
in
a
stew
like drowning
cockroaches

whose only ..
crime

was the
greed of
inherent
hunger

you know where
I'm fragile

you know how
to kill

........kill

all fall away
all fall today

PAIN!!
pain.

i can't keep
this rage in me

can't keep
pretending

can't be
this empty

...anymore

i can
make
it go away

... make it go away

okay a proper entry. Haven't written something here in ages. Okay...well..
I decided to take the SATs. I confirmed my decision yesterday and now i've got a month more to study my ass off. I'm going to study hard, I really want to do well. If i don't do well, then i don't get to go to Dublin and spend three weeks there. So...i think it's time to be nocturnal again, like i ever stopped anyway. Ever since the Junior Cert. (O Levels, like GCSEs) which i finished on the 14th of June 2003, i've been staying up until 3am and waking up at 6am. yes, three hours sleep. I've also got a crap job. I babysit kids, their mother wants me to act like a mother. I'M ONLY 15 GODDAMNIT!!! lol...whoever out there is arsed enough to read this...any advice? :P

"Oh My Golly!" (Surfer Rosa)

Entro las Pinones y la ola es pequena,
Oh my Golly!

Vamos para la luna caribe,
Oh my golly!
Besando chichando con surfer rosa,
Oh my golly!,
Se fue su madera
Oh my golly!

Rosa oh oh oh Rosa,

Yo soy playero pero no hay playa,
Oh my golly!
Bien perdida la surfer rosa,
Oh my golly!

La vida total es un porqueria porqueria,
Oh my golly!
Esto no es mas, que vida!
Oh my golly!
Rosa oh oh oh Rosa

[TRANSLATION]

I enter Pinones and the wave is small,
Oh my golly!

Let's go to the caribbean moon,
Oh my golly!
Kissing and fucking with surfer rosa,
Oh my golly!
His wood is gone,

Oh my golly!
Rosa oh oh oh Rosa
I'm a beach goer but there's no beach,
Oh my golly!
Very lost the surfer rosa,
Oh my golly!

Total life is shitty shitty.
Oh my golly!
This ain't more,what a life!
Oh my golly!
Rosa oh oh oh Rosa

1. When asked, on the Arsenio Hall show, about smoking a pipe in 'Forever Young' (I find this very ironic!) he said:
-"They put this stuff in there [the pipe] and, you know, to be totally honest with you, it really tasted gross. And I don't think I'm ever going to be picking up a habit like that."

2.  When asked about what he didn't like about acting (this is from the time of Flipper) he said:
-"Horrible! In Flipper I like this girl, played by Jessica Wesson. There was a kissing scene in the movie, that didn't make it after all. I hated it. It was really embarassing. I hope they don't have any more scenes like that for me in reserve, because I'm much to shy for that."
 
3. What qualities in a person do you most admire?
-"I like honesty, and people that are real, who don't buy into all the bad stuff [like drugs], but who are really themselves. Its sad because a lot of kids these days feel that they have to be a certain way in order to be popular. I think being different, being against the grain of society, is the greatest thing in the world."

4. Are you an outcast in real life? (this was asked when he was 18)
-After a long Pause "I don't feel at ease when I'm around people my age. Most of the time I can get along with adults a lot better. It figures, because I've been working with adults ever since I was 8 years old. I'm interested in other things than people of my age. If I went to High-School, just like Casey [in 'The Faculty']--I always got tutored on the set--I'd probobly be a loner as well. Or maybe I would have chosen for that. A voluntary outcast."

5. Which character in South Park would you like to be most?
-"Cartmen, Eric Cartmen Rules!"

6. What's the worst movie of all time?
-"Godzilla, Godzilla sucks in every way!"

7. Do you believe in true love?
-"Of course I do! I wouldn't be a hopless romantic if I didn't. I'm a sucker for romantic films. I cry like a child! For people who are hopeless romantics, 'Love Jones' is a wonderful film. Of course, so is 'When Harry met Sally', everyone sheds a tear."

8. What's your worst habit?
-"I bite my fingernails. When you smoke and bite your fingernails at the same time, you know you've got issues."

9. What animal would describe your personality and why?
-"A monkey-I'm pretty active and I like to climb things and I was always called monkey as a kid. I liked to climb in the cupboards. I like hugging.

What's true whats not!

Recently asked Q's
-Elijah is not married
-He does not have any kids
-He did not grab a camera out of a guys hand for taking pictures of him
-He does have a girlfriend (franka Potente)
-He did not ask her to be his wife
-He is thinking about being Peter Pan in an upcoming movie
-Elijah does chat at the Doorstep

Asked in e-mails

Elijah was not taken over by aliens, he is not gay, he did not have relations with Sean Astin, he does love music, his mother never abused him, his mother never disowned him, he is not a drunk, he does smoke, he done not do drungd, he is not deathly afraid of airplane, large monkeys, or the ninja tutles.

He did not get sugery to enhance his butt, he did not read LOTR before he made the movies, he did go to the auditions dressed as a Hobbit, yes he has had sex, he was on The Ozbourne Show(cleaning up dog pee), and he and another cast member did pee on a fountain (landmark) in New Zealand.

Tidbits about Elijah!



Activities:
- Sings
-Fences (as a alternative form of excercise!)
- Rollerblades
-Swims
-Loves to read classics
-Thinks if he didn't become an actor, he would have became a Gourmet Chef 
-Collects 'Star Wars' memorabilia

Nicknames:
- Monkey (for being so active as a child)
- Lij

Tidbits:
-Wears contacts
-Likes to date girls who are "Real and Honest"
-Admires Tom Hanks and George Lucas
-Admits to talking in "A funny voice a lot"
-Fan of Batman
-Favorite Bands-Smashing Pumpkins and the Beatles (I heard he likes the Beatles more!)
-Favorite song 'Never Let me Down'
-Least Favorite Music- Country

And he says its pronounced 'Elidjah' ??? I can't say that without thinking it is wrong!!

REM
Out of Time (1991)
Losing My Religion

Life is bigger
It's bigger than you
And you are not me
The lengths that I will go to
The distance in your eyes
Oh no I've said too much
I set it up

That's me in the corner
That's me in the spotlight
Losing my religion
Trying to keep up with you
And I don't know if I can do it
Oh no I've said too much
I haven't said enough
I thought that I heard you laughing
I thought that I heard you sing
I think I thought I saw you try

Every whisper
Of every waking hour I'm
Choosing my confessions
Trying to keep an eye on you
Like a hurt lost and blinded fool
Oh no I've said too much
I set it up

Consider this
The hint of the century
Consider this
The slip that brought me
To my knees failed
What if all these fantasies
Come flailing around
Now I've said too much
I thought that I heard you laughing
I thought that I heard you sing
I think I thought I saw you try

But that was just a dream
That was just a dream

This lifeless heart --
Your love gave life to this lifeless heart.
Then that very love of yours laid waste to it.


From this battered heart arises a heavy sigh:
I am punished for loving you; what sin did I commit to deserve this?
In my love for you, I was utterly destroyed.

Love is so strange: a few moments of happiness,
then a treasure trove of sorrow and loneliness.
Sometimes tears, sometimes sighs, sometimes reproaches, sometimes moans.
Your face appears before me;
Your face appears in the brightness of day and memories of you torment me.
Memories of you torment me in the darkness of night; your face appears before me.
From this agitated heart arises a heavy sigh:
I am punished for loving you; what sin did I commit to deserve this?
I was utterly destroyed;
I was utterly destroyed by my love for you.
If I meet God, I will ask him: God,
Having given me a body of clay, why did you make my heart with glass?
And on top of that, you put it in my nature to love!
How marvelous, your creation!
How marvelous, God, that above and beyond that, you granted a fate not only of meeting, but also of parting!
Sometimes we meet, sometimes we separate, is this the love you intended?
How marvelous is your handiwork!
A sigh arises from this griefstricken heart;
I am punished for loving you; what sin did I commit to deserve this?
I was utterly destroyed;
I was utterly destroyed by my love for you.

I've already given my heart away.
I have become yours; by you I swear it!


Let the world do its worst;
I am devoted to you; by you I swear it!

All my hopes spring from you, my love.
I have caught you and placed myself in your care.
I will never forget you, beloved.
My own wedding will happen sometime
My life will pass in the shadow of memories of you.
After God, I will worship you alone.
Ask of me what you will; everything I have is yours.

May the impertinence of my eyes be forgiven...
They look at you just a little;
and what my tongue longs to speak, that is what they tell you.
May the bashfulness of my eyes be forgiven.
My eyes fall away from yours;
what my eyes couldn't say while looking into yours, that lowered gaze says for me.
May the impertinence of my eyes be forgiven...
I'll plant a speck of kohl on your lips.
Yes, I'll spare you the invasive inspection of the sun and the moon.
Step behind the fringe of my eyelashes; I'll hide you there.
May these mischievous thoughts be forgiven.
With every breath (my eyes) think of you, and though the whole world is in its senses,
(your eyes) rob me of mine.
May the bashfulness of my eyes be forgiven.
This life (of mine) will always be entrusted to you.
Love for you will always reside in my heart.
Even just to breathe, I will always have need for you.
May the foolishness of my heart be forgiven.
(Your eyes) listen to my words;
(these eyes) which are always restless with desire, they weave new dreams.
May the...
impertinence of my eyes be forgiven.
bashfulness of my eyes be forgiven.

Who am I to you?...
My gaze is restless
What an effect love has on me!
Don't stay quiet; tell me at least this much:
Who am I... who am I to you
So many times I stopped myself, beloved
but at last, I had to speak
Why do you enter my dreams?
Who am I... who am I to you
My gaze is restless
What an effect love has on me!
It is a constant worry; don't ask me
who I am... who I am to you
How shall I tell you of my heart's desire?
Read my face sometime
The blush on my face may tell you
who I am...who I am to you