I just got home from a whole day in a fucking car, boiling my ass off... I went and saw some of my old friends who are all out on their own in cities across the fucking state... First Carrie and I drove to St. Johns (just north of Lansing) and saw Melissa... She's living in a cute little flat above a photography studio... It's great... Then we baked cookies for her b/f and his punk band Bestiary cause they're going on tour tonite... Today we went to Wixom (Detroit area) and saw my cousin by marriage, Jesska... And now I havbe decided to move out on my own... I'm gonna get with Jesska next week to go job and apartment hunting... It took the last two days to realize how sick and fucking tired I am of answering to my parents. I'm 18, there's no reason for it...
Humourous things that happened? My friend doubt the power of my gaydar (gay radar), but I proved them wrong today..> We went to the Macaroni Grill (stoopid name, awesome italian food!!!) in Novi and there was this totally flamboyant fag that walked in... I told my friend carrie he was gay and she was lie "not every guy is gay just because you say he is"... Then he started talking reallly loud and lisping on his cell phone saying things like "oh my god girlfriend" and they all just kind of looked at me and busted out laughing...
The chicken canneloni I oredered was good at the time I was eating it, but after 12 hours in a hot car on two hours of sleep, I lost it... I threw it all back up, but here's the kicker-- I did it in a trash can at POTTERY BARN!!!! And no, not just any trash can, but a 28.00 trash can on the sales floor... So I had to buy that... And then to make mattters worse, the girls took it to the car wash and rinsed it out so Jesska could keep it as a momento... I will never show my face in the Twelve Oaks mall again... EVER!!!!
"My Friend Peter" by Alkaline Trio
I dont care who you've been sleeping with these days
You're outta my hair
It's growing just above my smiling face that I wear
Every night I drink myself to sleep
Not thinking about you
Not thinking about anything at all
I don't care who you've been dining with these days
It's more than fair
Much rather be drinking anyways
With my friend Peter
Who lives so fucking far away
Yet not as far as you
Even though you live right down my fucking street
And I'm tired of sleeping with myself
I'm tired, all these drinks and drugs no longer help
I'm tired of lying about not thinking of you
Maybe my friend Peter can tell me what to do
I dont care who you've been kissing on these days
It's out of my hands
and in my mouth with such a pleasant taste
I need a beer to wash it all away without a trace
And then i'll drink 23 more
To wipe this stupid smile off my fucking face
I'm tired of sleeping with myself
I'm tired, all those drinks and drugs no longer help
I'm tired of lying about not thinking of you
Maybe my friend Peter can tell me what to do
Why are some people such fucking bastards??? I mean, you try to help someone, make them feel better and they shit on you like you were totally bringing them down.. I'm through being Mr. Counselor, I'm fucking sick of it!!!!!!!!!
Well well well... Summer is here... It's a hot muggy 87 degrees farenheit and it's almost midnight! I feel as hot as a salsa dancer at cinco de mayo in my white wife beater and worn denim american eagle jeans... Soft sumptuous summer, I am in your grasp... Ahhh... I am sunburnt but it adds color, so I care not one bit... I am writing war letters of passion to Nebel and all is good for a while...
My new role model that I will model myself after is no longer Tori Amos... I still love her immensley, but now my idol is Lil' Kim.... I love the thug have no care attitude!!!
Okay... That's how Nebel found out... Hmm... I'm not sure what to think about today... I feel tired, angry, sad, loved, and anxious all at once... I hate feeling anything, especially too much all at once... And I miss Richard...
I'm distraught with yearning for Shawhan, who dumped me on the 21st of may...
A warm breeze flows through the second storey windows of my three storey redbrick school... I sit here in a hazy fog of Pharmacuetcall
I spent the evening with Shawhan last night and cuddled on his couch with him while watching "fight club" and "AI Artificial Intelligence".
Today I am sunny side up...
Today is still yesterday since I haven't slept yet... Saw my Stephie (only girl I've ever... ya know... *nudge, wink*), romped through the woods like a BANSHEE, made Shawhan admit that he'd fuck me if I looked like Nate LaParl, talked to my Kenai and my wonderful dream boy Mattie... But still, oh so sad... I missed Tori Amos on Leno tonite, cause I was too busy making Shawhan admit he'd fuck me if I looked like Nate LaParl!!! But so worth it... 'twas, 'twas...
Ugh... Shawhan kicked me outta my bed for not breathing quietly enough, so I've officially been awake for 24 hours... and... counting...
New to the area, setting up my own little abode now...hehehee.
Going out on Spring Break tonite, to beautiful empty country located near St. Helen, Michigan... So over the course of the next week, my artwork and all kinds of stuff will be loaded in!!! Sit tight and it's great to be here now!!!
Ugh... School is so dull today... I lost credit in Government class for tardies, so I come in for oceanography, teacher's aide, lunch, weight training/fitne
New to the area, setting up my own little abode now...hehehee.
Going out on Spring Break tonite, to beautiful empty country located near St. Helen, Michigan... So over the course of the next week, my artwork and all kinds of stuff will be loaded in!!! Sit tight and it's great to be here now!!!