I don't like feeling mellow.
It, for some reason.
Strengthens the feeling of not being important.
And those are two feelings I hate.
One, I fall into from time to time.
usually after a huge high. ( Mellow)
And hte other..I combat all the time.
But seriously.
Feeling mellow.
Just blows.

Merr.
Great day.
Turned to shit.
Puking up stuff.
i dont..even recongize.
red, green, brown, black..it was...nakhbkajdna,j
I dont feel well.
My head is throbbing,
My eyes feel ready to pop.
And I cant even have my fan on.
the noise is too much..
So I'm dieing in heat.
*sighs*
Going...to o back o bed i gess.
noreason to be online.
never seems to be one anymore.

Anything your sunrise can do mine can do better. Cascaiding purple clouds thundering across a velvet blue sky. A roaring golden sun trumpeting over the mountain tops. A clear, pristine ocean adding its own harmonic value to this medly I call..a typical morning in Hawaii. So yes, anything your sunrise can do, mine can do better.


Anywho.
today as I predicted.
Was eally long.
Really hard.
Really stressful.
But.
I've had a great day.
I'm not sure why though.
I feel like thsi massive weight has been lifted from my shoulders.
I just feel..wonderful.
I don't know why.
I don't care why.
I just know I feel good.
I feel great.
Nothing is wrong right now.
And this sense of peace it brings is...intoxicaiting.
I'm going to go nap.
Then I'm going to shower.
I'm then going to take pictures of me, myself, and my world I live in.
Because I feel fucking fantastic.
And I want to share that with you.

Just trying to save the world.
Not that anybody cares.

I loooooove that song.
And nwo I'm off to work.
To well, work.
Today is Boss' day.
A huge holiday here in Hawaii.
I've got about 9 stores to do.
It usually takes me about an hour or so each store.
And 12 retails.
And it usually takes me about four hours to do abotu that many retails.
Depending on how spread they are.
I've got 7 hours to do it all in.
Cna you say holyshitIhavetoworkreallyfastandhardandstillprobleynotgetitdoneandwillgetyelledatintheendbuti'mgoingtotryreallyhardanywaysandwillendupcominghomeandcrashingonmybedexhausted?
I can.

Oh hey.
Anything your sunrise can do my can do better.
I'll get a picture of one of ours
and you'll see the truth.

Know what I want?
Yeah, isnt it cool?
I thought so too.

No one online.
No posts to update.
I could put in the stories I have written whle at work on break.
But.
They make me cry reading htem.
I'll do that after a nap.
11 hour shift.
Kicked my ass, and had my soul on the side with some Shoyu and rice.

Aka.
Design got a big ass shipment today.
And I was the dumbass who vaulenteered to help organize, and bring it all in from the trucks v.v.
I did how ever get to see all the pretty asians down in Waikiki...
And got my picture taken with a few! xD.
there is something alluring to the asians about a guy who arranges flowers. ( yes, I got to ARRANGE TODAY! Booyah.)
And they all want mah picture with them in it. ( Could be the blonde hair and big green eyes..)
Either way.
T'was a fun day.
Long, hard, asskicking fun day.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vi7kHvM-ivI

I -love- his voice.

will you walk with me a moment.
Just a single moment.
Out of your busy life.
Only just a moment.

I'm worried for you my friend.
That you are getting caught up in things.
Things that get your attention.
While other things go left unsaid.

So i'm asking for this moment.
Just as single moment.
Where we can both relax.
And remember the good old days.
When we were both happy.

For I'm worried for you my dear friend.
Whom probley cares not for my worry.
But I worry none the less.
For that is what friends do.

I've got hope.
Hell I'm drunk on dreams.
I'm skipping over nightmares.
I'm playing in drains.
I've walked on clouds.
I make out with the moon.

Yeah I've got hope.
Your drunk on dreams.
Living a nightmare.
While playing in drains.
You reach for the clouds.
while thinking of the moon.

I've got time that I play with.
Your buying up all that you can.
I've taken to worshiping my life.
You've gone and given up on yours.

Yeah I've got hope.
Your drunk on dreams.
Living a nightmare.
While playing in drains.
You reach for the clouds.
while thinking of the moon.

I made some choices.
Ones that I can live with.
You've made some mistakes.
And you know your stuck with.
try going back in time.
Only to find you've missed it.
Some things just cant be changed.

Yeah I've got hope.
Your drunk on dreams.
Living a nightmare.
While playing in drains.
You reach for the clouds.
while thinking of the moon.

where will I go now?
I'm thinking on a spot.
Its a cozy little zone.
Center of the universe.
But your place is nice to I guess.
Living the same life everyone else does.
Painted lies and gutter day dreams.

Yeah I've got hope.
Your drunk on dreams.
Living a nightmare.
While playing in drains.
You reach for the clouds.
while thinking of the moon.

But hey you do what you have to.
Live with who and what you can.
Be all that you can be.
I'm being the one we've both come to know.
The best thing to ever happen.
The one thing that remains a dream.

Yeah I've got hope.
Your drunk on dreams.
Living a nightmare.
While playing in drains.
You reach for the clouds.
while thinking of the moon.


I like that.
I sang that today.
While driving down Nimitz Highway.
Seeing all the different kind of people driving to work.
seeing all the kids in cars, waiting turn into Leeward Community College.
And you can just tell which ones.
hate the life they've chosen for themselves.
And which ones are loving every second of it.
I need to find a tune for this song.

Well ladies and germs.
My headache is pounding.
My eyes are drooping.
And its taking more and more effort to move.
So.
Bed time.
I hope.
Night all.
Love to the ones who know i love them.
And uh..yeah.
Night.

Also.
Current mood.
So reminds of me Advent children.
" I DONT WANT TO BE A MEMORY RAWR NERDRAGE /quit!"
xD
<.<.
Still though.
being only a memory.
Would blow.

I want.
To make an arrangement.
With several different kinds of flowers.
Main among them would be protea, Queen Anne's lace, and Fancy mini Carnations.
Why?
Well, I'd have teh Queen Anne's lace around the stems of the Mini Carn, and protea. And the Mini carn around hte stem of the Protea. Giving it an otherworld, primordial look.
It looks badass in my head.
And it will only cost me 20 bucks to do.
Yay discounts at job!
plus, if its a hit.
I can charge people fo rit.
And pocket the difference.
Win yes?

Thought I'd get that off my mind before my nap.
Heres to hoping the headache I've had for 5 days now will let me rest. x.X
Headache got so bad early, I lost my vision for a few seconds.
Almost took out a pallet at Costco ><.

*sighs and hangs head*
No one sees a problem with this at all.
Nope.
Everything is working out just fine.



anywho.
Long day at work.
Apprently, I have no reason to be online so.
After a ten hour shift.
I'm going to go nap for an hour or so.
You all take care now.
Love yah buh bye.

Was so hoping
For something to do.
before work ><.
Whelp....off I go for a 8-10 hour shift.
So hope someone didnt call in.
<.</



v.v

Last time.
First time.
Every time.
The last moment I held you.
Was the first time I died.


*stares at*
Hm.
Needs something....
Fix it when I get back.

I'll always be there.
What does that mean to you?


Hm.
Running thought.
Want to play with that on a sketch pad.
Just not sure how.
Maybe a tattoo on someones chest?
Or a book perhaps...

Dont know.
Been toying with the idea of Drawing Bennet and his cousin to this concept.
Would be interesting.

I've got sunshine.
I've got clouds.
I'm thinking of running away.
I hate clowns.

I worship with mimes.
I walk with giants.
I'm king of the stars.
Master of nothing.

My opponent is conflict herself.
My goal is absolution.
I'm taking on destiny.
I'm throwing her in the grave.
Let the Fates know.
I'm on my way.

Correction, Wrath.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HG41_ZCEQyY

I'm writing a short story on one of my toons. ( Envy) while lsitening to that song.
And yes, I really am.
Should be done by the time I go to bed tonight.

Rejected.
Replaced.
Ignored.
Not even worth a hello.
Fuck it.
I'm gone.
Goodbye.
Logging out of ET for the first time in like...
since i joined.

"You should not do magic you do not understand! Send him back. He would want to be back."-Little bear. Indian in the cupboard.(1995)-That can apply to so much in life. Friendship, technology, the ecnomony, love, religion, alot of things. Think about that.


Every time we think. Every second we walk. Every moment we interact, we make choices. Everything revolves around this. Some choices, can be fixed. Some cannot. With every choice, comes the chance for joy, or regret. We walk a twisting path in this life. Every moment we make a choice. Wether we know it or not, you make them.Do not answer this following question in the comments, unless you really want too, but What choices do you make? Where are they taking you? Where are you now? And looking back on your choices, are you happy?