Shower done.
Pictures taken.
Church that I really dont feel like going to.
I'll probley skip out early.
Stay long eonugh to be noticed.
This whole getting a cheaper college is a pain in the ass.
Go driving again I guess.
I don't know.

I'm making a choice.
Infact...I've already made it.
You reap what you sow.
I've been a proud follower of that idealogy for a long time.
What you get, is what you deserve.
As well as
Treats others how you want to be treated.
I've always been forgiving, and helpful to everyone.
Even those who wrong me.


I need to change.
I need to force my own hand into my life.
And change it.
I need to stop hoping I'll be treated beter.
And start doing something about it.
Reap what you sow right?
Its about time I start reaping some better treatment.
Because I've done the sowing for it.

Its funny isnt it?
Guilt.
How it just eats you up inside.
Twisting and churning your gut.
Into doing things to try and relieve that pain.
Guilt.
Its what drives this world.
Not love.
Not money.
Guilt.
Guilt and desire.
Which, often times.
Desire spawns guilt.
You'd think Guilt would be one of the 7 deadly sins.
I can so see it replacing Sloth, or Gluttony.

ET likes to eat eyeballs. True facts.

Whelp.
I'm going to go do laundry.
Take pictures outside of around the house.
( I has a pretty pretty garden)
And uh..find something worth doing.
Because being online.
Isnt it.
Toodles poodles.

*stares at*
heh.
I like that more then later gator.
Toodles
Poodles.
I hate poodles though.
And those little rat dogs.
You know, the one from Taco Bell?
So gross ><.
but poodles more so.
They are so mean ><.
How do people stand them?
.>
Now I'm just stalling...

Whatever helps people sleep at night.

This is where things get cold.
And the king stops caring,
Leaving everyone on their own.
To do their own fending.
The Wheeping willow is burning.
The stone fence is breaking.
This is where things get cold.
And the king just...goes.

It's five thirty in the morning.
My splitting headache wont let me sleep.
Driving was counter productive last night.
I'm almost bored to tears..
why do I ge on the internet again?
sometimes I wonder that.
Then I remember why.
And then I sit here.
Hoping.
Hope.
Hope.
Hope.
I'm starting to hate the word.
Hope.
merrr.

I want to write something poetic.
But I don't have the magic too.
I want to write a story.
But none of my characters will speek.
I feel like singing.
To a song with no lyrics.

I feel like..
I feel like...
I feel like wanting a friend.

Can't sleep.
Wonder why.
Hey look..no ones online.
And there is nothing to do.
Theres never anything to do..
Mer.
I'll just...go.
Be online later today.

Ever just feel like driving.
And not coming back?
Not even caring if you are missed or not?
I feel like that.
Cept I'm on a damn island.
And feeling like that makes me feel closterphobic.
I just want to drive...drive somewhere.
Find someone.
Anyone.
Who would treat me right.
Maybe I'll go drive anyways.

One more step.

-"Driving in the rain is alot like listening to music with your eyes closed."

" You never realize how important someone, or something is untill you lose it."-Quote taken from a friend.

True facts.

And I'm back.
Woo.

Off to work.
Not in a happy mood.
Bye.

Oh just watch.

Off to waltz with the moon.
Sing to the stars.
And kiss Fate upon the lips.

Aslong as everyone gets treated fairly right?
Yeah.

Since I have no reason to be online...
Going to go nap for an hour or so.
Plan plum exhausted.
Dont need no crap tonight.

"I never said anything that was not true. Can You say that?"

I <3 html tags.
They are fun.
And oh the fun t will be.
When I donate this friday.
*looks over at Profile*

So..earlier today something happened.
That made my day just a little bit brighter.
No, it wasnt rp.
But it was a hug.
and I really need more of those.
So.
Josh is happy today.
<3