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^_^ yay, my friend made this for me!


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deppression: an annoyence?

I try so hard to tell people advice, when they're down, or depressed. and i know they are going through a hard time, i do my best to cheer them up. but i dont get it, why do they try so hard to stay down? it's so easy to look on the darker side of things, and eventually they get deeper and deeper into depression. if they actually tried, almost barly try, to smile and be optimistic. im not saying to be mr/ms smily 24/7 but just to stop groping around. life just then might feel easier. maybe if they open up with their problems to other friends, they might get the comfort they really need. i'm always willing to listen, and i'll do everything to help you, i mean it. i try so hard to help... and i feel so ignored, so i hope this journal entry might help. i hope you, the reader, might see what i try to do...

as you can tell, my b-day was over due, so i'm making this diary entry to tell ya about it. even though i doubt any of you readers really care =P I got all my friend's to meet up at this irish restaurant (me like irish) and such. i only got books @_@ one was a manga called xxx holic, any1 ever read it? and the second one was a "how to" book for manga n drawings stuff...kinda cheap since two of them paid for the one item...i dunno if thats a hint to get better, or encouragment... then i got $20 for tim hortens :D lol more coffee for me! my paretns on the other hand have decided to help pay for my driving lessons, wont that just be scary?
my friend keeps on saying the waitress was hitting on me, so i am obligated to post this on here. i really am blind when someone flirts with me...lol she did call me cute though, made me blush to a whole new tone of red. and then she bought my dessert...i dunno...lol i sound egotistic but my friend told me to post this or she'll claw my eyes out ^^'

oh! wait! i found something to write about! even though it was 5 seconds after the last post. I REALLY wanna see what that manga "gravitation" is all about. i here its yaoi, so it caught my interest =P anyone else heard of it? or how about an easier question, anyone of you peoples acually READ manga? tell me if ya do ^^

I haven't used this diary for ages ya know... then again who'll read it? here's you routine:

Me: *writes diary*
You: *recieves notice of diary* "Look, he wrote something thing... ... ..." *deletes notice*
Me: *ignored*

It goes somewhat like that, right? lol

dodged the bullet!

We, me n my parents, ha the "talk" and i was placed as innocent! but i'm not limited to two hours a day... like they'll keep track when they're not home! HA! well i'm just happy my parents arn't murdering me...before the "talk" my friend offered me a knife for protection! A KNIFE!!! he thought it was gonna go that badly...

I might be done for soon! my dad found me on this wiki, GKG, and well... it stands for guys kissing guys. so now me n my parents are going 'to talk' and discus it. i'll just say i clicked on the wrong thing and left. but my friend, Josh, was laughing about my parents reaction. He said my dad will walk out with a rocket launcher in one hand and a shot gun in the other. he wears a red head band and army clothes. and a shirt that says "I hate homos". with 6 knives in each boot... sadly if he knew... i think he would 0_o

whoa, i just realized i made 1065 meassages! THATS ALOT ...i don't mean to be so social either...lol

It's kinda sad...I feel so alone at times, i just want to run away and be forgotten, forget about all my worries and problems...But i know its just too good to happen, it just feels like my life is useless, no one cares if im gone tomorrow, I just want to be forgotten

=P i just found out I have ADHD! it means attention deficate hyperactive disorder. no worries, it just explains why i never pay attention, fidgit with things, have suddon bursts of energy, stay up all night, and maybe even the mood swings. maybe thats why my parents gave me those pills wen i was lil...wow lol

HELP!!!

my friend asked me out again, and yet she doesn't have a clue that I'm gay! and she had a crush on me for three years, so i didn't want to hurt her by saying no, but i know i'll hurt her in the long run, so yeah...back in the closet for me=( o well, maybe i'll find that someone soon.

I don't get it, people would reather give up hope n commit suicide, why? I guess some people can't see the optmistic side on things, well, except when people die. But really, they should cherish what they have, not what they want. I just wish people would realize that theres more to life than hoping that death will sweep them away someday. Friends are what really changes the world, I just hope people discover that thier friends are helping them. "I have no friends" you say? what about your family, theres always someone out there loving you, maybe you didn't find that person yet, but soon. So come on, go up to your friends and say thank you, they've been by your side all along, maybe they should say thanx to you too.