o wow.... ummm well then i get to go to water safari tomorrow.. how exciting! YAY lol! i like this guy on et.... 2 bad you cant find out who it is! o and this time its not brandin.. lol poor brandin.. i still luv ya hunni! lol fun fun thats all

i'm so confused!!!! I've liked this guy for a long time now... and im just not sure, hes a year younger than me and i pretend i like his brother so he dosnt think i could be interested in him! but heres he likes my best friend.. and she likes him! i was hanging out with them untilll 10 tonight and he was totally hitting on well both of us and i didnt know what to do! he asked me if i was a virgen i said yes and he didnt beleive me! i like him so much but i cant do anyhting about it! my friend said she would back off but i told her not to because they like eachother and hes a great guy and she deserves him, but shes got a b/f but things arnt working out between them! i really like this guy though! i hate this! i hate life why do i have to be me.. why all the confusion and pain?!?!?!?!?!?!?!? It hurts so bad.. and i wouldnt say im mad just upset i guess.. knowing that ive liked him for so long and it is so painful! i really dont know what to do! he is younger than me and everything but i dono i guess just knowing that ive liked him and hes liked my best friend i dono its like one of those things that you think only happen in movies.. but its not! well @ least i can be friends with him!
~ALLY~