i wanted you when we first met...you were standing in the corner watching everyone else talk and laugh. at first i was mad because that was my corner lol...but then i looked at you. that smile, those eyes and lips...then i saw something else, something that reminded me of myself. you're dark, but sensitive. on the outside you seem ok but inside you is a mess...maybe pain, confusion, hopelessness. maybe you're looking for a certain something in anyone who will give it to you...it could be love, for me it is. you need this thing, this emotion to not feel so worthless all the time. so you can try to make sense of all this....thats why i like you. i even told myself that it would be ok if you just threw me away, because then i could see if i was right.

-sigh- i miss him so much. i cant stand this distance. i want to feel him and embrace him. come back to me my love...