wow. long time since i wrote in here. a lot of shit has changed.

i still wanna die

and i still feel like crying

and i eventually did loosing the only person in life that could truly make a differnece in how i feel.

but in other news.. i have started talking to another guy. im pretty happy about it.

my life did like a freaking 180 or some shit like that. everything changed...

and brrr damn its cold in here.

well thats it for now.

much love

tiffy♥

The thing that scares me the most is loosing you...

Quickie:
Take a look in the mirror -- appreciate your beauty. No one else is like you.

Overview:
Slipping into Never-Never-Land is all too easy for you, but at this particular moment in time, you'll have the perfect company and a wonderfully appropriate reason to boldly go where you've never gone before. Oh, why not? Dream on.

Life is shitty and it sucks.

This is to a certain person and he knows who he is.

Hey babe,
Im sorry If my note this mornin was sucky, I thought it sounded okay but maybe not. I have become so close to you since we started talkin this summer. You are closer to me and I can tell you more things than I can girl Jessie. I dont care if we ever get pissed at each other because Im still gonna talk to you...you are so awsome and so much better then you think you are. I want you. I really do and if yo uwould have decided you liked me before Tim I would have jumped off a cliff to be with you. I care for you now and I always will....but Im just gonna have to do the exact same thing I did last time to get by this. Add a few scars to my collection, and be freinds. Push it all out of my mind...and its gonna be hard but I am gonna try to. Your wonderful and dont listen to britt...I think your a great kisser. I hope that we can still be freinds but its up to you. I wanna be. Dont take this the wrong way but love ya babe.

Tiffy

ps. if you ever wanna talk my number is 245-9714 and
if you ever need a hot passionate lover on the side Im your girl

Wow....I hate feelings...they are so f-ing confusin....I love Tim....but I still like meh blow pop v_v and Im stayin with tim but *he* asked me to find out if another girl likes him and if she does they might date....and as sucky as this is Im kinda jealous heh....grrr I can fight the feelings but its hard....but Im gonna do it cause I want him to be happy..

In other news my Tim is gone to kentucky from today until late sunday night and I havent talk to him since monday and wotn until he gets back....I thought I missed him then..well thats nothin compared to now...

He said it last night ^_^ heheh life is so great right now!!!! I cant wait until this weekend when I see him!!!!!!!!!!!!!

my sister came down and i got to see her yesterday and today..we had a good talk last night about why i cut and the feelings behind it. i met this guy at a party last weekend ^_^ he is awsome heheh i kinda hope we hook up ^_^ he has a girlfriend tho....

alrighty im to shy to say this to you but this is to a guy i recently dated...at school when i said i liked you i ment it...when a certain girl (she didnt only make out with her friends brother she did more) and you broke up she wanted me to break yall up and i wouldnt...and the reason she wanted to break up with you was a stuiped one and i told her that. in you diary thing (DIARYS SUCK!) you was talkin about one girl..i know how she is and i know you will always like her..i believe she likes you to but i dont know...somethin she said when i went to see her after that message yo usent me made me believe it even more. and i hope you and her get together cause yo uwould be perfect for her...and she would be the luckiest girl ever ^_^ heheh