Cristy....
You lied to me...
I took a blow today.
You said you loved me.
I was just a pawn
I was nothing
I mean nothing
Nothing...
I mean nothing to you.
I was just a pawn
Yours to manipulate
Kill me if you wish
You have taken your king
And I bow below you
Thinking I might've been next
To take a seat
Next to you
But, no
I'll never be taken.
I'm nothing new.
Same idea.
I wasn't special
You said you wanted me...
I've fallen into your cruel trap.
I took a blow today.
You said you loved me.
I was just a pawn
I was nothing
I mean nothing
Nothing...
I mean nothing to you.
I was just a pawn
Yours to manipulate
Kill me if you wish
You have taken your king
And I bow below you
Thinking I might've been next
To take a seat
Next to you
But, no
I'll never be taken.
I'm nothing new.
Same idea.
I'm getting so many messages it's hard to think strait.
I'm not going to insult you certain people who insist on forcing your stupidity on me. I forgive you.
But anyway.... I just now got this surge of inspiration and i wrote down what i could... it's about 1/100 of what my subconscious threw at me.. so here you go...
You used to be the only one for me…
The only one worthy of my expectations
Now…
I realized
It was just a mask
I still feel the same…
I can’t quit you.
Eyes of a fallen angel
Eyes that she left behind
Eyes through another window
We can’t look through…
I’m blind
Side-stepping the ways you go
Just to avoid your face
That crushing blow to my shadow
I lost my composure.
Isn’t that right?
Eyes of a fallen angel
Eyes that she left behind
Eyes through another window
We can’t look through…
I’m blind
I wasn’t the one to take it through first
It wasn’t my fault…
Like a life raft in the ocean
Will I ever find home?
Or just float on for the sake of life.
Eyes of a fallen angel
Eyes that she left behind
Eyes through another window
We can’t look through…
I’m blind
Eyes of a tragedy
You don’t know what I have wrought
The horrors in my “Soul”
You keep coming closer
But that’s just a mask
Isn’t it?
Eyes of a fallen angel
Eyes that she left behind
Eyes through another window
We can’t look through…
The window has frosted over
Covered in by the snow
Cold weather in here
It’s warm outside.
I’ve seen you naked
But I realize
That I’m just imagining again
No.
That can’t be.
Whisper in my ear.
Okay, I am really disgusted at you people.
I know I used to be like that, but I'm not like that anymore.
All you people who are all, "Nobody loves me!!".
I think there are more Important things in life to worry about whether or not your unimportant ideosyncrasies are functioning or not. I like to help people with their "problems", and I will continue to do it. But don't say you're not doing it for attentiong please. YOU KNOW YOU ARE. Get over it. I'm sure most of your problems are meaningless. However, those who can have an intelligent conversation involving their problems, and the problems of society may talk to me without hassle. But the emo people... GOD GET OVER IT! You are SO out for attention putting your name "gothic chick" or whatever the fuck it is.
Get over your little mind game that you think everyone hates you.
Ok, there seems to be a few people(you know who you are) who seem to like me. I'm sure you are good people and all, but I just can't handle a relationship over the internet. I mean, fun and games are ok, but if it gets too emotional, I may have to break it off. However there is one of you who may qualify(you know who you are).
an empty world foran empty heart filled to the brim with love
Can you forgive me again?
I don’t know what I’ve don…
But I didn’t mean to hurt you
I feel like I should die
For I have so much to cry for
So many times
I’ve cried myself to sleep
But then you
Put arms around me
Not frowning anymore
I’d give anything now
To hear those words I want
But somehow I always mess it up
You have no idea
Somehow I’ll show you
How happy you make me
I can’t do anything
Without you
Somehow you’ll see
How happy you make me
Can you forgive me again?
I never meant to hurt you
The tears flow from your eyes
Soaking what was once dry
You have no idea
Somehow I’ll show you
How happy you make me
I can’t do anything
Without you
Somehow you’ll see
How happy you make me
Breathe in and take my hand tonight
I’ll show you something
You’ve never seen
I’ll be anything for you
You have no idea
Somehow I’ll show you
How happy you make me
I can’t do anything
Without you
Somehow you’ll see
How happy you make me
Remember what you said
You’re all that’s here
And every moment I need more
I’ll take care of you
Your soft body
So sweet to the taste
You have no idea
Somehow I’ll show you
How happy you make me
I can’t do anything
Without you
Somehow you’ll see
How happy you make me
And once in a great while
I don’t think of your face
I just can’t
You make me feel so warm
You have no idea
Somehow I’ll show you
How happy you make me
I can’t do anything
Without you
Somehow you’ll see
How happy you make me
No one ever said they loved me
The sweet words I want to here from you
And I can’t sleep
I need to tell you
I love you
You have no idea
Somehow I’ll show you
How happy you make me
I can’t do anything
Without you
Somehow you’ll see
How happy you make me
When we spend time together
I feel perfect
When you walk away
I break apart
As I lay in the stillness of the dark
I whisper to you
I promise I wont ever let you down again
You know I’d die just to kiss you
Somehow you’ll know
Before I die
You have no idea
Somehow I’ll show you
How happy you make me
I can’t do anything
Without you
Somehow you’ll see
How happy you make me
You have no idea
Somehow I’ll show you
How happy you make me
I can’t do anything
Without you
Somehow you’ll see
How happy you make me
How happy you make me
How happy you make me
You make me feel so perfect
Perfect…
Perfect
That I cry