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655480  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2005-08-28
Written: (7026 days ago)

"If it hurts, it isn't love. True love isn't an emotion, a feeling, a thought, it's the essence of what you may call god, or conscience, or thought, or the soul itself. Love isn't subjective, or towards any person at all, although if you're in a week spiritual state you might feel love for only a few people. Many people think that a strong lust, desire, or obsession will equate to love, but it does not. This kind of "love" leaves room for jelousy, hate, sadness, depression, and self-destruction. True love towards a person is pretty much just a numb feeling, ultimate peace, understanding.... truth. Love is truth, love is understanding." -Al Evans, a RAVING IDIOT. 

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Written about Wednesday 2005-07-27
Written: (7058 days ago)

"The counsciousness that perceives each thing as existing separately is false. Actually, nothing exists in this way. When we set out to investigate things on this basis, the more deeply we look into objects and concepts, the more they dissolve. Generally, if we examine an object intensely, it becomres more and more defined and precise. But when the object does not actually exist, what we thought existed vanishes. A smooth talker may impress us at first with dazzling conversating that lacks any substance, and upon coldly analzing we may conclude that what they are saying may be the opposite of the truth. It is the same with the existence that we attribute to each thing. When we discover this, ignorance begins to disappear and the craving that we felt for other people and things loses its power." -The Dalai Llama

628322  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2005-07-21
Written: (7064 days ago)

Now, I have debated about the war in many forums, but none seem to have any usefull links. So I decided that I will add a few links here. I have a VERY strong opinion on the war, but I won't tell you what it is. Let's just say I support freedom and liberty. Some people may interpret that differently, as it has been thrown around to spice up some already deploreable speeches. *wink wink jab nod* Now, after you look at at least ONE picture link, and ONE information link, you are able to vote or post. Please do NOT post or vote anything until you have visited them. Thank you. Please people, whether you agree with the war or not, visit some of these.(Warning, if you can't handle large amounts of gore, do not visit most of these sites)
Picture links:http://www.robert-fisk.com/iraqwarvictims_mar2003.htm
http://www.thefourreasons.org/victimsofwar.htm

http://www.ogrish.com/archives/iraqi_war_victims_Mar_04_2005.html






Info links:
http://www.iraqbodycount.net/database/ (keep in mind this was more than two years ago, there are well over 100,000 civilian casualties now)
http://www.truthout.org/cgi-bin/artman/exec/view.cgi/37/10435


http://images.google.com/imgres?imgurl=http://www.tcrnews2.com/iraqwarcolllage1.jpg&imgrefurl=http://www.tcrnews2.com/Iraqiwar.html&h=322&w=400&sz=56&tbnid=rn0M9sB3ZcIJ:&tbnh=96&tbnw=120&hl=en&start=2&prev=/images%3Fq%3DIraqi%2BWar%2BVictims%26svnum%3D10%26hl%3Den%26lr%3D%26safe%3Doff%26sa%3DN



Note: I got all of these links from google search: Iraqi War Victims . I only picked links from the first page, and there are many hundreds more, so please, if you want to know more, just type that in.

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Written about Wednesday 2005-07-06
Written: (7080 days ago)
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So, people are constantly insulting me, so I think I'll just say that I'm all those things. 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611436  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2005-06-29
Written: (7086 days ago)
Next in thread: 611439, 611707, 611743, 613045, 615041, 624364

Damnit, Al, I'm really mad at you... @_@ I really shouldn't be affected by this stuff. I'm such a hypocrite. Here I am telling people to not be sad, to not get depressed, and then I go and make myself into a hypocrite. I big, fat hypocrite, I'm a walking contradiction of irrationality. This shouldn't make me sad, but it does. It hurts, it hurts ReallY bad, and I don't know why. Maybe I'm just releasing all the pain from when I was trying too hard to be happy. I don't know, I just don't know. It's no one's fault, I don't think, I... Why am I such a weak person? What did I do in my last manifestation of life to be such a bad person?

597083  Link to this entry 
Written about Monday 2005-06-13
Written: (7102 days ago)

Sorry I haven't written in so long.


One small nothing
But it’s all so much
My little illusion
My mental crutch
Been holding on so long
But I choose to let it go
To let it float away
To let absolution grow
Some spots are left
As well as the scars
How unoriginal, I thought
And how I’d come so far
To your notion that I’m real
The assumption that you are too
Just guided probability
On a plate just for you
A laceration of the mind
One unimportant thought
A tiny mistake
Can turn me into something
That I’m sure I was not
A cold heart left dwindling
And the mind will rot
A sliver of joy
Falls onto my face
A sudden realization
It’s nothing like fate
So random and new
A love so alive
But not only for her
But for you and I
For every feather
For every stone
For each and every object,
There deserves to be a throne
And we all are the perfect one
We’re all so innocent
We don’t know what we’re doing
And where we went
Wrong

571306  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2005-05-10
Written: (7137 days ago)
Next in thread: 572146, 572147, 611299

I've decided that what is normal is complete insanity.
There is no difference between "me" and "you".
We are the same thing! What the fuck?
how can I critisize all you when I am you?
Goddamnit!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHH
*dies*
I've been thinkin' too much.
If that's possible.......
New poem?

Fall along the accepted
The Entwined
Covered with acceptance
A lie
Parallelic pieces fall apart
Moving in together
To collide
Smash around assumptions
This goes on
And on
And on…
Nothing that hasn’t been done before
Nothing unique
A common experience simplified.
Sometimes when I walk
I hear a sound
Imaginations make this wicked world
Without creation
There is nothing to be created
Without thought
There is nothing
No time
Trudging on…
Come onto a revelation
I am my own imagination




571147  Link to this entry 
Written about Monday 2005-05-09
Written: (7137 days ago)

Hermit Crab.
Walking aimlessly
No choice, no path
Guided by the “democratic” hands
Lay’n before him

He has no idea where he’s going
Only the faith that the one controlling him will lead him
Down the path of salvation
He’s got a shell
Isolated, foolishly withholding himself from all who near him
No one can see his true self

He hides his weakness
The soft, insect like body from
All who may oppose him
He doesn’t even unravel himself to his friends, his mates
The only time he comes out of his hard protection
Is when he gets a new shell,
To conquer something new
That is the only risk he will take

He flaunts his large claw
In front of him, all around him
Those who dare impose, those who are curious
As to why he isolates himself are
Hopelessly cracked in half
By his gargantuan weapon

Paint on his shell,
Showing his pride
Why was it put there?
Carelessly laid down by a machine?
A child paid a quarter for an hour’s work?
A lazy painter?

He will not come out
No matter what, he will protect his soft insides
The sensitive organs that he doesn’t remember
You can pull, and prod
And he will never come out
You can pull his legs out
destroy him
Kill him, but he will not succumb
To whatever you may do to him
Whatever you may say
Nothing will make him change.






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