[alkabong8888]'s diary

691271  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2005-11-02
Written: (6960 days ago)

Don't question people.
it gets you nowhere. Either that, or worse off than when you began having troubles with them.People are too irrational and emotional to handle most complex thought patterns that have to do with more than themselves. Once in a while, a person comes along that breaks free from this mental prison, and here is from where stems many of the selfless people of time. It's nearly impossible to break from this, as even when we are giving, we are thinking about ourselves. Even if giving makes us happy, it's only because we think we're doing a good deed. True selflessness can only be attained by forfeiting even the happiness that giving can give, because then you give to expect nothing, and give everything.

687252  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2005-10-25
Written: (6968 days ago)
Next in thread: 687480

Broken as I am
By my own sense of insanity
A stable hand
On the absence of reality
A time and place
Not concerned with
Time and space
A rusty face ajar
Spewing old thoughts and emotions
Unjustifiable.
Jaded with a smile

Aware of what isn’t
We’re just as here as there
Which isn’t really anywhere
But somewhere which equates
To nowhere
It’s a gleam of curiosity
Impossible because what’s to come
Is already known
I killed myself
With my own mind
Which I’m not sure is mine
But it’s one of my kind
A sorrow for one so far gone
Who’s so close
That we are one

Unconscious of myself
Who or what or when
I’m not even aware
A minor pinch of dust
Why would I even care?
A weary plastic bag
Strained from all the heat
What’s nothing on it’s own
But an everlasting feat?
The clicking in my head
Reminds me that I’m here
A broken, rolling gear
Where gravity leads
And where everything escapes me
Where nothing is defined
By my own breathless awe at the expanse
Of what was to be my domain if I had not woken
From the everlasting dream
That never really existed
But something strong and clear
The mention of a name
The one thing hard to bear
Something dwells inside
The death of intellect
Inside a mind
The seals are cracked
And the valves are open and spewing
Nothing from nowhere
Into no time
For no reason
Who am I?

687197  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2005-10-25
Written: (6968 days ago)

I'm the emotion I might think I am at that moment in time, which is impossible since time isn't a moving stream, it is an object and a particle. I am nothing, but in emotional terms, I'm happy right now. Even though I feel islolated from what I desire, which really isn't important because my emotions are just controlled by chemicals and electricity. My thoughts and feelings are all controlled by matter, plain and simple matter. Which isn't true, because there's no such thing. Hmmmmmmm......

685940  Link to this entry 
Written about Saturday 2005-10-22
Written: (6971 days ago)
Next in thread: 686492

I let my opinions be known for the sake of a change. Do not take offense to them, for that is not what they are meant to be. Keep that in mind at all times while conversing with me.

678165  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2005-10-07
Written: (6986 days ago)
Next in thread: 678199, 679446
677860  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2005-10-07
Written: (6986 days ago)

"I'm the optimist wishing for death
I'm the Athiest living in God
I'm the pacifist living for destruction
I am the peace bringer, I am the end.
I am the black and the white.
I am what you love, and what you fear most.
You can never escape my grasp, but you live outside of me"

670987  Link to this entry 
Written about Saturday 2005-09-24
Written: (6999 days ago)

My word: wonderfuloustaticmolasticboofastic- of or pertaining to any thing happy, good, or otherwise positive in the miserable life of humanity ect. Esp. in life of Al Evans, a lonely little child in his own head.

655480  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2005-08-28
Written: (7026 days ago)

"If it hurts, it isn't love. True love isn't an emotion, a feeling, a thought, it's the essence of what you may call god, or conscience, or thought, or the soul itself. Love isn't subjective, or towards any person at all, although if you're in a week spiritual state you might feel love for only a few people. Many people think that a strong lust, desire, or obsession will equate to love, but it does not. This kind of "love" leaves room for jelousy, hate, sadness, depression, and self-destruction. True love towards a person is pretty much just a numb feeling, ultimate peace, understanding.... truth. Love is truth, love is understanding." -Al Evans, a RAVING IDIOT. 

633633  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2005-07-27
Written: (7058 days ago)

"The counsciousness that perceives each thing as existing separately is false. Actually, nothing exists in this way. When we set out to investigate things on this basis, the more deeply we look into objects and concepts, the more they dissolve. Generally, if we examine an object intensely, it becomres more and more defined and precise. But when the object does not actually exist, what we thought existed vanishes. A smooth talker may impress us at first with dazzling conversating that lacks any substance, and upon coldly analzing we may conclude that what they are saying may be the opposite of the truth. It is the same with the existence that we attribute to each thing. When we discover this, ignorance begins to disappear and the craving that we felt for other people and things loses its power." -The Dalai Llama

628322  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2005-07-21
Written: (7064 days ago)

Now, I have debated about the war in many forums, but none seem to have any usefull links. So I decided that I will add a few links here. I have a VERY strong opinion on the war, but I won't tell you what it is. Let's just say I support freedom and liberty. Some people may interpret that differently, as it has been thrown around to spice up some already deploreable speeches. *wink wink jab nod* Now, after you look at at least ONE picture link, and ONE information link, you are able to vote or post. Please do NOT post or vote anything until you have visited them. Thank you. Please people, whether you agree with the war or not, visit some of these.(Warning, if you can't handle large amounts of gore, do not visit most of these sites)
Picture links:http://www.robert-fisk.com/iraqwarvictims_mar2003.htm
http://www.thefourreasons.org/victimsofwar.htm

http://www.ogrish.com/archives/iraqi_war_victims_Mar_04_2005.html






Info links:
http://www.iraqbodycount.net/database/ (keep in mind this was more than two years ago, there are well over 100,000 civilian casualties now)
http://www.truthout.org/cgi-bin/artman/exec/view.cgi/37/10435


http://images.google.com/imgres?imgurl=http://www.tcrnews2.com/iraqwarcolllage1.jpg&imgrefurl=http://www.tcrnews2.com/Iraqiwar.html&h=322&w=400&sz=56&tbnid=rn0M9sB3ZcIJ:&tbnh=96&tbnw=120&hl=en&start=2&prev=/images%3Fq%3DIraqi%2BWar%2BVictims%26svnum%3D10%26hl%3Den%26lr%3D%26safe%3Doff%26sa%3DN



Note: I got all of these links from google search: Iraqi War Victims . I only picked links from the first page, and there are many hundreds more, so please, if you want to know more, just type that in.

616556  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2005-07-06
Written: (7079 days ago)
Next in thread: 616561, 616656, 617120, 618314, 618634, 619331, 630863

So, people are constantly insulting me, so I think I'll just say that I'm all those things. I am a hypocrite, an asshole, a fag, a loser, I should die, I'm a fuckhead, a fucktard, I'm stupid, I'm an idiot, I'm useless, I piss everyone off, I should die, Everyone should hate me, I can't do anyting, I should be shot, I'm mean, I am a hypocrite, an asshole, a fag, a loser, I should die, I'm a fuckhead, a fucktard, I'm stupid, I'm an idiot, I'm useless, I piss everyone off, I should die, Everyone should hate me, I can't do anyting, I should be shot, I'm mean, I am a hypocrite, an asshole, a fag, a loser, I should die, I'm a fuckhead, a fucktard, I'm stupid, I'm an idiot, I'm useless, I piss everyone off, I should die, Everyone should hate me, I can't do anyting, I should be shot, I'm mean, I am a hypocrite, an asshole, a fag, a loser, I should die, I'm a fuckhead, a fucktard, I'm stupid, I'm an idiot, I'm useless, I piss everyone off, I should die, Everyone should hate me, I can't do anyting, I should be shot, I'm mean, I am a hypocrite, an asshole, a fag, a loser, I should die, 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Written about Wednesday 2005-06-29
Written: (7086 days ago)
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Damnit, Al, I'm really mad at you... @_@ I really shouldn't be affected by this stuff. I'm such a hypocrite. Here I am telling people to not be sad, to not get depressed, and then I go and make myself into a hypocrite. I big, fat hypocrite, I'm a walking contradiction of irrationality. This shouldn't make me sad, but it does. It hurts, it hurts ReallY bad, and I don't know why. Maybe I'm just releasing all the pain from when I was trying too hard to be happy. I don't know, I just don't know. It's no one's fault, I don't think, I... Why am I such a weak person? What did I do in my last manifestation of life to be such a bad person?

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